Fenghua Zhengmao

After the bell for the end of get out of class, there was no one in the classroom. Lin Hua sat on the nearest seat panting heavily, her voice was weak and urgent, cold sweat trickled down her hair, and goose bumps appeared where it flowed.

Looking at the time, it was already time to go home from get off work. Lin Hua stood up, packed up her things and was ready to go home. The fever had already reached 38.5 in the morning. By the end of the day, I hope I didn’t reach 39.

When Lin Hua left the school gate, there was a pharmacy downstairs in the apartment across the road. When Lin Hua wobbled across the road and before she entered the store, she was stopped by someone from behind.

Lin Hua turned her head slowly and tried to concentrate for a long time before she recognized the person calling him in disbelief.

"Feng Lei?"

"What's wrong with you? You don't know how dangerous it is to cross the road just now?" Feng Lei got out of the car and walked over, the cold sweat still breaking out from his back. At the last second, he trembled onto the sidewalk in front of his car, thinking that he would die because his heart stopped for too long.

Lin Hua barely stood up normally, except for her pale face and a little blurred eyes, she didn't see anything unusual at all.

Seeing Fenglei walking over with a frown and a bad tone, Lin Hua no longer had the energy to feel the pain in his heart, he just straightened his back subconsciously, and smiled lightly.

"Why are you here? What a coincidence."

Feng Lei stopped in front of him, stared at him with cold eyes, and after a few seconds, his face suddenly darkened, and his eyes became fierce.

"Do you dare to make me sick?"

Lin Hua couldn't hold it anymore, he seemed to be lazily leaning against the lamppost beside him, the only energy he had was for instinctive conversations, but he didn't have the energy to think about the strangeness of that person's words and the obvious emotions .

"What's the matter with you? If there's nothing else, I'm leaving first."

Fenglei secretly told himself not to care about the patient, but he couldn't suppress the anger that was so distressed. Looking at the man who was about to pass out but was still holding on, his heart seemed to be rubbed hard by someone. It made him gasp, and in this way, his voice and tone became much lighter when he spoke. When he looked at him again, apart from the faint heartache between his brows, he had basically returned to normal.

"You are very sick, let me take you to the hospital."

Lin Hua froze the arm held by Fenglei, looked at him with deep frowns, pale face, wet black eyes, abnormally red lips, such a him, not only did not have any intimidating power, but became very irritating pity.

Feng Lei sighed, "We have been classmates for three years, can I still sell you?"

Lin Hua only listened to the word "classmate", raised her head to identify it carefully, and then connected him with the person she had a crush on for eight years.

He straightened up, and was dragged obediently into the car by him. He only remembered that he said another word, and then fell asleep in the comfortable car.

The car drove steadily like a city hospital, while Feng Lei was waiting for the red light, he reached out and touched his forehead.

"I don't want to die in a hospital."

This person's last sentence before falling asleep was such a childish sentence, but thinking of that incident, it was so logical that he had such a request.

Damn logical!

Fenglei snorted coldly, and his heart that was already on fire became even heavier. When he arrived at the hospital and carried someone into the emergency room, his face was so dark that the little nurse who saw such a strange and eye-catching picture had no thoughts at all. After getting the IV drip and adjusting the frequency of the drip, he left the ward. He was relieved for a long time, and then his heart was beating like thunder.

High fever 39.5

Feng Lei smoothed the broken hair on his forehead, his mind was as gloomy as the sky before the snow.

If he didn't happen to see it, this person must have bought some medicine at the pharmacy and went home. Looking back at the scene at that time, Feng Leiren would feel palpitations from fear.

Unable to sit still any longer, Fenglei closed the door carefully and walked quickly to the smoking area.

Allowing himself to waste time for a cigarette, he lit another one. Feng Lei leaned against the window, looking in the direction of the ward.

In the three years of high school, this person was ordinary to ordinary, but it was the kind of clean ordinary that made me pay attention to him involuntarily, and even deliberately alienated him after knowing my thoughts.

After waiting for three years, finally when the college entrance examination is over, he thought that he could explain his feelings to him, even if he was rejected and hated, he could go to college life without regrets, but he never imagined that just one day during the summer vacation One thing made it all come to naught.

During that time, Fenglei even hoped that he was disgusted by him after confessing his confession, and he didn't want to be hated by him without doing anything, and hated him deeply.

I have never been in such a dark time, and I feel that my whole body is terribly dirty, as if it is full of sins, but when I think about the pain and sorrow of that person, I feel that the imaginary sins are confirmed, one by one, until I am crushed to death.

Since when did you fall in love to this extent?

Was it because he was ranked behind him in that physical examination that made him cautious, or was it because he passed by countless times, or was it the first day of school, that man stood cleanly and calmly in front of the podium, and then his voice was clear and gentle Introduction, "Hi everyone, I'm Linhua, Lin is temporary Lin, Hua is the character with a word of elegance next to it, that Hua."

It is not the birch of the birch tree, but a graceful flower next to the wooden characters.

That day, Mao Zedong's poems were just like a classmate's youth, in the prime of his life.

The word "Fenghua" was like flowing into the blood, making his heart boil instantly. Maybe at that moment, the clean eyes that the person looked over unintentionally ignited the flame in his heart called "Like", Quiet but intense burning, long-lasting.

During the three years of high school, Fenglei understood his feelings for him, from panic, avoidance, to acceptance, acceptance, joy, and even planning how to confess his love, planning what he would accept and what not to accept.

At that time, he thought that this kind of relationship and how to be together were the most difficult things in the world. Now, he can spend ten or twenty years of his life, just to make their relationship return to the simplicity of that time, and let him You can confess and pursue it frankly, instead of being complicated, scary, and not even having the chance to pursue it like it is now.

Reality is always cruelly hurting him, time and time again.

Fenglei faced the glass on the window, that illusory figure, obviously wearing the skin of 24 years old, but his heart was already old.

When Lin Hua woke up, looking at the pale ceiling above her head, her heart tightened.

"Linhua, I'm here." Seeing his appearance, Fenglei immediately understood what he was thinking of, for that matter, apart from guilt, he was more distressed.

The deep and gentle voice was not far away from her ear, Lin Hua turned her head and saw the man's calm smile, the fear in her heart was inexplicably relaxed a lot, and her already relaxed brain began to function normally.

"Feng Lei?"

With a hoarse voice, Lin Hua's heart beat faster.

Fenglei looked at him silently for a while, and seeing that his face was getting better, he smiled in relief, "It's rare that you still remember me."

Lin Hua was a little dazed, and suddenly remembered the chance meeting on the road, and only then realized the meaning of his words.

"At that time, I was so tired that I was about to collapse. I only recovered when I heard you say the word 'classmate'."

Such an answer made Feng Lei feel a little lost, but it only lasted a second.

"How is it? Do you feel better?" Feng Lei said, reaching out to touch his forehead, "The temperature has gone down, but we still need to take medicine on time."

"Take medicine?" If the fever reaches this level, shouldn't the infusion be continued?

"Yeah." Feng Lei got up and took the medicine beside the bed, "I know you don't want to come again, so I discussed with the doctor about the medicine prescribed for you, although taking it on time will make your recovery slower, but it's much better than your situation today. "

Lin Hua understood the meaning of his words, and suddenly realized how much the warm and cool touch on his forehead had caused his calm thoughts to ripple. In order to prevent this weird emotion from rising again, Lin Hua sat up by herself and looked at the Looking at his watch, his voice and expression were mixed with coldness.

"Now, can I get out of here?"

The road in the early morning is very quiet.

"Thank you today." Lin Hua looked at the road outside the windshield, her face was still cold, but her tone was much gentler.

Fenglei glanced at him while looking at the rearview mirror on the right, his expression didn't change much, but his tone changed from the closeness of friends to the warmness among classmates.

"It's nothing. I haven't seen my old classmate for a long time. I didn't talk to you at the last party."

Lin Hua was sensitive to such a change, and glanced sideways at him, not knowing whether it was disappointment or relief, and said coldly, "Talking too much with you, a school girl, will be attacked by all the girls in the school."

Feng Lei looked at him sideways, "You also know about that?"

"Why don't you know!" Lin Hua didn't move, she turned her head and looked at him, "Because of flirting with the school girl, she was blocked by girls in the women's bathroom after school and threatened. I've heard a lot of news like this! Week."

Fenglei smiled lightly, seeing that the intersection in front of him turned into a red light, he stopped the car slowly, turned his head to look at him, and then spoke in a gentle and long voice, "I think, if it were you now, those girls are obsessed with you It won't be me."

Lin Hua stared at the pair of eyes that seemed to be telling temptation, her body suddenly leaned towards him, and then barely stopped when she was only two fists away from the man, her voice was particularly low and intoxicating in this leisurely summer night .

"It's you."

There is no time frame.

Lin Hua stepped back and continued to lean on the back of the chair, staring at the dark night sky in the distance.

Fenglei started the car silently, but those two words with special meaning were still echoing in his ears.

It's you.

Is it a replay of the joke at the last party, or a reply to his assumption just now, if it is the former, then does he only think that he is joking, or he understands something but chooses to escape, if it is the latter, then this serious attitude What does it mean?

Steering the steering wheel calmly, turning his head slightly when looking at the rearview mirror on the left, by the way, to hide the smile on his lips.

This is the man he loves.

When they arrived at the apartment building, Linhua nodded at Fenglei and got out of the car, and Fenglei also got out of the car, leaning on the car and looking at him.

"Would you like to sit up?" Linhua walked a few steps, then turned back, tilted her head and gestured to the apartment behind her, there was no sunshine, because with him, life seemed so clear.

Fenglei looked at him silently for a few seconds, and finally shook his head slowly.

"It's gone today, I already know the way, and I'll find you for dinner next time."

Lin Hua shrugged, turned around and walked towards the corridor, before entering the door, she waved her hand to him without looking back.

Fenglei laughed silently.

Yes, that's it, don't rush, take your time, since you love so deeply, why do you give up or keep silent, and don't try to pursue, even if it's atonement or selfishness, it's better than doing nothing, only hopeless Shou.

"Lin Hua!" A second before the figure disappeared, Feng Lei stopped him, Lin Hua paused, and looked at him sideways.

"Pay attention to your body and don't worry people."

Lin Hua entered the corridor with a blank expression, until she got home and looked down from the window of the apartment, and saw that the man got into the car neatly and turned around to leave, she didn't show any expression.

"Wow——" closed the curtains, Lin Hua slowly slid down to the floor, raised her head against the painted blue wall, closed her eyes, leaving only the scarlet eyes on her fair face due to the thick eyelashes. A beautiful arc formed.

But after a while, the two arcs began to tremble slightly, and then suddenly opened.

Worrying?

As early as the summer vacation after the college entrance examination, he became an orphan. The whole school knew about it. What did he mean by Feng Lei's words?

Lin Hua lowered his head, the broken hair on his forehead covered his glasses, and he could only see a pleasant arc slowly drawn from his rosy lips.

At sunrise in summer, at nearly five o'clock in the morning, the vast light is projected onto the floor through the thin curtains.Lin Hua was clearly in a dark corner, but somehow, even that place was lit up.

In the dim cinema, there is only the flickering light on the big screen. It is a very unknown little movie with a mediocre story and simple shooting.Lin Hua sat in the very center of this small theater, with her left leg resting on her right leg, her upper body leaning against the back of the chair, looking straight ahead with no expression on her face.

How long has it been like this?

Choose a boring movie, with an empty auditorium, only yourself and the sound of the movie filling your ears.

This kind of environment is just right, there is no disturbance from others, and no one will be stared at because of sitting still, and this kind of inferior movie will not attract his attention. The dim environment makes him feel at ease and casual. At this time, he can Relax and think about things that bother him, or things that he usually doesn't want to touch.

Lin Hua closed his eyes, and the chaotic picture flashed by before him, he opened it hastily, his breathing was a little messy.

During the summer vacation after the college entrance examination, my father died in a car accident.The other party lost a lot of money. In fact, according to the general traffic accidents, they don't need to pay that much, but the other party insisted on paying a large sum of money, but they didn't really show up from the beginning to the end.

On the fifth day after the funeral, the university acceptance letter was sent home. For some reason, he packed his things early, took the money, and came to this city.

He has always been a quiet and ordinary person. From childhood to adulthood, the only thing that stood out was probably his fanciful thoughts about wind and thunder. This unexpected suddenness caught him off guard who had never endured such a big setback. During the whole process, he They were all spent in a state of bewilderment and dullness, and it was on the day when the freshmen reported that they truly understood the fact that their father would never come back again.

He lined up alone with his things, surrounded by parents who took the time to tell him. At that moment, he suddenly found that the faint sense of security that had been lingering around him disappeared and was replaced by belated sadness and loneliness. The terrifying emotion came so suddenly and turbulently that he couldn't breathe, his throat was so tight that he was almost retching, and there were bursts of white dizziness before his eyes, and finally, he fainted to the ground.

For a long time since then, he has been clearly reproducing the images of that time in his mind, reproducing his sluggishness at that time, the shock when he heard the news, the distraught when he went to the police station to deal with the matter, and the funeral The paleness and emptiness at the time, and the resentment trembling at the sight of the perpetrator.

Thinking of this, Lin Hua suddenly frowned irritably, lowered her legs and bent over with her head lowered, covering her face with her hands to cover his expression.

He had seen that person twice.

The first time, in the luxurious business car, through the black glass, the side face of the man was full of fortitude and indifference after time; He said something to the policeman, then waved his hand and turned to leave.

Those two times, he thought he would remember them forever, but now that he thinks about them, his appearance is blurred.

The movie proceeds quietly, the protagonist silently rides the dilapidated bicycle, staggering towards the distance, the gray sky seems to be pressed down, and the dark clouds are painted into strange totems, proclaiming the complicated heart Depressed emotions, in an empty space, the not-thin figure is inexplicably lonely and desolate, just like that, there is only a black spot left silently, an ethereal black spot.

Lin Hua took a deep breath, trying her best to ignore the scenes that were clamoring wildly in her mind, looking at the large expanse of gray on the curtain, her eyes became much more gloomy.

It may be too painful, my brain subconsciously chose to escape, not to escape from the facts, but to escape from the sorrow, skip the pain, skip the loss, and go directly to the life below.

Just like that, other emotions also began to distort.Slowly he found that happy things didn't seem to be worth being happy, and angry things were not so intolerable. Similarly, sadness became bearable. Then, he became calm, indifferent, and even indifferent.

Until, that phone call.

Lin Hua put his right hand lightly on his heart, his beautiful lips were suddenly pursed tightly, and the atmosphere of anger became more and more intense. Just a second before the rupture, he suddenly smiled with relief. The stretched body was lazily spread out in the seat, and the eyes looking at the curtain were black and bright, exuding joyful tenderness.

The heart has been beating, but it hasn’t been beating so fast for a long time; the skin has been warm, but it’s been a long time since my cheeks felt hot; the corners of my mouth have been slightly hooked, but it’s been a long time since the corners of my eyes have been raised; that real feeling The fluctuating emotions after seeing him made him feel apprehensive while rejoicing that he was still affectionate, but he didn't want to deny it.

After what happened to his father, he once refused to recall or even talk about the days before that, but on the day he received the phone call, he thought about it, involuntarily, with the mood of his youth, and admitted that because of him, the closed The dark years in Chen's memory revealed a light that made him happy.

Lin Hua remained silent, closing her eyes, but frowning loosely.He propped his forehead with his left hand, and lightly tapped his thin knee with his right hand. He was analyzing and judging. Then, he had to make a decision, a decision that might affect his life.

In the past few years without sensibility, he is more used to thinking and dealing with things rationally.

only--

The fingertips tapping the shampoo began to tremble slightly, and gradually even the body trembled faintly.

It's just that, even though he analyzed it in such an orderly manner, and he was so objectively selfless, why did he still feel so excited when he made a decision?

Clenching his fists violently, Lin Hua opened his eyes and looked at the curtain. The bright and dark lights made his eyes twinkle. With this hand in his hand, he narrowed his eyes leisurely.