Xiu Erdai's daily essays

3771_Reluctance

Wen Chengzhui: "Even if you cut your throat successfully, even if your meridians are destroyed, even if your soul is broken, as long as Elder Pei Ji is around, you can be resurrected."

Me: "After the soul is broken, it may be impossible to resurrect."

Wen Chengcone: "There are examples."

Me: "But it needs to pay a huge price, it's almost a break of the god transformation period."

Wen Chengzhui: "You are reluctant."

Me: "Yes, I can't bear it. I may be flippant about my own life and death, but I absolutely can't bear to use the same attitude on the people I value. They are more important than myself, and they are the reason I love this world The reason. If it weren’t for them, I, who have been tired of living all my life, wouldn’t love life just because I live it again with a different identity.”

Wen Chengzhui: "But you were a mortal in your previous life, and your living environment was completely different from that of a monk, so the grudges from your previous life will not be carried over to this life."

Me: "You even know this?"

Wen Chengzhui: "I also know that fellow Taoist Xie Qinwei of your Yunxia Sect also has memories of his previous life, and the world he lived in in his previous life is the same as yours."

Me: "How do casual cultivators generally inquire about information? I know that there are many professional intelligence agencies and individuals. No matter what information, as long as they are paid enough, someone will definitely provide it. Even the fatal weakness of Elder Kunlun is sold. .But the key is that all this information has to be bought.”

Me: "There are many places where you need to spend money on casual cultivation. Even if you want to buy information, it should be very targeted? You won't buy small news that can't bring you benefits?"

3772_ I finally understand myself

Wen Chengzhui: "Do you know what proportion of casual practitioners account for the readers of Bao Inquiring?"

Me: "Packing information does not exist as intelligence. Even if it does contain intelligence, its readers buy those reports mainly for fun. That is entertainment spending, which is different from serious intelligence transactions."

Me: "In addition, the price of regular reports by Baotou is not high, and the price of the special issue may be unaffordable to many people, but the special issue actually does not contain serious information. They are more related to offending people. Those who buy the special issue must read It's fun to ask questions."

Wen Chengzhui: "Bao Wenting has always wanted to publish a special issue for you, ever since you were sure that Elder Jiang Lin was pregnant."

Me: "They can keep thinking, but it's better not to take the risk."

Wen Chengzhui: "Stick your heart and liver for many years, and one day you will lose control of yourself. Fight it out, if you don't succeed, you will be benevolent."

Me: "Did you succeed?"

Wen Chengzhu: "To live is the greatest success."

Me: "Congratulations."

Wen Chengzhui: "Do you really understand my mental journey?"

Me: "What I understand is what I just said, but the focus is not on 'your mental journey', but on 'my understanding'. More precisely, I finally understand myself by understanding you... …a part of."

Me: "Numb and tired in an overly comfortable life, so I seek excitement, that's me. I applied my own psychology to you, and then found that it can explain your unconventional choices, so I understand you that way gone."

Me: "Maybe my understanding is wrong, or even if I am right, there are distortions, but that is not important. What is important to me is that I have clarified my thoughts more. But in fact, it doesn't make much sense to clarify, because I already know this kind of thinking exists in my heart, I have known it from my previous life."

Me: "I want to change one kind of life after a long time. Such a simple and unusual idea, why do I have to spend time to dissect and analyze it repeatedly? One time is not enough, and a lifetime is not enough. To the younger generation who are willing to listen to me Analyzing myself, analyzing myself to seniors who are willing to listen to me, and analyzing myself to seniors who are close to me..."

Me: "This mental state must be very important to me, so that I need to figure it out repeatedly, in the process of trying to figure out the similarity of the subject and the change of details over and over again, to understand myself better little by little."

3773_Don’t do things too reluctantly for the sake of self-esteem

Me: "Do I know myself well enough now? It's still far away, so I will definitely continue to ponder the same problem in the future, until one day I get tired of this problem, so tired that I can't think about it, that is it It was no longer my problem. At that time, my understanding of my Tao took a big step forward."

Me: "Hey, I am a fellow Taoist who owes my life-saving grace, can't you be more patient and listen to me? What do you mean by disappearing in a hurry?"

Wen Chengzhui: "You only want me to listen to you to ask for the debt of saving your life?"

Me: "It may hurt your self-esteem, but I can't ask you for a big event... At a critical moment, my first reaction must be to ask for help from my blood relatives, and then the elders of Yunxiazong. If these are not enough, I'll turn to Mahayana to try my luck. The Jindan stage of the outer sect? Let's just have a chat."

Wen Chengzhui: "What if I help you a lot?"

Me: "I would be very shocked."

Wen Chengzhu let out an 'oh' with a drawn-out tone.

I tried to persuade: "Fellow Daoist, don't do things too reluctantly for the sake of self-esteem. There are too many examples of losing face to save face. We don't have to hold on because we can't do it and want to prove that we can do it."

Wen Chengzhui: "Tell me, is there a pun in the 'no' in your sentence?"

Me: "You can listen to it as a joke, so it doesn't matter. The important thing is, don't force yourself. You have to accept the fact that what you can do with your life is for the elders who I can easily ask for help." , there is a high probability that it is just a small joke that can be solved easily."

Me: "So, if you risk your life or pay a heavy price in order to repay the favor as soon as possible, I will be very troubled. Anything related to me that is done that is not necessary will bother me. I will feel that you are It's stupid to die in vain, but you died for me, so I don't want to despise you. Under the conflict of two emotions, I think you are taking revenge."

Wen Chengzhui: "Whether I repay my kindness or not has no effect on you. You do not lack my return, but it has a great influence on me. Whether I repay my kindness, how to repay my kindness, and to what extent will my future be repaid. big impact."

Me: "You should digest these effects yourself, and digest them without disturbing me."

Wen Chengzhui: "It's so indifferent."

3774_disappeared

Me: "Yes. In interpersonal relationships, I regard myself as the first priority. Whether you mean it well or not, as long as you have a negative impact on my mood, I will be hostile to you."

Me: "Therefore, don't sacrifice for self-satisfaction, that's not great, I don't accept that kind of stupid repayment, it's not a kind of repayment at all, it's just your own will, it has nothing to do with me. If you really have an accident because of that stupid reason, I will not give any more emotional feedback than a courtesy expression of regret."

Wen Chengzhui: "What if I brought you great benefits very easily?"

Me: "Praise you?"

Wen Chengzhu: "Moved?"

Me: "Crying bitterly? No, I would rather share the spoils with you. I hope that in addition to repaying my kindness, you will also get the same amount of benefits for yourself as you gave me. Only then can you prove that you are easy." .”

Wen Chengzhui: "The kindness that does not expect to be reciprocated?"

Me: "Believe it or not, I've never been interested in helping others. What I'm interested in is the immediate benefit I get from the act of appearing to help. In fact, in my evaluation, when I help, I already I have reaped enough benefits at the same time, and I don't care whether the recipient repays me later, because in my definition, I have already settled with that person in the first place."

Me: "In order to get something, I gave my helping actions; when I gave helping actions, I already got what I wanted. It was a fair deal, and there was never any kindness or repayment."

Me: "You define it as a kindness, and then do everything possible to repay the kindness, that's your business. I can accept an extra income, but expect me to cooperate with your repayment action for this income. I'm sorry, I'm not free, unless The content of your gratitude can make me interested, but my cooperation at that time is another equivalent transaction."

Me: "'Cooperation' is also a contribution, I will not give it in vain."

Wen Chengzhui disappeared completely, with a smile all over his face before he disappeared. I don't know if he got angry because of my rude words, and planned to beat someone before repaying his kindness?

After entering the Tangyuan Secret Realm, part of my external communication has been open and waiting to be connected at any time, including the special reception channel for the chaos information in the mission office, and the live broadcast of Huashenjie.The information on the Great Smash Fight was received intermittently, and by the way, the condolences from the mission office and the live broadcast of the progress of the God Transformation Tribulation were received, but the live broadcast of Bao inquired was always black.

It's a pity that I can only receive the information from the mission office in one direction, otherwise I would really like to talk to Senior Brother Wu Chen about the limitations of the bag inquiring technology, and how the Yunxiazong mission office maintains the stability of the message channel.

I have only successfully contacted Elder Huigu one-on-one. Although it is possible that Elder Huigu blocked me later, I have also failed to contact Zou Huan, Ren Yongming and other fellow daoists. Only the mission office... hey , No, I also failed to actively contact the mission department, I can only wait for the mission department to contact me, and I can only receive messages one-way if they contact me successfully, and cannot give feedback.

For this reason, the mission office also sent questions:

"Second Young Master, have you received the message? Can you reply? Elder Huigu said that you can receive it, and some messages also show that the message was sent successfully and was not returned, but there is no sense of confirmation."

"Forget it, we will continue to send regardless of whether we receive it or not, and keep a backup while sending it in case of failure."

"Second Young Master, you don't have to worry about Senior Yu and Elder Yue. Judging from the content of the other elders' chats, the God Transformation Tribulation of the two seniors has been going well so far."

"That's right, the elders are still chatting, which means that the situation is under control, and the second son can play with peace of mind. By the way, if there is a chance, give us some feedback. We have been talking to ourselves, and we are a little null."

I'd love to give you feedback, really, just give me the chance.