Xiu Erdai's daily essays

3767_ signs or calls

Wen Chengzhui: "Playing a psychological confrontation with a professional liar is a huge challenge. Maybe, Yu Qiao lost; maybe, he just needs your understanding; maybe, Zhu Jiaopei left safely because she reached an agreement with Yu Qiao. Some kind of deal, a deal for you."

Wen Chengzhui: "'Double debt repayment', if Zhu Jiaopei can save your life, there will be no debts, right?"

Me: "Is it better to cooperate with Yu Qiao than to be in debt? Tong Shen's appearance..."

Wen Chengzhui: "Tong Shen's injustice shows that some people may think that it would be better to cooperate with Yu Qiao? Yu Qiao has a lot of behaviors that step on the line, and the imitation embroidery disciples are the same, so in theory, there is a possibility of cooperation between the two. "

Me: "It's not bad to be able to cooperate, maybe I can see part of the specific content of the inheritance of the remote setting secret realm, although that content, considering that I haven't seen it in the information within the scope of authority, and Yu Qiao is not high-level right now. I am a high-level, and the information related to him should not be completely leapfrog information to me, so the content of these materials may be a bit dangerous, the danger of ghost cultivators."

Me: "Danger does not exist in grades, but in essential attributes."

Wen Chengzhu: "It's my turn to disappear."

Me: "Have you noticed any signs of leaving? There should be signs? That's why Zhu Jiaopei was so calm when he left."

Wen Chengzhui: "It's not so much that I sensed the signs, but rather that I called out the energy that made me disappear."

Me: "What kind of energy?"

Wen Chengzhui asked instead: "Do you believe that I will repay my favor?"

Me: "Anyone can repay kindness and revenge, as long as there are sufficient interests."

Wen Chengzhui: "If there are sufficient interests, do you believe that Jiang Weixiao will betray you?"

3768_Everyone is stupid sometimes

Me: "Your way of asking will make me feel that you are competing with our elder brother to be jealous and competing for the high position in my heart."

Wen Chengzhui: "Is it necessary to have a dispute? Your words have already revealed the status of me and him in your heart. 'Your family' big brother."

Me: "I still want to emphasize that, after all, there are many masters in the cultivation world, and Jiang Weixiao only belongs to the Yunxia Sect."

Wen Chengzhui: "If I say that I will not betray you, no matter what temptations I face, will you believe me?"

Me: "I'll say thank you."

Wen Chengzhui: "What if Jiang Weixiao told you that?"

Me: "I will feel that big brother is playing tricks on me again."

Wen Chengzhui: "But you actually believe it, you also believe him and you know you believe it, but you don't think he needs to say it, and you think he doesn't think it's necessary to say it either."

Me: "Why did you enter the Gu pool?"

Wen Chengzhu: "Do you really want to know?"

Me: "I just feel that your question now has something in common with your mood when you decided to raise the Gu pool, and I also think you know that it is because of this association that I inquire about your reason for raising the Gu pool again. Of course , I still say, you don’t have to say it, but maybe you should say it to some people.”

Wen Chengzhui: "Everyone is stupid sometimes."

Me: "But not everyone can play the death game."

Wen Chengzhui: "Have you ever wanted to hurt someone? It's not because the other party did something wrong that you wanted to hurt him because you were angry, but because he appeared in front of you when you were about to hurt someone. And so he happened to be, or very badly, the target of your desire to hurt someone."

Wen Chengzhui: "Or the other way around, do you ever want to hurt yourself? It's not because you feel pain and depression and need to vent, but you just want to perform the action of 'injury' to yourself; you don't prepare, expect, or even think about it." By gaining benefits from the actions of 'injury', it is so purposeless that the desire to hurt cannot be suppressed."

Wen Chengzhui: "There is no reason, no incentive, or I haven't found the incentive, I just want to hurt. Hurt others, hurt yourself, no matter what, as long as you can practice 'harm'. Even if you know that you will regret it, but I just can’t suppress that craving.”

Wen Chengzhui: "It's like a demon in your heart, or in other words, it's a demon in your heart."

Me: "When I practice swords, I often have the urge to cut myself."

3769_Masochistic Tendency

Wen Chengzhu: "Fortunately, it wasn't implemented?"

Me: "It may not be considered lucky, because even if it is cut off, there will be no sequelae. At most, it will be regarded as a fool by others."

Me: "The reason why I entered the Gu raising pool was because I thought of such a place and felt that I seemed to be able to use the training environment there, so I went. After I got outside the Gu raising pool, I began to hesitate, thinking that I shouldn't be so Entering such a dangerous place recklessly, and relying on my own life-saving bottom line, I feel that I am not very reckless."

Me: "I struggled repeatedly until I suddenly felt that it doesn't matter anymore, just go in and go in, it's no big deal."

Me: "And then I went in."

Me: "Then I realized that it really wasn't a big deal."

Wen Chengzhui: "You've left enough room for yourself, but I haven't."

Me: "Does it mean that your self-abuse tendency is more serious than mine? Don't be afraid, you can take the path of self-abuse, starting with using yourself as a body sculpture?"

Wen Chengzhui: "I have passed that stage, and what I can't control now is hurting someone I value. The more I say to myself 'I can never hurt this person', the more I want to hurt him, hurt him badly."

Me: "What you are worried about is Ren Yongming?"

Wen Chengzhui: "Sorry."

Me: "No need to apologize, you chose to use me as an excuse to avoid Fellow Daoist Ren, which shows that you trust my ability to bear and protect myself, I feel honored."

Wen Chengzhui: "Maybe it's not out of trust, but because I don't care about hurting you."

Me: "Then you won't choose to come with me. The more important you are, the more you want to hurt, the more you want to hurt, the more you want to avoid, the more you want to avoid, the more you want to get closer. The people you want to hurt are the people you value. The position in your heart is only slightly worse than that of Fellow Daoist Ren in your heart, so I can pry you away from Fellow Daoist Ren."

Me: "In addition, although they are at the same level of importance, my direction of importance is completely different from Daoyou Ren. You are a 'love' to you, and I am a 'responsibility' to you."

Me: "You tell yourself that you must repay me. This is the source of your psychological pressure and the reason for your desire to hurt me."

Me: "Ren Daoyou has aroused your irrational feelings. Even if you rationally want to alienate him, you will get close to him because of emotional love. You don't want to hurt him, so your reason requires you to stay away from him, but your Feelings make you get closer to him against your reason. This kind of contradiction also causes your psychological pressure and makes you have more desire to hurt Daoyou Ren."

3770_ still not quite right

Wen Chengzhui: "...you understand it very well."

Me: "My theoretical knowledge in all aspects is not bad, including Xiao Huangwen."

Wen Chengcone: "..."

Me: "I don't want to compare your mental state to Xiaohuangwen, but I see this kind of abuse and self-abuse in Xiaohuangwen the most. A heavy way."

Me: "Your Tao is not heavy, so it is better to compare it to the light and light little Huangwen."

Wen Chengzhui: "So you still have an impression of my Tao..."

Me: "Yes, I know you don't practice the way of self-abuse and human abuse. At least the main part of your way doesn't include hurting people and being hurt."

Me: "Your Tao is positive in the conventional sense, bright and bright, but it's just going so 'positively' all the time, and occasionally you get tired of it, and you need to reverse things. Unfortunately, your need for freshness You have collided with the inner demon tribulation, or it should be said that you have never had a violent inner demon tribulation before, and while you need the reverse stimulation, you also need an attempt to stimulate the intense inner demon tribulation."

Me: "The Heart Demon Tribulation has satisfied you, it has expanded, and it has expanded with the dark side that you only wanted to try out, and then seriously lost control. Fortunately, it finally returned to normal, and you still need to determine whether you are really out of control. Had the need for darkness, had re-embraced with joy the pure light."

Me: "Are you doubting yourself, are you still doubting?"

Wen Chengzhui laughed: "I still don't think it's right."

Me: "It must be impossible to be completely right. Only you can fully understand your way and your inner demons. What I'm talking about is actually my own psychological problems."

Me: "My way of venting my desire to hurt at this stage is to offend people, poke people's sore spots, say unpleasant or inappropriate words, stiffen the atmosphere, and turn myself into a hater."

Wen Chengzhui: "You are bound to fail, as long as you have this face."

Me: "I disfigured with a dummy."

Wen Chengzhui: "You are calling it a dummy. Why don't you use a knife on your real face? Anyway, it can be cured without sequelae, much safer than me entering a Gu pool."

Me: "Because hurting others and myself is not a part of my Tao. I just want to try new things and don't want to lose control. Besides, I'm really not interested in hurting myself. You know that I carry the memories of my previous life since I was born?"

Wen Chengzhu nodded.

Me: "My death in my previous life was done by myself. It was not a complete suicide, but I already had a world-weary self-abandonment. My self-injury has already killed myself once, and it is considered to have reached a peak, so I am right in this life. Ordinary self-injury isn't motivating."

Me: "If it doesn't kill you, it's pain at most. Sword cultivator still cares about that? In terms of body abuse, the daily training of sword cultivator and being punished for making mistakes is enough. I don't think there is any need for more. Slash yourself twice It’s not worth mentioning, it’s not worth trying.”

Wen Chengzhui: "You are safe. If you only try the danger with a playful or curious attitude, then you will not encounter real danger. As a Jindan stage, you have the bottom line protection of the transformation stage, let alone You are just testing a little bit, even if you insist on committing suicide, as long as your father does not agree, you will not die."