Xiu Erdai's daily essays

2268_problem

Pei Bing: "This is the new Tongming fruit that my master and I, mainly the master, refined. They are those Tongming fruits that were refined with the help of the passages left by tung trees and Kunlun Xinge and the elders in the fortune-teller competition. You probably I already know that their energy is higher and more important than ordinary Tongmingguo, oh no, by the way, they are very delicious. My owner and I named them 'Delicious Tongmingguo', or 'Delicious Tongmingguo'. Can."

Pei Bing: "Of course you won't appreciate their energy value, but you might as well try their taste, it's really, really good. It may not necessarily rank among the best among the delicacies you have tasted, but at least it should be above average."

Pei Bing still knows how to speak modest words, but he is usually so arrogant to me—because Pei Bing dare not even speak in his head in front of Elder Pei, I can unilaterally bully him verbally, and he doesn't even dare to say "you wait I dare not answer me with three words in my mind.

Elder Pei nodded slightly to Pei Bing, agreeing to accept the confession.

So here comes the problem: Since Elder Pei didn't take the initiative to take this delicious Tongming fruit from Pei Bing's hands, Pei Bing needs to put it in Elder Pei's hands, or at least put it within Elder Pei's arm , instead of placing it by the door, that would be too impolite.

Pei Bing: "..."

Elder Pei looked at Pei Bing patiently—obviously, he deliberately didn't take away the Tongming fruit himself, but was trying to force Pei Bing to approach him.

Sure enough, it is my own father, knowing that I am training Pei Bing, he will give me a helping hand - of course Elder Pei knows about the conversation between Pei Bing and I on Pei Feng, because when I talk about Pei Bing's caution with Pei Bing, it is It is directly spoken, not communicated in the brain.

Yes, I did it on purpose.

But actually, it's not that hard.Because if Pei Bing refuses to compromise, then he can still throw Tongmingguo to the ground and escape back to me by himself.Although it is indeed impolite, but I have been rude to my father a lot, and one of my spirit treasures is in line with my style, so my father will not take it to heart.

Pei Bing hesitated for a while, and moved slowly towards Elder Pei. Although Elder Pei was not gentle during the process, he did not put more pressure on Pei Bing. He waited motionlessly like a majestic statue.

Pei Bing seemed to have adapted a bit under the pressure, and finally moved in front of Elder Pei, and then he ran into a problem: there were no tables in front of or around Elder Pei, so Pei Bing didn't know how to hold Tongming where to put the fruit.

2269_ resting place

Except for the few years when I was with me as an infant and a few times when he was entertaining guests, Dad's room has always been the standard model of Jianxiu, as simple as a rough house.It is big and empty, and there is only one platform for meditation. Sometimes there is no platform at all, and you just sit on the ground.

I once expressed my confusion to my father: "Since nothing is released, why build a house? Can't we just meditate in the open air?"

Dad showed me a one-second decoration, turning the rough room into a hardcover room.

I was not intimidated, and continued to ask: "It is still possible to not have a house at all, and complete the house construction and decoration together when needed or wanted. This may be more convenient, because the renovated house can be solidified and shrunk. , the next time you want to use it, you don’t need to redecorate it, just enlarge it. If you are not satisfied with the cured decoration, you can just dismantle and reinstall it, which is also very convenient.”

Dad: "Personal hobbies."

...Do you like to practice in a big and empty room?

It's okay, monks have various quirks, as long as they don't affect others, they are all hobbies.

In fact, my own room is also very empty, because I prefer to put things in the small box rather than put them in the room, so in terms of emptiness, my room is basically the same level as my father’s, but my The house is much smaller than Dad's, because 'entering the house' for me is an act that has the connotation of 'avoiding people, avoiding things', like a cat hiding in a corner, if the corner is too big, If it is so big that people can easily catch the cat out, it loses the meaning of hiding.

Smallness can sometimes bring a sense of security.In my previous life, when I was frightened by horror movies when I was a child, I would wrap myself tightly from head to toe with a quilt, and I was so stuffy that I didn’t dare to stick my head out of the quilt, as if the layer of quilt formed a protective cover. As long as I'm inside the quilt, the ghost can't hurt me, and as long as any part of my body sticks out of the quilt, it seems that a hand will grab that part and drag me into the abyss of horror.

Although for a monk, whether there is an extra wall does not affect the clarity of detection, but for me, I can't completely relax in an unobstructed place. I must have a room, even if it is a defensive force. A room with zero, but I don't think I can rest until I can block the view and let me see the four walls and the ceiling and the floor.

The uniform tent my dad gave me doesn’t actually meet my requirements for a resting place. Although it has the effect of visual isolation, it is one-way.Even though it has a high level of isolation for viewing from the outside to the inside, it still makes me feel that something is missing when I look out from the inside where I am.

It may be the sequelae left by the emphasis on the house in the previous life.

2270_It's not scary

But now is a special situation, Jindan has just been completed, I am still in the process of understanding, and I don't want to have my sight blocked for the time being.Although I am resting now, but at the same time I am also familiarizing myself with the new Jindan, so it is considered a half-working state.

I don’t need to be completely relaxed, and I don’t like people to see without restrictions, so the one-way transparent tent is just right. It makes me subconsciously tense because my senses are too open, and I can’t relax completely, but I know it’s safe now , No one will disturb me, so I will not be very nervous.The collision of rational and irrational feelings put me into a suitable half-rest and half-work state.

This time, Elder Pei did not make things difficult for Pei Bing. He stretched out his hand, and in Pei Bing's tears of gratitude, he took the delicious Tongming fruit, but then he made things difficult again: "Only one?"

Pei Bing was really about to cry.

Although my Lingbao was being bullied, I didn't feel bad at all, and even ran against Pei Bing: "You are protecting your food against Elder Pei just like you are fighting with me."

Then I felt Pei Bing's heart tremble, and he said to Elder Pei: "I can only give you one more, and the master only took three."

... I thought that the ruthlessness in your heart was going to beat up Elder Pei violently, but in the end you mustered up your courage just to bargain?Still using me as a shield?

Elder Pei smiled: "Okay, I just want one more."

I looked at my father's smile in a daze: he is really in a good mood today.So it really is my golden core that formed beautifully, right?Yes, why not admit it?You compliment me casually.

In Elder Pei's rare and kind expression, Pei Bing became a little more courageous, and said to me, "It's actually not scary."

It wasn't scary at all.You are my Lingbao, what can he do to you?

Just like Dad can give me a spanking that hurts but doesn't hurt at all--a minor injury is not considered an injury--he can give you a shave that looks scary but isn't actually hurt at most.I can be afraid of the pain when I'm whipped, but I dare to continue to provoke my father before the pain is over; why are you afraid of Elder Pei for so long because you don't care at all and you often use it to destroy the skin?

Pei Bing thought for a while—was distracted in front of Elder Pei for a while—and answered me: "Maybe it was because I was just born at that time, and my endurance was too weak, which caused a particularly heavy psychological shadow?"

2271_psychological shadow

Also, many things that seem small to adults, if they happen to young children, such as an accusation of distorting the facts, may become a shadow that they will not be able to uncover for a lifetime.

As a father who has raised three children, Elder Pei did not do this properly... Wait, it is too far away from when my brothers and sisters were young. I was born with the thinking of an adult, and I have developed a thick skin in my previous life, so when my father faced me when I was a child, he may have been a little cautious at the beginning for fear of hurting my fragile heart, but he soon found out that I His heart is not fragile at all, it is so strong that it can be used as a shield, so he is free, and it is possible that this free will also affect Pei Bing.

Although my father has never done it, but in fact, if he peeled me a layer, if he healed quickly without sequelae, to me, it would be the same as if he beat me up. Push me and Pei Bing, and something goes wrong.Maybe my father didn't expect that the Lingbao I raised had such a tender side.

——Maybe this shows that, under the training of a society full of complexities and contradictions in my previous life, I still stubbornly retain a childish side that has not been ground into a cocoon deep in my heart.Somewhat gratified about it.

Pei Bing: "What's so comforting? I've been made cowardly by you, and you are the source of the disaster, and it's all your fault."

Haven't you become more courageous?I have already dared to play in my head in front of Elder Pei, the next step is to quarrel with Elder Pei, and the next step... I am afraid that there is little hope of fighting, because your external cultivation is controlled by me, and I have no confidence in my own cultivation. More than Elder Pei has always been pessimistic.

Pei Bing held another delicious transparent fruit to Elder Pei, and watched Elder Pei eat a piece of fleshy petal.

Elder Pei commented: "Not bad."

Pei Bing: "Yeah, yes, it's delicious. Among the delicacies you have eaten, where does this Tongming fruit rank?"

I think Papa's 'nice' is not just about taste.

I don't know if my understanding is wrong, or if my father is too lazy to correct Pei Bing's understanding, he followed Pei Bing's question and replied: "Because there are tied rankings, and some rankings will change depending on the situation, so the specific It’s hard to say the ranking, but it’s sure to be in the top [-].”

Dad was really gentle with Pei Bing today, and even used the word 'sure'.