Moon Huaying in the Deep Forest

It is impossible to say that Lin Wuhua did not reply to my messages at all.He will respond to everything I say, but with just a few words, it's over, and the perfunctory attitude in his attitude almost overflows the screen.But he still remembered that I was in a relationship with him, so I waited for the few voice messages that would come every week.

I think he seems busier now than he was in his third year of high school.

From his occasional voice messages, I know that he has joined the club, has new friends, and goes out of school to get together once every three days.

I asked him: "Do you have time to go out for dinner, but don't have time to look at your phone? Why do you always reply to my message the next day?"

As a result, he replied only the next day: "That's different. The current friends are all future contacts, and the contacts must be important."

I didn't see the message he sent at noon until after evening self-study: "I'm okay?"

Another day later, he said, "I've said it all, it's different. If I treated you as an outsider, I wouldn't even tell you this. Stop making trouble, baby, be good."

I looked at the time bar on each message and my mood hit rock bottom.

It turns out that we are in a relationship where it takes two days to complete a conversation, and we are in a relationship where we have been in love for more than a year and don't know each other's birthday.We are unfamiliar couples, lovers who feel strange to each other.This is my first love.

As it turned out, my disappointment came too soon, too soon.

As soon as we passed the exam, Lin Wuhua greeted me, saying that he would prepare for the final season in advance, and would not reply to my messages for the time being.

I have never been to college, and there are no college students around, so I don't know much about everything in college. I asked him: "Is it so early to prepare for the final?"

"It's all said to be prepared in advance. Why are you at home? Didn't go to school? Today is a holiday?"

"Are you confused? Today is Sunday, and I have an afternoon off. I was very busy every week and weekend before, but today is finally not busy, so I can talk to you a little more. I miss you so much, I miss you so much, what should I do , I miss you so much. I really want to take the college entrance examination tomorrow, it doesn’t matter what the exam is, I just want to see you so much!"

"Yeah, treasure, I miss you so much, let's talk about it after I finish the exam. I'll see you when I go home from winter vacation."

"Are you so busy with your studies? I was still in school when you were on winter vacation, and I'm going to go to school until the Chinese New Year is approaching. When are you going to be on winter vacation? I really want you to come back early."

"I do not know either."

It just so happened that that day was Sunday, and I was at home all afternoon, thinking that I could finally have a chat with Lin Wuhua.But Lin Wuhua obviously didn't have much enthusiasm for chatting, and I didn't want to continue the conversation, so the message was cut off at this point.

I have long heard that going to a good university is no different from being in the third year of high school.I can understand this too, but didn't Shen Qiyang and Xu Chunyu also went to a good university?Why aren't they too busy to respond to messages?

I was upset, and I turned on the screen casually, trying to check the time, only to find that the person I had just talked about sent me a message.Click to open it, where there is only a message, he even created a group.

"Xu Chunyu invites you and 'Shen Qiyang' to join the group chat"

Xu Chunyu: halo, Yingbao.

Shen Qiyang:?

Xu Chunyu: Yingbao, are you busy?

Shen Qiyang:? ? ?

Xu Chunyu: I didn't ask you, just go.

Shen Qiyang: Question marks are not allowed?

Seeing that the two of them were about to start a chat, I quickly said, "Yes, yes. Do you have anything to do with me?"

Xu Chunyu: "It's nothing wrong. What's the matter, we just suddenly remembered that today is Sunday and you should be at home."

I'm starting to get a little confused.I am indeed at home, but is there any need for a special group?There were always four of us before, but now in this group, there are only three of us, without Lin Wuhua, I feel weird.

Xu Chunyu stopped talking, so I could only answer: "Well, I'm at home. What can I do for you?"

Xu Chunyu: "Ah, it's nothing. Are you playing games?"

I don't understand any more.Please, I'm in my third year of high school, and it's not a holiday right now, how can I have time to play games?

I told the truth: "No, I have never liked playing games."

Xu Chunyu: Oh.

Shen Qiyang: Oh.

ha? ? ?What is this doing?I couldn't hold back any longer and asked them, "What's the matter?"

Shen Qiyang: It's really nothing.

Xu Chunyu: Miss you suddenly, where will you be, happy or wronged?

Xu Chunyu: That's enough, let's not talk too much, Yingbao college entrance examination, come on!

Shen Qiyang: Come on for the college entrance examination!

I knew very well that the two of them were hiding something from me, maybe they were afraid of affecting my college entrance examination, so they didn't say it directly.Well, it shouldn't be too late to know after the college entrance examination.

But when I think of the string of lyrics that Xu Chunyu just sent, I feel a little wronged.I wanted to talk to Lin Wuhua again, but I didn't know if he would talk to me: "Just now Xu Chunyu came to me suddenly and said he missed me. You didn't even say you missed me."

I waited for a long time, did not receive a reply, and planned to take another look before going to bed.However, in the following period of time, Lin Wuhua did what he said, and did not reply to another message.

Well, from this point of view, his freshman year was really busier than his senior year.

I don't know when Lin Wuhua's winter vacation is, but one night, he suddenly said: "I'm at the train station, I'll get on the train later. There is a signal blocker on the train, don't send me a message, send a message I can't see at all, and text messages don't work either. I'll see you soon, just wait."

I was still awake at the time, and when I saw this, I suddenly became very irritable: "Do you think I'm a fool? The signal on the train is definitely not good, what kind of signal jammer are you talking about! If you don't want me to send you a message, just say it , why are you doing all these twists and turns, are you annoying! No matter how bad the signal is, it’s not like you can’t receive messages at all!”

"What are you calling, have you ever been on a train? Don't you ever know how to reflect? Why are you sticking to me so tightly, won't I be annoyed? I am very busy at school during this time, and I am annoyed to see you send a message ! Can you make me clean and clean! The ticket will be checked right away, I don’t have time to talk to you about this!”

I did not reply.I think, Lin Wuhua, we have been chatting so many times, it was all because of you, instead of me being alone with my phone and feeling sad.Let me not reply you this time.But I've already made it clear that you won't be in such a hurry.

Even, you might think I just went to sleep.You'll never see that I'm angry, will you, and even if you do, you'll try to ignore it, right?If you don't get care when you are sick, what is it to be angry?Lin Wuhua, I really thought that you loved me very much.

I lay down, turned off the light, but didn't feel sleepy.I think Lin Wuhua doesn't love me anymore, since he doesn't love me, he should break up.But Lin Wuhua in my memory is really not like this.I can't live in the memory, but I can't forget the beauty in the memory.Memories and reality are tearing at me, I seem to be torn in two.But in my memory, even half-truths and half-false memories, he is so beautiful, how can I forget this?How do I dig out the piece of meat left in my heart and throw it away?

The various endings I have imagined, whether it is a happy ending or a breakup ending, none of them ended hastily at this time.I thought we would be together for a long time, even if the story went to the worst ending and we really had to separate, I thought it would be at least seven years.

Yes, I have imagined, and in my understanding, the worst and worst ending is the seven-year itch.But obviously, we have no chance of making it to the seventh year.

I finally fell asleep with a stomach full of melancholy, only feeling so tired.

The next day, I saw a long series of messages from Lin Wuhua again, and I wanted to soften my heart to him again.Thinking of the disappointments again and again, and the soft-heartedness again and again, I almost loathe myself.

"Bao, I'm sorry. After thinking about it for a long time, I decided to tell you the truth. In fact, everything I did during this period, including ignoring you and saying things that made you angry, was for your own good. In fact, I This semester is not too busy, but I am afraid that it will affect your study, so I dare not chat with you. Moreover, during your lunch break, you obviously have a long time at home, but you refuse to take time to check your phone and reply to my messages. In fact, you Don't want to chat with me that much, don't miss me too much. (I'm not questioning our relationship, just listing the facts.) I miss you so much, this year in college, I miss you so much, miss you as much as you want I'm going crazy. But I'm afraid, I'm afraid that what you say will affect your study efficiency and your final college entrance examination results. Bao, the college entrance examination is too important, I don't want you to regret it. So I decided to try not to get along with you. You chat, let you focus on the college entrance examination. I originally wanted to wait until after your college entrance examination to explain to you, but seeing that you were very angry yesterday, I had to tell you this now. Bao, don’t be angry, really, I promise I won't fail to reply to your messages in the future, and I won't lie to you. Please, don't get angry with me. "

I don't know when Lin Wuhua liked to call me "Bao".But I really enjoy it.Seeing him call me like this, I always go up, as if I forgot all the things he did before that made me unhappy.

I thought, is this word a Band-Aid?I am also very wronged, why do you blame me for not replying messages during lunch break?I need more sleep!I also replied to him a paragraph: "First of all, our school lunch break is not long. I get up early and stay late every day. I am almost exhausted. I must take advantage of the lunch break to catch up on sleep. I can't reply to the message. Second, at this time last year, you have already handed in your mobile phone. Don't say it's lunch break, even at night or on vacation, you don't reply to my messages. Finally, why did you go last night? Why didn't you coax me last night? I'm very sad, you know? I've already imagined I'm breaking up with you."

He replied quickly this time: "The signal was really bad after getting in the car. After getting in the car, I fell asleep and didn't look at my phone. It will make people lose control at night, so let's not contact each other at night, okay? Bao, I'm afraid we'll quarrel."

"??? What do you mean, are you serious?"

"Really, don't be angry, I don't mean anything else. What I mean is that it's easy to lose control at night. If we contact each other at night, we may quarrel, and if we quarrel, we may break up. So let's not contact at night. .I really have no other meaning, it's all for the sake of our relationship."

"But don't I only have time to send you messages at night?"

"Yeah, I'm sorry too, so let's not contact each other before the college entrance examination? You really don't want to be angry, I'm heartbroken for making this suggestion!"