I still want to pretend after falling off the horse

The two walked side by side on the plastic runway on the playground. The runway was very worn out, and there was a piece missing at the corner, which had not been repaired. I wonder if the money for the repair of the runway was also stolen by the principal.

Putting his hands in his pockets, Yang Yixin walked forward kicking a small stone, saying: "I have been self-reliant since junior high school, and I earned my tuition fees. Except for Seventeenth Middle School, I can't afford to go to other schools."

The little stone kicked a little sideways, Shang Yuan stretched out his foot to save him, kicked back to Yang Yixin's feet, and asked, "Where's your mother? She doesn't care about you?"

"She hasn't cared about me since junior high school. She broke up with my family because of my dad. After giving birth to me, my dad wanted to divorce her. Since then, she has hated me very much, thinking that I ruined her life." Yang Yixin said calmly: "Actually, I also hate her, so we can be considered even. Poor Ms. Yang Shen, it is clear that she ruined her own life, and she has to rely on me."

Shang Yuan can somewhat understand his feelings, because he also hates Shang Yinxiao, but this feeling is different, because no matter how bastard Shang Yinxiao is, he still feels guilty for this family and tries to make amends.But Yang Shen is different, their hatred is two-way, it is mother and son turning against each other.

"She is my own mother. No matter how wrong she was, she gave birth to me and raised me, but when she died, I didn't feel sad at all." Yang Yixin stopped, stepped on the small stone on the soles of his feet, and looked down at her. Tiptoe said, "Shang Yuan, am I a monster?"

Shang Yuan looked at him, his heart seemed to be filled with lead, and he was so heavy that he couldn't breathe.But Yang Yixin didn't wait for him to answer, and suddenly looked up at him and asked, "If Mr. Shang passed away one day, would you be sad?"

Shang Yuan was dumbfounded, he had never thought about this question, he didn't know if he would be sad, but: "Death and debts will disappear, if there is a day, maybe I won't hate him anymore."

Yang Yixin said: "That's great, it seems that you still have a little affection for him. Can you tell me what kind of feeling it is?"

Shang Yuan shook his head, but he couldn't tell.

Yang Yixin heaved a sigh of relief, and kicked the small stone on his feet forward again, but Shang Yuan grabbed his arm, turned him around and said, "I can't explain that feeling, but I know, you are not a Monster. You're just different. And everyone in this world is different."

"You're right, but," Yang Yixin pointed to the teaching building, "You know what? When I was here, I hated the people here. I thought I was different from them. But when I meet you, see Chen Wei, Wang Junyang, and those students in our class, I thought, how can there be such people in the world, who actually associate with others with sincerity, and treat me as a friend with sincerity. I suddenly discovered that I was with here, with Shi Qi The people I hate are the same, the same kind of people, and not even as good as them."

"The murderer who killed my mother two days ago was caught. Do you know what I was thinking? I felt like I was hit by a bump. There is nothing I can do if I catch the murderer." Yang Yixin looked at him and said, "My mother is dead. I hope my dad can change his mind, but until she died, my dad didn't come to see her. Shang Yuan, is cold blood inherited? Maybe I was born with a cold blood, and there is no way to change it. "

If he doesn't say these things, no one will ever know them, but after being with Shang Yuan, he has a lot of things he wants to tell him, and some secrets can't be hidden at all.It's as if people become weak, emotional, and want to confide once they have support.

After thinking for a moment, Shang Yuan said: "You wait, I'll make a call."

After a while, he came back and took Yang Yixin's hand and walked outside the school.

"Where are you going?" Yang Yixin asked.

"Just follow me." Shang Yuan pulled him to stop a taxi on the side of the road, and said after getting in the car, "Master, go to Binxin District Public Security Bureau."

"Public Security Bureau?" Yang Yixin suddenly understood what he was going to do, and said helplessly, "Shang Yuan, there's no need."

Shang Yuan said: "The driver who caused the accident wants your understanding, so give it a chance."

"Are you crazy?" Yang Yixin couldn't understand what he said.

Shang Yuan was noncommittal, just took his hand, and Yang Yixin didn't realize that he was serious until he got off the car at the gate of the Public Security Bureau and walked in.

They went in and reported their names. The police took them inside and said, "He died in a hit-and-run. He is now going through judicial procedures. He will be transferred to prison in a short time. Don't be too sad, he will definitely be punished." due punishment."

"En." Yang Yixin hastily responded.

The police opened an iron door, and there was only one table in the room. A middle-aged man with a vicissitudes of life was sitting at the table, his hands were handcuffed.Seeing two young boys coming in, the men wanted to stand up, but were stopped by the policeman behind him holding his shoulders.

"Comrade policeman, I don't mean anything else. I just want to ask..." The man looked at them and asked nervously and cautiously, "Are you Ms. Yang's son?"

"I am." Yang Yixin went to sit opposite him.

"I'm sorry, kid, I really drank too much that day, I don't know anything, I'm a bastard, I'm a bastard, I wish I could go down and take a look. I'm sorry, I'm sorry." The man was very remorseful, and wiped his tears while apologizing.

"Don't be pretentious, why did you escape then?" Yang Yixin asked expressionlessly.

"I'm scared, I'm really scared. I've been paying attention to this news since then, and I've been praying in my heart, hoping that people are okay. Who would have thought... I also thought about surrendering myself immediately, but there are old and young in my family, and everyone Relying on me alone, my daughter is only three years old, I dare not!" The man suddenly knelt down with a "plop" and cried: "My child, I am sorry for you, I am really sorry for you. I regret it, I regret it ah!"

Yang Yixin looked at him coldly, "You don't regret it, you just want to reduce your sentence with my understanding!"

After finishing speaking, he got up abruptly, and walked out without looking back, the middle-aged man's regretful cry could be heard in the room.

Yang Yixin walked through the corridor, then the office hall, and jumped down the stairs at the gate in two or three steps. His steps became faster and faster, and he didn't stop when he bumped into someone at the door.

It was already dark outside, and the moment he walked out of the police station, he lost his way, forgetting which direction he came from and where he should go home.Just burying your head and walking forward, there are only light and dark roads in front of you, and only the howling winter wind in your ears.

Shang Yuan chased after him and finally caught him under a tree.He turned his head abruptly and said angrily, "Why did you bring me here? Why should I forgive him?!"

"Yang Yixin..."

"If you kill someone, you should be sanctioned! What does his daughter have to do with me at the age of three?! If he regrets it, he should turn himself in. Now kneel down in front of me and cry for me. What did he do?" Yang Yixin's chest heaved. , the inhaled air-conditioning could not quell the anger in his heart, and there was also a strange emotion slowly fermenting, but there was nowhere to vent it, which made him very uncomfortable.

"Yang Yixin!" Shang Yuan stepped forward to hug him, and he struggled hard, but Shang Yuan held him firmly in his arms and asked, "Aren't you feeling nothing? Why are you angry?"

"I'm not angry! I...I..." Yang Yixin panted, his fingers tightly gripping the clothes on his back.

Yes, why are you angry?

Hit and hit, die and die, what is there to be angry about?

Yang Yixin looked at the gate of the Public Security Bureau in the distance, and felt an unprecedented sense of grief. At this moment, he felt his blood was boiling, and it hurt so much when it flowed through his heart.It was as if a gap had suddenly opened in my heart, and a piece had been hollowed out.

"I won't feel sorry for her." Yang Yixin said: "She hates me, so I hate her. They say I'm an evil seed, and they will destroy her after giving birth to me. Well, I am an evil seed, and I will destroy her." , I am not only not sad when she died, I am also happy. Why should I be sad? Shang Yuan, tell me, why should I be sad for her? Why?"

"I don't blame you, you're right. You don't need to feel sorry for her." Shang Yuan hugged him, gently stroking the hair on the back of his head with his palm, listening to his choked voice, he suddenly regretted bringing him here.

He wanted to help him untie his knot, but he didn't expect that all the backlog of sadness and pain would burst out the moment he untie it.He never thought that Yang Yixin had suffered so many injustices, and even thought his own existence was a mistake.

How painful would it be to be discussed and denied like this?He is not cold-blooded, he is protecting himself in a cold-blooded way, prying open this shell, Shang Yuan only saw that the inside is bloody and riddled with holes.

He saw the knife that had been inserted into Yang Yixin's heart for a long time, sharp and glowing with cold blood, it seemed that the knife had also been inserted into his heart, stirring his heart, making him suffocate with pain.

"Why did she give birth to me, and what did I do wrong?" Unknowingly, Yang Yixin burst into tears.

"Don't listen to those bad words, you're right, you don't have to care about people who don't love you. I love you, Yang Yixin, and I'm here." Shang Yuan wiped away his tears, pressed his forehead, and kissed him gently.

Yes, Shang Yuan is still there.They don't love me, but Shang Yuan loves me.

Shang Yuan looked at his former home and his former school.He told him the worst about himself, told him that he had grown up on the garbage heap and was not good enough for him.

He was also afraid that Shang Yuan would leave after knowing all this, but Shang Yuan didn't.Even after knowing this, Shang Yuan still stands here and expresses his love.

Like he said: If there's only one person in the world you can trust completely, it's me.

"No class tomorrow." Yang Yixin's eyes were flushed, he looked at him with a sniff, and said, "I don't need to get up."

Shang Yuan touched his face and whispered, "Let's go home."

Yang Yixin didn't know how he got into the house, they hugged and kissed each other from the moment they entered the elevator, and stumbled to open the door, the room was pitch black, and no one turned on the lights.

Their vision was deprived, and their other senses became extremely sensitive. They kissed on the sofa in the living room. Yang Yixin lay on the sofa, hugging Shang Yuan's neck with both hands, rubbing his legs around his legs, floating in the air. feelings.

Only when he gets close to Shang Yuan can he feel safe, and when he kisses Shang Yuan, the empty space in his heart is slowly filled.He suddenly became very greedy, like a naive child, wanting to ask for more, monopolizing all Shang Yuan's love, and making him only his own.

And no matter what he wants, Shang Yuan will respond to his request.

"I'll give you whatever you want." Deep in love, Shang Yuan whispered in his ear.

Yang Yixin hugged his neck, breathed heavily and said, "You've already given it to me."