The Queen's Secret

not allowed.

She can't leave me.

Sure enough, Xiaorou, who has always been obedient to me, agreed to me, but my heart hurts badly.My lover gave me her best years, but her best life has been changed beyond recognition because of me.

I kept her, but didn't give her the best love.After all, I failed her, hurt her, and failed her sincerity to me.

I have never understood why I asked Xuerou if Yuluo's dereliction of duty had anything to do with her. I know exactly what kind of person Xuerou is, but why should I doubt her.

That day she cried very sadly, Yuluo beside her was ashamed, and Zhang Yimei couldn't stop crying.In my eyes, there is only this woman who has been hurt by me countless times but still loves me like life. If I say it, I can't take it back.

She left, leaving with a heart that was broken by me.I don't know where she went, and I don't think I'm qualified to take care of it.During the days when Rou was not around, I kept thinking that no matter who Rou fell in love with, he would be happier than falling in love with me.She gave me the most pure and innocent love in the world, but I broke her heart all over the place.

With her gone, nothing seemed to matter anymore.Yuluo is no longer important, my daughter is no longer important, and I don't even want to think about my son.I don't want to eat, because after eating, I will be very energetic and full of energy, and I can't help but think of the past with Rou, the joy and warmth she brought me when she was here, and I make myself tired and sleepy , I let myself sleep incessantly in chaos.

But I'm also waiting, waiting for someone who doesn't know when he will come back, or in other words, whether he will come back again.

If she is willing to come back, I am willing to give up everything for her.

So when the glamorous Cannes actress with a confident smile appeared in front of my eyes, I doubted whether I was in a dream or in reality.She is more beautiful and more confident than before, standing in front of me has a strong aura, or it makes me feel that the woman in front of me is not like my Xiaorou.With hostility all over, thorns all over.

I think she probably hasn't forgiven me yet.But as long as she comes back, no matter how she treats me, I will accept and face it.Because I want to warm her with my heart, and I want to tell her with my actions that I love her.

All kinds of things broke my heart. She will never smile at me as warmly as before, never act like a baby to me again, never love me and treat me well again.But I know that I have no right to complain, because I blamed her first.Everything is my own fault.

Until that day, when she called Yuluo home, I felt that she still loved me or cared about me. I felt that she wanted me to care about her.In fact, I already knew that Yuluo did what happened at the press conference, but I just couldn't bear to break up with her.But this time I strongly felt that if I continued to be indecisive, Xiaorou would never turn back for me.

So I made a decision, I gave up Yuluo.

In other words, no matter who is put together with Xiaorou and asked me to do multiple-choice questions, the answer is unique.

She was crazy that day, and I couldn't control my emotions. The bitterness and strong love that had been suppressed for a long time almost swallowed me.When I got entangled with her on the bed, I looked into her eyes, as if I saw Xiaorou from before, which made my heart very relieved and warm.

"If you don't want to, I won't force it."

Hearing this sentence, I remembered my rejection in Paris, and without thinking, I hugged her neck and kissed her lips.Her kiss was so fierce that it hurt to bite my tongue, but I hugged her even tighter, wanting to melt her into my blood and bones.

She unbuttoned my clothes and kissed me delicately. I looked into her eyes and wanted to tell her I love you, but I couldn't.

When she entered my body, she gnawed on my lips with abandon. I felt a little pain, but I hugged her tightly and held her, for fear that she would disappear as soon as I let go.I don't want to take care of the future, but at this moment I want to love her well.

Xiao Rou, do you know that even if everything I did was a scam in your opinion, at that moment, my love for you was absolutely true.

【You are still the passionate boy you used to be】

Xiao Rou is dead.

My love is dead.

In the detention center, I looked at the closed space on all sides, and all these words were repeated in my mind.Rather than saying that I cried, it is better to say that I have not stopped crying.I don't want to see Xiaojia, I don't want to see Xiaoyan, I don't want to see anyone, I just want to die with my lover.

"You gave me the best love and made me feel so happy, but now I'm alone again..."

"I haven't been able to love you well, spoil you..."

"But you will never come back, Xiaorou..."

"In the next life, let me be your husband. The one who is bullied by his wife all day long, you will bully me fiercely. I will do all the housework, I will do the laundry, and I will do the laundry. Mrs. Pleasure, who opens her mouth to eat...let me love you..."

I hid the letter written by Xiaorou from the police in my pocket and took it out.

Instead of going home, I went to our home, the home of both of us.Walking in a familiar room, even when I stretch out my hand, I can feel the traces of Xiaorou's stay, her breath, her smile, her kindness, everything about her.I sat at home for a day, from sunset to sunrise, from dawn to dark, from loneliness to despair.

When I walked out of the building, I sat on the ground and started crying. Why do I always feel that Xiaorou is not dead, otherwise why I can always see her smile.

"Old Wang, tell me what's going on recently. A few days ago, a movie queen was crying here, and not long after, another movie queen was crying here... It's really crazy..."

Hearing this sentence, I suddenly came back to my senses, got up and ran to the woman who said this sentence and asked, "What did you just say? Someone came here before?"

The old woman nodded and said: "Yes, not long ago, I was crying so sadly, I was still muttering why you didn't come, maybe I was waiting for someone, the scene was quite sensational, my son even took pictures ..."

And I laughed.

Laugh at my stupidity, at how much I've been underestimating my lover's love for me.

For me, she gave up everything, but for me, I killed her.

It was three years after I decided to surrender. Before I surrendered, I went to my parents’ house once. My mother passed away a year ago. I cried very sadly at my mother’s funeral, but I was not filial. My tears were not for my mother. Flow, but flow for Xiao Rou.

Dad's health is getting worse and worse, and he keeps coughing when he sees him.

"Why do you think your mother walked ahead of me? When we got married, we agreed that we would walk together..." The eyes of the father who was a soldier turned red.Sigh slightly.

I can't say anything.

But he suddenly mentioned Xiao Rou: "There is also that child, I like her from the bottom of my heart, she is a good girl." Dad held my hand, "Zhen'er, do you know that Dad can open up my heart?" , thanks to Xue girl."

I listened to my father tell me how Xiao Rou begged for his forgiveness for me. I was very calm and didn't shed a single tear.Because I feel, my heart has been hollowed out.

"Just before the news of her death came, she came to see me. At that time, I never thought that it was the last time I saw her..."

"Girl Xue was very strange that day. She asked me to tell her about the army, and asked me if life in the prison was hard." At this point, Bai's father seemed to shed a tear, "I said girl, back then Grandpa was imprisoned a lot when he was fighting, he couldn’t get enough to eat, and was often bullied... I heard her ask me this way, and I was a little worried if she did something illegal, who knows... why did she leave What do you say..."

I raised my head and looked at the word Public Security on the top of my head. I smiled, and my vision was a little blurred.

"Xiao Rou, don't be afraid, I'm here to complete your unfinished revenge for you."

"Don't be afraid of the hardships I have lived here. I am not afraid of hardships."

"Xiao Rou, I love you."