The Queen's Secret

She suddenly pinched Bai Qingwan's chin, and crystal tears flowed out: "You said why don't you die, I won't have to suffer so much after you die, everyone will be relieved after you die..."

"I know you hate me, Rou, I can give you your life..."

"I don't want your life!" She threw Bai Qingwan away suddenly, turned her back, tears spread to her bloodless lips, "The thing I hate most about myself is..." That's right, I was never real want your life.

Bai, it turns out that I have always underestimated my love for you.I thought that my hatred for you could overwhelm this ridiculous love, I thought that as long as I approached you with revenge, I would gradually forget my feelings for you, I thought I could leave you gracefully, I thought I could Slowly accept that you are just using me to satisfy your love for Ayan.

But I have always been too self-righteous.

These I thought, after all, it was just a thought.

"Rou, I was wrong. I have always been sorry for you. I don't ask you to forgive me. I just ask you not to do this again, okay? You can leave me, you can kill me, but don't torture yourself like this again It's gone..." Bai Qingwan cried, trembling her body.Her delicate face turned pale.

Xuerou turned around to look at her, stretched out her hand to help wipe away the tears on her face, and then kissed her gently on the cheek, kissed her lips, and pressed her forehead against her forehead, just like their The first time we came to Fengwuxiang together, she was just an ignorant little girl, and she was just the stunning actress of the generation.

Xuerou finally showed her most beautiful and whitest smile: "Bai, I can't love you anymore."

The whole world stands still.

When she held Bai Qingwan's hand and thrust the knife into her body fiercely.Time seems to be reversed at this moment, back to the day she first saw her in Fengwu Lane 13 years ago.

She is holding a black umbrella, she is wrapped in a flaxen scarf; medicine for her.

They met for the first time.

Bright red blood flowed out, Bai Qingwan opened her mouth like crazy, wanted to let go of her hand, wanted to hurry up and call an ambulance, wanted to hurry up and save her lover, but Liao Xuerou just clenched her hand even more tightly. A little bit, the knife was inserted deeper.

It was only when she fell to the ground that she realized that everything written in the script was a lie.When the knife was inserted into her body, it obviously hurt, and she was so painful that she almost couldn't open her eyes to see the white face holding her, so how could she have the extra strength to say something as written in the script? Lots of things to say.It turned out it was all fake.

But she still had a lot to say that she hadn't told her personally.

White.

You must never know how important your words were to me 13 years ago.I thought that after my mother passed away, I became a dispensable person, no one would love me or care about me, even if I suddenly disappeared one day, no one would care.I don't know what kind of mentality you said that sentence, but do you know how important that unfailing concern is to a 15-year-old girl who has lost her mother and lost her support.

You must never know that although I like acting, I never cared about the title of actress, because in my heart, you are my most amazing actress.I succeed time and time again, stepping on the red carpet again and again, it's just because I want to prove to you that I am not useless, maybe I have become better, so that I can be worthy of you, and you will like it I.Because all I care about is you.

You must never know that when my grandfather told me the truth about my mother's drowning, I tried my best to prove that my grandfather was wrong.Because my white is the kindest person with the most beautiful heart in the world, and she gave me the courage to live.Until my grandfather told me, Lin'er, stop deceiving yourself.That day, I cried wantonly, but also cried purely, without heartbreak, without hysteria, just like a child who failed the exam.

You must never know, every time I say cruel words to you after returning to China, how sad I feel when I see your sad expression after being hurt by me. I hate you, but I hate myself even more.

You must never know that after that phone call, I really wanted to give you a chance, and I wanted to give myself a chance.I chose to breach the contract again, and I gave up the chance to become an Oscar queen in the future.Perhaps in the eyes of others, this will be a regret of a lifetime.But I never felt sorry.Because compared to you, even if it is a hundred or a thousand chances to step on the Oscar red carpet, I don't care.In other words, there is no way to compare with you at all.

But you failed me, you failed me after all.

I'm tired, I can't go on with you anymore, you will no longer have me in the future.

Bai, do you still love me a little bit, otherwise, why do you keep crying.

At this moment, Xuerou felt that she could not hear Bai Qingwan's wailing clearly, nor could she clearly hear Bai Qingwan calling her name again and again.But she tried her best to keep her eyes wide open. In the past, she was given the hope of living in vain. Now, let her end this hope while staring at her face.

Mom, I'm sorry.The only thing I can do for you is die.Because only by death can I stop loving her.

Strangely, the knot that had been entangled in my heart for so long seemed to be untied suddenly in this glance.She looked at Bai Qingwan's tear-filled eyes, thinking about the little things between them.She suddenly felt that all the knots were untied at this moment.

Severe pain engulfed her nerves, and she, who was already too weak, seemed to be unable to hold her last breath.But she suddenly didn't want to die so soon, because she still didn't ask a word.Bai, tell me, do you use me, feel guilty, or do you really love me.

But she didn't hear the answer she wanted to hear after all.With her last strength, she stretched out her hand and grasped the knife that was deeply inserted into her body.

After closing her eyes, she saw a woman in a light blue windbreaker with the most beautiful smile in the world.

If there were pedestrians walking in the alley that day, they would definitely be able to hear that heart-piercing Xue Rou, and they would definitely be able to hear that voice, I love you.

But these three words are too late.After all, it is too late.