Nashan Nahe

He has to beat his own people, so what else is there to show off? During the battle, every time he fired a shot, his heart trembled. This time, there was no hair. If Mao was in command, it would be the same as the previous four times. , often fled.He looked at the colorful champagne in front of him with some sarcasm, leaned on the sofa, lit a cigarette, depressed, and could only drink one after another to get himself drunk. Clear high-end red wine, through the smoke of the cigar, Qin Yuan, who was already a little bit drunk, saw Ling Ping, saw her always having nothing to do with her, with a cold and indifferent expression, and saw her holding a caterpillar and putting it in his shirt , there is no image and laughing forward and backward...

He also wrote to Ling Ping from time to time, but often he wrote two letters, and Ling Ping only replied one, or didn't reply at all, but he was not annoyed at all, knowing that Ling Ping and Why Buwei started a newspaper together, he had many Once, I wanted to go to Peiping to meet her, but the two of them hadn't seen each other for several years.

When I participated in the siege before, I met He Buwei by accident, and said goodbye in a hurry. The time was tight, and the two of them spoke less than ten sentences, but it was Qin Yuan who was asking, and Why Buwei was answering. None of the questions asked were separated. To open Lingping, why not tell her that Lingping is fine, and she is still acting as vigorously and resolutely as before, Qin Yuan can see that she cares about Lingping, and finally added a sentence out of self-concern, Lingping is still single, but there are suitors around her, saying Well, looking at Qin Yuan playfully, he ran away holding the camera.

Thinking back to why he didn't do it, Qin Yuan felt a sense of urgency, should he really go to Peiping, confront Ling Ping, and speak clearly?But think again, what can I do if I make it clear?Will she accept herself?Judging from her previous attitude, Qin Yuan didn't have much confidence. If he took a step back, even if he accepted it, could he marry her now?Between the Kuomintang and the Communist Party, wars, large and small, continued, and the Japanese were still holding long guns and cannons, eyeing the Central Plains. As a soldier, how could I have the right to think about this at this time, and how could I have the conditions to complete these things?If you blindly take care of your children and let Lingping know, wouldn't you despise yourself even more! ?

Maybe God favored him. A few months later, he went to Beiping on business, and finally met Ling Ping, who was thinking about it day and night. His colleague was joking and hardly looked at him directly, but he was still satisfied, although he just looked at her silently.

"Why haven't you been back for a long time?" After Lingping finished her work, Qin Yuan invited her to dinner

"It's been a long time, I finally wrote a letter saying that I arrived in Tianjin a few days ago, and now at Jiayu's house, maybe I'll be back in a while."

"Well, I met her once before."

"Have you seen it? Where?"

"It was during the siege, she was filming on the front line"

"You participated in the siege?" Ling Ping grasped the point, a little aggressive

"me……"

"Hehe" Seeing that he was a little embarrassed, Ling Ping stopped talking about this topic and smiled contemptuously.

"Well... how about you, how are you? Every time I write to you, you always reply very late." Qin Yuan changed the subject in a timely manner

"I'm busy, you can see it too" Ling Ping said lightly

"If you are busy, you should also pay attention to your body, this is it, here we come"

Ling Ping looked up at the door, it was an Italian western restaurant, frowned, followed Qin Yuan and walked in, there was a gramophone playing unknown light music as soon as she entered the door, the lights were dim, and the exquisite tableware was neatly arranged Put it on a white tablecloth, everything looks quiet and elegant

After being seated, Qin Yuan took off his military cap, ordered dishes skillfully, and asked Ling Ping from time to time, Ling Ping answered without a word, seemed a little absent-minded, and a little...impatient, but Qin Yuan only cared about being able to In the joy of having dinner alone with Ling Ping, I didn't notice these at all

"Ling Ping, would you like some wine?"

"casual"

"Well...then open a bottle of champagne, okay?"

"casual"

The waiter in a black vest and a white shirt deftly opened the champagne and poured it into a crystal goblet. Before leaving, he nodded politely and smiled. Qin Yuan seemed very satisfied and nodded in return. Ling Ping sat opposite and put everything together. All she can see now is nausea, disgust

"Come on, Ling Ping, don't meet again for us, let's have a drink?"

He didn't speak, he raised his glass, but... he just held it up, and didn't mean to clink glasses with Qin Yuan. Qin Yuan was a little puzzled when he saw her looking at him like this

"Ling Ping? What's wrong?"

Ling Ping held the wine glass in one hand and put the other on the table, with a smile in her eyes, she looked at Qin Yuan

"It's nothing" said, pointing the glass forward, clinking glasses, raising his head, and drank it all in one gulp. Seeing her like this, Qin Yuan knew that she had a bold personality, so he poured another glass for her without saying anything, and Ling Ping Watching Qin Yuan get up gracefully to pour himself wine, and look at his military uniform

"Qin Yuan, tell me about your time on the battlefield."

"Uh...?... Battlefield? Um... okay" What do you mean?He has hardly fought against the Japanese, but he has fought several times with the Communist Party. Although Ling Ping is a non-partisan, but... Qin Yuan was in a state of confusion for a while, thinking quickly about how to answer the question

"Hehe, I don't think I've mentioned it before. You guys met in Rehe?" Seeing that Qin Yuan was at a loss for words, Ling Ping broke the deadlock.

"Uh...yes, we met in Rehe" with a guilty conscience in his tone

"Jilin...was restored to the imperial system last year, right?"

"It seems...it seems to be." How could it be like that? People all over the country know that the Puppet Manchukuo restored the imperial system in Jilin last year. I said so, but I was looking for a cover-up.

"Well, it seems that even so, your life is not bad." At this time, the waiter was holding a silver plate, and put the plates of carefully prepared dishes on the table, just like before, when leaving, politely smile at the two

"I... um... the food is here, eat it quickly?" Afraid that Ling Ping would ask himself something again, Qin Yuan let Ling Ping eat the food

"The knife and fork are dazzling, and the bowl is clean. I love a glass of champagne. I used to think that only in Shanghai can I see the scene in the poem. It turns out that there is also a scene in Beiping. I have been here for so long and I don't know it." Ling Ping Looking in front of him, he said with a smile, but what he said was full of sarcasm

"Lingping..." Qin Yuan could hear it, so he felt helpless and didn't know what to say

"Qin Yuan, at this time, no matter what kind of mentality you have, I don't think you should be like this... Hey..." Ling Ping said seriously, looked at him, sighed softly, got up and left

"Ling...Lingping" Seeing that Lingping had already walked out, Qin Yuan sat back on his chair and looked at the dishes on the table in front of him...

Yes, today's national government is bloated and corrupt, and banquets and wines have long been commonplace. Internal institutions are superimposed, and people are overstaffed.Occasionally go to fight with his own people, and continue to eat, drink, and sing every night after returning. Are you trying to numb yourself?Or, are you used to it?

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☆, 28

Not because the last time I came back was to take care of my mother who was pregnant, but this time, I was with my mother to take care of Jiaqi who was in confinement. Her return made me feel a lot easier, not physically, but mentally, because I can see her, and I feel at ease. I feel that I depend on her just like my mother depends on my father!

Every day when I go to school, she has already got up and cleaned the yard, and prepared breakfast for the family. Lunch is usually at school, but after packing up everything at home, she will go to school and prepare for the students with a few teachers. Lunch, afternoon, with a few students, pick vegetables in the school garden, weeding, and then go home with me.

I can't describe how happy and happy I am on such a day. The Japanese army is still pressing on in North China. It's not because I just came back from the country, the Communist battlefield, and the scene of the Yangtze River flood. Although it's not because I never took the initiative to tell me I recall her scenes and encounters on the battlefield, but I can imagine it, but now, all of this seems to be left behind by me. What Japanese army, what civil war, what natural disasters are obviously at a critical juncture, but don’t Because, still be able to give me all the time, enough to forget all the restlessness, sweetness and peace of mind.

Buwei took a group photo for the teachers and students of the whole school, seniors and juniors, some were stepping on benches, some were sitting on the ground, trying not to be able to capture everyone, I stood holding the camera why not By my side, I didn’t walk into the crowd, she looked at me and smiled, and didn’t ask me why, but I think she must know what I’m thinking, without her, I don’t want to put myself in the camera

She found a familiar newspaper and developed many photos. All the teachers and students in the school had one copy. Later, these students of mine entered all walks of life, and some... fell on the battlefield. Although, the crowd above Intensive, they may not even be able to see their own appearance, but they are still grateful!

They often say that they will always remember me as a teacher, and those high school students who are not a few years younger than me. , Why not take the first photo of them!When I hear such teasing, I am not annoyed, and even without knowing it, I blush in front of my students...

They didn’t care about calling him He Daxian. I was a little puzzled and surprised at first, but I was too embarrassed to ask why not. One day during class, I chatted with some classmates. The content of the chat was obviously Shakespeare’s sonnets, but But I pretended to ask them casually, why not do it, why is it a great immortal?

It turned out that they felt that they knew everything about why and why. Not only could they take pictures, but they had also been to many places they wanted to go but couldn’t. Moreover, they had seen many magnificent scenery or tragic battlefields. I laughed. Laughing, looking at these childish children in front of me, I really want to tell them that the scenery is good, but the battlefield...is avoided, but I didn't say that, because, I know, under such a situation, the battlefield...is to avoid No way!Although I'm a book girl, I also know that many things can't be solved by just being patient, avoiding, and "reasoning" like now. Sooner or later, there will still be war...

It's night, why don't you lie down and chat with me face to face, playing with my long hair from time to time

"Jiayu, that child Jiaqi is so beautiful, like our family."

"Hehe, just say, she looks like Jiaqi, right?"

"Well, Jiayu, do you like children?"

"......well" I replied with some hesitation, then raised my head to look at her again, I was afraid that she would be sad, but I didn't want to lie to her, I really... like children

"But...with you, I am enough." Seeing her silent for a long time, I said quickly, this is not to comfort her, it is my heart

"Hehe, really? Well... I haven't been back for three years, and Jiaqi is married and has a son"

"yes"

"Last time, I came back after three years, and this time, it's also three years later."

"Hehe" Yes, she left in 1928, came back at the end of 1931, left in 1932, and came back in the summer of 1935. What she said is really true

"Come on sleepy, go to sleep." She turned over and lay on her back, hugging me, I lay on her heart, listening to her heartbeat, and fell asleep peacefully

In mid-August, there was a rebellion in Xianghe County. Why not feel uneasy in the dormitory for several days. She didn’t say anything, but I knew that she wanted to go. At night, I felt her tossing and turning. Looking back, sure enough, she opened her glasses , looking at the beam without blinking

"No reason, do what you want to do, aren't we still young? We will be together for a long time." I wrapped my arms around her waist and said to her. She seemed a little surprised when I found that I was not asleep. , look at me

"Didn't sleep"

"You're so preoccupied all day, how can I sleep?"

"Jiayu...I"

I knew what she wanted to say, before she finished speaking, I kissed her lips actively, I felt her hook the corners of her lips, then took off her blouse, and took me to cover her body, I felt... tonight's Why not, it's a little different, I can't tell the difference, I just have this feeling, a little panting, I leave her lips, look at why not, although in the dark, I can feel that she seems to be... A little shy?

"No reason? You..."

"Jiayu...don't want me?"

This sentence made me a little puzzled at first, and when I understood it, I felt a little ashamed, and I lay down and buried my head in her neck, and she asked me... Do you want her? ... I... thought about it, but I don't know what she thought. Seeing that she didn't take the initiative, I was too embarrassed to ask. After a long time, I didn't think about it, but tonight...

"Ha ha, what happened?"

"No, I, I..." I was still lying on my stomach, my voice was already low, but now it seemed a little muffled

"Jiayu, tell me, do you want me?" I even felt the order in this tone, or firmness, she really wanted to give herself to me, I was a little moved, but also a little at a loss

"…………think"

She lifted my shoulders, caressed my cheeks, kissed me deeply, grabbed my hand with one hand, and put it on the edge of her panties. I could feel my nervousness and my hands trembling. She smiled and held my hand. My hand, took me to remove all the clothes on her body, when I came to the entrance, I felt myself biting my lower lip, at a loss, or why not, it was she who led me... to break through the barrier and see her I grabbed the quilt in pain, and I couldn't help crying, but I also know that from now on, there will be no obstacles between us, just like this night, even if it hurts, we must be together, even if it hurts, Break through those barriers and connect each other as one!

After breakfast the next day, why not take me to school, at the school gate, a few students came up to meet her, chatting and joking with her, while I watched, as if... Seeing the girl who used to be more than ten years old At the age of [-], she, and... herself!

"Okay, okay, let's go to class." Why don't you drive the students into the classroom with a smile, and the students have all gone in, leaving me and her

"Jiayu...I...I'm leaving" she said with a smile

"Well, pay attention to safety, don't be brave, you promised me, you said you would do it" said, and closed the neckline of her shirt

"Hehe, of course, I promise you, I will definitely do it" She looked into my eyes and said it like an oath

"Well, good," I looked at her "forcefully", I walked into the classroom with my book in my arms

The students were reading aloud the poems I arranged the day before yesterday. I was holding the book, but my eyes were looking out of the window. I was wearing a white shirt with a coat on my arms. I was tall and straight without turning my head. In my line of sight, it is her, this is her, just like that year, when she heard about the May [-]rd massacre, she threw Zhongshan's coat far away with resentment, and ran out of the campus without looking back, but that At that time, I only had fear and helplessness in my heart. This kind of emotion made me unable to move forward, and I didn't even have the courage to call her. Now, I am still afraid, still helpless, and still haven't called her, but, now We have grown up and matured, we understand our responsibilities, and we know how to be responsible for ourselves. She will no longer throw out her coat, and leave me without even saying a word. We understand each other better, even though we are far apart. We are getting closer!

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It was a rare meeting with Ling Ping, but they broke up badly. Qin Yuan was also a little angry when he went back. No matter how dissatisfied Ling Ping was with this world, it shouldn't be like this. Ping seems to be right, isn't she one of those incompetent people who only want to enjoy themselves?

If you want to be angry, you can only be angry with yourself, angry with yourself for being incompetent, angry with yourself for knowing Ling Ping, angry with yourself for not being able to resist coming to see her, becoming a "representative" of the government, angry with yourself, even if you are repeatedly ridiculed by her , but also willingly!

But in fact, in Qin Yuan's heart, the most...is his disdain for himself. In his heart, he approves of Ling Ping's cynicism. Although the words are a bit harsh, which word is not true?

In the Northeast Army, I watched a group of my brothers, although their equipment was backward, sharpen their knives and guns every day, ready to go to the battlefield to kill the enemy, but in the end, they followed me again and again, returning disappointed, and reluctantly left the Northeast The army, the situation, didn’t seem to be much better. When the people were oppressed and helpless to the point of being unbearable, they spontaneously formed a volunteer army. Even if they were really holding a big knife, they were really using their own flesh and blood. I can also go all out, but I... participated in large and small sieges time and time again. I swore before that I would not shoot my own people, but when the order came, I could only condemn myself while commanding the troops to follow the Chinese Communist Party. Looting bases...

When I first arrived in Nanjing that year, when I met Mr. Jiang for the first time, Qin Yuan was overwhelmed by flattery. Jiang originally favored people from Jiangsu and Zhejiang, but this half of Jiang's little fellow, gentle and elegant, without losing his masculine spirit, left a good impression on Jiang. Impression, he looked at Jiang sitting opposite him, wearing a black satin gown, asking him about his studies in Huangpu, and talking to him about the situation at home and abroad, but he just sat upright and listened silently. , answered carefully, before leaving, he almost asked, why not all-out war of resistance?So even if the Japanese invaders are appeased, what is the purpose?

But he didn't say a word after all, he didn't dare!Because he's just a little guy!He hoped that Ling Ping could understand him, for such a small person like him, it is true, there is so much powerlessness!

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☆, 29

In August, the government of Xianghe County raised land taxes. As soon as the announcement was posted, public dissatisfaction arose. Xianghe County is located between Tianjin and Beiping. The ambitious Japanese army attempted to self-government here. Wu Yiting, a local rich man who became a traitor, instigated protests and demonstrations, creating chaos , to give the Japanese an opportunity to take advantage of it.

At the end of October, thousands of mobilized people gathered at the gate of the county government. Wu Yiting manipulated the scene. Several Japanese and some accomplices broke into the gate and poured into the city. Disperse.

On the second day, Japan claimed that the Japanese were involved in the trouble, and sent a military police team into Xianghe. Japanese military police cars passed through the city. Wu Yiting led a crowd of people, and then swarmed in to occupy the county government office. Wu Yiting quickly put together a The "County Self-Government Association" presides over the county government. Why not follow the crowd and take photos secretly when people are not paying attention, but the crowd still found her camera and beat her. She wanted to go forward to get it back. The camera, but there are so many people on the other side. Thinking of Han Jiayu's entrustment, I had no choice but to endure it. If I hit it, I hit it, and if I robbed it, I robbed it.

A few months later, the Japanese Army Department had some scruples about international public opinion, believing that the expansion of the situation would not benefit Japan much, so the Japanese army gave up its support for Wu Yiting.Wu Yiting's group of rebels scattered like birds and beasts, and he himself fled to the Japanese concession in Tianjin.The Chinese security team entered Xianghe City to maintain law and order.A "self-government" farce directed by the Japanese secret service ended hastily.

Although this absurd farce ended sloppily with Japan knowing that it was wrong, Japan's impatient aggressive ambitions towards Peiping can be seen!

Two days later, He Buwei was exhausted and returned to Peiping. Ling Ping was shocked when she saw the wound on her face.

"No, you, how did you do it?" Holding the medicinal wine, carefully wiped the pimples on her face

"It's nothing, do you know about Xianghe?"

"I know, it seems to be tax resistance, right?"

"Well... I went too, but I was pushed to the ground by the crowd of demonstrators and fell."

"Did you fall? Fall like this?"

"Then what do you say?"

"This reminds me of that year when you fought with a boss on Tianjin Street. At that time, your face was also like this, hey! Speaking of which, how did you fight with someone at that time, and why? "It's too big, the topic suddenly went off the rails

"Uh... I, why don't I remember, I got into a fight with someone?"

"... If you don't remember, forget it, if you don't want to say it, forget it." Seeing why he pretended to be confused, Ling Ping was a little angry

"Ha ha" at this moment, I can only smirk

"Hehe" Ling Ping smiled, but why did she look so eerie?

"Oh, by the way, I met Qin Yuan before, when I was in Hubei"

"Um"

"Hmm! Just hum, you don't want to know how he is doing now? ... Oh, that's right, you two still communicate with each other usually."

"Yeah" changed a cotton swab, Ling Ping didn't lift her head, and answered absent-mindedly.

"...Hey, he is now the head of the regiment. He has performed very well in the army. I feel that he is very prestigious. I think he will be promoted to brigade commander soon."

"Hmph" Ling Ping snorted disdainfully

"Hey?! What's wrong with you?"

"... I think Qin Yuan has only this little ability, fighting with his own people all day long, and then in exchange for the chance to get promoted and make a fortune"

"Ling Ping, this is your mistake. He is a soldier, and a soldier has to obey his superiors. Do you think he wants to do that? We had a short chat at the time, but... I feel that he is also very Helpless, don’t treat him as a representative of incompetent authorities just because you have only one friend in the army by your side. When it comes to speaking, the nose is not the nose, and the eyes are not the eyes.”

"I don't take him as a representative. He is himself. What he did is depraved, corrupt, and incompetent. What do you want me to have a good impression of him?"

"What did he do? Didn't he just participate in the siege? As I said, it wasn't his fault, he was..."

"Yes, he has to obey his superiors without principle in order to have the opportunity to be brigade commander, division commander, and army commander, right?"

“………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………" Unexplainable feeling?He raised his head with a big bag on it to look at Ling Ping, why didn't he shake his head, and didn't speak anymore

"Okay, okay, don't wipe it, I suddenly remembered something" why didn't you stand up suddenly

"What's the matter, so urgent? Can't you finish the medicine first?" Ling Ping looked at her with a frown

"I have to write a letter first, Jiayu is still waiting for me, I don't want her to worry." He picked up a pen and paper and sat down at the table

"........." Now Ling Ping had nothing to say, sighed, and silently cleaned up a table of cotton swabs and potions

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The Japanese army was approaching North China more and more. The "Hemei Agreement" caused the government to lose most of its sovereignty in Hebei and Mongolia. Yin Rugeng acted as a pawn of the Japanese, responded to the Japanese autonomy in the East Hebei African Armed Zone, and with the help of the Japanese, "successful" A puppet regime was established.

When my father came back, seeing the current situation, he didn’t dare to move the school to Tianjin, and planned to move the school away. This small middle school, where the students are constantly rotating, is his life’s concern. No matter where he is, in Whatever he did, he always thought of himself as just a teacher.

But..., if the school is to be moved, where will it be moved?Moreover, Jiaming's health is not good, and recently her condition has worsened, so that she can't even lift her left hand. Although she is small, she also gets irritable because of it, but she never cries or makes trouble. She just sits on the small bench in the main room, Watching adults come in and out every day.My father, who has always been optimistic, has always been sad recently.After discussing with my mother, I had no choice but to take my sister to Peiping first.

At the beginning of the second year, my father and I came to Peiping again. My mother did not go with me because she was unwell. At this time, why not go to Mongolia? The prairie where the wind blows the grass and sees cattle and sheep has become the third puppet regime after Manchukuo and Eastern Hebei.Now that the puppet has become a fact, I think it should come back soon, right?

When they found the hospital, the doctor told his father that Jiaming's condition did not seem to be optimistic. With just this sentence, his father, who had never smoked, actually smoked a whole box of "Zijinshan" (a Nanjing cigarette brand during the Republic of China) all morning. ), back to the inn, I hugged Jiaming, and sat in the lobby of the inn, watching the busy traffic on the street, Jiaming, who usually had no chance to go out, danced excitedly, I teased her from time to time, which made her giggle, I The character of this little sister is very similar to her father, strong and optimistic!

Seeing her expression, the already sad father felt even more sad and heartbroken. He stubbed out the cigarette butt, frowned, took Jia Ming, wrapped his hands around Jia Ming's waist, and placed him directly opposite, the father and daughter just looked at each other like this with.After watching for a long time, the father also smiled, hugged his sister tightly, stroked her little head, and did not speak.I looked at them, smiled and said

"Dad, since Jiaming's situation is like this, let's send her to a nursing home for a while. There are doctors there. When the situation improves, we will go back." I said this. First, the condition of my younger sister is always dangerous. I can't stay at home forever, at least I have to wait until my body is recuperated before going back. Secondly, I hope that during the time I stay in Beiping, why not...

"...Well, it's okay." Father hesitated for a moment and agreed to my proposal

The father and daughter came to a nursing home in Xishan together. The facilities here are complete and the environment is good. There are grasslands, pavilions, and groves. If it weren't for the big characters at the door, I would have thought I was back in college!And my father has friends here, I call her "Aunt Hu", my father can't be with us all the time, he still has a job, so here, Aunt Hu takes care of us, he is very relieved.

A few days later, my father left, and Jiaming and I lived in a small single room on the third floor. A doctor would come to "visit" Jiaming from time to time every day to check her body. I have never taken care of my sister alone. At night, I dare not sleep, because I am afraid that I will lose her if I fall asleep. The doctor said that it is very possible for her to leave suddenly in sleep with a disease like hers.If I can't bear the sleepiness, I will lean against the bed and take a nap, but I can't sleep for a long time, and I will be awakened by myself. I will suddenly remember that I have a sick sister. Wouldn't it have "leaved"? !

Although Jiaming is only four years old, she can read a lot of characters. Usually, Jiaqi and her mother will teach her how to read. When I have time, I will often take her to recite Tang poems. Therefore, most of the people here are elderly people or seriously ill patients. In the nursing home, Jiaming is a lively and lovely little girl who is very popular with everyone. Every time I take her for a walk in the corridor or downstairs, people always come around to hug and kiss her.

There is a grandma in the next room. She has pancreatic cancer, she is already skinny, and she walks shaky. She seems to like to "chat" with her very much, and often asks me to carry her to the next room, but several times I don't take her there, and she runs barefoot by herself.

I told Jiaming, is this the first friend you made?She didn't know if she could understand, so she didn't answer, she lay in my arms, held my ear with both hands and laughed.

Half a month later, the old lady passed away. After taking a nap, Jia Ming and I came to the aisle, and there was a strong smell of disinfectant. Several nurses came in and out wearing masks. I dared not go in. I asked the nurse, What happened, she said, "Oh, that old grandma fell asleep and fell asleep", her tone was flat, and she seemed to be used to it.I was in a cold sweat!It turns out that people can really "sleep to death"!Look at Jiaming, she is curiously looking in with her head stretched out,

"Sister, grandma" Jiaming asked me

"Grandma is recovering, so I'm going home" I hugged her tightly, trying to keep my words as plain as possible

A few days later, I took Jiaming to bask in the sun in the yard. The doctor said it was good for her recovery. I sat on the stone bench and read to her. Just playing around, huh?Seeing her with her back to me, her small arms moving, she didn't speak for a long time, I got up and walked over, and saw her holding a handful of soil in her hand, carefully spreading it on the ground, grabbing it again, and then paving it...

"Jiaming, what are you doing?" I squatted beside her, patted the dirt on her hands, and asked her

"Make a quilt. When a person dies, don't they just sleep on the ground. Is the quilt under the ground made of dirt?" She said inarticulately.

"..." Hearing this somewhat ridiculous child's words, I was only surprised, heartbroken, and angry!who told her !How can you say "die" to a 4-year-old child! ! ! ?

"Sister" saw me staring at her in a daze and didn't speak for a long time, she called me timidly

"Huh?...Go back to take a nap with my sister, okay?" I hugged her, tears soaked in her light blue hospital gown, and when I passed by that ward, I felt very uncomfortable and pressed her head on my shoulder , quickly walked back to the room

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☆、Chapter Thirty

When Ling Ping found out that I was in Beiping, she came to the nursing home in the midst of her busy schedule. It was the first time she saw Jia Ming, but it was like reuniting with an old friend. Sitting on the hospital bed, laughing and laughing with Jia Ming, I felt that I was so young at this age. My younger sister seems to be able to use her simplicity and cuteness to make friends all over the world. I also hope that she can grow up safely and make friends all over the world...

Ling Ping told me that when she didn’t want to leave, she only said that she was going to Mongolia. If she had nothing else to do, she should be back soon. After hearing that, I was a little happy, and told Ling Ping that she couldn’t wait to come back. We will take Jiaming together when we have time. Let's go for a walk in Beiping, because she is not in good health, so there are really not many opportunities to go out like this. I also want to tell Lingping indirectly, if she doesn't want to come back, let her come to see me!

Because I don’t dare to sleep at night, I would take a nap during the day. I used to coax Jiaming to take a nap, but she was always dishonest, holding my hair in my arms for a while, and touching my face for a while. Although I was extremely sleepy , and couldn't bear to neglect her, she was half asleep and half awake, looking at her in a daze, smiling at her, but just like this, it was enough for her to calm down happily, even if she didn't sleep, she wouldn't bother me anymore.

But today, she seems to be very well-behaved. When I woke up, it had been two hours. I woke up and looked at her. She was lying quietly, and her little hand was still holding the little finger of my right hand. I couldn't help but bow my head to kiss her, but found that she was cold all over, I was stunned for a moment, and hurried to test her breath, no!Try her pulse again, no!

I didn't care about putting on my shoes, so I rushed out of the ward and went to the doctor. A group of doctors in white coats looked at her condition, took a look at her eyes, and shook my head at me, which meant that it was too late. fell asleep and left me...

Aunt Hu stood behind me, holding my shoulders, tears fell on my shoulders, I looked at them and said

"Thank you, can you all go out first?" I heard the calmness in my tone

I straightened her clothes, undid her hair, straightened her hands and feet, sat on the edge of the bed, looked at her, and gave her a "Ming" character, I wished her to grow up, I wished her To be able to make friends in the world, I wish her to be like me and experience a beautiful love, but...God did not hear my blessings, not one, she left us after all, but I still bless her, bless this My younger sister who has only been in the family for four years, I wish her happiness and eternal life in a heaven where there will be no sickness or death, and she will never come back to this painful world...

Looking out of the window, the noon sun is just right, shining on the narrow bed, on her somewhat oversized hospital gown, on her long eyelashes, on her sunken cheeks due to the pain...

She was born on that cold winter night, but she was bathed in sunshine when she left!very nice!The night she was born, the room was full of women and children crying, so when she left, I don't want to cry! ! !

Aunt Hu called Nanjing from the hospital and informed her father, who came that night. When he saw the little girl, he looked calm and sighed heavily. In this sigh, I heard all kinds of helplessness , even with a hint of... Relief, yeah, her