Nashan Nahe

, I don’t need to be the frame of a leopard with Dionysus, I want to ride on the wings of poetry..."

I smiled, brushed away the broken hair on her forehead, tilted my head and kissed her soft lips...

2000

The private doctor came to the house in the afternoon and told me that if I could pass this hurdle, there would be no problem in another five years, but I knew that I couldn’t pass it, and I didn’t want to pass it, so I turned my head to look at the clock, At two o'clock in the morning, outside the window is quiet and dark, with cicadas chirping in summer, and it is noisy and peaceful in the middle of the night. The family portrait is on the bedside, which has turned yellow and old with time. Next to it is the alone photo taken by my grandson when I celebrated my birthday. Photo, now, the people in that family photo are no longer alive, leaving only me in that photo alone, not because after leaving, I have gone through seventeen springs and autumns alone in this world.

When she left, I said to her, wait for me, I can't come back so early, she asked me, what if we become two men together in the next life, I said, let's do it all over again!She smiled and closed her eyes contentedly.

That patched coat, together with Jimenez whose pages have fallen off, has been under my pillow for another seventeen years, and it has already begun to be tattered. My grandson is puzzled and persuades me to throw it away several times. How can I throw it away? willing?

Thinking about it carefully, I have never followed in her footsteps in my life. I have always been waiting for her to come back to me. But today, I know that I want to go with her. In the happy moment, I turned over with some effort, caressing the coat, and I closed my eyes contentedly like she did when she left.

Many images that were once scattered and blurred became as clear as yesterday at this moment. I saw the righteousness of the country and the glory of the family. I saw parting and nostalgia, struggle and setbacks, I saw Mu Ying's ear-level short hair swaying non-stop while walking, I heard Ling Ping laughing wildly under the tree, I saw Qin Yuan talking loudly with thick glasses, I saw my mother I was shocked and helpless when I learned that I didn’t want to marry. I saw my father lead us across the mountains with a stick in the heavy rain, and there was a lot of crying echoing in the mountains. I saw... I saw so many people, why? Haven't seen it yet...

The figure in the white shirt gradually appeared in front of my eyes. She ran forward, and Lao Yang at the door called her from behind, but she didn't look back. Seeing that she was about to run out of my sight, I was a little anxious and called out she

"not for"

She heard my call, but she didn't stop. In the afternoon with gunshots, she was running in front of the ruins. When she turned around and smiled, I saw...the flowers all over the world were blooming...

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