[Wen Ye] Hell changes

Suehiro Tetsusan took Akutagawa Ryunosuke to the Supernatural Special Affairs Division, where the medical supernatural powers were more concentrated.Inevitably, Akutagawa heard about Ango Sakaguchi there.He wanted to shake Mo Guang Tiechang's arm lightly, and whispered but firmly in his ear, please, let's not come to this kind of place, okay?Let me die, I want to get out of here, is that okay?But he couldn't lift his fingers anymore, and he didn't want to say anything more.Every time he opens his lips, his life force will gallop away from the top of the tongue and between the teeth.He was getting weaker and weaker, but his consciousness remained miraculously clear, unable to completely faint or rest.It hurts so much.From the scalp to the soles of the feet, from the brain to the bone marrow, there is no place that is not painful.When standing, it hurts so much that every inch of flesh is bleeding and screaming. When sitting, the skeleton seems to be unable to support the body. The pain is so painful that I can only curl up on the ground. Even the lifeless shadows that every ray of natural light casts seemed to burn him.He was in unspeakable pain anytime and anywhere, to the point where he didn't even deserve the happiness of passing out.

The lights in the ward were poured down.

Su Guang Tiechang kept comforting him, saying that there will be a doctor soon, and he will be fine soon, and everything will pass, I have been waiting for you outside.

Inexplicably, he thought of Osamu Dazai.First I thought of my family, I thought of Dostoevsky, and then I thought of Osamu Dazai.When Osamu Dazai's face appeared in his mind, he didn't know what he could say, what he should say, his forehead was trembling, his sobs were about to come out, he was full of sincere words, real words, and extreme words, but he couldn't say a single word. Unable to put it into practice.At a time like this, if I say, Mr. Dazai, I'm in terrible pain, will he answer me?Akutagawa Ryunosuke thought so.Mr. Dazai, the bones are all exposed fragilely, there are too many scars, and the blood is almost bleeding bare, but you are not by my side.You have never been by my side when I was in pain.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke closed his eyes.

Lying on the head of the bed, feeling the dead air of the sweltering small room, while enduring the piercing pain, he recalled the details about Osamu Dazai many years ago.The more he thought about it, the more he felt it was a memory of his life before he died, and after Suehiro Tieshang also went out and left him alone in the room, the more he felt that he was about to die forever.He fell asleep here alone, quietly waiting for the moment when his life was gone.

The setting sun outside the window sadly folds down and confiscates the rest of the light, and the streams and rivers that no one comes to step on are cold in the whimpering flow, and the fallen flowers melt into the water, silently, but they can bloom the last breath of life in the quiet fall. The most beautiful circle of ripples interprets the silence of the second of falling with heartbreak.Passers-by will not stop for this small phenomenon of life cycle, leaving only the splashed rainwater and ankles wrapped in mud when they leave.

If I close my eyes and fall asleep like this now, and never wake up again, will there be anyone in this world who feels sorry for me?Will someone think that I am worthy of praise, and then write the truth and all grievances about me as historical facts and post them on the webpage?Akutagawa Ryunosuke didn't know.If I were to die, how beautiful and spectacular would the sun shine on the Pacific Ocean the next day?If I die, will the petals fall on the water tomorrow, will they be gently blown by the wind, or will they be artificially knocked down hard?What would that look like?he does not know……

I heard that the end of sin is not tears, is this true?If the final choice is not to shed tears, then what should we hold on to and who should we wait for?

Suddenly the light was switched on.

softly.It was the sound of human fingers pressing the switch of a lighting tool.Like the sound of sickness that carries the soul.It seems to be the echo of the □□ sadly agreeing the date of soul burial to the earth.The traces of the wind after staying for a while are gently washed away by the light.The lights danced and danced, and the flickering light spots fell into his black sandalwood pupils, highlighting and coloring him out of thin air, and slowly flowing like a lotus, multiplying and blooming without stopping.Liyuan Michizao turned on the light and closed the door, and stood in front of him with a complex expression: "I know you may not want to see me now. I have concealed my strength and details from you. You may have thought that I have no supernatural powers like Yin, just an ordinary person Bar?"

How he fooled the medical staff, Akutagawa couldn't figure it out.However, the upper limit of the behavior of a person with supernatural abilities cannot be measured by the upper limit of ordinary people, so Akutagawa did not react too much, and acquiesced to Tachihara Michizao's behavior.

"I didn't give you a step down out of sympathy for you. The reason I did this is that I really don't feel that I can't make a definition. The truth may still have room for maneuver. Before digging out the matter personally , no one will know what it will look like until he has thoroughly explored everything himself, won't he? And I really want to know," he frowned, and took a step closer, "do you remember Yin? I used to be with me The one who moved, was thin and quiet. She said she wanted to go to you, and she left me a word, and never came back. You know where she is now, don't you?"

Akutagawa Ryunosuke moved his eyes slowly, shifted his gaze to him, and after maintaining a dead silence with him for four seconds, slowly moved his gaze away in parallel.

"I miss her too." Akutagawa said.

These words are much more tactful than the direct narration process, but they convey much more feelings of helplessness and dull pain.Li Yuan Daozao immediately understood the hidden information, and knew what the answer he wanted was.Although he had conjectured about the whereabouts of Akutagawa Yin's life and death, and was ready to get the worst news, when he directly obtained this information, he still felt heavy and almost blocked all his life activities. It's over. "Why? Why did she do this? I don't understand, I don't understand..." The news of Akutagawa Yin's death took root in his body like a monster with its increasingly powerful attack force, crushing his intestines, liver and atrium , and sent the ensuing shock pain directly to the nerves in his brain.

Without hesitation, he took out his gun, aimed it at Ryunosuke Akutagawa's forehead, squeezed the handle of the gun tightly, and placed the belly of his finger on the trigger accurately.Akutagawa Ryunosuke could clearly hear the shaking of the equipment caused by the trembling of his arms, as well as the subtle sounds of the fingertips and knuckles tensing desperately.

"She told me that she wanted to go to your side, wanted to support you forever, wanted to protect you, and then never came back! When I met you again, you were still alive, but she had already left forever. In the world, why is this? If she really did this to protect you, then what are you doing now? Ask yourself, are you worthy of her sacrifice? Ask yourself, why on earth are you, why did you let her give her life? I don't understand. Tell me, please? I really don't understand..."

A gust of wind caused a slight change in the unchanging scene of death around him, and the trees outside the window pressed down to the side with all their might.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke opened his lips, but he had nothing to say. After repeating several times, he finally made a sound: "Do you know that she is a woman?" "I have been investigating for a long time, and I only found out not long ago." " Did you find out her real name?" "What do you mean by real name? Her name isn't a single word?" "The real name is Akutagawa Yin." "Akutagawa? Are you siblings?"

Tachihara Michizak didn't realize that he had lowered the gun in his hand.Just now the gun was aimed at Akutagawa's forehead, and now he is pointing to the floor alone, talking silently.He looked at Ryunosuke Akutagawa.Black hair and black pupils, long eyelashes and beautiful eyelids, fair skin and beautiful neck, slender waist and phoenix eyes.Like, so similar, so beautiful, so similar, especially the pair of mysterious, pure black eyes that are always unwilling to let others see clearly, they are exactly the same.That's right, he should have discovered it long ago, he should have guessed it long ago.Obviously thinking about her all the time, every small flashback that she didn't notice, she was carefully observing and looking at her, but how did she not understand this until now.It turned out that it wasn't just that Akutagawa Ryunosuke didn't see through him further, he also didn't go further to explore Akutagawa Gin and Akutagawa Ryunosuke.

He laughed out loud, but his eyes blurred for some reason.Everything in front of me lost its outline, and was gradually drenched by some warm liquid, leaving only groups of transparent and ethereal color blocks.The hot water droplets overflowed from the eye sockets so realistically, and rolled down gently and forcefully on his cheeks and chin.

"Do you love her?" Akutagawa Ryunosuke looked into his wet eyes, "Then you will hate me, I know, and it's completely understandable. Raise the gun again, Tachihara."

"If death can pay off everything, achieve everything, and usher in a better tomorrow, then we don't have to fight so hard to survive. Living, what can we change, and dying, we really have nothing .Who can succeed your wish? Who will walk this path instead of you, Akutagawa Ryunosuke?"

He raised his neck back to stop his tears, straightened the gun again, and pointed it straight at the middle of Akutagawa Ryunosuke's forehead as before.The muzzles moved back into place, as the ashes around the graveyard got a fishy call to dance again.

"I am also a person with an older brother. I don't know what to say to you, and it seems inappropriate to say such things in our relationship, but I can tell you the truth. If I was by my brother's side at that time, then no matter what lies ahead Cannonballs or blades, I will block him without hesitation. Because he is my brother, there is no need for other reasons. Xiaoyin, she... I always thought she was blindly adoring you and liking your lethal weapon. The way of attack. At that time, I felt that she had no judgment of her own. Now it seems that she has actually chosen her way and has not regretted a single step. She is stronger and more independent than I imagined. I have already got the answer, Thank you for being willing to tell me. So, allow me to ask, how about you? Do you have an answer, Captain Akutagawa?

You and I are both spies, but took two different paths.I chose to avenge my brother who died, to work for the hound out of personal affection, and to deceive those colleagues who were sincere to me.And you?What are you for?Like me, for personal reasons, for relatives?Or for the motherland?Forget it, I also know that you shouldn't say anything to me in your current status, and I don't expect you to answer me.Do you want to go on?Walking is so tiring and bitter, do you plan to go to the end?Going forward, you may lose more, even some things that neither you nor I can imagine, and once those things are lost, they will never be found again.Baiyuncanggou, life and death are the same.The world turns around, but people don't know it.Yasunari Kawabata wrote in his article that happiness is short-lived, but loneliness is long-lasting.When a person learns to stand and walk on two feet, the illness of the soul begins.Are you afraid of this pain? "

Are you scared?Akutagawa Ryunosuke suddenly felt that the answer had already been settled.How unbelievable, when he was just sitting here, he was still thinking about his imminent death, but now he has made a choice that there is no room for turning back.Before he was recalling those past events, carrying on with thoughts of nostalgia and sadness, as soon as he closed his eyes, various details in his life would be gradually pushed out in his mind, and then suddenly swelled and swept away, wrapping him in the other. bosom.

A ruthless blade covered in flesh and blood.A slum strewn with corpses and pools of blood.The fingernails turned up due to struggle after being knocked down by Osamu Dazai.Countless life and death.Those memories crushed him again.He was swallowed by the gurgling blood in his dream, and the power to pull him out had to come from himself, because no one knew where the blood and tears was, except himself. Know exactly why all this is.Why do I think of disaster, is it a simple shadow of the soul, or a call from some kind of future that is approaching one after another?In fact, he was still sinking into vain confusion and inexplicable anxiety. Even if Dostoevsky relieved him, it was only a moment of hypnosis. Woke up from it.If you want to be completely liberated, you can only rely on your own choices.

Akutagawa Ryunosuke opened his eyes and relaxed his tense muscles, only the clear teeth marks on his lips proved that he had complicated thoughts just now.

He escaped from the vortex of memories.The past is the past, even if you think about it thousands of times, it will always be the past.The past will only become more poisonous due to the increase in the number of memories, and it will only become more harmful due to the deepening of the memories.As long as we see through the fact that life will turn into shriveled things sooner or later, then the pain of being scratched by a sharp weapon becomes insignificant.

A bird glides away from the window.

where will it go

If its vitality is limited, it will choose to fly over the Pacific Ocean until the last second, then fall down and die in the sea water.If its vitality is infinite, will it overcome the Pacific Ocean and head straight for the American plate?There is an Atlantic Ocean behind there, and the easternmost part of the Atlantic Ocean lies the St. George Strait, and the port of the Strait is located in Milford Harbor.Lying quietly in the seaport on the edge of the Atlantic Ocean, after a good rest, he followed the British merchant ship to fly deeper.Just like the prosperous scene in the Victorian era, we lived and flipped among the open white sailing ships, and then flew south across the Atlantic Ocean all the way, piercing the Indian Sea and the Bay of Bengal with a hundred-fold coast, and then quietly headed north to the land. After crossing the Korean Strait, I finally flew back to my beloved hometown, the Far East.

A bird made him see life, let him see all the seas and lands, let him walk through the whole world, let him turn the grief of looking down at the grave into the feeling of looking up at the stars in adversity.

Use yourself to redeem the world.

Baiyuncanggou, life and death are the same.A lone guest at the end of the world, living alone.It is not good luck that the flowers fall and the lights go out here.But the beauty of life, the sensuality of life, are things that can be measured by death?How can Baiyun Canggou compare to Longquan Feiyan?Residual flowers and candles, compared to the star Han Canghai, are there any investors?

Akutagawa Ryunosuke faced Tachihara Michizo's gun directly: "No way. I can defeat it."

"Okay!" Tachihara Michizo gritted his teeth and pressed the trigger, "As you wish!"