An Xia's paintings

My name is Xuesong and I am 13 years old.

His name is Xia Xia, and he is my sweetheart.

The encounter between Xia Xia and I was very, very romantic, even more romantic than the plots in all novels and movies.

There are five brothers in my family, and I am the youngest child of my mother.

The original owner couldn't keep so many puppies at home, so he planned to send me and my brothers to a place called a pet shop.I don't know why, I don't want to go anywhere.So, I ran away.

I have been proud of myself for this wise decision countless times.

Because it made me meet Xia Xia.

It was a rainy and majestic night 13 years ago.

It has been 3 days since I ran away from that day.

Because I was still very young, the heavy rain hit my body, it really hurts...

I've been walking around this street for a long time, but I can't find anything to eat.The biting cold wind at night made the bluestone slabs under his feet even colder.

At this time, I came to a road with many big houses lined up.I walked along it and kept walking, but I didn't see a place to hide from the rain.Until I saw a very big tree in a yard.

I was so happy that I got in through the crack of the railing of the gate of the yard excitedly, thinking of getting a good sleep under the big tree.

However, I saw a little boy sitting under the tree.

And, he's still crying.

You guessed it right, he is my Xia Xia.

Xia Xia was very cute when he was a child. He has a round face and black eyes, which is a bit like me.

Although, when I saw him, Xia Xia's whole body was drenched by the rain, and his clothes were tightly attached to him, and he looked very embarrassed, but it didn't prevent me from seeing that he was indeed a cute child.

And I also found out that Xia Xia has been a crybaby since he was a child.

I thought how lucky it was to meet a companion in a heavy rainy day, which made me feel close to him.

At that time, Xia Xia didn't look like an outgoing child, maybe I should say hello to him first.

Just as I was about to approach him, he noticed me.

I excitedly looked at his eyes staring at me, the dark eyes reflected my appearance very clearly.

But... I'm not good-looking at all.

Originally, I was supposed to be a very handsome puppy, but the original owner said that I was the prettiest among the five brothers.

However, in Xia Xia's eyes, I am clearly a ball of dirty wool.

I thought, Xia Xia might not like me anymore, because I look so bad.

But... something unexpected happened to me,

The beautiful Xia Xia didn't seem to dislike me as a ball of dirty yarn, he stretched out a hand towards me.

I looked at Xia Xiabai's chubby fingertips, maybe it meant friendliness.

So, I also raised a paw and put it on Xia Xia's hand.

I saw it on the TV next to the street, human beings would shake hands with each other to show friendship, I have no hands, only claws, but I know that Xia Xia will not despise me.

Since that day, we have become best friends.

Dad said, when I grow up, my hair will become more beautiful, like a pine forest covered with snow, so he gave me a name, called Cedar.

Very moody, right?I have always thought that my name is the most temperamental among all puppies, and I have been complacent about it for a long time.

Dad, he used to be Xia Xia's father alone, but now he is the father of both of us.

In my opinion, Xia Xia is indeed a sensitive child, especially at night.

Just like all children want to find their mother at night, when Xia Xia dreams at night, she will cry for her mother several times.However, I have never seen Xia Xia's mother. At first, I thought she just went to a far away place and couldn't come back for a while. It wasn't until later that I realized that Xia Xia's mother might never come back up.

I don’t want Xia Xia to feel sad. I think I can be his mother. Mothers on TV will call their children sweethearts. In order not to make Xiaxia feel sad, I decide to call him sweethearts from now on.Even though I know, Xia Xia doesn't understand.

Whenever Xia Xia is woken up in a dream, he will definitely cry. Xia Xia is a crybaby. I knew it from the first day I knew him. Therefore, I want to sleep next to him every night, so that he only needs to cry I can find out and comfort him in time.

It's a pity that Xia Xia's condition has not improved. He is more and more likely to wake up at night, and then he can't sleep all night. The skin, I am very anxious, I think I should go to my father.

Xia Xia saw my intention and hugged me quickly.

"Can't go, can't go to Cedar. Don't bother Dad any more."

He hugged me so hard that I felt like I was going to be out of breath.

I struggled for a while, but found that Xia Xia's arms around me did not relax, but tightened more and more. He couldn't hear my uncomfortable whimpers, but kept saying in my ear blankly: "I can't. Can't go, absolutely can't go..."

I cried out because I felt uncomfortable.

For a long, long time, I have always regretted my reckless behavior. I should not have called at that time.

Because my cry not only attracted my father, but also made Xia Xia stay away from me.

He doesn't let me sleep with him anymore, and he won't hold me and cry anymore. When he wanted to cry before, he always hugged me. Why doesn't he want to hold me all of a sudden?

"I can't, I hurt you when I was out of control, Cedar."

Xia Xia told me so, but how could he hurt me?I am Xia Xia's best partner, and he is my darling, how can my darling hurt my best partner?

Although I can't understand it, I can't stop the fact that Xia Xia and I are not as close as before.

Dad started to teach Xia Xia how to draw. In fact, I don't like Xia Xia's painting very much.

Because it seems that with the beginning of painting, Xia Xia seems to have something else to rely on.When she is in a bad mood, Xia Xia will hide in the studio and paint non-stop, but it seems that because of the painting, Xia Xia gradually stops some actions that hurt herself, although occasionally she will cry at night because of nightmares, But he seems to be getting healthy gradually, just like what his father said.

I feel that I am so useless, painting can cure Xia Xia, but I can't.I am not an excellent dog, not Xia Xia's good mother and good partner, Xia Xia may not need me anymore.

Dad seemed to see my depressed mood, and stroked my head to comfort me:

"Xue Song is the person who treasures Xia Xia the most besides her father. Nothing can replace Xue Song's position in Xia Xia's heart. From now on, Xia Xia will continue to ask Xue Song to take care of her."

yes!I am still very useful, I can help my father take care of Xia Xia, so that he can really grow into a healthy child.

I will definitely not let my father down.

I cheer myself up like this in my heart.

My father told me that although Xiaxia is getting healthier and healthier, if he can't fall asleep quickly at night, he will start to think wildly, and his spirit will continue to be tortured by himself.

That's when I realized that Xia Xia cried every night not because of nightmares, but because he likes to think wildly.

I don't know how to make Xia Xia better. I can only accompany him outside his room when I hear him cry. With me, Xia Xia will not be alone. Maybe he mood will be better.

How I want to go into the room and let Xia Xia hold me and cry.

But Xia Xia disagreed. Once he saw me, but he was still unwilling to come and hug me, and just kept crying at me.

Later, Xia Xia became a little healthier again. He began to like sunny days, and started to chase and play with me. He was no longer the child who was silent all day long.

When Xia Xia is in a good mood, she will also kiss and hug me, just like before, except for the occasional cranky problem at night, my sweetheart, it is getting better and better.

However, Xia Xia is only willing to share his happy mood with me. Although he will tell me when he encounters sad things, he will gently put his arms around my neck, but if he is really uncomfortable, he will still return. to his studio.

Is it better to hold the drawing board and cry than to hold me?

Today, I am 13 years old.

Xia Xia occasionally jokingly said that even if Xue Song is 13 years old, he is still a handsome old man!

I've always believed in that too.

But these days, I'm starting to feel like something's wrong with me.

I don't have much strength in my body, and I don't want to eat. Of course, I don't have more energy to take care of the 5 pots of flowers. Speaking of which, in order to get these flowers back, I deliberately bit one of the pots. It really doesn't suit me. Elegant and calm temperament.But what can be done?I can't think of a better way to get them back, and Xia Xia needs them badly again.

The aunt with wavy hair and eyes on TV said that if a child can grow up with small animals and beautiful plants, he will become a healthy and lively person.Although I don't want anything to distract Xiaxia's energy, but...it is not easy to raise a child healthy, and as a parent, I certainly can't be so willful. Yes know.

But recently, Xia Xia's condition is not very good, and he is getting more and more spiritless. Since that day when he went out and came back, he hugged me and said a lot of words that I couldn't understand, and then he has been sleeping in the room and going on again. I haven't come out, I know Xia Xia is in a bad mood, even though I don't understand what Xia Xia said, but I know someone must have bullied my Xia Xia, otherwise he wouldn't be so disappointed.

I was very anxious and wanted to cut the face of the person who bullied Xia Xia with my sharp claws, but I had no strength left. Xia Xia was lying in the room sleeping and didn't come out for a long time. Bring him something to eat, but feel so... overwhelmed.

I thought, I'm really old.

Xia Xia, I didn't notice anything wrong with me.It's a little sad, but it can't be helped.My darling, it must not be intentional, I am not angry.I will never be angry with Xia Xia.

Xia Xia was obviously upset, but Qin Rui and He went on a business trip, so what if no one came to comfort Xia Xia?

You ask me, who is Qin Ruihe?He is my son-in-law!Although, I don't like that kid very much, he has despised me as a dog more than once.Yes, that's how I hold a grudge!

But I know that he is really good to Xia Xia, so even though I don't like it, I still accept this brat.

I no longer have the strength to comfort Xia Xia, I can't even touch him with my nose.

But Xia Xia has been lying in the room sleeping for a long time, he will be hungry.

It just so happens that I can't eat, so I'll leave my share of the meal to Xia Xia.

I'm not a good dog because I can't cook.

I imagined sending the contents of the basin to Xiaxia's door as usual, but I couldn't control my body anymore, I couldn't walk anymore, and I felt sleepy and tired.

I'll sleep first, then I'll take a rest, and then I'll go to Xia Xia, and when Xia Xia opens the door, I'll find out right away, just like before, as soon as Xia Xia leaves the room, she can see me at first sight.

The door opened, and I heard Xia Xia calling me.

I should also open my eyes and run towards him, but I'm really tired, it seems that I don't even have the strength to open my eyes.

Xia Xia Mingming said, even if I am old, I am still an old handsome guy, which old handsome guy would sleep lying on the ground in such an ugly position, at least let me reposition myself.

Xia Xia found me, hugged me with his thin body, and asked me what was wrong.

I wanted to tell him I was fine, just a little sleepy.

But.........

I have no strength left.

Xia Xia seemed to know that I was sick and said she would take me to the hospital.

As soon as he carried me on his back, he ran out the door, but Xia Xia was too thin, he couldn't carry me at all, and I was thrown to the ground in front of Tieshan's door, I regretted it, I knew I would be sick If Xia Xia went to the hospital with my back on my back, I should have started to lose weight a long time ago.Xia Xia is so thin and has no strength, how can she carry me on her back?

At this time, Xia Xia suddenly yelled like crazy, and hit her hand with a big brick.I saw Xia Xia hurting herself so much, and I felt so sad and blamed myself. I wanted to tell Xia Xia that he didn't hurt me from falling, and it had nothing to do with Xia Xia when I fell, it was all because of my eating. Xia Xia won't be able to carry me if she is too fat. My Xia Xia will never do anything wrong, so why treat herself like that.

Xia Xia's hand was bleeding, I feel so distressed, but now I can't do anything, I can only lick the blood on his hand, they say that the dog's saliva has the effect of disinfection, I hope this will make Xia Xia less painful .

I thought, I might have done something terrible to my sweetheart.

My own physical condition, no one knows better than me.

I know, I'm going to die.

Xia Xia has already lost her father, if I leave too, Xia Xia will really be left alone.

Any parting between us is very painful for me and Xiaxia.The good news is that we have been living together for the past 13 years, except for the time when Xia Xia was kidnapped by Qin Rui and that brat to play, we have never been separated.

That time we parted, we could still see each other, but this time, it was as if we were farewell forever.

Suddenly, I caught a glimpse of the big banyan tree in the yard.

I don't know why, but I suddenly want to sit with Xia Xia under the big tree where we met for the first time. It really only takes a while.

Xia Xia seemed to know what I was thinking, and really hugged me under that big banyan tree.

Xia Xia and I were lying together, I saw Xia Xia crying, but I couldn't rub the tip of his nose to comfort him like before.Xia Xia asked me if I remembered the scene when we first met.

Of course I did, and it was something I will never forget in my life.

I raised a paw, I want to shake hands with Xia Xia again.

Sure enough, Xia Xia understood me.

His hands are much bigger than before.Can hold my paw firmly.

I'm sorry, I'm sorry my darling, even if I know that watching me leave you will be sad, but I can't bear it, I think that when I leave this world, the person I see will be you.

Xia Xia hugged me in her arms and chattered something. I wanted to respond, but I couldn't speak.

I want to tell him that I am not angry because Xia Xia didn't notice that I was sick.

I want to tell him that my Xia Xia, my sweetheart, is the best person in the world.

I want to tell him that I am very lucky, because meeting Xia Xia is the luckiest thing I have ever encountered in my life.

If there is really a god in the sky, can you give me a little more time to take a good look at him.

The eyelids were getting heavy and I knew that if I closed my eyes I would never see him again.Absolutely not falling asleep, absolutely not, Xia Xia still needs me, he is not fully healthy yet.

I heard Xia Xia hoarsely not wanting me to leave, and I also miss you, my Xia Xia, if possible, I would never want to leave you for the rest of my life.

But.........

Xia Xia held me tightly in her arms, crying like she was holding me when she was a child, the hair on my neck was wet with Xia Xia's tears.

Ah, I haven't felt this feeling for a long time. The original Xia Xia is still the same as before...depending on me.

I raised my eyes and looked at this big evergreen tree seriously.

The big tree is still as strong as before.

If only I could live as long as the big tree.

I only lived with Xia Xia for 13 years, only 13 short years.

Although this is my whole life, for Xia Xia, 13 years is not a long time.

In the future, without me, what should my sweetheart do?

Will someone stand outside the door to accompany him when he is crying?

Will there be someone, running in the sun with him?

Will someone bring him food when he forgets to eat when he is painting?

Will someone, replace me, become Xia Xia's best partner?

I'm... a bit reluctant.

I'm sorry Xia Xia, please forgive me.

It seemed that the time had come when I had to go.If I leave, only Xia Xia will be left alone, what will he do then?Qin Rui and that kid...are they really reliable?

If it is still possible, I want to become Xia Xia's real mother in the next life, so that I can take care of Xia Xia and stay with Xia Xia for the rest of my life.If I were Xia Xia's mother, I would make Xia Xia the happiest and healthiest child in the world.

Forgive me for leaving first, because I want to go to that place in heaven first, and tell God that I want to be Xia Xia's mother.

Goodbye Xia Xia,

next life,

we'll still be together,

together forever.

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It's all over here!Thank you for the follow-up friends!Although there are many shortcomings in this article, the author guarantees that he will work harder to improve himself!See you in the next article! 【[Blowing Kiss](*￣3￣)╭