Dream or truth...

Chapter 15

A few nights later, Kawashima went back to his room after eating alone.Although living in a beautiful house, there is only one person, and it gets cold anyway.

Despite all the lights being turned on, there wasn't any warm ambience.Kawashima hugged her knees and huddled in the corner, the cold breath in the air reminded her unconsciously of the past.

That night, her mother suddenly woke her up from a deep sleep, and hastily stuffed her, who was still young, into a narrow dark cabinet.

"Chunzi, stay here obediently, no matter what you hear, don't make a sound, wait for mom to come back and take you to the playground~"

"Hmm~" The young girl was just looking forward to her mother's coming to fulfill her promise, but she couldn't see that her mother's smile was so gentle, and also so...sad.

That was the last time she saw her mother.

Or maybe that was the last time she saw her mother alive.

Hiding alone in the darkness, she could hear intermittent screams, beatings and broken glass from outside, and she finally calmed down.

She was terrified, but still kept her mother's advice in mind, and hid inside without saying a word.

When people found her, it was already three days later. She was rescued, and the first thing she saw was her mother's body and the dried blood around her.

Three days without water and the fear of being trapped in the dark had already made her weak, and witnessing the huge impact of her mother's body made her almost faint on the spot.

The people around seemed to say a lot, but she only heard one sentence.

"My parents are dead, it's a pity."

Then came a detective who was said to be very good, and after some reasoning that was said to be wonderful, pointed out the truth.

The murderer was her uncle. Because he owed a large amount of gambling debts and was unable to repay it, he targeted the wealthy sister's family. If the sister's family died, he, as their only relative, could inherit the rich inheritance.

Finally, the detective came over and stroked her hair who was sitting quietly in the corner, and said that the person who killed your parents has been caught, don't be afraid, it's all right.

She raised her head, without any joy in her eyes, she asked: "he was caught, can my parents come back?"

The detective's expression froze suddenly, and she continued, "You know what? He's the only family I have."

At 12, she has nowhere to go.

At the age of 12, when other children grew up happily under the protection of their parents, she could only face the heavy pressure of life alone.

Fortunately, the inheritance left by her parents is enough for her to live a life of worry-free life, as long as she does not spend extravagantly.

However, without the protection of parents, being bullied is commonplace.

Favorite dolls, beautiful clothes, novelty toys...all her favorite things were either taken away or destroyed, and she left without looking back when her most cherished friend took the boy she once told her she liked Afterwards, Chunzi vowed that even if it was by any means, she would get what she wanted.

Then she became very good, the number one sports all-rounder in ten thousand years, but who knew that under the glamorous appearance was a heart full of scars?

When she saw Yuxiang, she was immediately fascinated. For her who has been living in the dark, Yuxiang like the sun has a fatal attraction.

Although that person has been smiling gently at the beautiful boy beside him, although everyone can see the deep bond between them.

I have never wanted to get anything so much, except Yuxiang.

So, she doesn't care about the cost.

It's not that I didn't regret it when I saw Yamada sadly, after all, that child would make people unconsciously want to protect it.

However, he will take Yuxiang away.

She doesn't want to lose any more, no matter what, she wants Yuxiang.She desperately wants to keep Sun with her, even if it means hurting others.

I don't want to stay in the dark anymore, I don't want to live alone anymore, even if it is by any means.

Inside the pendant around her neck is a picture of her photo taken with Yu Xiang, and this is the only one.Although Yuxiang's smile is not too bright, but, after all, it is a photo with himself, it is a photo of Yuxiang with himself as a boyfriend, as long as you see it, you will feel at ease.

This time, his hand felt empty, the place where the pendant was hanging was empty, Chuan Dao panicked all of a sudden, and searched around frantically, all the schoolbags were emptied, every pocket of the clothes was searched, but the pendant was still missing A pendant that is regarded as a treasure.

"How...how can I disappear...impossible..." Kneeling on the ground, Chuan Dao muttered to himself, and disappeared again. What did she do wrong?Why is every cherished thing taken away?

At this time, the mobile phone rang, and before she could wipe away her tears, she hurriedly grabbed the phone.

It was a text message from an unfamiliar number: "Want your pendant? Come to the stairwell leading to the roof on the east side of the teaching building."

When she arrived, she saw the pendant lying quietly on the ground. The joy of regaining it made her rush in without thinking about why the stairwell, which should be locked, was open. As soon as her fingers touched the pendant, she heard the door was locked, and The voices of several girls: "I've been displeased with you for a long time! Just stay here obediently! Hahahaha~~~"

All of a sudden, it seemed to return to the day when my mother died, dark, cramped, immobile, and on the verge of death.

"Don't...let me out! Don't! Let me out! Please! Don't! Don't..." He beat on the door desperately, but got no response.

"Why... Mom... why is this happening... why..." Huddled in the corner, Kawashima wept, suffering from darkness and claustrophobia since the death of her parents.Those who have not experienced it will never know how heavy the fear is.If she was really locked up in this dark and closed place for one night, she might really go crazy.

But the door opened, and a gentle, reassuring voice sounded beside her ears: "Don't cry, it's okay..."

Clutching the corner of the other party's clothes tightly, Junzi sobbed helplessly: "Why... why... I just want to get something that I cherish... why..."

The person patted Junzi on the back to comfort her, with a pleasant smell of strawberries on his body: "I will be hurt because...they are jealous of you..."

"envy?"

"Kawashima is beautiful, has good grades, and is versatile in sports. If you are ordinary, you won't be noticed at all, right? Because Kawashima is the only one who can be so good without any support, he will attract jealousy, because of jealousy That's why I want to hurt you desperately, and I want to prove that you are just an ordinary person."

Kawashima, who finally calmed down, didn't remember to look at the person who comforted him until then, but when he recognized the other person, he bounced back like an electric shock: "Ryosuke Yamada?! How could it be you? How could you be here?" here?!"

Ryosuke smiled indifferently: "On the road, I overheard a few girls saying that you have darkness and claustrophobia. I didn't like you a long time ago. I just picked up the pendant that you usually treat as a baby. Why don't you take this opportunity to treat you , Think about it, even if I tell you, you probably won’t believe it, why don’t you just come here at night..."

"Why do you want to save me? If something happened to me, wouldn't it be good for you?" Aren't you, can you be with Yuxiang?

"... Even if you are gone, we will not be together anymore. He and I have nothing to do with each other. Kawashima, your nature is not bad, I know you like Yuxiang very much. Then, Yuxiang, please You...he likes horse meat sashimi, but don't spoil him; he doesn't like pocket mushrooms, especially spicy ones; he doesn't sleep well at night, he can talk in his sleep, he must turn off the lights when he sleeps, and he has taken a bath After that, you must stare at him and dry his hair before letting him sleep. He will get up in the morning, but please wake him up on time; don’t touch his precious specimens, and you must drag him out for a walk when you are resting .Although I like Yuxiang who plays drums very much, but it is better to go for a walk when I have the opportunity..."

Junzi was dumbfounded as Ryosuke calmly narrated the precautions to her in detail, and suddenly felt that the self who always thought she loved Yuxiang the most was nothing compared to him.

"...sorry..." For all those childish actions and deep hurt,

I am sorry.

Seeing that Junko's tears were about to come out of her eyes again, Ryosuke smiled and patted her on the head.

But when I stretched my hand halfway, I heard a familiar, suppressed angry voice from the door: "What are you doing?!"

It's Yuxiang.

Ryosuke looked at the current situation: Junko messed up her clothes and hair when she was struggling desperately because of the fear just now, and she was still huddled in the corner with tears hanging, while she was stretching out her hand...

MA, seems to be a scene that is easily misunderstood...

Unexpectedly, there was no panic or fear, and he didn't want to give any explanation. Ryosuke just retracted his hand, stood up and smiled faintly: "We are doing what you think we are doing."

"Crack!" Yuxiang slapped him directly, and then pushed Ryosuke hard to protect Kawashima behind him: "I didn't expect you to be such a person!"

Feeling the smell of blood in his mouth, Ryosuke calmly wiped off the red liquid flowing down the corner of his mouth: "In your heart, haven't I always been this kind of person?" It's just that I would naively think that you wouldn't put I imagined it to be so filthy, but I still love you sadly and hold a faint hope for you.

Seeing Liangjie walk away without looking back, Yuxiang suppressed complicated emotions, turned to look at Junzi: "Junzi, are you okay? How are you doing?"

Junko shook his head: "I'm fine. Yuxiang, you misunderstood Mr. Yamada. I was locked here, and he... came to save me."

"What did you say?!" Did you misunderstand him? !And hit him? !What the hell did I do!

"Also, apart from the time when Yamada-kun was drugged, you guys did it once. Yamada-kun said that you don't remember because of the drugged relationship. You just thought it was a dream and didn't want to disturb you, so I don't want to tell you. But You should be the only one who has ever been with him."

Could it be the time when I thought it was a dream?Is that true... No wonder Ryosuke said that he was not qualified to disdain this, no wonder he was so angry at that time, because the person who did this kind of thing to him was Yuxiang Nakajima.

"How do you know? Is your relationship so good?" Suddenly began to doubt the girl in front of him, Yuxiang stared at her, trying to see something.

"Because I was the one who drugged you twice... I'm sorry, everything has nothing to do with Yamada, I did it. He obviously loves you very much and knows all the truth, but he is still willing to save me. I, than But him. I will leave tomorrow. There is a distant relative abroad who is willing to take me to study abroad after learning about me. I think I can’t make up for the mistakes I made before. At least, please, be happy..."

"You..." Yuxiang stared at the girl in front of him and didn't know what to say, he was already in a state of extreme confusion.

In the next second, she was pushed out by Chunzi: "Why are you still in a daze? Go after him!"

Seeing Yuxiang running away, Junzi smiled while holding the pendant.

I think I may never love someone like that again, but Ryosuke Yamada taught me how to love.

Love is not possession, love wants the other person to be happy, isn't it?

When Yuxiang chased him out, Ryosuke had disappeared, and there was only a darkness that was so heavy that it was about to solidify in front of him.

Where will Ryosuke go at a time like this...

There was a low cry faintly in the distance, which was very clear in the silent night.

That direction... the rooftop?

When rushing up, I saw Ryosuke sitting lonely against the wall, looking up at the sky, and the moment I saw Yuxiang, he quickly wiped his eyes with his sleeve, the dark red blood on his knees snaked down his fair skin, Like a flower of blood blooming in the dark night, it is shockingly alluring.

"You're hurt!" In connection with the whisper just now, it's easy to think that the child accidentally bumped into something sharp and scratched himself while running.

Yu Xiang took out a handkerchief to bandage Ryosuke, but was stunned by the other party's cold gaze: "It has nothing to do with you."

"Shan-chan..."

"Please call me Yamada, Nakajima-kun."

"...I'm sorry... Junko told me all..."

"Don't be sorry, I'm that kind of person in your heart, and it's normal to think that way. Besides, what you think has nothing to do with me."

"Shan-chan..."

"I said, call me Yamada."

"Because Junko said she has darkness and claustrophobia, so..." she was interrupted before she could finish speaking.

"So, until now, Yuxiang Nakajima, have you ever thought that I was scared to cry because of the night visit to the campus? Have you ever thought that I am also afraid of the dark? Is it because I am a boy, I I am stronger, so I should bear these injuries as a matter of course?"

"……sorry……"

"Did you really not remember it until now..." Ryosuke muttered to himself, propped up his body and wanted to stand up, "You don't have to be sorry, no one has said it, you must remember."

It's just that I didn't expect it to mean that I am not important to you at all.

So, there is no reason to forgive you.

When he stood up, he staggered because of the pain in his knee, and Ryosuke fell forward like that.

Unexpected cold pain, surrounded by the familiar warm embrace

hug.

The one who should be struggling, that person, has nothing to do with me, doesn't it?

But it's so nostalgic, the reassuring temperature and taste.

Even if it's only for a short while, I still want to be in this embrace, to stay by this person's side, to be protected and loved by him.

She closed her eyes tightly to prevent tears from falling, but her hands unconsciously grabbed the clothes on the man's chest and did not want to let go.

"Liangjie...I like you..." The words that sounded in his ears were like a dream, Liangjie opened his eyes and looked up at that person, and what he saw were those lingering and affectionate eyes.

"Why didn't you tell me I was drugged? Why allow yourself to be misunderstood?

"I have already broken up with Junko, I like you...so forgive me, okay? Ryosuke, is my indispensable existence..."

Wouldn't it be nice to just immerse yourself in sweet talk like this?However, Ryosuke pushed Yuxiang away in the next second.

"Yuxiang Nakajima, do you think I'm your pet? If you're happy, you pat your head, and if you're unhappy, you kick it away? Why don't I explain? Don't you know the reason better than me? If I become a friend, I will not be a lover. In the past, present, and future, it is impossible. You said you like me? What do you think, what is like? You broke up with Kawashima, so you came back to me? Do you think , I will be grateful to Dade, flattered and can't wait to throw into your arms?

"What is indispensable? Didn't I once think that you are my indispensable existence? However, the one who hurt me the most is precisely your 'indispensable'! Now, even without you, I can Have a good time! Who is indispensable? This is just a lie!

"Forgive you? After you have done all those things, how can you say that you want me to forgive you so easily? Why! This time you can hurt me so much, how do I know, there will be no next time?

"Besides that I still love you, what leverage do you have? Why do you think I will forgive you? You tell me again, why should I forgive you?

"If you apologized immediately when I confessed to you, maybe I would forgive you; if you never said that after I was drugged, maybe I would forgive you; if just now, you didn't spare the opportunity to explain Give me none, maybe I will forgive you. But now, what do you want me to use to forgive you?

"Since I confessed to you, we can't go back to the past... I beg you, please, Yuxiang Nakajima, please don't interfere in my life anymore, I like this stage very much, please don't force me I have to quit the company, okay? You just pretend that you never knew me, can you?"

Yuxiang stood silently, watching Ryosuke leaning against the wall with tears streaming down his face, almost hysterical.

attack.

Yes, Ryosuke has no reason to forgive himself, because he hurt him too deeply.

"Don't cry..." Gently wiped away Ryosuke's tears, Yu Xiang saw Ryosuke's trance for a moment, "I'm sorry...it's all my fault. I'm sorry...I don't expect you to forgive me, but in the end , let me hug you, okay?"

Ryosuke neither agreed nor refused.

Carefully hugging that soft body that has been exuding the aroma of strawberries into his arms, sniffing the fragrance of his hair, feeling the slight trembling of the child, Yu Xiang suddenly burst into tears, one by one, disappeared In Ryosuke's hair.

Gently lifted Ryosuke's face, starting from the forehead and kissing down the soft lines, eyelashes, phoenix pupils, nose...and finally landed on the pink lips.

It's not the kind of kiss that seems to want to rob everything, just a simple kiss of lips touching, very pitiful.

In fact, this has exceeded the agreement, but Ryosuke doesn't want to push it away.

This may be the first and last time they will be this close.

So at least, want to make good memories, right?

After the end, Yu Xiang said in a very calm tone: "I will take you home."

In the night, the two teenagers walked quietly. The sky that was still full of stars just now has been covered with dark clouds. The youthful love that died in the beginning...

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Big CHAN: "YAMACHAN, if it's really that painful, how about dating me? I promise I will love you very much~"

Liang: "Okay~"