He's killing me again

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"That's right, Ms. Ning Lan gave us your contact information and expressed the hope that we can contact you..."

"What's up with her?"

"It was an accidental miscarriage, and the patient is currently in a stable condition."

Ning Ci held the phone in a daze, never thinking that such a day would come. After hanging up the phone, he stayed there for a while until Pei Jin noticed something was wrong with him and called him.

"What's the matter?" Pei Jin didn't hear what was said on the phone, but only noticed that Ning Ci's mood became wrong after answering the phone.

Ning Ci's head was in a mess. He should have kept calm, but he still couldn't calm down after hearing the news that Ning Lan had entered the hospital. Still for this reason, he grabbed Pei Jin's clothes and shook his head, burying himself in Pei Jin. arms.

Seeing him like this, Pei Jin frowned deeper and deeper. He didn't know what the call was, but he vaguely guessed that it had something to do with Ning Lan.

Only the matter of Ning Lan made Ning Ci like this. No matter what, Ning Lan was Ning Ci's only relative by blood, but he kept silent, and Pei Jin was even more worried. A hand suddenly stretched in along the hem of his clothes.

Pei Jin snorted: "What are you doing?"

Ning Ci didn't raise his head, just shook his head there, his hands were honestly sticking to the warm abdominal muscles, and Pei Jin couldn't help but grab his wrist, just about to change his position to kiss him, Ning Ci He whispered: "Sleep, Pei Jin, good night."

Pei Jin: "..." If it wasn't for Ning Ci's obvious emotional problems, he would have suspected that Ning Ci had failed his studies and did this deliberately.

Ning Ci said that he was really sleeping when he slept in Pei Jin's arms. He really fell asleep very quickly when he was sleeping in Pei Jin's arms. When he woke up, Ning Ci was changing clothes with his back turned to him, Pei Jin yawned and looked at the time, "Is the alarm clock ringing?"

Ning Ci didn't answer him, but turned around suddenly after putting on his pants, and asked him blankly, "Why haven't you changed your clothes yet?"

Pei Jin: "..." Pei Jin laughed angrily: "You told me you were going out?"

Ning Ci was annoyed: "I forgot... But, but don't you want to accompany me? I don't want to go alone."

Pei Jin: "..." Pei Jin smiled: "You didn't forget, I forgot."

Even if he forgot it was his fault, how could Ning Ci be blamed, he didn't care about cherishing the sleep time during the winter vacation, so he got up immediately.

Ning Ci really forgot, he even forgot to tell Pei Jin where he was going, until he got in the taxi, after reporting the address to the driver, he shook Pei Jin's hand as if waking up from a dream: "My mother She...had a miscarriage, and the hospital called me last night saying she wanted to see me."

He didn't mean to hide it from Pei Jin, but it happened suddenly. After hanging up the phone last night, he wanted to calm down. He couldn't say how he felt about Ning Lan's pregnancy, but pregnancy is one thing and miscarriage It's another matter. No matter how indifferent Ning Lan's attitude was before, he couldn't just sit idly by.

Before Pei Jin pinched his fingers, Ning Ci said to himself: "I don't particularly care, but I still want to see her."

In the past, Pei Jin might have told him not to see Ning Lan, but now he respects any choice Ning Ci makes, and he also believes in Ning Ci. Ning Ci made a decision before, and it will not change now.

Pei Jin hummed: "Let's see."

"No matter what happens, I'm still here."

Ning Ci was silent for a while, "We have to go back as soon as possible, I remember that your paper was only half written last night."

Later, because of harassment, he couldn't continue to write, and the two of them lost their mind to write the paper and simply stopped writing.

However, the originally sluggish atmosphere suddenly became weird again with his words.

For a moment, Pei Jin didn't know whether to worry about him or laugh angrily. At this time, his mind was still full of his papers. If he had known Ning Ci earlier, he would probably be a college bully by now.

"Call me if you have anything to do, I'll wait for you outside."

After arriving at the hospital and asking the nurse about the ward, Pei Jin stopped at the door of the ward.

Ning Ci nodded, and Pei Jin said worriedly: "Don't let her beat you and scold you, come out or call me in if there is such a sign, I have been staying outside."

He is not as kind as Ning Ci, and he doesn't think that Ning Lan will suddenly become a good mother. He was able to put Ning Ci aside when he was pregnant and now he wants to see him again. For Ning Lan, Ning Ci is hers after all. Her own son is still her venting tool for hitting whenever she wants, beating and scolding whenever she wants.

However, now that he doesn't show it at all, Ning Ci understood what he meant, "I know."

He is no longer the Ning Ci he used to be. He knows very well that the problem between him and Ning Lan is so big that it can no longer be made up with family affection. And become a bad self, but after a while: "Pei Jin, can you let go of me first?"

The ward was very quiet. Ning Lan lived in a high-grade ward, and she was the only one. As soon as Ning Ci entered, the smell of disinfectant water hit her face. She turned her head to look over at the first moment, and when she saw that it was him, her originally happy eyes suddenly dimmed a lot.

Ning Ci paused, but only paused, and was used to her reaction, and didn't even try to guess who she wanted to see coming?

Ning Lan lay quietly without speaking, and it was Ning Ci who spoke first: "Is there anything uncomfortable?"

After careful calculation, he hasn't seen Ning Lan for a long time. It may be because she is pregnant. Ning Lan is much fatter than before, but now she looks obviously haggard. After all, she is old, and pregnancy hurts the body, let alone the child. gone again.

"Why are you here now?" Ning Lan's voice was hoarse.

Ning Ci was stunned for a moment, "I'm very tired from studying during the day, and I need sleep at night."

"Isn't it winter vacation now? Where do you live now?" Ning Lan said as if the two of them hadn't broken up before, as if she cared about him, "Go home and live?"

Ning Ci didn't speak, and didn't understand why she was acting like this all of a sudden.

Ning Lan smiled at him with a pale face: "It's good to stay with me at home, I'm boring by myself."

"Where's Uncle He?" Ning Ci cared about the word "accident" in the accidental miscarriage. Ning Lan valued this child so much, it was impossible for him to be so careless, "Why isn't he here?"

As soon as this question was uttered, Ning Ci obviously felt that Ning Lan's breathing became heavier, and he turned his head away from looking at him. After a moment of silence, he became a little angry: "What are you doing so much?"

"Shouldn't you care about me when I'm sick? Who raised you up so much? If it wasn't for you, why would I be like this now..."

"I didn't let you marry Uncle He." Ning Ci had always wanted to say this before. He used to stumble and stumble when talking to Ning Lan before being scolded by her so that he didn't dare to say anything. Now he doesn't know Is it because you know that Pei Jin is outside, so you have a lot of courage, "If your leg was injured because of me and you couldn't dance anymore, you can just blame me and scold me. I know you are in pain, but... I am also in pain. "

Ning Ci stared at Ning Lan for a while, saw that she seemed very angry, and smiled helplessly: "I also blame myself, so I let you beat and scold me, let you vent, but except that I am your son, I'm also an independent person."

"What nonsense are you talking about! Who doesn't treat you as a human being!"

"Then don't put everything on me, Mom, I asked you when you insisted on marrying Uncle He, and you told me that you think you have found true love." Ning Ci said calmly, " I didn't beg you to marry him. After you married him, I got nothing except transferring schools, and I didn't want to get anything, so this matter has nothing to do with me, don't say it's for me anymore. "

"When I opposed the transfer, you told me it was for my own good, but I didn't think so at first."

Ning Lan was weak, and Ning Ci couldn't reply. He could only stare at him in anger and shock. Ning Ci had changed a lot. Inferiority and cowardice, and now not only dare to look directly at me when I talk, but also don't stutter, and I'm a lot fatter than before, and I look much better.

Leaving her, Ning Ci seems to be doing well.

This cognition made the anger in Ning Lan's heart even more uncomfortable.

Why, her child is gone, she has nothing.

She still remembers hearing the conversation between He Yi and He Zhen yesterday afternoon.

He Yi lived in their house directly after the school's winter vacation. Before marrying He Zhen, Ning Lan didn't even know that He Zhen had such a beloved nephew, and this nephew kept saying that he would inherit the He family's property, but yesterday afternoon She was going to drink afternoon tea. Since she was pregnant, He Zhen has been treating her better and better, but it's the same, because the better she eats, the worse her figure is. Sometimes she feels that He Zhen is not like before. He liked her so much, but at the same time treated her very well, until yesterday afternoon when she heard He Yi ask He Zhen about his future family property.

He Zhen made it clear that if it was a boy, he and He Yi would share half of the property, and if it was a girl, she and her daughter would not get a penny.

They probably didn't expect that she happened to go downstairs to hear it, and they were a little surprised when they saw her, and Ning Lan was also very surprised.

From the time she met He Zhen, she always thought that He Zhen really liked her. Even if she tried her best to please He Zhen, it was because He Zhen liked her, but she never thought that He Zhen was such a person... She was suddenly sweating, and she didn't know if it was because she didn't get any money or because of something else.

And He Yi smiled at her blatantly: "Have you heard everything?"

Ning Lan didn't want to talk to him. She was used to bowing to He Yi and pretended to be. At that moment, she just wanted to ask He Zhen what he meant, but when she approached He Zhen, He Yi suddenly pushed her away. For a moment, "What about you, have you found your position?"

She was wearing high heels, she didn't stand still and fell.

The child is gone.

He Zhen and He Yi quarreled. When she woke up, the aunt at home told her that He Zhen couldn't take care of her because of something wrong with the company.

But she knew in her heart that He Zhen might not want to take care of her.

Ning Lan was silent for a long time without speaking. Ning Ci pursed his lips and felt that he was trembling for a long time. He never thought that a complete showdown with Ning Lan would be in this kind of place. He didn't know what Ning Lan called him to come over.

He stood quietly, and suddenly saw Ning Lan crying, Ning Ci was stunned for a moment, Ning Lan suddenly grabbed the pillow and threw it at him, Ning Ci dodged in no hurry, and was hit right by her.

"I just don't want you to have a better life! Why do you live better than me! You should always listen to my words and live in my shadow forever! You have been burdened with sin all your life! It is because of you that I am like this! You Why do you want to get rid of me!"

"Now that I'm sick, you should stay here and take care of me! You must follow me home!"

Ning Ci was a little surprised.

He never knew that Ning Lan had such thoughts in his mind. He always thought that Ning Lan was at most blaming himself for not loving him anymore.

Ning Ci bit his lower lip and suddenly looked at Ning Lan who was crying and scolding in a speechless manner. He didn't notice when the door of the ward was opened, and suddenly put a hand on his shoulder. Ning Ci was stunned for a moment, Pei Jin's deep voice rang in his ears: "Why can't he get rid of you."

Ning Lan also seemed to be stunned. She stopped cursing and stared blankly at Pei Jin who suddenly appeared, her eyes fell on his hands on Ning Ci's shoulders, her expression became distorted: "I told you not to be with him a long time ago. Let's go!"

"Why should he listen to you?" Pei Jin spoke in a good tone, not particularly awkward. Ning Ci grabbed his hem in a daze for a while but didn't stop him. Pei Jin had the bottom line in his heart: "He is Independent people have the right to choose their friends."

"It's not that the title of a mother can make your child fall into a state of self-doubt, self-paralysis, and refusal to communicate with anyone for several years, and you don't need to show me this expression, although the past ten years I haven't appeared in Ning Ci's life for a few years, but I think I treat him better than you treat him during this time, at least I care about his feelings, know that he has the right to choose, and never restrict his friends. "

Of course, except for those who try to hook up with Ning Ci.

"I've checked you and your husband, yes, that's He Zhen, and I'll give you a pertinent suggestion. If you think Ning Ci caused you to become like this, you can choose to divorce He Zhen." Pei Pei Jin's words completely interrupted Ning Lan's thoughts. After Pei Jin finished speaking, he even picked up Ning Lan's pillow and helped her put it back in place. "If you can't find a good lawyer, you can find me."

Ning Ci also didn't expect Pei Jin to raise this suddenly. He was as stunned as Ning Lan, and didn't quite understand why Pei Jin would suddenly propose such an approach. After a while of silence, Ning Lan asked him in a bad tone: "Why should I divorce He Zhen?"

Pei Jin smiled: "He didn't even accompany you in the hospital, and you think Ning Ci forced you to marry him. If that's the case, Ning Ci won't force you now, why don't you divorce him?"

Ning Ci was going to be fainted by Pei Jin.

"You..." Ning Lan's chest heaved violently.

"Don't get angry. The most important thing for you now is to rest. Ning Ci and I will hire a nurse for you. It's better than He Zhen not coming to see you. Ning Ci is still busy with his college entrance examination review." The implication was that she was still disturbing Ning Ci study.

Ning Lan was indeed very angry, but she couldn't say those curse words when facing Pei Jin. Although Pei Jin was smiling, her face was very fierce. After half a minute of being blocked for words, Ning Lan spoke again. Turning to Ning Ci who has been silent since just now: "Ning Ci, I don't agree with you staying with him! Have you been spoiled by him! I told you a long time ago not to be with him! You What qualifications do you have to manage our family's affairs?"

The scene seems to have returned to the day at Pei Yuan's birthday party. In Pei Jin's room, Pei Jin treated Ning Ci's wounds roughly. The resignation is the kind of telling him in a very decisive tone that he is not qualified to take care of it.

And now it's different.

After Ning Lan finished saying those words, Ning Ci took a step forward, held Pei Jin's hand frankly in front of Ning Lan, and bowed to Ning Lan with a little apology: "I No answer."

"Mom, I forgot to introduce you. This is my boyfriend, Pei Jin."

At that moment, Ning Ci felt that his hand was tightly held by Pei Jin, which was painful, and Ning Lan was stunned because of his words, Ning Ci took a deep breath: "We will find a good one for you." of the nurse."

"But in the future...if it's not something very important, don't look for me anymore, and I won't talk to you." Ning Ci bowed deeply to her again: "Thank you for your kindness in nurturing, I will Support you, but I will no longer be at your mercy."

When he used the word "you", it seemed that the mother-child relationship between him and Ning Lan had been separated, as if he had become an ordinary junior and elder, and Ning Lan felt a sharp pain in his heart.

"You have a good rest."

Ning Cilai just wanted to see if she was okay. Now it seems that she is fine, and she doesn't need my care.

Ning Lan clutched the bed sheet tightly and stared at the back of Ning Ci and Pei Jin going out holding hands. The moment Ning Ci stepped through the door of the ward, Ning Lan was hysterical: "If you have the ability, you step over! Don't call me mom again!"

She didn't know if Ning Ci didn't hear it.

Ning Ci stepped over without even pausing.

"Why did you ask her to divorce He Zhen just now?" On the way out of the hospital, Ning Ci couldn't help asking, he heard Ning Lan's words, but it didn't matter to him, he still cared about Ning Lan and worried about Ning Lan. Lan, but that's all. The nurse who promised to hire Ning Lan will definitely hire him, but Ning Ci never thought about Pei Jin's suggestion. He knew that Ning Lan wanted to marry He Zhen voluntarily.

Pei Jin, huh?He said, "Want to know?"

He suddenly became unprincipled again, and leaned in front of Ning Ci, surrounded by people, but Pei Jin squeezed Ning Ci to the wall, Ning Ci was almost face-to-face with him, and Pei Jin still There: "I will tell you with a nice voice."

Ning Ci: "..." At this time, Pei Jin still... "Brother." Ning Ci shouted simply.

Pei Jin smiled: "Because He Zhen's company cooperated with Pei Yuan, Pei Yuan lost money, and He Zhen was also unlucky, and Pei Yuan was messed up, and He Zhen was also unlucky."

He Zhen asked for it himself, desperately trying to get on the boat of Pei Yuan, and Pei Yuan, maybe because of Ning Ci, or maybe for profit, agreed to cooperate with He Zhen in business. Keng He Zhen threw him away. Unexpectedly, the two of them became grasshoppers on the same rope.

Pei Jin laughed: "Do you think there is karmic reincarnation in this world?"

Ning Ci never thought that this would be the case. If it was a coincidence, fate would be too coincidental, and Pei Jin had already given Ning Lan a reminder. Given how much he hated Ning Lan, it was entirely possible that he was willing to make this opinion. It's for Ning Ci's sake.

"Then my mother..."

"That's her own choice, it has nothing to do with you." Pei Jin told Ning Ci seriously again: "We Ning Ci just need to study hard, go to university and be ourselves." He used his fingertips to draw Ning Ci's face Eyebrows: "We gave her a choice, whether it was in the past or in the future, she chose her own life. You are just you, an independent you."

"But when she comes to you in the future, I hope you are like today."

Be as brave, decisive and independent as you are today, don't be led away by Ning Lan again.

Ning Ci is Ning Ci, the confident and beautiful Ning Ci, the one he likes.

"Just walking out of that door, I have already expressed my attitude." Ning Ci raised his eyebrows and smiled helplessly: "Why do you have so little confidence in me?"

"It's not that I don't have confidence, it's that I'm worried about you." He was afraid that Ning Ci's mood would be affected by Ning Lan, and a few seconds later he became aggrieved again: "What if you want her again and don't want me?"

"No." Ning Ci was firm: "I only want you from now on."

After speaking, he felt that the words were not right, and Pei Jin's eyes suddenly became strange, so he quickly pursed his lips, wanting to remind Pei Jin that he was in the hospital lobby, when he was about to speak, he suddenly heard someone calling him name.

"Ning Ci?" The dance teacher held a bouquet of flowers in surprise and tilted his head to look over Pei Jin's broad back to see the small half of his face that was exposed.

Ning Ci hurriedly pushed Pei Jin away, Pei Jin clicked his tongue in dissatisfaction, and when he turned around, the dance teacher was even more surprised: "Pei Jin?"

Ning Ci: "..." There is nothing more embarrassing than being seen by the teacher so close to each other in public.

But the dance teacher obviously didn't care, and just asked with a smile: "Are you here to see your mother? By the way, I almost forgot to tell you. When I first saw you, I thought you looked familiar. Later, I deliberately I went to ask your mother to confirm that it was you, I wonder if you still remember me?"

"I used to work in the same studio as your mother."

Ning Ci was completely stunned.

No wonder the dance teacher looked at him like that when we first met, no wonder Ning Lan knew that he and Pei Jin had such a good relationship at that time...

"I didn't tell you before because I was afraid that it would affect your practice. I have seen you in junior high school." Seeing Ning Ci's blank face, the dance teacher smiled: "But then your mother didn't come to the studio again. I didn’t go there either. I remember that day. Your mother and I participated in an application. The classroom floor was too slippery and we all fell. I can’t be a professional dance teacher anymore. Your mother must have been injured. She I wanted to keep going, but when it was dark, she picked you up when she saw that you hadn’t come to look for her. I didn’t expect that she would never come to the studio again. We had a good relationship at that time, and I always It's a pity I didn't have the opportunity to say goodbye to her."

"I didn't expect that we would meet again because of you. This should be considered a kind of fate?"

"...which day is it?"

But there seems to be no need to ask.

Ning Lan never went to the dance studio or picked him up from school.

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