you are still on the long street

I will hold on to straws that were not worth mentioning before, even if I still drown.

I didn't dare to "try" with him at the beginning, maybe I had foreseen such a result, but I didn't sink deeply at that time, unlike now I tasted candied fruit and became addicted.When I was an outsider, everything seemed to be clearer than it is now.Now, I only have the road under my feet in front of me, and I don't know how long I can walk.

In fact, I have been passive.

I don't know whether he likes or depends on me. I only know that I like the feeling of maintaining this relationship with him.

I still love him now.

I want to move on with him at least for now.

If one day, we will eventually separate, this will also be a memory that I don't regret.

Even if it's just a different kind of heating.

"Are you up yet?" He called.

"I'm at your door." I remember where An Xuan's house is.But when I went there before, I never saw Ye Zichang.

"I'll be out right now."

Today will be our first date.However, it is not the same as other couples.In the morning we go back to the library, I go to read a book, he has to write a paper.Have a meal at noon and go to an Internet cafe in the afternoon.Watch a movie together in the evening and then come back and keep doing what you have to do.

I am quite satisfied with this arrangement. Between men, some formulaic things are actually unnecessary, as long as they are comfortable and happy.

Early in the morning, there was no one in the library. He and I each found the books we needed, and then went to the cubicle in the library.The inner side of the compartment is a layer of frosted glass, and the outer side is a floor-to-ceiling window, which can clearly see the trees outside.

Everything that quiets down makes people's mood gradually calm down.We sat opposite each other, the only sound being the faint sound of him typing on the keyboard of his laptop.I occasionally raised my head to look at him, he was very focused, his slender fingers were jumping lightly, his lowered eyes were fixed on the screen, his eyelashes were like a curtain, and his gaze was not distracted.

When he was studying, his whole body became quiet, and all the sharp thorns that covered his body in the past were put away, leaving only the clear goal in front of him.I don't want to disturb him. It seems that even just a little sound will cause waves in the calm lake, destroying his own small world that he built.

Suddenly, he raised his head and met my gaze.Maybe it was because my eyes were too hot, I didn't want to disturb him, but it still had an effect.

He just smiled, bowed his head again, and continued to study.

I suddenly wanted to kiss him.

During lunch, he kept complaining to me about this thesis, with helplessness in his eyes.Obviously he was so calm just now, but now it's as if he has been switched mode, returning to the naive him who was chattering.

I gave him some advice, and he put away his playful look, as if he could remember everything after hearing me say it once.

When we went to the Internet cafe in the afternoon, we played the same MOBA game.In the game, he is decisive in killing, advances and retreats in a certain way, and is excellent in both technology and consciousness.It stands to reason that I've been playing the game longer than him, but I'm not even as productive as he is.

In addition to emotional aspects, this person is really excellent.

"Chang Chang, let me assist you."

"What did you call me?"

We all wear earphones with voice on.The other party's voice seemed to be coming close to the ear canal, which made my scalp tingle.

"What do you want me to call you?" I asked again.

"Yangyang, you can shut up."

I chuckled twice, and he turned and glared at me.

Tired of playing MOBA, we started playing online games again, and it happened that we both had the same online game account.I started playing this online game when I was in high school, and spent a lot of money on it.Ye Zichang moved his head closer, and when he saw my equipment, he let out a "fuck" in surprise.

"Lu Yang, is it okay to buy your number for three thousand?" He half-jokingly said.

"Three thousand is too little. But if you want to play, you can borrow it." I raised my eyebrows.

When he was writing the book, he asked, "This book...just the two of us? I'm too fragile, will I..."

"I'll cover you, what a big deal."

Until we turned off the phone, he was still muttering: "Damn, your out-of-print equipment is so fucking easy to use."

We only played the book once, and he insisted on changing numbers to play with me, so I had no choice but to follow him.

"Next... go to the movies." Ye Zichang sat in the passenger seat, opened the backpack that he was always carrying, and took out two movie tickets, "Sci-fi movies, can you watch them?"

I nodded and said, "OK."

When the lights in the movie theater were all turned off, I held his hand like many times before, but only this time, he was truly, completely mine.

He also grabbed me tightly, and I seemed to feel his smile: "We are not watching horror movies."

I scratched his palm and he pinched me.

"It is said that the monitoring in the cinema is infrared." I said.

"Ok?"

"Do you believe it?" I asked.

"what?"

I went over and kissed him.

He was stunned for a moment, then laughed softly: "Let's take a good look at you."

When I got home, he hugged me first, so I had to turn sideways and close the door.We just had some dinner out and he wanted to drink, so now he's drunk again.

I don't know why, but I'm a little afraid that he's drunk.

"Okay, okay, let go first."

"Don't go."

"I do not go."

"Well……"

The idiot fell asleep.

I helped him tidy up for a long time before I moved him to the bed cleanly.Seeing him drunk into that puddle of mud, I don't want to be lustful, after all, I'm not a beast.

When he was sleeping... he was very quiet, still like a cat, except that this cat would no longer scratch people's faces, and would only "purr purr" to expose its belly, very docile.

I hugged him behind him like a cat.

my cat.

The author has something to say: Because of the perspective, it is impossible to fully express Ye's psychological changes, and I plan to write a special episode from his perspective after the end.

In fact, Ye was a little vacillating before. As for what happened in those two weeks, there will be a side story.

Another chapter will probably be posted tonight.

☆、Chapter 40

An Xuan is sick.

In fact, there are already signs.Her long-term misery and fatigue have worn down her not-so-long body.Fate is so ridiculous, when she was eager to stand up, it gave her another blow to the head.

The family relationship between An Xuan and Ye Zichang is very delicate.Their parents were at odds, and their mother found out she was pregnant again after divorcing their father.Ye Zichang took her mother's surname and lived with her all the time.When he was ten years old, his mother got a new marriage and had to send him back to his father.Only then did he know that he had a father.

There, he met his sister, An Xuan.

They had some friction at first because their personalities were so similar.Later, they gradually became harmonious.Their father remarried but had no more children, so they became his father's all hopes, especially Ye Zichang, who have been pampered since then.

I once heard An Xuan talk about her brother from heaven, but what An Xuan told me at the time was not the name "Ye Zi Chang", what was it?

An Cheng.

The name of his home.

Although he has been using the name "Ye Zichang" now, whether it is on the ID card or the household registration book.But in the An family, he was called "An Cheng".

An Xuan was ill, and kept calling two names in the nightmare.

"Chengcheng...Xiao Yang..." She was still wearing an oxygen mask, her voice was indistinct.

She is calling me and Ye Zichang.

"Did she still not let go?" Qi Kai stood beside me, and I came to the hospital with him to visit An Xuan.It is said that she fainted in that man's house and frightened Yang Yang.

I didn't respond to him.

I remembered that just now, we could only stand outside the ward, watching the man hold her hand.We can't go in until the man answers the phone and leaves.

That's An Xuan's husband.When they got married, they didn't even hold a ceremony, they just went to get a certificate, and they were considered husband and wife.Until now, I only know that the man's surname is Huo, and that he is a beast.

Both Qi Kai and I have seen her collapse. She cried and told us that she was pregnant and that she would never be able to get rid of that man for the rest of her life.Qi Kai once tried to find fault with that man, but was bruised in the end.I also talked to him, but he said: "I really love An Xuan, you have no position to negotiate terms with me." Regarding the conversation that day, I forgot the specific content, all I know is, that person, definitely not An Xuan will be let go.

We don't know what An Xuan has experienced in these years.She has not suffered domestic violence, but her spirit has been broken.

As we were leaving, the man's two bodyguards went in and closed the door directly.

When I got home, Ye Zichang was already waiting for me at home.He had class in the afternoon, so he couldn't go to see An Xuan with me. When he saw me, he said nervously: "My sister, how is she?"

I reassured: "It's out of danger."

Ye Zichang was still worried, and he was very anxious.I glanced at the end table, he had torn up a lot of toilet paper and scattered it all over the place.

"Lu Yang, my sister really liked you back then." He sat on the sofa, scratching his head with his hands.

I didn't respond to him.

"Lu Yang, we... are all in your hands." Ye Zichang hadn't raised his head yet, "She knows everything about us."

I don't know what to say.There was a sense of relief, followed by tremendous stress.Could it be because of this that An Xuan fell ill.

"Did you tell her?" I asked.

"No." Ye Zichang said, "She...probably guessed, she...may have checked my phone, and I didn't delete the message."

"It's okay, it'll be fine. Have you eaten yet?" I stroked his back, and he nodded.

"Want to play a game?" I asked, "Shall I turn on the computer for you?"

He shook his head, stood up, and his voice showed his exhaustion: "No, I'm going to sleep. You should also go to bed earlier."

"it is good."

After Ye Zichang entered the room, I was the only one in the living room.I went to the balcony and lit a cigarette.

I'm really selfish.What I still think about until now is who Ye Zichang will choose.

Choose me, or his sister?

I'm a little sick of being so selfish.

I made a call to:

"Hello, is that Mr. Huo? I'm An Xuan's friend."

"Lu Yang, is there something wrong?"

"Can I help take care of Yangyang for a few days? This should be An Xuan's wish."

There was silence for a while, and a sneer came: "Okay, I will send it to you tomorrow."

Sure enough, I guessed right, Yang Yang was just a tool for that person to tie up An Xuan.Between An Xuan and Yang Yang, he will definitely choose An Xuan, which is probably one of the reasons why An Xuan wants to leave him.

"By the way, tomorrow, is Mr. Lu interested in chatting with me?"

I look out the window at the traffic, my own face reflected in the glass.

"Okay."

The author has something to say: After that, it will be more uncertain to change the single and double every day.

Do it again and it's over

☆、Chapter 41

When I entered the private room of the restaurant, I really felt the oppressive atmosphere. There were two bodyguards in black standing beside him, and he was sitting on the other side of the huge round dining table, opposite to me.

He is of mixed race, with deep-set eye sockets and light-colored eyes, making him handsome but indifferent.Those eyes seem to have sharp knives, if he is not quick, he can cut you into pieces.

I heard that his background is shady, and I never got to know it in depth, so as not to cause trouble.

"Mr. Lu, we are short on time, so I'll just get straight to the point." He swung his goblet and took a sip of red wine, "Don't blame me for speaking too bluntly."

"You said." The atmosphere became more and more oppressive, but I became calmer than before.

"My wife... has always had unrealistic ideas about you, Mr. Lu. What does Mr. Lu think about this?" He asked.

"I don't know, but it's really her freedom."

He laughed a few times, and when he put down the wine glass, there was a muffled sound from the table.His expression didn't change much, and it was hard for me to judge his mind, so I could only take one step at a time.

"I always believed that Mr. Lu would not cause unnecessary trouble in front of me. I also felt troubled for Mr. Lu, so I told her about you and An Xuan's brother in advance. I didn't expect She will fall ill in a few days." He raised the corner of his mouth, stroked his chin, then raised his eyes to meet my gaze.

I can't show any cowardice, or I will be completely defeated. "We will tell her sooner or later, thank you, Mr. Huo, for helping me with this first."

We are all giving each other steps and waiting for the other to go down.

"Not much to say. As for me, I hope that after An Xuan wakes up, Mr. Lu will make a clear statement to her and try to make her give up completely." He stood up, smiled at me, and when he came to me, He pointed to the ceiling, then patted my shoulder, and said in a low voice; "Be careful."

Walking to the door, he turned his back to me, and said again: "My daughter's name is Huo Xinci, not 'Yangyang'."

I'm a little confused.

Even when he was smiling, I could clearly feel his hostility.

As for why pointing to the ceiling told me to "be careful", I really don't understand, and I also feel worried.

Later, his driver brought Yang Yang over.Without An Xuan, her family's environment would not be much better.Every day I will personally pick Yangyang to the kindergarten. If I don’t have time, I can ask Xiaoliang to help.

I plan to take care of Yangyang until Anxuan recovers completely, and then talk to her about the things between us, and make a settlement for these things.

Ye Zichang will come back these few nights, with him accompanying Yang Yang, Yang Yang can relax a bit.

I'm just curious, how did that Huo know about me and Ye Zichang?

It's hard to get out of the underdog when dealing with him.

The author has something to say: a short article

Today there is only this chapter (～'(oo)')～

☆、Chapter 42

In the past few days, everyone is very tired.When Qi Kai and I went to visit An Xuan, we were blocked outside, only Ye Zichang could go in occasionally.An Xuan woke up for a few days, but kept silent.The doctor said that her problems were mainly psychological, and she should find a psychiatrist as soon as possible.

The guy surnamed Huo insisted on going his own way, and I always felt that he would harm An Xuan.

If I hadn't pulled Qi Kai, he would definitely have made trouble again.

That Huo is a psychopath.

I leaned against the corridor wall and waited for the leaves to come out.The two bodyguards standing at the door seemed to be staring at me, for fear that I would rush in suddenly.I rolled my eyes at them, but they remained expressionless.

Qi Kai walked towards me and motioned for me to follow him.I looked back again, thinking that Ye Zichang might not come out yet, so I left with him.

We walked to the opposite side of the building and entered an empty consulting room.I was a little puzzled, maybe Qi Kai knocked the doctor unconscious and threw him out, and then stole his key.I didn't know what he was going to do until I saw the telescope by the window.

"I've seen it. This angle and position are the most visible. There are at least four bodyguards inside, carrying things like batons. If we bring down the two at the door..."

"What are you going to do?" I always felt that he was going to do something terrible.

"Bring An Xuan out and let her receive psychological treatment. I know many excellent psychiatrists in China, and there is always someone who can treat her. I talked to that idiot surnamed Huo, and he disagreed." Qi Kai looked calm, and I When he remembered what he was going to do in the past, he also had the same expression.

"How sure?" I think if it works, I can try it. After all, An Xuan fell ill this time, and I cannot escape the responsibility.

"It's only [-]% now. After all, the security of the hospital is quite advanced. It's too difficult to steal someone out."

"So what are your plans?" I asked.

"Not yet."

"Then what are you talking about." I kicked him and looked away from the telescope.Because the window was blocked, I only saw three people, Qi Kai saw four before.We are not sure if there are any inside, after all, it is the largest ward of this hospital, if the people inside surround An Xuan's bed, we have no chance of winning at all.But from the analysis of that person's personality, he generally wouldn't put so many men by An Xuan's side. If there were no female bodyguards, there wouldn't be so many men.

We sat in this consulting room for a while, but the door of the consulting room was closed, and people from outside could not come in.We had a rare moment of silence and analyzed several plans, but the success rate was not high.

I still think this action is too crazy.If I were just a student with no worries, I would dare to try no matter how low the success rate was.But people always live more and more timidly. After weighing the pros and cons, I always feel that this is not feasible and the risk is too great.

I was silent when my cell phone rang, and it was Ye Zichang calling.

"Where are you? Let's go back." His voice was still so spiritless.

"Okay, I'll go get the car out." I stood up.

After hanging up the phone, Qi Kai joked, "Your wife?"

I rolled his eyes at him, the events of that year have been reversed, we have all let go, and this is no longer a taboo.I joked: "You don't want to be my wife, so why don't you let me find someone else?" He laughed a few times.

When I went out, I closed the door for him.As soon as I turned my head, I saw Ye Zichang.

"Why are you here?" I grabbed his shoulder.

"That beast sent people to follow you." He looked tired, "I scared you away."

He took my hand away, as if a little unhappy.I thought he might have heard the joke I made to Qi Kai just now, so he first explained: "The one inside is my college classmate, we were just joking."

He sneered twice, raised the corner of his mouth, and said, "I didn't say anything."

I was choked up, not knowing what to say.I'm afraid that the explanation he made out of hesitation seems to him that there is no silver 300 taels here, and the description is getting darker and darker, so he simply doesn't describe it.

"Let's go." I walked away first.

When he was in the car, he didn't say a word, he must still be thinking about it.I plan to find a chance to explain it to him, anyway, he won't listen to what I tell him now.

At night, I hugged him from behind and he seemed to freeze for a moment before curling up into a ball. "What are you doing?" he asked calmly, sounding like a question.I was a little unhappy, but I had to suppress it.

"I want to coax you, give me a chance." I kissed his neck.

"Don't coax me, I'm not angry."

He is so abnormal that if he was normal, he would probably fight me first.

I continued to kiss him, from the neck to the earlobe, listening to his panting slowly become rapid. "Do you want to do it?" he asked.

"Yes. But if you don't want to..."

"Then do it. Keep your voice down, and don't let Yang Yang hear it."

"Are you really not angry?"

"No." He smiled helplessly, "I don't have the energy to be angry."

I still don't think he's right.

Hope it's just my illusion.

The author has something to say: see if I can get a chapter out tonight

Now lay the groundwork (～'(oo)')～