I lost my memory after throwing the ball and running over the total crematorium

I don’t know where I’ve seen that people’s physical sensations always come after the spiritual ones, and then it’s long overdue.

It's like the relationship between light and sound.It must have been illuminated by the silver-white light first, and after a sudden silence, the rolling thunder exploded in the ear canal.

Naturally, the physical sensations are never as quick and intense as the mental ones.Just as at this moment, Yuan Cisheng was hit hard by the fear that hit his head, so he subconsciously held on to the door frame to support his paralyzed body.

When he was extremely nervous, he seemed to really see the sword of Damocles hanging above his head, and the bright silver light reflected by the sharp blade dangled back and forth on his neck.

"Niannian, it's almost twelve o'clock, let's go to set off the fireworks." He heard his own voice, hollow and stiff, it didn't seem like it came from the mouth of a living person.

He Jingnian didn't respond.

Yuan Cisheng took a step forward, leaned over, and stretched out his hand towards him.It doesn't matter, he told himself, the doctor said, if He Jingnian really loves him, and his feelings for him are enough to overwhelm his obsession with the young master, then there is still hope for everything.So far, he and He Jingnian have said "I love you" to each other countless times. He Jingnian loves him so much, it will definitely not leave him in despair.

"Go away!" He Jingnian screamed and waved his hand away, his face distorted in horror and confusion. "Don't come near me, you are not a young master at all!"

A bone-piercing chill pierced through the top of the head, and the voice of the original speech was split in two from the soul to the flesh.He Jingnian absolved him of his crime, the sharp knife fell with a "boom", and he was sentenced to death that could never be pardoned.

He Jingnian's love for him was all soap bubbles based on lies and deceit.

He Jingnian's love for the young master is the firm, true and unchanging belief.

How can he compare with the young master.

How can he be compared with the young master.

"I... yes." Yuan Ci's hand wrapped around He Jingnian's shoulder like a hissing python.He said: "Niannian, I am. You look at me, I am the one you love."

"Shhhhhh!"

I don't know who set off the fireworks, and the light rose into the sky, shining through the night, red, yellow, green and purple, reflecting the room gorgeously.

"You're not...you get lost, you're not him at all!" He Jingnian backed away desperately, his back touching the dead corner of the hard wall.He was forced to have no leeway, no matter his body or mind, was held in the hands of this devil who lied about himself as the young master before him.

Hearing him expose himself, the devil seemed to become anxious, and the power to hold him was getting stronger and stronger, as if he wanted to rub him into his arms and prove his heart with flesh and blood. "Every year... every year..." The devil yelled his name indiscriminately, and the hot breath sprayed on his cheeks and neck, almost scalding his skin.

"It's really me, please believe me. I'm really the young master. Walkman...that walkman was given to you by me, don't you remember? Also, we also met in such a cold winter , have you forgotten all of this?"

Of course I didn't forget.How could I forget.But those beautiful things only belonged to him and the young master, and had nothing to do with the devil.He Jingnian gritted his teeth and thought that he would never be deceived by him again.The devil's blindfold tricks can fool him for a while, but not for a lifetime.The scarf in his hand is the ironclad proof that the real young master would smile and hug his old picture album in his arms, how could he belittle his feelings.

"You're talking nonsense!" He Jingnian dug his fingers into the densely woven wool of the scarf, tore it vigorously, then threw it to the ground and trampled on it.The devil was in a hurry and tried to snatch the scarf back, so he stepped on the devil's hand again.The devil has sinister intentions, and even his hands are transformed into exactly the same as the young master, with slender knuckles, white and beautiful, really disgusting!

He stomped on these hands fiercely, and in his blurred and shaking vision, he saw that these hands were already convulsed and twisted in pain, but they were still holding on to the scarf tightly.

"Niannian... This is the birthday present you gave me." Until now, the devil is still pretending, with a tall body curled up at his feet, and the deformed scarf is as tattered as a rag, but he treats it as a What rare treasure is guarding his chest. "I like it very much, I am very touched, we spent a wonderful Christmas together, we..."

"Shut up! I don't want to listen!" Until now, the devil is still deceiving him with sweet words. He Jingnian was so angry that he stretched out his feet and kicked him. "Who will give you a birthday gift, will you have a birthday too? Christmas is the day when gods are born, are you worthy of being born on this day?"

After being pierced by his shameless lies, the devil trembled in pain as if being punished by heaven.He grasped his ankles with trembling hands, and then imitated the cultist despicably, pressed his face against the instep of his feet, rubbed his dry lips vigorously, and hot tears filled the gap between his toes again.

"Niannian, I beg you, can you give me a chance to love you? I won't lie to you again, I will... definitely... love you well, no one will love you more than me."

The devil's choking turned into crying, and he confessed his love to him with too real treacherous tricks, and he seemed eager to dig out his heart to prove it to him.But, who would want a devil's heart?The devil is holding a stone full of horns, and foolishly thinks he has a human heart.

He Jingnian hated and was amused at the same time, he pulled his foot out from the opponent's embrace with all his strength, it was wet and painful, and the snow-white back of the foot was covered with tooth marks and red marks.The devil has polluted his heart and will pollute his body.

"Stop dreaming! I don't want you to love me, don't you love me!" He picked up a glass vase and smashed it down hard.

The vase was heavy and full of water, and the devil must have been in pain, and shook it but it didn't fall down.Rose petals spread around him like tears of blood.

"I only love the young master, and I will always love him alone! I can't love you if you become him! No one will love you! You are a disgusting monster!"

Outside the floor-to-ceiling windows, fireworks rose into the sky brilliantly, and the light bloomed, illuminating the face of the devil who suddenly turned up.That face was covered with tears and blood, but it was still shockingly beautiful.The more beautiful the more poisonous, the ultimate beauty is deadly poisonous.

"Niannian... Is this how I am in your heart? Do you also think I... am a monster?" He slapped his eyelashes down, looking heavy and struggling because of the blood.In an instant, those bloodshot eyes flashed with an extremely sad light, that light was like sharp broken glass, which could shatter anyone's heart.

"Give me back the young master..." He Jingnian's voice was very low, but tears welled up.He looked at the devil who was still trying to act, and said: "Give me back my young master...don't pretend to be a young master to deceive me again! I...have I hurt you? I have done too much to you matter?"

"No...! Every year, it's all my fault, it's all my fault, I..."

He cried and interrupted him, "Then why did you treat me like this? Why... the young master became like you? You ruined my young master, I will never see him again!"

"Do you like him that much?" The devil seemed to be blind, groping to grab his hand, clenched it tremblingly, and tremblingly pressed it to his heart. "My feelings for you are no less than your feelings for him. Can you just look at me more? Please, don't turn a blind eye to me. You... really make my life worse than death..."

"Then you should die!" He Jingnian raised his voice, "Anyway, you will only bring pain to others, and every time I see you, I feel pain! You'd better disappear and never show up in front of me! "

As soon as the words fell, the devil suddenly seemed to be stabbed to the most painful place, and his slender and vigorous body exploded like a wild beast preying on it.As soon as He Jingnian felt the shadow suddenly drop in front of his eyes, he was thrown to the ground, his limbs tightened, and then he was wrapped in a hot and firm embrace.

The devil clung to him like a drowning man grasping at the last straw, all the weight and body temperature were unreservedly pressed on him.Suddenly, he had an illusion, as if the other party would really die helplessly once he left him.However, if he didn't run away from him, he would die in pain.In any case, as long as they are together, there is only a certain death outcome for both of them.

"I love you...I really love you..." A fanatical expression appeared on the devil's handsome face, and his fiery voice penetrated into his ear canal, turning into thousands of poisonous sharp needles, piercing densely his brain.The devil is crazy, he told him to die, but he said "I love you".I am also going crazy, my body, brain and heart are polluted, rotten from the inside out.

"Niannian, I love you so much, I am willing to do whatever you ask me to do." The devil kissed his sweaty cheek obsessively and forcefully.His eyes turned black in bursts of pain, his thin and tender cheeks were about to be sucked off, and he beat the opponent's shoulder fiercely, but it was like a mayfly shaking a tree.

"You want me to die, right? Do you want me to die?" The devil picked up his face and began to bite his small and delicate Adam's apple, and then went up along the fragile and fragile neck, sharp white His canine teeth caught his chapped lips.He stared at him in horror and resentment, but he giggled, and the airflow blowing on his face brought a terrifying tremor.

"Yes. As long as you say you love me." The devil lowered his eyes, and He Jingnian's pale face was completely reflected in his clear and clear eyes. "Niannian, say, I love you." He tried to persuade, "Say, I love you, just three words, it's not difficult, really not difficult. As long as you say I love you, I will die immediately, OK?"

He Jingnian moved his lips, the bleeding lips were paradoxically gorgeous.

The devil approached excitedly.

"Go to hell."

The devil froze, stared at him silently, for a long, long time, and then slowly broke into a smile.This smile is like the first moment of a flower blooming, so unbelievably beautiful that it almost glows.

"Okay. I'm going to die." He buried his head in the crest of his neck, greedily sucking in his breath like a sick addict. Pulling a bellows. "I'm dead, and you have to love me too."

In the heat wave of continuous crazy talk, He Jingnian's eyes widened blankly.Is this the price he paid for his momentary greed?After losing everything, it was extremely painful to have my heart gouged out like this.

He Jingnian only felt that his eyes were flickering, as if everything had become a superimposed shadow.He saw another figure separated from the devil's body.The boy was wearing a snow-white Cossack cap and a snow-white overcoat, standing with a smile in the snow-white winter day.His eyes are like deep forests, and his curly hair is like sumac under the warm sun. He is so beautiful and so good.

Intense emotions boiled in He Jingnian's chest like magma.He raised his hand and grabbed it vigorously in nothingness, but he couldn't hold the boy's hand.The boy turned around and disappeared without a trace.So, his soul went with him, and his spirit and body were lightly separated, one end floated to heaven, and the other sank to stay in hell.In the end, his sanity sank completely, and finally there was nothing left.

In the brilliant light of fireworks rising into the sky, He Jingnian opened his eyes, but fell into the darkness of deep sleep.

Never want to wake up again.

Unfamiliar ceiling.

He Jingnian rolled his stiff eyeballs and found that he seemed to be lying on a bed in a ward.

what happened?Why are you here?

He thought and thought, but couldn't think of anything, and his mind went blank.The only thing I remember is that I have lost a very important thing and must get it back.

The door of the ward opened, and a man walked in with a plate in his hand.The man skillfully raised the hospital bed, padded the pillow, scooped up a spoonful of soup and handed it to his mouth, "Be good every year, it's time to eat."

He was baffled by someone he didn't know who treated him like a child who couldn't take care of himself.The fresh aroma of the soup penetrated into the nostrils, what aroused was not appetite, but nausea like motion sickness. "I'm not hungry." He frowned.

Unexpectedly, the man suddenly became agitated, and the soup bowl in his hand fell to the ground.He hugged him, crying and laughing, "Niannian, you're finally willing to talk, I'm really going crazy with worry!"

From the man's excited to nearly wrong narrative, he knew that he had been in the hospital for many days like an unconscious vegetative state, and the man was his husband, who had been guarding the bedside to take care of himself.

It sounds like a touching love story, but he just goes in one ear and out the other, and nothing stays in his mind.The only thing standing there like a thorn is that I have to leave and find the lost treasure.

The man fed him, and he ate it obediently.Perhaps because he was too docile, the man was a little surprised at first, and then showed an unbelievably happy expression.He hugged him into his arms, gently rubbed his full and slightly swollen belly with his big hands, and whispered how much he loved him against his ear, over and over again, tirelessly.

He Jingnian suppressed his fear and nausea, and quietly endured the man's embrace that burned his skin, and the terrifying confession of a madman.

To be honest, the man was very beautiful. Although his face was haggard, his eyes were blue and his cheeks were sunken, but his amazing beauty was not damaged at all, and even added a cool and gloomy style.

However, He Jingnian instinctively repelled him and resisted him, every cell clamoring for his negative emotions.The more beautiful the thing, the more poisonous it is. He Jingnian always feels that under the upright and luxurious shell of a man doll, there is a man-eating devil hiding, just waiting to find an opportunity to tear him up and eat him.

Therefore, if he wanted to survive, he had to run away from the man.

However, the man guarded him very tightly, almost to the point of not leaving him for a moment.The man does not ask anyone to look after him, only allows doctors and nurses to be close, and all the things in life are done for him personally.

In fact, there is nothing wrong with his body, and he will be able to move freely soon.But the man still treats him like a child and insists on taking care of him in every detail.The most joyful thing is to help him take a bath.

The man seemed to enjoy the process of applying foam all over his body, rubbing his skin carefully, and finally rinsing off with water bit by bit.Every time it ends, the man will wrap him in Xuejing's soft bath towel, kiss his eyelashes and earballs stained with water, and then sigh a little obsessively: "Niannian is so beautiful, so clean."

He Jingnian's body, which had been soaked in hot water for a long time, shivered uncontrollably, and almost had a stress response to the man.

The man dresses him, not the hospital gown, but the man's own clothes.It doesn't matter if it doesn't fit, he can only stay in this ward and can't see other people.

Slowly rolling up the inappropriately long sleeves for him, the man probably thought his thin white jade wrists were beautiful, so he raised them to his lips and kissed them.

It happened so suddenly that he didn't have time to make mental preparations, and subconsciously wanted to withdraw.The man noticed his resistance, his face darkened, and he uttered cold words: "I really want to wash your heart clean!"

He Jingnian trembled even more.

But he knew that if he wanted to escape, he had to let the man relax his vigilance first.So, he could only pretend to be more docile than a cat, and endure all the nervous behaviors of men.

The man likes to hug him, questioning him over and over like a torture, whether he loves him or not.He answered "love" tirelessly, but the man was not satisfied and insisted on him to prove it.He did everything according to the other party's wishes, but the man was never satisfied, and he still wanted to sniff his body like a hysteria. If the fanaticism was too much, it was horror and weirdness.

He tried his best to hold back, and obediently did not move.

Even though he was dying of fear inside.

Soon, he mastered a set of tricks to make men listen to him.He found that as long as he behaved well-behaved and showed a little attachment to the man, the man would be as happy as something, as if he could even give him his heart on the spot.

After the new year, the man seems to be busy and can't stay by his side 24 hours a day like before.He could see that the man was very anxious about this, and the number of times he hugged him and said crazy things became more and more frequent.But he knew that the more this happened, the more he had to obey the man's will.

Once, the man couldn't help kissing him. For a moment, he felt like he was bitten by a poisonous snake, but he still responded to the kiss tremblingly.

The man was startled, and then passionately kissed him all over his face. The kiss, which was hotter than fire, made him suffocate in pain.

Bear with it, he told himself.Just bear it a little longer.

One night, the man hurried to the hospital after finishing his work.It was already very late at night, and the man looked very tired with the deep cold of winter night all over his body.

He summoned up his courage, tremblingly raised his hand to caress the man's cold cheek, and asked him if he was cold.The man's eyes turned red immediately, he held his hand, and said a lot of nasty love words.

He Jingnian was so annoyed that he became dizzy and felt nauseous, but he still patiently dealt with him.The man became more and more excited, and said for a while that he wanted to build a snowman for him, and then hugged him and said that he wanted to tell him a story.

He Jingnian tried his best to smile, although he felt that his smile was uglier than crying.The man obviously didn't notice, and was still staring at his face obsessively, with fiery turbidity flowing in his green eyes.

"It's too cold outside, I think it's better to listen to your story." He tried to keep it as natural as possible to prevent the man from noticing the trembling in his voice. "But I'm really hungry right now, and I want to eat something warm first."

"Are you hungry?" The man hurried to get the thermos box, He Jingnian interrupted him and said, "I'm tired of the food at home, and now I want to eat Oden from the whole family, can you buy it for me? "

After finishing speaking, he stared nervously at the man's expression, and his palms were covered with cold sweat.Fortunately, the man respected his words like a god, and nodded hurriedly, "Okay, I'll go right away."

Just as He Jingnian breathed a sigh of relief, the man who walked to the door suddenly stopped and turned his head to look at him.The incandescent lamp half-lighted his handsome face, and his eyes were deeply sunken.

"Niannian, you won't run around, will you?"

He Jingnian's heart tightened suddenly, "Yes."

The man smiled, his eyes brightened and affectionate. "Wait for me obediently, I'll be right back."

The door closed.

He Jingnian got out of bed, tiptoed to the door, listened carefully, and there was no sound.About five seconds later, footsteps sounded outside, and then gradually faded away.

He ran out.

There is only one Family Mart convenience store within the hospital, which is not far from the inpatient department, and it only takes about 5 minutes to go back and forth.He must seize this precious time, escape from the devil, and find his lost precious things.

Along the way, he was like being chased by a flood of beasts, unable to stop and dare not stop.After rushing out of the hospital lobby, he ran down the steps outside the gate as fast as he could, a heart was rolling wildly in his chest following the pounding footsteps, almost bursting out of his throat.

Behind, no one is chasing.

Only the bone-chilling night wind in the cold winter, whistling and whistling, blew the corners of his soft pajamas.The man helped him put on the clothes in the morning. At that time, the man's fingertips were still hot, but now it could only arouse the biting cold in the middle of the night, and his whole body seemed to be covered with a layer of frost.

Frozen to the bone marrow.

But no matter how cold it was, he couldn't stop running.The empty courtyard is so large, like a paradoxical maze of fate.He has no balls of wool or crumbs, so he can only rely on instinct to find the exit.

He gasped for breath, the cold wind entered his throat, every mouthful was like inhaling dense ice balls, piercing his entire chest cavity with convulsions and stinging pain.The bare branches cast staggered shadows on the top of his head, and he felt that vultures would fly out at any moment, and with their sharp long beaks, they would peck at his already riddled heart.

Finally, he stood on the sidewalk beyond the fence.In front of him was a busy street, and above his head was the endlessly extended city skyline. It was a big world, a strange world. Sadly, he suddenly realized one thing——

I have no place to go back to, and I don't know where to go.

But he couldn't stop, the demon would catch him at any time and bite him.He is like the little girl in the red dancing shoes in the fairy tale, driven by the curse to run and run.

Suddenly, there was snow again in the sky.The swirling snowflakes swirl and fall, and under the illumination of the street lamps along the street, they look like shining stardust.

The velvet gradually piled up on the ground and kept falling on his hair and shoulders.As if he couldn't bear the weight of the snowflakes, his pace became slower and slower, and finally he fell into the snow without warning, as if he was completely crushed.

He just lay there motionless, quietly as if asleep.Consciousness floated up and down in the dizziness and suffocation after the violent running. In the chaotic field of vision was a mess of weird lines, and various light spots and spots were flying around, messing up his already chaotic thinking.

That's it, his end.

There is no retreat, no place to go, no ability to survive, and it is impossible to continue running.

He could only count down and wait until the beautiful devil appeared from the dark shadows and dragged him back to the bottomless hell.

A pair of brogue shoes stopped in front of him.

"How did you make yourself so miserable." The man leaned over, his slender fingers grabbed his jaw, forcing him to raise his head.

In the blurred field of vision, the face of a strange man swayed.The thick eyebrows are hidden in the shadow of the black wool top hat, and the thin lips are slanted, outlining the naughty sneer of the young man.

After silently admiring his icy-wet appearance with pale face, the man frowned slightly and sighed unbearably.

"Although it's cute, it's better not to look at me like an abandoned cat."

"Because, I don't know what else I will do to you."

"elder brother."

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感谢在2022-04-3000:00:00~2022-05-123:00:00期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel who threw the mine: Xie Su 1 piece;

Thanks to the little angel who cast the rocket launcher: 4 were trapped; 1 was Wujiang;

Thanks to the little angels for irrigating me with nutrient solution~

感谢灌溉营养液的小天使：164010瓶；十四1瓶；行风江归乡1瓶；又美又飒的猫儿8瓶；彗星5瓶；483296702瓶；哇咖喱马西大2瓶；滴血的刺1瓶；藏杉1瓶；宇宙世界无敌最可爱1瓶；榴莲10瓶；弦墨墨不想磨叽1瓶；渔溪2瓶；姜黎10瓶；

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