I lost my memory after throwing the ball and running over the total crematorium

In the dead of night, Yuan Cisheng took out the anklet again.When holding the black velvet jewelry box, his hands were shaking, and a layer of cold sweat broke out on his palms.But He Jingnian was only stunned for a moment, and then smiled in surprise, saying that he had never seen such a beautiful ruby.

The voice of the original speech wrapped Xueyin's chain around He Jingnian's ankle, and the nightingale glowed like fire against the frost-white skin.Stretching out his hand to hold it, it burned like fire between his palm and his slender ankle.

This is the temperature that a nightingale should have, not like that night when he found it in the water in the cold winter months, he only felt that it was so cold that even his soul could freeze.

"Honey, can I ask you a question?"

"Ah."

"Why did you make the nightingale into an anklet?" He Jingnian was very curious, "The nightingale is so beautiful, so that no one can see it."

Yuan Cisheng held his bare feet, and rubbed his five fingers seemingly, from the back of Xue Nen's feet to the round and slightly curled toes, with a look of fascination.After a long time, he said: "This is good, only I can see it."

At the beginning, when he ordered the craftsmen in the workshop to inlay nightingales into anklets, everyone was taken aback, thinking that he was wasting money, but he didn't care.It is not so much a piece of jewelry as it is an exclusive mark.Even, vaguely, he hoped that it could become a string of shackles, tying He Jingnian to his side forever, unable to go anywhere.

Fortunately, He Jingnian was not allowed to see his true thoughts at that time, otherwise, he would probably hate himself even more.

"Niannian, do you know that wearing it like this now is not a complete set?"

He Jingnian snorted, his whole foot was controlled by Yuanci's voice, his dry and hot palm began to gently rub the sole of his foot, the itchiness penetrated into his heart.

In a daze, he saw Yuan Cisheng open another velvet box and take out a long silver chain from it.The chain was so beautifully jeweled that it looked like a piece of jewellery.

There is a small crescent-shaped hook at one end of the chain, which "clicks" and bites with the silver buckle of the anklet, and fits perfectly.

"Look." The voice of Yuan Ci gently pulled the long chain, "It should be like this."

He Jingnian trembled, the sense of restraint was not strong, but it made him feel that his whole body was being controlled.The chain bound his ankles, and the other end was held in the hands of Yuan Cisheng. The relationship between him and him suddenly materialized, which is owning and being owned, caged and caged, tamed and tamed.

Self-taught, He Jingnian used the key to soften a man's heart, and softly called: "Husband." Then he told her husband in a low voice, saying that he likes the gemstone given by him, but he doesn't like this long chain. It was cold and heavy, and the fall made him uncomfortable.

But in just a short while, his ankles were already slightly reddened by the weight of the long chain, and his pink and moist skin against the nightingale was unbelievably gorgeous.

The sound of Yuan Ci untied the chain, and it turned into a thin silver snake in his palm with a rustling sound.

"I also had a whim, so someone made this thing." He raised his eyelids, his green eyes were like a cat before hunting, watching the timid bird in front of him.

"But every year, if I insist on you wearing it, will you be willing?"

He Jingnian wanted to shake his head, but his instinct for danger stopped him.He lowered his head, rubbed his ankle a little aggrieved, and whispered that it hurt.While speaking, he quietly raised his eyes to observe the change of Yuan Ci's expression.

Sure enough, the man was unhappy, and the gloomy depression all over his body seemed to be real.

Afraid of the man's gloomy eyes, He Jingnian took the initiative to get into his arms, hung his neck, and confessed softly and obediently: "Husband, I love you."

Yuan Cisheng let him hug him, but he didn't reach out to hug him back. "Year after year, who do you love more, the young master in the past or the husband now?"

He Jingnian is confused again, the young master is the husband, and the husband is the young master, how can the same person be compared?

"Is it so difficult to answer?" He heard the original voice asking him, his voice was calm, but his eyes became colder.So he didn't dare to think about it anymore, and pressed his thin and soft body against the other's strong and generous chest, and said, "I love my husband more."

"No matter what happens in the future, can you guarantee that you will always love your husband more?"

He Jingnian nodded vigorously.

Only then did Yuan Ci's voice loosen his expression, and he became gentle again, as usual, holding him in his arms and telling a bedtime story.

The baby lay on He Jingnian's chest, biting his short, fat thumb, and then stretched out his wet, chubby hands to grab Yuan Cisheng's hair.The fluffy and thick curly hair feels very good to the touch. The baby doesn't like plush toys very much now, and he grabs his hair whenever he gets the chance.

He Jingnian tried to stop it at first, but soon followed suit and fell in love with this feeling.As a result, Yuan Cisheng spent a lot of time every day taking care of his hair, which had been ravaged by his wife and children, and even postponed the morning meeting.

But no matter what, he still felt it was worth it in his heart, at least He Jingnian was no longer obsessed with petting that big-eared flower dog, and he finally won the favor, and he was more than happy.

Before the story was finished, He Jingnian and the baby were soundly asleep, with one big and one small hands still pulling his hair.Yuan Ci's voice hooked the corners of his lips, and kissed the two of them respectively.The kiss is light, but there are many things learned.The original speech sighed silently, living up to now, this moment is the best time, whatever he wants, he will have it.

It's already February.During this period of time, He Jingnian was carefully raised at home, and his spirit improved day by day.However, his thinking ability showed no signs of recovery, and his dependence became more and more heavy. Even such trivial matters as bathing, eating, and dressing, he acted like a baby and asked his husband to do it for him.

He is a person who has been used to being independent since he was a child. No matter if he is blown by the wind into a ditch or a rock crevice, he can take root and survive.But now, he has no rhizomes, and has become a scorpion that can only survive by clinging to a big tree. The omnipotent husband is the whole of his world.Once the husband does not want him, he will also lose the nutrients of love on which he lives, and wither and die, rotting quietly in the mud.

After all, Yuan Ci couldn't bear it, and felt sorry for his former talent, so he wanted to let him return to design, even if it was just a hobby to soothe his spirit.But he was holding the pen, staring at the drawing board just in a daze.

"Niannian, you can draw whatever you want, and my husband will think you are great." Encouraged by Wen Yan, He Jingnian bit the bullet and painted. After a lot of effort, what was left was a bunch of messy lines , I do not know the so-called graphics.

"I don't want to draw anymore." He frowned sadly. "Drawing requires brains, and I can't use them. No matter what I think, I only think of my husband. Husband, can you give me a hug?"

The original speech sounded like a tight pain in the chest, and overflowed with a strange satisfaction.After tossing and turning all night, he decided to continue taking him to see a psychiatrist.However, psychotherapy is a long process. He Jingnian's situation is complicated, and the doctor has to constantly explore and make mistakes, so he has gone to it several times with little effect.

Not long after, He Jingnian quarreled and refused to go.Several times he managed to coax him into the consultation room. When he saw that her husband was not there, he was terrified as if the sky had fallen. He knocked on the door and cried to find him.

In order to prove that he was not sick so that his husband would not abandon him, he hugged the man and kept "proving", using the only way he knew——

"Husband, I love you, I love you very much... The person I love the most is my husband..." He lay on the man's chest and begged wildly, like a little sparrow that had been torn by wind and rain, flapping its wings and fluttering its tail, afraid Lost the shelter of the only big tree.

Yuan Cisheng comforted him patiently, carried him into the car and took him home.Since then, seeing a doctor has been shelved indefinitely.He Jingnian was confused, the original speech was sober, neither of them mentioned it again.

On the day of the baby's full moon, Yuan Cisheng held an extremely grand banquet, inviting all the prominent families in the circle.Except for the Shen family, who was so busy with Zhuang Manyin's illness, and the Wei family, whose old patriarch was thoroughly offended by him, who did not come, everyone else went to the appointment solemnly.

The wealthy family pays attention to the import of children, inherits the incense, and has always been deeply obsessed with their sons.When those people learned that he gave birth to a daughter, they would definitely spit out sarcastic remarks.The upside-down is nothing more than saying that it is impossible to have no sons, and we cannot let such a huge jewelry kingdom take advantage of people with foreign surnames.

Therefore, although the original intention was to have a clean celebration as a family of three, Yuan Cisheng decided to take this opportunity to let everyone know that he and He Jingnian's daughter should have everything as a matter of course.If she wanted a tank of tropical fish, he would turn the whole ocean upside down for her aquarium.

Babies like fairy tales, and they will giggle every time they see the beautiful illustrations in the picture book.He bought a retro-style castle villa in Chuanyuan City National Forest Resort in the name of his daughter, and invited special actors to dress up as princes and princesses.The baby watched them sing and dance and perform magic tricks, their big eyes smiled into crescent moons, and they babbled and clapped their little hands.

After cutting the cake and filling the champagne tower, two waiters in black and white gloves, escorted by a group of bodyguards, pushed a luxurious crystal jewelry cabinet into the center of the hall.On the thick snow-white velvet pad lay a crown of golden wheat ears inlaid with countless diamonds.

"This is a gift from me to our daughter." Yuan Cisheng held his wife in one hand and hugged his daughter in the other.The chandelier on the dome plated him with dazzling gold, making him look like a king, young and handsome, noble and rich, and being in love with him was equivalent to obtaining the greatest happiness in the world.

"Does anyone know the origin of this crown?" Yuan Ci asked with a smile.

The guests gathered around the jewelry cabinet to admire and guess, but they couldn't tell the reason. They could only judge from the strong tsarist court style that it was an antique jewelry from Russia.

"Its original owner was Maria Alexandrovna, the daughter of Tsar Alexander II of Russia." The original speech said, "When the Grand Duchess married Prince Alfred, who was the second in line to the British throne at that time, Her father personally presented her with the crown when she was born."

When everyone heard it, they were stunned at first, and then they were amazed in an uproar.After the October Revolution, the sickle and ax replaced the arrogant double-headed vulture, and the imperial jewelry storehouse that was said to be able to buy the whole of Europe disappeared.Since then, tycoons and collectors have been obsessed with finding these lost treasures, including this crown.

It is said that its whereabouts were unknown after it was sold at Sotheby's auction house. Unexpectedly, after going around, it fell into the hands of Yuan Cisheng.Presumably he must have spent a lot of effort to get this rare treasure into his pocket, and he deliberately used the pretext of giving his daughter a full moon gift to show off with beating gongs and drums.

The waiter solemnly opened the jewelry cabinet and took out the shining crown.Without the barrier of glass, it is just exposed to the air. The luster of precious metals and the fire of diamonds complement each other, shining like a burning sun.Rao, all the guests are used to seeing all kinds of good things, so they couldn't help staring straight at this moment, their faces full of intoxication.

But after Yuan Cisheng took the crown, he just picked up a small thing like a rattle and shook it in front of his daughter with a smile, teasing her to grab it with her chubby hands.

"Sigh." Yuan Cisheng sighed, and said helplessly to everyone, "I'm still learning how to be a good father, and now I can only give her what she wants. I can laugh, I thought about it, and I can only give her some beautiful little stones."

All the guests swallowed their saliva, and watched the baby who didn't understand anything, breaking and grasping the delicate decorations on the crown.Because it is an old antique, the inlays on it are already very fragile.Fortunately, children are immature, and lose interest in a while.Otherwise, after a few more tosses, such an art treasure may be gone.

The original speech sounded good, and he didn't even lift his eyelids, as if he couldn't tolerate anything other than his wife and children.Seeing the baby spitting bubbles and chubby opening and closing his hands to grab his hair, he got used to turning his head away naturally.In order to compete with Snoopy, he didn't even cut his hair, and directly tied it into a ponytail for his wife and daughter to enjoy at any time.

"Ekaterina II wrote in her diary: Cold and abundance are gifts from God. Even if the Russians are destined to dance only in the cold mud, the stones kicked off by their leather boots must be even the pope A gem that everyone will be jealous of."

The voice of the original speech was vigorously pulled by Xiaopang's hand, and it was still elegant and charming.His eyebrows twitched slightly, his smile deepened, and he said, "I can't make my family omnipotent. At most, I can only make them jealous of the Pope."

After the banquet, the whole villa suddenly became quiet, like a ship sailing quietly on the ocean of night.The living room was dim, and the fireplace was beating with red fire, crackling and radiating warmth.

"Are you tired today?" Yuan Ci's voice stroked the young man's soft black hair.He Jingnian was wrapped in the camel's hair blanket, his eyes almost closed, and he still muttered: "I'm not tired."

"Go to sleep." Yuan Ci kissed his forehead, "I'll be with you."

He Jingnian still wanted to watch the snowy scenery outside the window with him, and chatted one after another.

"Honey, when will the baby grow up?"

Yuan Ci laughed, "Why did you suddenly think of asking this question?"

"I saw some cute children at the banquet." He Jingnian pursed his lips, "When will our babies bounce around like them and call us mom and dad?"

"Children grow up quickly, and maybe we still hope that our daughter will grow up slowly by then."

"How did you know?"

The original speech was speechless.He never grew up normally, and his youth was pinched off by Yuan Zhengye in a way that encourages growth, and in a flash, he became what he is now.

"I really want the baby to grow up early." He Jingnian murmured, "I want to braid the baby's hair, I want to hold the baby's hand to accompany her to and from school, and I want to make delicious snacks for the baby..."

The soft voice became softer and softer, replaced by even and deep breaths.

He Jingnian fell asleep, lying on his lap like a cat.

The voice of Yuan Ci gently patted his back, coaxing him to sleep like a child.With the halo of the landscape lamp, he stared down at his wife's sleeping face, his heart softened into a puddle of water, warm and hot, rolling back and forth in his chest.

His newborn heart is gradually growing better.

After being unreasonably deprived of a heart.

In the center of the gray and solemn funeral hall lay the mother's coffin quietly.Mother has gone to the clean and pure heaven, but he was left in the filthy world.

"Your mother is too weak and incompetent, trying to evade responsibility in the most stupid way, but she doesn't know that this is just wasting the value of her remaining life." The man said calmly, and his big hand fell down to stroke his hair.

"Zeng Zi said: "Sounds do not say words, and words do not say words. When a gentleman is one, all things can be accomplished. From today on, you only have the name Yuancisheng, do you understand?"

He refused to nod, refused to speak, just shed tears.He resented his new name, which came from a dirty man's name, and of course it was dirty and untouchable.

"In this case, you should kneel here and mourn for her."

The man sent someone to lock the gate, did not give him food, did not give him water, did not even give him a lamp.Just like this, he was locked alone in the funeral hall that was as dark as hell.

On the third day, the man came in and asked him if he would admit his mistake.Because of the cold and hunger, he was speechless and could only stare at the man with contempt.

"That's it." The man nodded knowingly and went out.

Two days later, the man appeared again.He was unconscious now, almost dying.The man asked someone to take him out and lock him into a small ward.

A few steps away, the snow-white room at the end has nothing but a bed, not even a window, like an airtight prison.He can't perceive the passage of time, and can only judge how long it has passed by delivering meals once a day.

The man will come every seven days or so and ask him if he admits his mistake.About the sixth time, he bowed his head to the man, and when he begged for mercy, every word was filled with a poisonous sense of shame, corroding his brain to the brim.

"An adult can't survive a week, at most half a month. I really admire you for persisting for 45 days." The man applauded and said, "Do you know where you went wrong? It's not that you disobeyed me , but you made an unwise choice. If you can make the right choice, then you don’t have to suffer so much.”

He raised his empty green eyes, as if unable to understand what the man said.

"Heart." The man sighed, "The heart has affected your rationality and interfered with your making correct decisions. But it's not your fault, it's your mother who didn't educate you well. Don't worry, starting today, I will put your Bring it back to the right path."

Heart is superfluous.

The heart is something that must be given up.

The heart is what affects his growth into a good adult.

heart is--

Yuan Cisheng lowered his face, buried it deeply in He Jingnian's neck, and breathed in the clean and fresh breath almost obsessively.

made him the first time—

He Jingnian kissed him tenderly with sleepy eyes and watery eyes.The thin body clings to his chest, making him feel like embracing flowers and honey.

Something to feel happy about.

"Niannian, I love you."

Yuan Cisheng heard his own voice, which became almost inaudible amidst the frantic and powerful heartbeat.So, he hugged He Jingnian and said it over and over again.

In the silent night, those syllables full of piety and longing permeate and rise, like spring rain falling on his breathy soul, until he falls into a worry-free dark dreamland.

Time flies and the new year is approaching.On New Year's Eve, Yuan Cisheng ended the year-end meeting ahead of schedule, and as soon as he left the company building, he saw He Jingnian running over on the snow, throwing his arms wide open.

"Honey, you're finally off work."

"Didn't I tell you not to come, it's so cold outside." Yuan Cisheng took off his gloves to cover his face, "Is it cold, huh?"

"It's not cold." He Jingnian looked at him with bright eyes, "I want to see my husband soon."

"The busy things are over." Yuan Ci said with a smile, "Finally I can spend time with you and the baby."

There are many things at the end of the year, and he was busy every day until late before returning home.He Jingnian went to bed early when he went back, and He Jingnian was still awake when he got up the next day, so he couldn't get a face-to-face meeting for several days.

Doppelgänger is exhausted, but I miss it very much.He could only call back from his busy schedule and ask what Niannian is doing now?Did you miss your husband?Hearing He Jingnian obediently said that he thought about it, he asked again how much he thought about it, and he had to ask the other party's lack of words, and said aggrievedly that in short, he really wanted it very much, husband, please come back soon, so he was barely satisfied.

In the car, He Jingnian lay in his arms, chatting slowly.Although they were all insignificant things, such as: the baby drank half a bottle of milk, and Snoopy was rolling in the newly repaired flower bed again, but he listened very seriously without blinking his eyes.

He Jingnian was embarrassed by his look, buried his cheek in his sweater and rubbed gently, "Husband, I really miss you so much."

"My husband also misses Niannian very much." The voice of Yuan Ci picked him up from his arms, hugged him tightly, and sniffed his fragrance deeply.The heat in the car was fully turned on, and He Jingnian broke out in a thin sweat after a while, but he still liked to lean on the other person's chest, with his heart pounding, full of security.

The warm feeling continued all the way.When he got home, He Jingnian took him by the hand and entered the room, saying that he had watched half of the movie and asked him to watch it with him. (Really watching ordinary movies, nothing to do except watching movies)

The movie is a one-step love literary film, with beautiful pictures and a sensational soundtrack.The plot progressed to the exciting part, the hero and heroine kissed passionately, and were inseparable.

He Jingnian looked at it, seemed embarrassed, and lowered his eyes.The original voice wanted to fast forward, but he stopped him again. "We were just like them just now." He whispered.

"Yeah." Although I have kissed countless times, the picture is right in front of my eyes, and the original speech couldn't help being slightly embarrassed.

From all perspectives, the male and female protagonists fall into the sea of ​​flowers, followed by a set of dreamy shots that attract people's imagination.

"Husband." He Jingnian leaned over and asked softly, "Can we do the same?"

Yuan Ci was startled, "Watch the movie first...?"

"Isn't this normal between husband and wife?" He Jingnian was a little disappointed, "We've never done this before."

"Yes... yes. Otherwise, where did the baby come from?"

"Well... But it hasn't happened since I was discharged from the hospital."

"Having a baby is very harmful to the body. It's better to pay more attention." Yuan Cisheng took a sip of ice water, trying to suppress the anger that was incited.

"Honey, I've been falling asleep thinking about you these past few nights." He Jingnian whispered in his ear with his palms folded into a horn, "I dreamed about you yesterday."

The original voice rolled his Adam's apple, "What did you dream about me?"

He Jingnian blushed violently, and still murmured: "I dreamed that we did something that would conceive a baby." After a pause, he stuck closer, "Honey, do you want me to give you another baby?"

The veins in Yuan Cisheng's hand holding the glass were almost stretched out, and the strings in his mind were stretched to the limit.He restrained himself, "Niannian." As soon as he spoke, his voice was hoarse and scary.

"The first time this happened to us was before the wedding. This time, I want to stay until after we actually get married. I want to be a real couple with you, the kind of life. By then, no matter what you want, I promise you all."

In the past, every time he hugged He Jingnian, he was very satisfied, as if he really had this person.But the two of them never got closer because of their physical intimacy, and what happened afterwards were all bad things like quarrels and cold wars.

He wanted to start over with He Jingnian, starting from the beginning cleanly.

"Niannian, I've thought about it, your body and spirit are almost recovered now, let's go get the certificate after the New Year." Yuan Cisheng shook his hand, "I swear that I will return you the most grand wedding, our family will be together happily forever, okay?"

He Jingnian stared at him for a long time, and suddenly burst into tears. "Husband, you are so kind, I love you so much." He threw himself into the man's arms, crying against his shoulder.

"I thought I loved you very much, because I loved you for a long enough time, and never stopped from the moment I saw you. But how do I feel now, you love me more than I love you."

Yuan Cisheng's heart throbbed violently, filled with intense sorrow, but he still wiped away tears for him distressedly. "I want to make up for the lack of love for you. If..." He closed his eyes, "If only I could know that you love me so much earlier, then I will definitely be able to love you more."

At this moment, he felt that he had really become He Jingnian's beloved young master.They reunited after being separated for many years, and they loved each other with a clean heart.

The snow had stopped, and the courtyard was covered with fluffy white.Yuan Cisheng carried the baby on his back and took He Jingnian's hand to build a snowman outside.Snoopy wagged his tail wantonly, leaving messy dog ​​paw prints.The baby shook her little hand and giggled, and the original words teased her: "A group of little painters came in the snow, the chicken painted bamboo leaves, the puppy painted plum blossoms..."

They made three snowmen beside the flower bed, each round and round.He Jingnian put a small flower on the head of the youngest snowman, showing that she is a pretty little girl.He took off his hat and put it on the snowman in the middle, which was himself.Then, he looked up at Yuan Cisheng, the man couldn't help smiling, took off the woolen scarf he always wore and wrapped it around the snowman.

In this way, the three snowmen finally have their appearance.He Jingnian was very happy, put his arms around Yuan Cisheng's neck, and offered a sweet kiss.The weather was very cold, but this kiss burned Yuan Cisheng's heart, and a warm rhythm agitated in his chest.

At night, the two of them slept in each other's arms as usual, and when they quietly opened their eyes to peek at each other's sleeping face, their eyes met.So, they touched their foreheads and laughed in unison.

The next day was a sunny day without snow, and Yuan Cisheng and He Jingnian were busy cleaning.Noticing an unfamiliar cardboard box in the corner of the living room, He Jingnian asked, "What's inside?"

"Fireworks." Yuan Ci said, "I'll show it to you at night."

After the New Year's Eve dinner, before the New Year's bell rang, He Jingnian was already impatient to watch the fireworks.The voice of Yuan Ci pulled him over and wrapped him tightly in a scarf, "It's cold at night, wear more before going out."

He Jingnian blinked at him, he was wrapped into a big rice dumpling, but her husband was wearing thin clothes, his neck was still empty, even the scarf was given to the Snowman. "I'm going to get something, just wait for me."

"Okay." Yuan Cisheng looked at his furry back, and his heart felt warm.

Taking advantage of this gap, he first went to the courtyard to make preparations.But when he was almost ready, He Jingnian still didn't come.Yuan Cisheng didn't know what it took him so long to find, and an inexplicable premonition of uneasiness rose in his heart.

"Niannian?" He walked in the long corridor without turning on the lights, it was very dark, as if there was no end in sight.

"Niannian, where are you? What kind of husband do you want to find for you?"

no respond.Only the shaking sound of the grandfather clock pendulum, "tick tock", like the heartbeat of a dying person.

Yuan Ci's breathing became short of breath. When he pushed open the door of the bedroom, the light inside was on, but he only felt darkness rushing towards his face.The warm soft yellow light illuminated the outline of He Jingnian, thin and slightly undulating, curled up on the ground.

A scarf was tightly clutched in those pale and slender hands.

A soft scarf with fine and neat stitches in a beautiful dark green color.

It has been tucked away at the bottom of the closet after a lot of cleaning.Now, together with those unbearable memories, I finally see the light of day again.

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The author has something to say:

"A group of little painters came in the snow, the chicken painted bamboo leaves, the puppy painted plum blossoms..." is a nursery rhyme

It would be great if srds only took Yuangou's money every year...