The most ruthless is her

Ruan Tianrong didn't seem to expect that Ruan Mohan would have such calmness and momentum.

She thought that as soon as she mentioned Ruan Qiu, Ruan Mohan would remain silent and stop struggling as he had done countless times before.

Ruan Tianrong seemed to be thinking about how to tell the story of her hole cards in order to be more lethal. A pair of bitter eyes rolled around and scanned the room.

She saw the box of ice cream that Jian Shuo put on the desk.

He laughed all of a sudden: "Hey, I'm still eating ice cream."

"Look at the box, the ice cream is expensive, right? I really enjoy it."

"Have you ever wondered if your poor little sister wants to eat ice cream when she is lying alone on the ground?"

"I think she probably didn't want to, because I saw her lying on the ground with my own eyes, shivering from the cold."

Sure enough, Ruan Mohan fell silent.

Jian Shuo walked over and stood next to Ruan Mohan, feeling Ruan Mohan's arm trembling slightly.

"Are you cold?" she asked.

She used her arm to cling to Ruan Mohan's arm, trying to give Ruan Mohan some warmth.

"It's not cold." Ruan Mohan said, looking coldly at Ruan Tianrong with a pair of eyes: "What do you want to say?"

Ruan Mohan's reaction made Ruan Tianrong smile with satisfaction: "If you give me 150 million, I will take the situation of the day Ruan Qiu died and completely disappear."

"In that case, you won't have to know for the rest of your life how painful and miserable Ruan Qiu's death was."

"Or, in order to save the 150 million, do you dare to know?"

Jian Shuo kept clinging to Ruan Mohan's arm, and felt Ruan Mohan's body shake slightly, as if he lost all strength.

His originally pale face turned into a sad white. Standing under the light of the living room, his whole body was almost transparent, like a wisp of smoke that would drift away at any moment.

Ruan Mohan moved his lips, but said nothing.

She took a slight breath: "I..."

Jian Shuo felt that she knew what Ruan Mohan was going to say.

Ruan Mohan wanted to say, "I'll give you the money."

So she preempted Ruan Mohan and said, "Speak."

She said to Ruan Tianrong, "Tell me about the situation on the day Ruan Qiu passed away."

Ruan Mohan yanked her: "Are you crazy?"

"Why do you make decisions for me?"

"Because I don't make this decision for you, you still have to hide like this for the rest of your life! You know it's not about money." Jian Shuo said to Ruan Tianrong: "Tell me, what happened on the day Ruan Qiu passed away."

Ruan Tianrong stared at Ruan Mohan: "Are you sure it's just to save 150 million, let me tell you?"

"150 million should not be a lot of money for you now."

Ruan Mohan's body shook.

Jian Shuo held Ruan Mohan's body, helped her stand firmly, and leaned into Ruan Mohan's ear: "Didn't I tell you? Don't be afraid."

"If you go ashore, I will go ashore; if you are on the boat, I will stay on the boat."

Ruan Mohan stood firm.

She took a deep breath and said to Ruan Tianrong, "Speak."

Ruan Tianrong couldn't believe it: "Are you sure?"

"Yes, tell me."

Ruan Tianrong smiled: "Ruan Qiu's life is really hard."

There was a kind of gloating cruelty in the seemingly pitiful smile.

She began to speak, in an overly graphic, gossip-like tone.

So Jian Shuo knew about the day when Ruan Qiu's accident happened.

Ruan Mohan was 14 years old and Ruan Qiu was [-] years old. It was the first snow day of that winter.

Ruan Mohan went to the bookstore to read with a high school senior, and they agreed to go home at [-] o'clock, but they still didn't come back at [-] o'clock.

Ruan Qiu missed her sister, so she ran out alone to look for her.

The road was slippery in the snow, the vision was unclear, the driver was drinking, and all the most unfavorable factors added up, causing Ruan Qiu to fall into a pool of blood.

Ruan Mohan's cell phone was turned off, and the police who rushed to the scene of the accident called Ruan Tianrong.

Ruan Tianrong went cursing and saw Ruan Qiu lying on the ground, showing signs of dying.

Speaking of this, Ruan Tianrong pretended to be sympathetic, but actually smiled cruelly, and asked Ruan Mohan "intimately", "Do you want to listen?"

Jian Shuo glanced at Ruan Mohan.

Ruan Mohan lowered his head, his long light brown hair hung down, covering Ruan Mohan's cold face and Ruan Mohan's sensitive ears.

Ruan Mohan hid in a small shadow brought by his hair, as if wishing that his hair would cover his ears and reduce Ruan Tianrong's volume a bit.

To soften the stimulation a little bit in her heart.

Jian Shuo couldn't bear to see it.

Unable to bear it, Jian Shuo thought, so this word would also happen to her.

Patience, unbearable... Ruan Mohan really taught her a lot.

What can she teach Ruan Mohan?

She raised her hand, lifted Ruan Mohan's long hair and pinned it behind her right ear.

Ruan Mohan looked up at her, and there was a deep sorrow in his cold eyes.

"Don't force me." Ruan Mohan said.

For the first time, Jian Shuo knew that Ruan Mohan would speak in such a begging tone.

Her fingertips were trembling, but she still leaned slightly, brushing up Ruan Mohan's hair hanging down from her left ear and pinning it behind her ear.

"Ruan Mohan, listen to me." She whispered in Ruan Mohan's ear.

"Now, you must listen to Ruan Tianrong clearly and finish what happened that day."

"If you escape now, you can only escape for a lifetime."

Ruan Mohan's two jade-white ears were exposed.

She looked at Ruan Tianrong.

Ruan Tianrong also looked at her, still smiling cruelly but pretending to be compassionate: "Then I will continue."

Ruan Mohan: "Okay, tell me."

Jian Shuo found that Ruan Tianrong was really a typical type, a gossip woman in the streets and alleys, who was very good at using her exaggerated descriptions to show things vividly to the end.

Standing beside Ruan Mohan, she listened to Ruan Tianrong's shrill voice over and over again describing Ruan Qiu's trembling body, gray eyes, coat stained by snow, and his body temperature that had cooled in the ambulance.

Ruan Mohan stood and listened, shaking at first, but finally, he stopped shaking.

Ruan Tianrong asked her: "Have you heard enough?"

"Now I want 200 million." Her final face was revealed: "If you don't give it, I will chase you for the rest of my life and tell you over and over again."

"Maybe, maybe I can recall more details."

She licked her lips: "Is there any water? Xiao Xia, in order to let you feel my sister's pain, I said I was thirsty."

Ruan Mohan nodded, "Yes."

She walked into the kitchen, and there was the sound of splashing water.

After a long time, Ruan Mohan came out with a glass of water.

Jian Shuo went up to meet her: "I'll bring it to her."

"No." Ruan Tianrong stopped sharply.

Ruan Mohan didn't dare to splash her, she knew that Ruan Mohan was used to forbearance in front of her, except for the slap she gave her last time, since childhood, Ruan Mohan has always endured in front of her.

She wasn't sure what happened to that slap last time, but she was sure that after talking about Ruan Qiu vividly tonight, Ruan Mohan didn't have the strength and courage to fight her again.

But the water glass can't be given to that little witch, Ruan Tianrong thinks she can do anything.

Fortunately, Ruan Mohan moved away with the water glass: "I will give it myself."

"Aunt." She approached Ruan Tianrong with a glass of water.

Ruan Tianrong stretched out her hand, ready to take the water, while smiling: "Xiao Xia, after all, we have lived together for so many years, so I knew you would love your uncle and cousin."

"Yes, after all, it's the friendship of living together for so many years." Ruan Mohan held the water and did not pass it to her: "I want to ask you, how cold was Xiaoqiu's hands at that time?"

Ruan Tianrong: "What nonsense are you talking about?"

"So when you arrived at the scene of the car accident, Xiao Qiu hadn't passed away." Ruan Mohan looked at Ruan Tianrong and asked, "You are her aunt, and you have lived with her for so many years. You know she is very cold."

"You saw her lying on the ground, did you shake her hand?"

Ruan Tianrong showed an instinctive disgust: "It was all blood at the time."

Ruan Mohan poured a glass of water over it.

Ruan Tianrong was stunned.

Ruan Mohan didn't splash on her chest, but on her head and face, Ruan Tianrong didn't raise her breath, and choked on a little water.

The water dripped down her chin, drop by drop, onto her cotton silk blouse, like the tears she had never shed for Ruan Qiu back then.

"Get lost." Ruan Mo said coldly.

"No matter how many times you come to me in the future and how long you pester me, I will not give you a penny."

******

Ruan Tianrong left, she said bitterly that she would come again.

Ruan Mohan stood where he was, staring at the two drops of water that fell from Ruan Tianrong's body to the floor just now.

Ruan Mohan kept staring at the two drops of water.

Jian Shuo walked over: "I'll wipe it clean."

Ruan Mohan gave her a hand: "Don't rub it."

"Do you think those two drops of water look like tears?" Ruan Mohan said calmly, "Just be Ruan Tianrong and cry for Xiaoqiu."

Jian Shuo looked at Ruan Mohan.

Ruan Mohan said, "I'm going to take a shower first."

She took the towel and pajamas and went into the bathroom.

The rushing water flowed down the shower head.

Ruan Mohan didn't know why, but his body also felt chills in summer.

It seemed that she could see with her own eyes that Ruan Qiu's small body fell into a patch of snow.The coldness spread to her as well.

She let the hot water wash over her body, and she still felt cold, so she turned the water to the hottest.

Until the white skin is hot and red.

But why doesn't she feel hot enough?

At this time, the bathroom door opened slightly with a "swish".

Jian Shuo squeezed up.

Ruan Mohan expressionless: "I haven't finished washing yet."

"I know." Jian Shuo said, "How about we wash together to save water resources."

Ruan Mohan stood under the water column in a daze.

Jian Shuo squeezed into the shower and hugged her from behind.

Ruan Mohan found that Jian Shuo's body was very warm, warmer than the hot water continuously washing down.

She turned around almost instinctively, hugging Jian Shuo's warm body.

Cling together.

She rested her head on Jian Shuo's shoulder.

Jian Shuo said: "Actually, Jiang Kailun approached me once before and told me that you were using me to fight against Ruan Tianrong."

"I suddenly felt today that it doesn't matter if you are using me or not."

"Even if you are using me, I am willing to be used by you."

Ruan Mohan said sullenly, "I didn't use you."

She leaned against Jian Shuo's shoulder, her soft lips opened and closed, rubbing against Jian Shuo's shoulder.

She bit down hard, harder, harder.

Jian Shuo hissed, but didn't tell Ruan Mohan to let go.

She just said: "You cry, Ruan Mohan."

"You haven't cried since you were 14 years old."

"Even if you are crying now, I will only think that you splashed bath water on your face, and I won't know that you are crying."

******

Ruan Mohan bit Jian Shuo's shoulder even harder.

Finally, she let go, and leaned her face on Jian Shuo's shoulder again.

"Who wants to cry." She said indifferently.

"Then..." Jian Shuo reached out to hold her shoulder, trying to pull her up and talk to her eye to eye.

Unexpectedly, Ruan Mohan suddenly reached out and hugged her shoulder tightly.

Jian Shuo was taken aback.

Ruan Mohan: "Don't talk."

"Just hug for a while."

So Jian Shuo's hand holding Ruan Mohan's shoulder also turned into a hug around her shoulder.

Jian Shuo: "Okay."

"Hold for as long as you want."

Ruan Mohan didn't speak any more, just hugged Jian Shuo's shoulders tightly, as if he was absorbing warmth, and also seemed to be afraid that Jian Shuo would suddenly want to pull her up again.

Jian Shuo thought, what is the reason why Ruan Mohan was afraid that he would suddenly pull her up?

Probably because of the scorching heat coming from my shoulders, the touch of water droplets, I don't know if it comes from the hot water sprinkled by the shower head, or from the tears that Ruan Mohan hasn't shed since she was 14 years old.

Jian Shuo just stood there quietly, staring at the mist from the shower head.

Under the bright yellow light in the bathroom, reflecting the halo, Jian Shuo always felt that if he stared harder, he could see miniature rainbows.

This is probably the longest period of silence in her 26 years of life like a noisy parrot.

She thinks she's great.

Until Ruan Mohan spoke again in a flat tone: "It's a waste of water."

Jian Shuo: "...Oh."

The two hurriedly began to take a shower.

Jian Shuo asked, "Do you want me to wash your hair for you?"

"No."

"Would you like me to apply the shower gel for you?"

Ruan Mo gave her a cold look.

Jian Shuo: "...Forget it, I'll wipe my own."

Ruan Mohan's movements of washing her hair and taking a bath are particularly crisp and neat. When she finished washing, Jian Shuo was still applying body wash.

Jian Shuo: "Ruan Mohan, have you received any military training?"

Ruan Mohan: "I'm going out first."

Ruan Mohan opened the bathroom door and left first, probably drying his hair outside.

Jian Shuo calmed down again, staring at the mist sprayed from the shower head.

Ruan Mohan and Jian Shuo deliberately ignored Ruan Mohan's reddish eyes just now.

******

When Jian Shuo walked out of the bathroom, she saw Ruan Mohan smoking on the balcony as usual.

Jian Shuo turned on the blower, blow-drying her thick black hair.

Then he opened the glass door and walked out.

Ruan Mohan folded his arms and exhaled a wisp of smoke.

Jian Shuo quietly glanced at the balcony railing around her, there was nothing but an ashtray.

Jian Shuo looked further away.

On the railing at the corner of the balcony, I saw the photo frame with Ruan Qiu's photo inlaid, and it was placed there carefully.

It seems that Ruan Mohan couldn't help but take it over and look at it, but he didn't dare to look at it carefully, even reluctant to put the photo down.

I had no choice but to temporarily put it in the corner of the balcony where I couldn't see it.

It seems that Ruan Qiu is also here.

Jian Shuo: "Give me a cigarette."

Ruan Mohan stared ahead, expressionless: "What kind of cigarettes do children smoke?"

Jian Shuo: "I'm 26 years old on my ID card."

Ruan Mohan looked indifferent, didn't speak any more, just looked at the emptiness of the night and let out another wisp of smoke.

Jian Shuo quietly followed her gaze, but there was nothing there.

Ruan Mohan seemed to be looking into a distant memory.

Jian Shuo: "Ruan Mohan..."

Ruan Mohan interrupted her suddenly: "Where's the ice cream you ate just now?"

"Ah?" Jian Shuo realized, "It's on the desk."

"take it out."

"It's all melted."

"take it out."

Jian Shuo thought for a while, then went into the living room and took out the ice cream.

Ruan Mohan stared at the ice cream for a while.

Reach out, pick up the small wooden spoon, and stir back and forth in the completely melted ice cream liquid.

Then, nervously, one click, one click, poking the bottom of the ice cream box with a spoon.

Duh, duh, duh.

Nervous.

Jian Shuo: "Ruan Mohan..."

Ruan Mohan suddenly scooped up a spoonful of melted ice cream and put it in his mouth.

She shook her head: "It's too sweet, it's bitter sweet."

Jian Shuo took the ice cream box aside: "It's all melted, don't eat it."

Ruan Mohan didn't stop her, folded his arms again, and took a puff of the cigarette between his other fingers: "You said, when Xiao Qiu was lying on the snow, it was so cold, she must not want to eat ice cream, right?"

She took another drag on her cigarette: "Actually, Xiaoqiu has never eaten ice cream since she was a child."

"I ate it when I was a child, before my parents completely tore their faces apart... Isn't it ridiculous?"

Jian Shuo looked at her quietly.

Suddenly, she stretched out her hand, took the cigarette between Ruan Mohan's fingers, and took a deep puff herself.

She was choked, and a feeling of wanting to cough came up. She tried her best to hold back, but she couldn't hold back, and she coughed twice.

As if to prove something, he immediately took another puff: "I'm not young anymore, I'm really 26 on my ID card."

"Ruan Mohan, you can tell me anything about you."

Ruan Mohan glanced at Jian Shuo, took the cigarette back from her hand, and took a puff by himself.

"My dad seems to be born with that kind of very fickle person, but my mother is not. She is very passionate, like a fire."

"As soon as she gave birth to Xiaoqiu, she found out that my father was cheating, so every time she took me and hugged Xiaoqiu, she kept making troubles, and even lit a fire to burn down the woman's house. Fortunately, the firefighters had time hour."

"My dad was overwhelmed, and soon took that woman to the United States, but half a year later, the person he married in the United States was not the woman he brought from China, isn't it ridiculous?"

Jian Shuo asked softly, "What about your mother?"

"My mother had nowhere to turn her hot feelings, and her mental state went from bad to worse, until she started another fire and burned down her own house."

"I was eight years old at the time, and I quickly realized that something was wrong and called the fire department."

"My mother was rescued, and she survived the catastrophe. Later, as if to fight back against my father, or to save herself, she quickly found a man and went to the United States with that man."

Jian Shuo: "She doesn't love that man?"

Ruan Mohan shook his head: "I don't think so."

"Because she said something to me before she went abroad."

"She said that feelings are the worst thing in the world, you must never have them, and I will never have them again in the future."

"She did what she said and kept all the money my dad gave her. She went to the United States with that man alone and never came back."

"My father used to have a good family background, and the money my mother left was not a small amount. For that money, Ruan Tianrong took my sister and me to her home."

"At that time, I had just passed my ninth birthday, and Xiaoqiu was four years old."

Jian Shuo can imagine what Ruan Mohan and her sister have experienced.

harsh treatment.scold.splashing water.

I can also fight with my hands, and there will be more embarrassing indifference and defense than fighting with my hands.

Ruan Mohan: "Actually, I've been doing quite well."

"According to what my mother said, there is no emotion, no emotion, no matter what Ruan Tianrong does, I have been enduring and ignoring it, as if it is really not very painful."

"I thought I could live like this forever, and it was enough to protect Xiaoqiu."

"Until I was 14."

"In the second year of junior high school, right, when I was 14 years old." Ruan Mohan took another drag on his cigarette, and with his index finger between the cigarettes, nervously scratched hard on his thumbnail twice.

"In the second year of junior high school, I actually fell in love with a senior sister. Thinking about it now, it may not necessarily be liking, but more like a kind of sprouting love when the self-awareness awakens in adolescence."

"Usually in school, I still do very well, and I never even take the initiative to talk to her. But one weekend, she asked me to go to the bookstore."

"I still remember that bookstore." Ruan Mohan said, his index finger was on the thumbnail again, and he scratched it twice.

"Don't scratch." Jian Shuo pulled her hand over, curled up her palm, wrapped her thumb, and did not let her fingernails show.

Ruan Mohan lowered his head, staring at the cigarette between his index finger and middle finger.

"Have you ever been to a bookstore like that when you were a child?" She asked Jian Shuo: "The small one, the whole room smells like old books, the heater is turned on very high, and water vapor condenses on the glass windows. , Once a person walks in, it seems to be stuck in it, and they can’t get out again.”

"I was supposed to be home at eight o'clock that day."

"Maybe it's because the bookstore is too warm, maybe it's because the novel in my hand is very good, maybe it's because the senior sister kept talking to me and told me not to leave."

"I dragged on until nine o'clock, and I still haven't left. Moreover, the mobile phone I was using at that time was very old and crappy, and it was turned off automatically when it ran out of power. I didn't even call Xiaoqiu."

"When Xiaoqiu had a car accident, no one could contact me. Until 09:30, I finally came out of the bookstore reluctantly. The senior sister sent me off and walked all the way back to Ruan Tianrong's house."

"I just found out that something happened to Xiao Qiu, and I rushed to the hospital like crazy, only to find out that Xiao Qiu passed away on the way to the hospital."

Jian Shuo stretched out her other hand, took away the cigarette that Ruan Mohan was holding between her fingers, and then wrapped Ruan Mohan's entire hand into her own, clasping her fingers tightly.

Ruan Mohan stared at the two tightly clasped hands.

one second.

two seconds.

three seconds.

Suddenly, he shook it off violently, and let out a breath: "I should go to bed."

Go to the corner of the balcony and pick up Ruan Qiu's photo, open the balcony door and walk into the living room.

Jian Shuo followed.

Ruan Mohan put the photo frame back on the bookshelf in the living room, and walked towards his bedroom without stopping.

"Don't follow me."

Jian Shuo still followed.

Ruan Mohan stopped, turned his head, and stared into Jian Shuo's eyes: "I beg you, don't follow me, okay?"

Jian Shuo followed and stopped, looking at Ruan Mohan.

"I don't deserve ice cream, and I don't deserve people to treat me well."

Ruan Mohan's voice was cold, it sounded like when Jian Shuo had just met her.

The first time we met was on the first snow day last winter.

Now Jian Shuo already knew that the reason why Ruan Mohan went to the bar that day was because Ruan Qiu died on the day of the first snow many years ago.

The blackout curtain of the glass door of the balcony has not been drawn yet, and the bright white moonlight shines in and sprinkles all over the floor.

The feeling of coolness is like falling snow.

Ruan Mohan and Jian Shuo lowered their heads at the same time, staring at the frosty moonlight on the ground.

"I ran away when I was 14." Ruan Mohan said, "I refused to know all the details of Xiaoqiu's car accident. Come out, as if to cut off from everything in the past."

"My mother was right."

"If I were a person without feelings, I wouldn't fall in love with anyone, I wouldn't come home late, and Xiao Qiu wouldn't come out to look for me."

"Then, she will still live in this world until now."

"Alternatively, if I were a person without emotion, I would not have any more pain when facing all this."

She looked at Jian Shuo again: "I don't deserve to like anyone, and I don't want to have feelings for myself."

"Now, do you understand?"