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Xiaoshui:

The magnolias in the community are blooming.

Last year you said that the magnolias in the community must be beautiful when they bloom. This year I took a good look at them, and they are indeed beautiful.

It's been cold in Jiangcheng for the past few days. It's very cold in the morning and evening. You have to remember to add or remove clothes so as not to catch cold.Spring is dry and respiratory diseases occur frequently. Remember to drink plenty of water to moisten your throat.When you were with me before, I was afraid that the white water would be tasteless, so I would quietly melt a little honey in your water glass. Now you can also put a little bit, it will be sweeter and easier to drink.

I have been busy with work before, and I just had time to write to you recently. I haven't contacted you for a long time. I hope you forgive me.It’s okay if you don’t forgive.

I've missed you so much since you left.I don't know what to do, nothing seems to be interesting, so I have to repeatedly recall the bits and pieces of our previous life together.

I have been having a hard time falling asleep at night and can barely fall asleep after taking Valium.Many nights I tossed and turned and couldn't sleep. When I thought about the past, I always regretted it. The more I thought about it, the more I couldn't sleep.I never thought before that I would one day regret it.

I should have been nicer and gentler to you back then.I shouldn't have made you so sad.

I used to think that I had seen some great things, and I could no longer be happy or sad because of foreign things. In the past 30 years of my life, this was indeed the case.I thought I was a mature and rational person, but no matter what happened to you, I became timid and awkward-you turned me into a throbbing and restless teenager.

Xiao Shui, you are the best and most precious child I have ever seen.Over the past thirty years, at home and abroad, I have never met anyone like you, and you always amaze me.Every day with you is full of freshness and surprises, and your kindness seems to have no end.I suspect that even if I spend my whole life with you, I will still find something new and exciting about you at 80.

Sometimes I think, if the age gap between us is not so big, if you are a few years older, or if you are not a child of the Zhao family, but just an ordinary cute girl, that would be great.Or maybe we are all ordinary people and don't have so many things to think about, then I will definitely not let you go.

I used to think that if I hadn't returned to China with my parents back then, then I wouldn't have been involved in the turmoil of the Tan family.But now, I think, maybe it was right for me to go back to China.I don't feel resentful anymore.Because of you, I am grateful for everything I have been through.

If I don't go back to China, I can't meet you.Just thinking about it makes me feel unbearable.

You are like a treasure given to me by God. I always try to give you the best in the world.Life is full of regrets... I only want you to be happy, but I didn't expect your regrets to come to me.I was too conceited and arrogant before, and my self-assertion not only hurt your heart, but also made you very sad.That's the last thing I want to see.

Since you left, I have regretted the pain every moment, and I miss you very much; I paid the corresponding price for my arrogance and ego, and I deserve it.

Xiao Shui, I don't want to make you feel sorry, I hope your life is complete, if you think your completeness lies in me, then I hope I belong to you.

I often think, if there is any way in the world to make you happy and safe forever, no matter what it is, I will do it.If there is such a way, please tell me, okay?

One last thing, I really love you very much.

Your most loyal, Mingli,

2021 3 Month 17 Day.