cast a peach

一

In the third year after knowing that Director Zhao had a daughter, I finally met her in Jiangcheng.

But when I first met Zhao Dong, Zhao Dong was not Zhao Dong, but Mr. Zhao, and I was not Lian's special assistant, but Lian Keqin.

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When I first met Mr. Zhao, I was 23 years old. I had just graduated from university and had just entered unemployment.

——Yes, I studied philosophy, or Xizhe, and I was unemployed after graduation.

In fact, I want to study further, but I can't afford to be a graduate student.Fortunately, I had the foresight to pass the teaching qualification test in my sophomore year, so I planned to become a teacher in a high school in Meishi, or take a civil servant test.

When I was in college, the teacher joked that students of our major are active in all walks of life. I only understand what this means now—we have all changed careers.

But unfortunately, only three people were recruited. I was No. 1 in the written test and ranked last in the interview, so I just failed.At that time, I was devastated and was greatly shocked. It was only later that I found out that the first, second and third interviewees were the nephew of the principal, the granddaughter of the director of the Education Bureau, and the nephew of the head of a certain subject’s teaching and research team.

But I didn't know it at the time, I just thought I was incompetent.I think I'm going to go back to the Shiwan Dashan, and I'm so hungry that I eat every day looking at the restaurant menu I picked up, living on two steamed buns, soaking them in water, and eating them slowly.I call this legitimate self-deception.

Anyway, in short, I'm leaving Meishi.If I stay in this barren and ruthless city any longer, I am afraid that my bottom line will drop again tomorrow, and I will cut my kidneys and sell them for money with green eyes.

The day before I left, I heard back from my randomly submitted resume, and HR called me for an interview.It was a new technology company, and I heard that the boss was a beautiful woman from Beijing.But this has nothing to do with me. I only learned about these things after I joined the company after listening to others.

I gritted my teeth looking at the crumbs of steamed buns on my rented basement table.

Then refund the ticket first and try your luck again.

The train ticket is 49.5, and the refund will only return me 44.5. The fucking dog cheated me for five dollars.While thinking this way, I sat in a chair in a daze, waiting for the interview.

In fact, I knew that I would definitely not be admitted, but I just couldn't be reconciled, I went crazy, and I wanted to stay in Meishi for one more day.Meishi is so huge, so indifferent, so hurried and so endless, but I feel free here, a freedom I have never experienced before.

I like freedom, I need freedom.I don't want to go home. There are only my cowardly and vicious parents, my incompetent and arrogant younger brother, my cannibal gossip and endless gravity, pulling me down.

Even if I die outside, I will never go home again.

I opened the door and went in, and there was a beautiful woman sitting inside, with her chin lifted, with a lazy expression, and a long thin cigarette in her finger.

At that time, I said in my heart: This company is quite rich, HR is so beautiful, tsk tsk tsk.

She asked me a few casual questions, then waved me out.

Well, I knew I was hopeless, I really don't know what kind of nerve I made to stay an extra day.

But she suddenly stopped me and told me to wait.

She said, "You studied philosophy in college?"

I said yes.

Then the woman laughed.She said, "Then let me test you with a few questions."

I said yes.I'm waiting to see what civil science questions this vase can ask.

She finished asking, and I finished answering.She seemed satisfied, and I was also surprised.

Because the questions she asked were very good, if I didn't have years of reading accumulation, I wouldn't even know who said what she quoted.

This company is really awesome, HR is so cultured.

She put away her cigarette and said, "One last question."

"What would your ideal employment relationship be like?"

I thought about it for a while, and still told the truth: "If you give me money, I will do anything, even call you mom."

In fact, I didn't say a word later, she can keep me as long as she wants.But I guess she won't do it, one is that homosexuality is relatively rare, and two is that I'm not beautiful enough to need someone to pay to sleep with me.

Schopenhauer Russell is a fart, I want money, I am starving to death without money, I can’t even afford the train ticket home, as long as you give me money, I can immediately scold Hegel from the grave shamelessly jump up.

The woman looked at me in astonishment, and then laughed very happily.She stretched out her beautiful hand towards me, and said to me in her beautiful voice:

"Hi, my name is Zhao Zhihua."

two

I just became Zhao Zhihua's secretary in such a daze.

Ah no, it's time to call her Mr. Zhao.

At the banquet, cups of wine were exchanged, the man's covetous and ugly eyes were like poisonous snakes, and the letter hissed out was entangled on her waist and chest. She turned a blind eye to it, and still exchanged glasses with him with a smile.

Then when I got home I vomited.

Mr. Zhao was in a mess when he was drunk, and fell on the sofa, covering his face with the back of his hands. I dragged her to change clothes and take a bath with a dull face. When I put on the hot water, I heard her murmur as thin as a mosquito.

She said "Daddy".

I froze for a moment and decided to pretend I didn't hear anything.

But I don’t know where there are rumors that our President Zhao is actually very powerful. His father is a man in the capital. It is undeniable that Zhao always broke up with his family because of a man, so he left the capital in anger and came to the south to start a business.

I sneered at this, and didn't believe it at all.How can there be such a big fool in the world.Anyway, I don't think Mr. Zhao is.

three

Then Mr. Zhao told me she was.

That was a long time ago, two years?three years?Maybe four or five years.I can't remember.In short, Mr. Zhao finally became Mr. Zhao at that time. Our company bought a whole building in Meishi, where every inch of land is expensive, to work in. No man dared to show the slightest disrespect in front of her. They They all nodded and bowed to please her.

People say that Zhao Zhihua is a tiger in the business world of Meishi, and Meishi will tremble three times if he stomps his feet.

Now the tiger is standing in front of me with a cigarette in one hand and my resignation in the other.This scene touched my memory, and I felt as if I went back to the time when Mr. Zhao interviewed me several years ago.

She smoked a cigarette silently and said, "Why did you resign? You obviously did a good job."

"Is it because I didn't give you enough money?" she asked me, straight to the point.

I said no.

Why, she asked.

In fact, I do not know.

At that time, I was Secretary Lian, and under Zhao Dong's honor, everyone would call me "Lian Temi". I didn’t dare to think about everything when I just graduated from university a few years ago. If I still want to eat steamed buns now, I can withdraw a little money from my bank card to buy steamed buns from Meishi shop to my hometown.

But at the same time I also feel tired.

Just like Mr. Zhao, I was sick all over. Drinking alcohol blocked my stomach trouble. Once I got a foreign object in my eye when I went out to do errands. I didn’t deal with it in time. Afterwards, I always cried because of the wind, so I wore plain glasses.

Now that Zhao Dong is in his early days, I also feel that I can leave, and there is no particular reason.People are so cheap sometimes, and I can't help it.

Zhao Zhihua pressed my resignation letter with her beautiful hand, pondered for a moment, and said, since you don't want to be my secretary, then you can be my life assistant, how about it?Your salary will remain the same.

I asked very cautiously, what is the main task of the job?

She took a puff of cigarette thoughtfully, shrugged her shoulders, and said, I don't know, just let me eat and sleep, tell me to smoke as little as possible and drink as little as possible, probably.

I am speechless.Who the hell can do that.

Zhao Zhihua turned around, she looked at the tall buildings outside the window, and didn't speak for a long time.

She suddenly said to me, Xiao Lian, do you know that I actually have a daughter.

four

In the third year after knowing that Director Zhao had a daughter, I finally met her in Jiangcheng.

At that time, I had been Zhao Dong's life assistant for several years, and I worked hard every day, and my liver hurt from anger.Because Zhao Dong went his own way and didn't listen to me at all, he still drank in the middle of the night and was admitted to the hospital with stomach bleeding.

I remind her too many times and she will block me because she thinks I am annoying.

Fuck, I'm pissed off!Zhao Zhihua is such an idiot!

She was lying on the hospital bed with a pale face. Seeing me coming, she smiled at me, stretched out her hand and said, Xiao Lian, do you have any cigarettes?

I said there is a head, you rest.

So she laughed.

While peeling apples for the idiot by the hospital bed, I sighed deeply.

Zhao Dong is very powerful and very lonely, very lonely.She needs something to fill the emptiness in her heart, it doesn't matter what it is, maybe it's cigarettes, maybe it's wine, maybe it's a beautiful man, or maybe it's a beautiful girl.

The beautiful girl she fostered was named Li Runyue.

Pure and charming, tender enough to pinch water, looking at Zhao Dongshi with unknowing admiration and attachment in his eyes.

Zhao Dong didn't realize that since she had Li Runyue, her temper was much better than before, and she smoked less, saying that she was afraid of letting the girl smell the second-hand smoke.

There seems to be a lot of age difference between them, I think.

I sigh again.

Forget it, I don’t care who Zhao Dong likes, I’m Special Assistant Lian, as long as Zhao Dong lives a healthy and regular life, don’t say that Zhao Dong is in love with a little girl who is only a little older than his daughter, Zhao Dong is in love with a pug dog I have no problem.

But Zhao Dong suddenly got in a bad mood again. One day, she asked me seriously in a tone of discussing philosophical issues with me if I knew what young girls like nowadays.

I looked at the hickey marks on her neck and gloated, thinking, you are miserable, you are in love!Ha ha!

But Director Zhao is very thin-skinned in a sense, in other words, he is very shameless, maybe my gloating was too obvious, she came back to her senses, and angrily told me to get out.

Then Zhao Dong sent me to her daughter and asked me to take care of the little girl for a while.

Before I left, I threatened Zhao Dong's current secretary, Xiao Lu, and told her to supervise Zhao Dong carefully. If Zhao Dong drank himself into the hospital again, I would fly a helicopter from Jiangcheng to peel off her skin.

Xiao Lu almost cried from my fright.So I set off to Jiangcheng contentedly.

五

In the third year after knowing that Director Zhao had a daughter, I finally met her in Jiangcheng.

Her name seems to be Zhao Shishui, uh, but what it's called is not too important, I don't care, anyway, she is Zhao Dong's daughter.

I actually had a headache when I came here.

I heard that this girl was brought up by Mr. Zhao, she is a real eldest lady, I was very worried, I was afraid that she would be like some second generation ancestor and not treat the people around her as human beings.I don't mind, after all I took Mr. Zhao's money, I'm very dedicated, I'm just a little annoying.

The result was beyond my expectation, she was a little too well behaved.

I remember that the day I went to pick her up was the second day of Christmas. Jiangcheng was very cold that year, and the snow on the holly trees hadn’t cleared yet, so she walked out slowly with her schoolbag and suitcase on her back and her head down. up.

When she looked up, I froze for a moment.

Does the Zhao family have any beauty genes?

She is very beautiful, in the same style as Zhao Dong.I guess a lot of boys like her.

I bent down, covered her head with my hands, and opened the rear door for her, but she was stunned by my actions, and raised her head to look at me in a daze.

I looked down at her: "What's wrong, Miss Zhao."

She seemed to have something to say, but she didn't say anything in the end, she just whispered, "I'll just take the co-pilot."

Well, I'm fine with that.It seems that she is not the kind of vain and proud little girl who doesn't like my pompous and pretentious way.

After driving out for a while, I turned the steering wheel and said, "My name is Lian Keqin. I used to be Director Zhao's life assistant. My current job is to take care of you."

She was silent for a while, and seemed to look at me quietly, before she said, "My name is Zhao Guangshui. Nice to meet you, Sister Lian."

Oh, I see, it's not Zhao Shuishui, it's Zhao Guangshui.

Her voice is very clear and soft, reminding me of a cautious and gentle little rabbit.I couldn't help but glance at her in the rearview mirror.

I said, "You don't need to call me that, I work, just call me Xiao Lian."

She said, "Then don't call me you, can you?"

"I'm not used to it." She said lightly.

I finally took a good look at her, nodded, and said yes.

What a strange kid.I think.

六

She looks in a bad mood, depressed, I thought as I cooked.

I don't know why...

Then I thought again, it's none of my business, I'll ask her to eat, if she gets angry with me and doesn't eat, I'll put the food at her door and leave her alone.

I knocked on her door.

She was obviously thinking about something and was taken aback by me, but she was still very obedient and obediently followed me to get dinner.

I'm starting to regret it.

I think I should treat her a little better. Zhao Dong's jerk doesn't mean her daughter is a jerk. She still looks like a child.

In short, I recalled the teenage psychology that was crammed before I came here, stop.

Then I pressed her into my arms.

The young girl's body is soft and has a faint fragrance. I don't know why the movements are a little stiff.I patted her head stiffly: "I think, you seem to be in a bad mood."

Ah, I'm convinced, what kind of lines are these.

But I continued stiffly: "The parenting book I bought said that if a child shows depression, you should give her some physical contact to comfort her."

I lowered my head: "Do you feel better now?"

I feel that if I were her, I would step on this strange woman severely.

However, a strange thing happened, her eyes widened unexpectedly, and then she laughed very clearly and brightly.

She hugged me, let go quickly, and said softly: "Thank you sister, I feel much better now."

"Let's go eat," she said.

I stood there looking at her, stunned for a long time, then smiled unconsciously.

What a weird kid.

But compared to Zhao Dong, it is quite cute.

Seven

I soon found out that she was broken in love, and was rejected by Tan Mingli, the daughter of Tan's parents.No wonder she was so lost.

She is very insecure. When she sleeps, she has to draw the curtains tightly, and she is willing to sleep only when the house is dark. When she is sad, she will not seek comfort, but just find a small corner to curl up and cry quietly.

I have nothing to do with her. When I face her, I always feel that there is no way to do it. I don’t know how to comfort her, so I just sit quietly beside her and pass her a tissue after she finishes crying.

She begged me to hug her, so I leaned down and hugged her gently.

She was a beautiful and fragile little creature, like an elf fashioned from snow and wind.Her wrist is so thin that I can break it easily.I sympathized with her and thought she was cute and pitiful.

"Sister Li is very good. The only bad thing is that she doesn't like me. But after thinking about it, it's not her fault. She doesn't like me, and it's normal. So she's still very good. "

After a while, she leaned on my shoulder like this, speaking softly intermittently.

"Sister Lian, I really like her..."

Until she was so tired that she fell asleep, she was still softly chanting Tan Mingli's name.

How pathetic, I thought.She fell in love with someone she shouldn't love, which made her life miserable.

Tan Mingli, I know her, the pearl of the Tan family who was once famous a few years ago, I met her once at Xiaoshui's birthday party a long time ago.

She is gentle and beautiful, with a smile.But I know that the heart under her deceitful skin is cold.

Here is someone who loves nothing, not even herself.In time, she will be the second Tan Jingshan, and even better than blue.

She is dangerous, I thought, and I might be able to save Xiao Shui from this danger.

Eight

But it’s completely different from what I thought. I originally thought that Xiaoshui was just a momentary obsession, or a filter, or an Oedipus complex—it’s almost inevitable that a little girl who lacks love will fall in love with a gentle and mature elder. .

But Xiaoshui is more determined than I imagined, and loves Tan Mingli even more.

She actually understands everything, but she doesn't care.As she said to me later, she didn't ask whether it was worth it, but whether she was willing or not.

What a strange kid, I thought.

I've never seen anyone like her before.She is so weird.

nine

Director Zhao did not return to the capital this year, she went to find Miss Runyue, so I have been with Xiao Shui this year.

I walked with her, flew kites, watched movies, looked for flowers and plants, spelled world maps, and taught her how to play games.She is very smart, but she is not very good at video games, and always fails to pass the level. Whenever this happens, she will lean over and ask me softly to teach her.

So I teach her.

To be honest, I was very pleased to be asked by such a beautiful young girl.

She doesn't look as depressed and sad as she used to, I think.So has she forgotten Tan Mingli?

One night she read a book and fell asleep on the sofa. I gently picked her up and planned to send her to the bedroom to sleep.

She called softly, "Sister Lian..."

My heart skipped a beat.I leaned down in a panic and put my ear close to her lips, trying to hear her dream clearly.

I got it wrong, her name was "Sister Pear."

Sister Li, Sister Lian, Li Li, Lian Lian, there is only one vowel pinyin difference. Why is there such a big difference? Why does she pronounce the former with a tenderness that I have never seen before, and when she pronounces the latter? Just pure respect and closeness.

I've said it many times, Zhao Guangshui is a strange child, and I can't figure out many things about her.

I don't understand why she likes Tan Mingli so much.

I couldn't understand why she had such pure tenderness and kindness, she shed tears and took care of me while I was in a hurry when my stomach hurt.

I don't understand why she has so many tears.

I don't understand how I could face her tears with so much patience and heartache.

I hugged her like hugging a cloud that was about to dissipate in the sky at any moment.

Little water, little water, my little water, my treasure, my kitten, my salvation, my soul.

Ten

Ah, I'm surprised that Tan Mingli actually likes her too.

I originally thought that a person like her would never fall in love with anything in her life.

Xiao Shui is very happy every day, even the corners of his eyebrows and eyes are sweet.After all, she was still her first love, young and throbbing, and Tan Mingli's rank was so high, a few words could easily make her heart flutter.

I realized that it was time for me to separate from her.Tan Mingli will not tolerate me being by her side any longer.

She asked me to hide it from Dong Zhao for her, and I agreed.Even though I know it will make me lose Director Zhao's trust.

In fact, their mother and daughter are quite alike, and sometimes I think so alone.Director Zhao is also very insecure. I know that my meaning to her is different from others, and she will never accept my betrayal.

But I did it anyway.

I'm sorry, but not sorry.

If this is Xiao Shui's request, then do so.I found it strange that I couldn't refuse her.

Dongchuang soon happened, and Mr. Zhao talked to me.

She looked at me and said, Xiao Lian, tell me what you want, and I will give it to you.

This is the meaning of the last gift before leaving.

I know she's telling the truth, she keeps her promises and is always nice to those around her.But I don't know if she would eat me up if she knew what I wanted was her daughter.I find it hilarious just thinking about it.

I shook my head and said, no, Director Zhao, I don't want anything.

I do not want anything.

I just thought, now I am no longer Special Secretary Lian, nor Special Assistant Lian, I am just myself, Lian Keqin himself.Just like many, many years ago.

eleven

I didn't expect to see Xiaoshui again, after all, Tan Mingli once asked me not to have any contact with her.

I blocked all her contact information and threw away the old equipment.She will be very sad when she finds out, I thought.I just don't know if she will cry quietly by herself.

Probably not anymore, she has Tan Mingli now.

It was in the early spring a year later, and it was her birthday.

At this time, I suddenly felt very happy——Xiaoshui celebrated my birthday with me, just the two of us.

Life is so boring and long, but she finally has something that belongs only to me.

At the party, a very noisy young woman kept making noises, asking Xiao Shui to kiss Tan Mingli.I silently glanced at the big humanoid parrot, a little bit wanting to gag her mouth.

I don't know if it's too late for me to leave now?

I didn't want to see Xiao Shui...but I did.

When she kissed, she would hold onto Tan Mingli's shoulders and raise her face, hooking the woman's neck emotionally. After the kiss, her eyes were wet, as if they were about to drip water.

He had to gently kiss Tan Mingli's lips again, and rubbed the woman's neck affectionately, and then reluctantly came out of her arms, his eyes still glued to her body.

She kisses people like that, and her lover loves like that.

But it has nothing to do with me.

At this time, I suddenly hated my family and origin, and I hated myself for not being a daughter of a cheap family.

Maybe the one who gets Xiaoshui like that will be me.

It's time to go, I have no intention of getting up and leaving.I also want to say a few more words to Xiao Shui.I haven't spoken to her for a long time.

Tan Mingli glanced at me quietly, I knew she was a very jealous person.Now she must be scolding me in her heart again, I think, but Xiaoshui is here, and she wants to pretend to be mature and stable.

How crafty.Why was Xiao Shui coaxed away by this old fox.

She left anyway, and Xiao Shui and I were the only ones left in the room.

She looked at me seriously, and then I saw her distressed look.

Silly boy, I thought.

I always thought she was stupid.She's smart, but she's also stupid, and there's no conflict between the two.

She doesn't know that I am not worthy of her distress.

Before leaving, she said to me: "I wish you happiness and peace, always be happy, Sister Lian."

I laughed and said, "Why don't you wish me a fortune."

She froze for a moment, then laughed.She looked at me sincerely and said softly, "I wish you a fortune."

I like money, money makes me feel at ease, if there is nothing else in life, then at least I still have money, a lot of money.I have no morals, money is my morals.She has brought back a lot of things that I lost, but she was only with me for a short time and then left very quickly.

I know her future lies in the fields, in the countryside, beside Tan Mingli, and in countless poor and old lands.

I look forward to her bringing the spring breeze and sunshine to all places.