fallen star

I have brought everything I need to bring, and I already know what I will take the exam in the afternoon. For the last test, I just need to calm down and perform normally. The patience of half a year is coming to an end.

"Teacher, I have finished drawing, can I hand it in?" Just after four o'clock, the crab eater stood up

"Yes~" the invigilator gave the order, and I also stood up from the stool and began to pack my things

When I left the test site, Ouyang was waiting for me outside. It was cold and I had to pretend I didn't care, but it didn't matter. I've been suffering for half a year~ Then when am I going to have a showdown with him?

He rubbed his hands, smiled and took the painting bag in my hand, just like my father

"No need, I can..." I was rejected by him before I finished speaking.

"How was the afternoon?" he asked me

"It's almost the same as usual, and even a little better than usual~"

He turned his head, patted me on the shoulder, and said, "Okay, that's all right!" Then he asked me, "What do you want to eat tonight?"

"Eat something casually. By the way, when will you go to Mount Lushan?"

He thought for a while, and said, "I'll do whatever I want, let's see what they say, anyway, you promised me to be our tour guide~"

I nodded and said no problem, then the phone in my pocket vibrated a few times, it was a message from Chen Jiatong

Chen Jiatong: Have you finished the exam?

Me: It's over, I just left the exam room

Chen Jiatong: How do you feel?Ha ha

Me: Same as usual

Chen Jiatong: Hahaha it’s too easy, let’s go to Mount Lushan tomorrow

Me: I can do whatever I want, just eat and live.

Chen Jiatong: OK

Ouyang came over to have a look, and said, "That kid is so complacent, let's put the things away first and order the dishes~"

Arriving in Nanchang at [-]:[-] p.m., a Mercedes-Benz parked at the gate of the school. Ouyang and Chen Jiatong pulled me into the car, and I knew whose car it was

"I still don't feel full, I can eat some more~" Chen Jiatong sat in the co-pilot, Ouyang and I sat in the back seat, as for the driver, it was Wang Zanghai, who I hated the most

"Hey~ Ouyang" Wang Zanghai asked, "Go to the music restaurant of your marriage partner, right? Is it still open at this late hour?"

"No, they are also happy, I greeted them~"

"That's OK~"

They were talking and laughing along the way, only I was pretending to be embarrassed, occasionally talking to Ouyang

It’s still the familiar parking lot, and I always remind myself, “You don’t remember the past, you don’t know where to go when you get off the car, and you don’t know Sister Li or Sister Huang, you don’t even know each other!”

"Let's go~" Wang Zanghai parked the car, and Ouyang pushed me to remind me to get out of the car

I pretended to react suddenly, and then said "oh~" and followed them out of the car. My sisters were already waiting for us

"Xiaofan...how is your recovery?" Sister Li asked, "Do you remember them? Are we here?"

"Uh... for the time being... I don't seem to remember~" I smiled apologetically, and said awkwardly at first, "but I will definitely remember it in the future!"

As I said, Ouyang was looking at me, I didn't turn my head, even the corner of my eye was hurriedly aside

The winter in Nanchang is very windy, and the air conditioner in the private room of the restaurant is turned on very hot. I left them alone to find the terrace. There were still water marks on the wooden floor. The light on the opposite side of the river, I want to smoke again, but I can't smoke here, and I haven't brought it here, I secretly hide it in a corner of the painting bag

"What are you doing here?" Chen Jiatong's voice came over, I turned around, and he said again, "Don't you miss the past?"

"what?"

He walked over to me, leaned against the railing, took out a cigarette case from his pocket, pulled out a cigarette and handed me a cigarette.

"Why?" I pushed the cigarette back and said, "I don't smoke!"

"Okay~" He sighed, put the cigarette in his mouth back into the cigarette case, and asked again, "Then what are you doing here?"

"It's too hot inside~ I'll come out to get some air~"

I still won, maybe he figured out that my amnesia has been cured long ago?

"Let me tell you something, I don't know if you can accept it~" He rubbed his eyes and said, "If you are still the same Li Jifan!"

"What do you mean, are you going to whet my appetite?"

I know, it's not the love between men and women, how can it be so easy to say, he has been brewing

"My cousin, it's just Ouyang!" He finally planned to say it, and continued, "Maybe after we come back from Mount Lushan tomorrow, you will rarely have the chance to see each other~"

"what happened?"

"Don't you want to go home to improve your culture?" He said, "And then I will go to university next year, and the opportunities to meet must be less and less!"

"What are you going to say? If you want to go back to school to see Ouyang, don't you have many opportunities? Besides, doesn't Ouyang have something to do?"

He shook his head and said, "What if my cousin likes you?" He continued, "Don't say this is the last chance, but it's a pity to miss this time. It doesn't matter if you forget before..."

I can feel that my face is blushing, what should I do? This is forcing me, what should I do?

"Ah... I... I don't know..."

"Since you were still in the hospital until now, haven't you noticed?" He said very hard, trying to lower his voice, and let me feel that he was hysterical, and said again, "I don't know now Can you accept this... If not, you should say goodbye to him, okay?"

I still can only nod thoughtfully, the principle of our life is to confess to the person you like first, but... maybe the weather is not good~

"Don't make a decision so quickly, okay?" He said again, "Maybe if you think about it all night, all those things that you suddenly forgot suddenly come to mind?" He begged me, and I could only nod reluctantly.

I'm going back to the private room. Chen Jiatong had a frowning look on his face, and he tightly held the retro and old iron railings with both hands. When I turned around, he suddenly stuffed both hands into my clothes from behind. winter

"What are you doing! Are you rough!" I beat his hand, chased him, and ran into the private room after chasing him

"What are you two doing! Be careful and accidentally fall to your death~" Ouyang scolded us with a smile

Sitting back in my seat, I somehow found that Wang Zanghai didn’t seem to have met them before, but he talked with them like good friends, and I had to accept the eye hints from Chen Jiatong from time to time, which was very funny

At 10:30 in the evening, after eating and returning to school, Chen Jiatong immediately began to pack his things. I sat on the bed and didn’t want to move. I was actually thinking about how I would tell Ouyang that I had already remembered the past.

"What are you doing?" Chen Jiatong looked at me and asked, "Why are you in a daze?"

"Ah..." I just came back to my senses, and hurriedly perfunctory "I was thinking if I took you to Mount Lushan tomorrow, where should we go?" I took out my mobile phone to check the weather on Mount Lu, it happened that the snow stopped today, and tomorrow will be sunny

"Then have you thought about it?"

I shook my head, "Let's go see it tomorrow..."

The other roommates have all gone home on vacation, and there are only two people left in the dormitory, Chen Jiatong and I. We have to get up early tomorrow, so we turned off the lights early.

In the dark, Chen Jiatong asked me from the lower bunk, "Do you have any girls you like? Our studio~ or somewhere else?"

"no……"

"Then do you like boys?" He said again, "Where's my cousin?"

I hesitated for a while and said "I don't know, do you like it?"

"My partner is driving today." He said, "Anyway, I have nothing to hide from you now~"

"Okay~"

"Anyway... don't wrong yourself. If you don't like it, tell your cousin clearly. I think he can understand~" He said, the crisp sound of the lighter igniting came, and then he smelled a strong smell of smoke

I felt a little uneasy, as if I had two people in my heart, one was telling me: You should tell Ouyang immediately, don’t let him worry about you anymore; the other told me: You can’t tell him, if he has already looked away, Don't need you anymore?

Thinking about it, the night passed like this, and I was woken up by Chen Jiatong in a daze. It was already 07:30, it was time to get up

"Hurry up, the driver has already left, we still have to go to have breakfast~" Chen Jiatong said, holding a mouthwash cup and a toothbrush in his hand, he went into the toilet

After washing up, Chen Jiatong was already waiting for me at the door of the dormitory with a bag on his back and a suitcase, as if he was going to escape, but I just packed a bag...

"Hurry up, hurry up! The driver is already waiting for us downstairs~"

"Look at how promising you are~" I laughed at him, and I took my hand out on the bed, and the bag was hooked off by me, "Let's go then~"

In terms of car journey, it takes about two hours to get on the expressway from Nanchang and get off the expressway in Jiujiang, because I was sleepy in the car because I didn’t sleep well last night.

"Sleep for a while if you're sleepy, and I'll call you when I get there~" Ouyang patted his shoulder, and I leaned my head casually

I didn't fall asleep for the first half an hour because his heartbeat was too fast. After I got used to it, suddenly his hand reached out to my head and stroked it back and forth for a long time. Are you crying?

"It's going to snow again the day after tomorrow, so if we travel up the mountain..." "Li Jifan...wake up~ we're here~"

I just realized that almost my entire upper body was lying on Ouyang's lap while I was sleeping soundly, so I sat up immediately in embarrassment

"You have to go down the mountain tomorrow evening at the latest, because if the weather forecast is accurate, we will close the mountain after [-] o'clock tomorrow night..." The staff at the ticket office was talking to Wang Zanghai, and Wang Zanghai also nodded

"How many of you?" The conductor looked inside, "Four?"

"Hmm~ four," Wang Zanghai said, taking out his wallet and asking, "How much is a ticket?"

I poked my head out of the car window, "I'm a local~"

The mountain road twists and turns all the way up, Chen Jiatong couldn't help throwing up, the little trash barked the loudest before it came, and was the most cowardly one when it came

"The snow scene is quite beautiful~" Ouyang said and kept taking photos

When we arrived at Moling Town on the top of the mountain, after the car was parked, Chen Jiatong and Wang Zanghai went to find a tour guide to play, leaving me and Ouyang, which made me a little at a loss

"Wait for me, I'll go to the bathroom~" Ouyang said and also ran over, leaving me alone on the viewing terrace, opposite to the mountain stream with a great snow scene, and many houses surrounded by ice and snow Here, what a fairyland on earth

"Is it cold?" Ouyang patted me from behind, I turned my head, he was holding two cups of steaming milk tea, and then handed me a cup

Many people were taking pictures on the terrace, and the fence was covered with a thick layer of snow. He and I could barely lean on the snow-free place and watch quietly.

"Have you decided where to go to university?"

"Emmm...Jiangxi Normal University? Or HKUST University of Finance and Economics?" I don't know, and I still don't have much confidence in another year

"Don't you want to leave the province?" He asked me, I shook my head

"Why go out of the province? It's troublesome to go home~ Besides..." I smiled at him and said, "If you go out of the province, it will be very difficult to come back to see you~"

He smiled "huh?" and asked me "Is it looking at me~ or looking at us?"

"Hey, why bother with this~" I smiled awkwardly, and said, "Aren't they all the same?"

"Cut! What a disappointment! I've worked so hard to cultivate you~" he said hahaha, "You white-eyed wolf~"

Say goodbye to the terrace and go straight into the mountain. The snow on the ground is so thick that the insteps are gone. Fortunately, I wear snow boots and they can't do anything to me.

"Do you want me to carry you?" Ouyang asked me, I think he can hardly walk by himself

"It's better, haha, I think Ouyang, you are tired from walking~ like a penguin..."

In the evening, I met Chen Jiatong and the others. They have helped to open the room. The room is not too big but it looks very cozy

"This person is planning to open a luxury label. He really has a lot of money!" Chen Jiatong patted Wang Zanghai and said, "Fortunately, I stopped it. This room costs more than 700 a night. I'm really drunk~"

I laughed and said, "I never said that the hotels on Lushan Mountain are cheap, you have to come." After that, I spread my hands

The room is not big, and there is only a small window to see the snow scene outside. At night, Chen Jiatong and his partner went out to fool around again. Ouyang bought some beer and came back, and then the two of us sat by the window, drinking with the snow scene outside. no chat

"Now that you are here, do you still think the snow scene is beautiful?" I asked him

"It's pretty~" he said, taking a sip of his wine

"It's freezing to death. After the snow melts, the road is so dirty that it looks good?"

He didn't look at me and said "Well, it looks good~"

Looking out the window, it was already dark after seven o'clock, and a few scattered people were walking back and forth under the warm yellow street lights

"When the time comes to fill in the application form, you will consult me ​​in Nanchang, right?" He asked me

"I don't know, maybe it will. If I fail the exam, I will have no face to go back to you for consultation hahaha~" I said

He hummed twice and said, "Then I'll come to Jiujiang and scold you to death!"

I rolled my eyes at him

"Okay! Seriously." He put down the wine bottle and said, "No matter how you do in the exam, go back to Nanchang and ask me to fill in the application~"

I nodded and agreed to him, he showed a smile, picked up the bottle and touched me

"The snow has stopped! The stars are coming out~" He pointed to the dimly lit stars in the sky and said, "Tomorrow will be sunny~"

"But doesn't the weather forecast say that it will snow again the day after tomorrow~"

"Don't be so disappointing~" He gave me a blank look and asked me "Xingxing~ What do you think you can compare him to?"

Memories flooded my mind for a while, I can't say that he is as rare as a star when he smiles, right?

"Emmm...money?"

"I think you are..." He knocked on my head and said, "It's out of your eyes!"

I can also see that he has worked very hard to recall my memory, but now I can't show it, that would be too passive

"What else could that be? Like a human being? Unique?"

He seemed to have gained something, smiled in satisfaction, nodded, and said, "Like you~" Damn, this is too straightforward, what should I do?

"Yo, you can still blush~" He is getting more and more active, it seems that he has to find a way to be passive and active

"It's too hot inside, why don't we go out for a walk?"

"Are you inviting me? Or are you dating me?" His grinning look is really a chicken thief

I got up and put on the padded jacket, and he followed me to pick up the padded jacket

"You talk a lot tonight, and you're a little abnormal tonight!"

Walking under the warm yellow street lights, the snow was being trampled on, I walked in front so he would not be able to notice the change in my expression, I had already thought about it, and the time for a showdown had come, the moment of real reunion with Ouyang would not be the same. Is it right in front of you?

I deliberately squatted down on the spot, pretending to play in the snow, Ouyang passed me and walked to the front, he stopped to look at me

"What are you doing?" he asked me and I stood up again

"Why not, keep going~" I threw the snow dumpling in my hand aside

He seems to have a lot of things on his mind. He pauses on his heels for a while, kicks his feet in the snow for a while, walks with his hands in his pockets and his head bowed. He seems very lonely without saying a word.

"Jifan Jifan, look at me..." I muttered softly, the one in front of me stopped, but didn't look back

"Am I a star in the sky..." I finally cried out, weeping silently, Ouyang's body began to twitch

"There are many stars in the sky... but none of them are yours..." I continued singing "Can you give me your hand..."

He finally turned around, and the tears of his nose and tears were mixed together on his face from crying.

"Sorry, I'm late~"

"You are...Xiao...Fan...?" He asked with wide eyes, "Are you really Xiaofan?!!"

I nodded, my body twitched unconsciously, and said, "It's true~" As soon as he finished speaking, he rushed over and hugged me in his arms, and pressed my head hard against his chest. It must be that he has accumulated all his energy for the past year. Even though it hurts, I feel happy.

Sure enough, the weather forecast was inaccurate, and it started snowing again. Are you celebrating for us?Everyone got their wish, yes, there is still true love in the world, if you are sure it is the person in front of you, it doesn’t matter if it is a little later

"Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! I can finally stay by your side! Thank you!" He cried and laughed, he was happy after all, he shouted very loudly, at this moment I didn't care about the opinions of passers-by, respond with tears

"Thank you too, thank you for your company all this year! Ouyang! You are my star!"

That's right, two people who love each other become stars in each other's world, especially the love between the same sex. As we grew up in China, that love is even more difficult to express, and sometimes we accidentally I missed it with him/her, so I hope that all the friends here can be brave, either dare to express, and it doesn’t matter if you get hurt a little; or dare to forget, and don’t live with regrets.Come on, there's nothing wrong with being different!

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