fallen star

Seeing that the college entrance examination is less than a month away, my family has been calling to urge me to go back to school. I have been absent from class for two days, and I can’t leave right now. Maybe... Li Jifan will wake up, maybe he won’t remember me when he wakes up Well, maybe...

Facing the phone, I said to my mother, "I want to repeat~" She hung up the phone without saying anything

Temporarily staying at my cousin’s house in Jiujiang, the house is also rented by him, said to be funded by Da Mo, it’s just a rough house with two bedrooms and one living room, the house is quite dilapidated, but the interior decoration is a bit homely

"What do you do after delaying the exam for so long here?" My cousin asked me, and I laughed

"Repeat~" After he finished speaking, he laughed and got up and dragged me

"Get the hell out of here, make fun of re-study!" He pulled me up and said, "The entrance exam policy changes year by year, and the score line fluctuates up and down. Are you crazy to make fun of re-study?"

"Then what can I do? Am I not responsible for Li Jifan's car accident?" I also yelled at him, "You told me to go back now, how can I feel at ease?!"

He stopped talking, sat down and continued to fill the lunch box with the chicken soup that was cooked at noon

Suddenly the phone call came in again, it was from Dad

"Please explain to me why you want to repeat the study?!" His tone was very fierce, "If there is no reason, get out of here!"

"I'm sorry Dad, I'm here in Jiujiang~" I was a little choked up as I spoke, "Because a friend of mine had a car accident and it was very serious. I didn't know if he would wake up. It was all my fault. Before he woke up, I I don't even want to go back~"

"All day and night, you will cause trouble! If you repeat the study, repeat it, don't regret it~"

I said "um~" and hung up the phone

My cousin looked up at me and asked, "Have you really decided to repeat?"

"Yeah~" I continue to nod

He patted his thigh and got up, "Oh, okay." He picked up the lunch box and handed it to me, "I'm going to change clothes, wait for me."

When we arrived at the hospital, there were many people sitting outside the intensive care unit. I looked at Ouyang, and he also breathed a sigh of relief and continued walking.

"I have notified Li Jifan's family members~" he said and looked at them again, and I saw it too, they got up and faced us when they saw us coming

A woman about 25 years old came towards us "What's going on?" I looked at her, then at Ouyang

"She is Li Jifan's older sister~" Ouyang turned his head and said something to me, then turned back and said, "Let's make it clear to everyone, it won't be clear for a while."

Outside the intensive care unit, Ouyang told them the ins and outs of the incident, but he didn't say that if I hadn't stimulated him that day, he wouldn't have become what he is now

"It's none of my business, anyway, he's not our Li family anymore, whoever you care about~!" Outside the crowd, a woman pulled a man who was about to leave

"He's your son! You don't care who cares!" The woman who spoke should be Li Jifan's mother. She was very emotional and said, "Isn't it you who made me grow up with shit and piss!"

Everyone is trying to persuade me, but my cousin and I have nothing to do

"My son?" His father pointed to me and my cousin, "My son would like men? My Li family doesn't have such a son!" After speaking, he left angrily. The nurse just came out of the ward, but the scene was quiet

"I'm sorry that the hospital prohibits making loud noises, please give the patients a quiet environment~" After she finished speaking, she went in again

Li Jifan's mother walked towards us tremblingly while shedding tears, my cousin handed me the lunch box and went up to support her

"What did our Xiaofan do wrong~" she finally cried out, "God will punish him like this~!"

"Auntie, this was an accident...don't worry, Li Jifan is lucky, he will be fine, I went in and have a look~" the cousin comforted her and helped her to the chair and sat down

"For such a long time... Thank you for taking care of my Xiaofan..." Auntie cried and said, "Can you let him go and let him be a normal person again~"

Cousin is silent, and my eyes are blurred, but who will let me go

At the corner, I saw Yang Le standing there, he saw me and left again

"Cousin, I have something to go out~" put the lunch box on the chair next to my cousin and prepared to chase Yang Le

"Don't go out and make trouble for me~" Hearing his cousin's voice and chasing downstairs, Yang Le walked out of the hospital door ahead

"Wait!" I called to him, and he looked back at me, standing there with red eyes waiting for me

In the courtyard of the hospital, Yang Le and I were sitting in a pavilion surrounded by pine trees. The weather in early summer was also a bit unpredictable. The sun hid behind the clouds and then it started to rain

"Can you help me, I know he likes me a little too, but... I really don't want to leave him!" His tone trembled slightly, I knew what he was thinking

"But you clearly care about his past~"

That night, he sneaked out to find me while Li Jifan was asleep, and I told him about Li Jifan and me, he was the one who wanted to do it with me, he cared a lot, didn't he?

"I think... sooner or later I won't care, as long as I am enough... it's just a matter of time!" He slapped his knees hard twice

"You mean you want him to wait for you? Wait for you with the time you are together?" I laughed, it's really ridiculous, Li Jifan never gave me such a chance

"But... I have no other choice, and I don't want to leave him either." He then covered his eyes with his hands

Hmph, I smiled, "You are really contradictory~"

"And you, you liked him too." He changed the subject and asked me instead, "Why did you become like this later?"

I shook my head, "The fate is not there, or there is no fate~"

Before he could speak, a thought suddenly crossed his mind, "Maybe there is still a chance? Maybe..."

"It's getting late, I'm going back to school~" He got up and was about to leave, "Aren't you planning to go back?"

"I'll repeat it~" After finishing speaking, I laughed and felt that it was not worth it for a moment, but that thought was quickly squeezed out of my head by "I still have a chance, maybe"

He froze for a moment, then nodded at me a little disappointed and left.

That's right, I also admire my courage. After Yang Le left, he lit a cigarette and thought about it for a long time. The days of the training camp were really hard and he didn't dare to do it again, but then he thought about it. I figured it out: No matter how difficult the day is, even if I see him, the tiredness will disappear, even if I asked for it

Back outside the intensive care unit, they were still there as usual, sitting and standing, some in a daze, some looking at their mobile phones and some looking at me

"Where did you go?" My cousin sat there, patted his knees, pointed at me and said, "If you are not familiar with Jiujiang, don't run around!"

He pulled his cousin aside and told him about the chat with Yang Le just now, he frowned

"I don't want to feel sorry for him, I know..." He gasped and said, "I've always lived next to the school, Xiaofan was really happy with him, and he became even better..."

"That?"

"No, I'll withdraw first when the time comes. If he still has memory when he wakes up..." Then he said, "If he doesn't have memory, I'll continue to be your teacher." I saw the moment he turned his head, There is light in the eyes, are they tears?

"So you want to hand it over to that Yang Le?"

Cousin nodded, "If Xiaofan could do it all over again, maybe he would choose Yang Le instead of me." He wiped his eyes with his hand and said, "I will respect him too. Without the emotional advantages accumulated before, everything It's fair to Yang Le from the beginning"

What about me... I still can't do it... Auntie's words "let him go and let him be an ordinary person" are useless...

My cousin was admitted to the intensive care unit again, and I hid in the safe passage and wiped my tears secretly. In this place where parting is happening every day, reunion is also so heart-wrenching. Yes, people are like this, and they can be separated when they are alive.

Wang Zanghai finally called me

"What are you doing?" he asked me

"I'm in the hospital, what's the matter?"

"It's okay, I'll just ask, you have already left when you go back to the hotel." He asked again, "What are you doing in the hospital?"

"A friend of mine got into a car accident, and I'm visiting him in the hospital." I concealed it from him, and it was Li Jifan who was in the car accident

The result is always the same "Well, okay, okay, then I will go to find you next time I have time, okay, that's it, bye~" I can almost recite words like that

In the middle of summer, the hospital is full of the smell of disinfectant, but I am used to wandering back and forth outside the ward, in a daze, and as time goes on, I can no longer smell that smell, but the air will feel much fresher when I step out of the hospital door