paranoid dependence

Gu Zhi is a man of action, especially regarding Shen Nian, he couldn't wait, even though he could clearly feel that Shen Nian's condition was better than before when he got up early the next day, he still returned home after school in the afternoon. Went to Jianjia Lane.

Shen Chongshan didn't hear him coming back. When Gu Zhi appeared at the door of his room, Shen Chongshan was sitting on the edge of the bed looking down at the wallet in his hand. There was a photo in it. The distance was too far and Gu Zhi couldn't see who was on it, nor did he know who was on it. Interested to know, he raised his hand and knocked on the door.

Shen Chongshan looked up and saw that Gu Zhi, who shouldn't be here at this moment, panicked for a moment, and then seemed to think of something, and hurriedly put away the photo in his hand, hiding it under the pillow, and then smiled:

"Xiao Zhi, why are you back at this time?"

Gu Zhi looked at him, didn't answer, didn't have any politeness, and went straight to the point: "What did you and Nian Nian say that day?"

Shen Chongshan was a little surprised, he didn't expect that Gu Zhi came back to ask himself this question.

Several days have passed since the incident, if Gu Zhi cared, he shouldn't have come back so late to ask himself, if he didn't care, he shouldn't have appeared here.

"Why do you ask that suddenly?" Shen Chongshan got up from the bed and looked at Gu Zhi.

"What did you say to him?" Gu Zhi asked again, but turned a deaf ear to Shen Chongshan's question.

Shen Chongshan saw Gu Zhi's persistence and knew that he would not tell him too much, so he smiled a little embarrassedly: "Actually, I didn't say anything, it's not a big deal..."

"It's not a big deal?" Gu Zhi stepped towards Shen Chongshan: "It's not a big deal that can make him think wildly, and can't even sleep well at night? Shen Chongshan, you are his father, do you know that the college entrance examination is less than two months away?" Now, do you know how important this is to Nian Nian? It's not a big deal and you have to tell him this at this time? "

Shen Chongshan was stunned for a moment because of Gu Zhi's continuous questioning, and suddenly remembered that Shen Nian was indeed going to take the college entrance examination, but he forgot.

What happened that day was so sudden that he completely panicked and ignored many other things. Although they left Jianjia Lane that day, Shen Chongshan had been thinking about it for the past few days. If Gu Zhi didn't What he said, maybe he still can't remember the college entrance examination.

He really shouldn't have said this to Shen Nian at this time.

But it's too late.

"Is Xiao Nian okay?" Shen Chongshan asked guiltily.

Gu Zhi sneered: "Whether he is good or not is not your business, just tell me what you said to him that day!"

"I didn't say anything, just..." When Shen Chongshan opened his mouth, he remembered what Shen Nian had said to him that day, and he told himself not to say this in front of Gu Zhi, so Shen Chongshan hesitated.

But his hesitation was instantly seen through by Gu Zhi: "Will Nian Nian not let you tell me? If you think that Nian Nian's college entrance examination is not a big deal, you won't feel bad if you work hard day and night like now next year." , don't tell me."

"Xiaozhi..." Shen Chongshan was a little embarrassed: "I didn't tell you..."

"Then say it!" Gu Zhi lost his patience.

"Actually, it's really a trivial matter." Shen Chongshan said helplessly: "That day when I came back and saw you sleeping with Xiao Nian in your arms, I thought it was not good, so I said a few words to Xiao Nian."

Gu Zhi frowned at Shen Chongshan's words, and his eyes were filled with incomprehension. He looked at Shen Chongshan:

"What's wrong? Is there a problem?"

"How old are you all?" Shen Chongshan smiled awkwardly: "Children as old as you, some of them have already made girlfriends and fell in love. It's not appropriate for you to sleep on the same bed and hug each other."

The first time Gu Zhi heard this point of view, he didn't react at all and froze in place.

And Shen Chongshan felt that since he had already said it, it would be better to say it all, so as to give Gu Zhi a wake-up call. If both of them could care a little bit, maybe such a thing would never happen again in the future, so he didn't wait for Gu Zhi. After Zhi Zhi realized it, Shen Chongshan spoke again:

"Xiao Zhi, I know that you and Xiao Nian have a very good relationship and take care of each other, but you can't live a life like this. Xiao Nian is going to college soon, and you have to go to high school here, so you have to be separated. It’s university, and in the future, Xiao Nian will meet excellent girls in the future, fall in love, get married, and even have children of her own. You will too. You should try to keep the distance, otherwise it will be very uncomfortable when you separate in the future .”

Gu Zhi's madness, Shen Chongshan only saw it once. When he decided to leave him at home and go out for a sports car, Gu Zhi went crazy once. When we met again, he and Shen Nian were already close. Shen Chongshan only knew that they had a good relationship, but She didn't understand that during his absence, Shen Nian had become Gu Zhi's only and bottom line.

They cannot be separated.

He is not crazy just because there is Shen Nian by his side, Shen Nian is pressing and pulling him, so he cannot go crazy.

But if Shen Nian leaves, no one will hold him back, and he doesn't seem to need to care so much anymore.

Shen Chongshan's 'separation', 'girlfriend', 'marriage' and 'children' all touched the part that Gu Zhi couldn't stand the most. Although he only said these few words, in Gu Zhi's imagination it became real.

The hands hanging on both sides of the body clenched into fists, and then slowly let go after a few seconds, and he didn't care if the blood was pinched on the palm of his hand. He couldn't go crazy at this time, he had to rush back to school to pick up Nian Nian, Nian Nian If you don't see him, you will be worried.

Gu Zhi forced himself to calm down.

A few seconds later, Gu Zhi let out a breath and laughed again. It was the kind of ignorant but chilling smile. He just looked at Shen Chongshan and asked him:

"Uncle Shen, who said that Niannian is leaving me? Did Niannian tell you?"

"Sooner or later..."

"He won't." Gu Zhi interrupted him: "I won't agree either, girlfriend? I won't allow this person to appear by his side."

Shen Chongshan frowned tightly: "Little Zhi, you are still young..."

"Why do you think I listen to him so much?" Gu Zhi tilted his head slightly, looking at him amusedly: "He traded his whole life for me, and his whole life can only be mine and will not belong to anyone else. "

Shen Chongshan was speechless in astonishment, he never thought that these two children were far more involved than what he saw and thought.

What lifetime?What belongs to only one person?What agreement did they make?What does this agreement represent?

Shen Chongshan panicked, he hurried over and grabbed Gu Zhi's hand:

"Little Zhi, you... it's wrong for you to do this, you can't do it, you are still young, there is still time to separate, you two boys..."

"Does it have something to do with you?" Gu Zhi suppressed his smile, shook off his hand, and looked at him with extremely cold eyes. He approached step by step, and Shen Chongshan retreated step by step.

He lost momentum to a child.

"When Nian Nian needed your teaching and your company, you were not by his side, and now there is no need to come and tell him what is right and what is wrong."

Shen Chongshan couldn't back up enough, didn't see the bench behind him, and fell to the ground in embarrassment. Gu Zhi looked at him on the ground without blinking, like a high-ranking demon who looked down upon all sentient beings. Shen Chongshan, who looked terrified, laughed:

"So what's wrong, is everything you adults do right?"

"Xiaozhi, I'm doing it for your own good, I'm doing it for your good..."

Gu Zhi laughed and knelt down in front of him, looking into his eyes, but his expression was still smiling:

"Uncle Shen, don't let me know that you tell Niannian these things again, but if he ever changes his mind to leave me, I will blame you for this."

"This is the first time, because Niannian wants to get along with you, I won't do anything to you, but if you influence him again, let alone the college entrance examination, I won't even let him sleep or eat. Forget it, why do you influence the person I hold dear in my hand? It doesn’t make sense, does it?”

"You..." Shen Chongshan was so shocked that he couldn't speak.

"We'll be fine." Gu Zhi looked at him with a smile: "You also live your own life well. You can get along well without interfering with each other. Uncle Shen doesn't want to be as stiff as before, right?"

It was getting late, and he had to go back to school to pick up Niannian. Gu Zhi got up and looked away from Shen Chongshan. When he turned around and wanted to leave, Shen Chongshan said something he didn't understand.

"You, you don't look like him at all." Shen Chongshan said, "You don't look like him at all."

Gu Zhi stopped to look back at him, tilted his head slightly, and seemed to be curious about who the "he" Shen Chongshan was talking about, and it couldn't be Nian Nian, after all, they are two people who don't look alike to the naked eye, so he Is there anyone else that Shen Chongshan knows together that I can resemble?

Oh, Gu Ming.

"Gu Ming?" Gu Zhi laughed again. It's really been a long time since he heard this name. He looked at Shen Chongshan with a bit of pity: "Before he died, you seldom met? Otherwise, You will understand that he and I are quite similar, do you think I am only a teenager, who taught me these tricks and calculations? Gu Ming is a good teacher who taught by example, but he died a bit early, which is a pity."

Speaking of his dead father, there was no trace of pain or nostalgia on Gu Zhi's face, and even in such a smile, Shen Chongshan saw joy and joy.

He wanted Gu Ming to die.

Gu Zhi didn't stay to answer Shen Chongshan's doubts, he left without looking at him again.

Leaving Jianjia Lane, Gu Zhi rode his bike very fast all the way. He tried his best not to let himself have extra energy to think about Shen Chongshan's words. He knew, knew that it was just Shen Chongshan's assumption, assuming that Shen Nian liked it. He has a girlfriend and a family, but even if it is a hypothetical, as long as Gu Zhi touches that hypothetical picture, he can't bear it and will go crazy.

And Gu Ming.He really didn't want to think of this name again in his life.

Everything today, everything that Shen Chongshan said made Gu Zhi unhappy and disgusted.But he can't influence Nian Nian. His Nian Nian is preparing for the college entrance examination so hard, and there are not many days left. He can't let his emotions affect him, and he can't let him worry about himself.

He can digest it by himself, and he can cover it up very well.

Shen Nian's acting skills can be seen through at a glance, but Shen Nian can't see any flaws in his own acting skills.

When he returned to school, the evening self-study of the second quarter had just started, Gu Zhi didn't go back to the classroom, he stood at the bottom of Shen Nian's teaching building and stared at the window where Shen Nian was at for a long time, then climbed up to the roof to get some wind.

The sky was overcast and gloomy, which made people feel uncomfortable, but the weather forecast said that there would be no rain today. Gu Zhi sat on the ground of the roof, blowing the evening wind, and picked up a small stone and threw it in his palm. In fact, he was not very good at going. Thinking about the things that have happened, but maybe Shen Chongshan mentioned this person today, coupled with his upset mood, he would think of Gu Ming.

Gu Zhi was sent to Gu Ming's home by his mother Ning Jia when he was 7 years old. At that time, he felt that he would never be beaten for no reason, locked in a cabinet, and hear the deafening voice. It was always a happy thing, he almost couldn't wait to hold Gu Ming's hand, he didn't even want to look back at Ning Jia.

He thought he was liberated, and even if his future life was bad, it would at least be much better than that with Ninga.

But the reality was not as good as he thought. Gu Ming got married again in the second year after divorcing Ning Jia, and had another child, who was already three years old.

Neither the stepmother nor the younger brother liked him, and Gu Ming was away from home for a long time because he was too busy with work. Gu Zhi didn't want to recall what his life was like in that house. Anyway, even the nanny could beat and scold him at will. He has slept in the corridors on the roof.

He thought that Gu Ming was different and loved him, otherwise he would not have brought him back, so when Gu Ming came back, he told him all the unfair treatment he had received.

What did Gu Ming say?Even though it has been so long, Gu Zhi still remembers it fresh, he said:

"You are my son, but he is also my son. I only have so much energy. If you want me to pay attention to you and care about you, do it according to your ability. What you want, you have to get it yourself. No one is obliged to send it to you." Come to me."

The 7-year-old Gu Zhi didn't understand this sentence, but gradually under the influence of his stepmother and Gu Ming, he gradually understood what to do.

When Gu Ming came back, he pretended to be obedient and went to serve the meal, intentionally scalding himself to attract his attention, and seeing Gu Ming coming back from the window deliberately messing with his younger brother, his stepmother couldn't bear to beat him, so he ran into him. In Gu Ming's eyes, taking a cold shower for one night, and then fainting in front of Gu Ming the next day with a high fever... are all his doing.

Ordinary children may not dare, but Gu Zhi dares. He has been by Ningjia's side for so many years, and he has been living in Ningjia's madness since he can remember. He has nothing to dare.

And Gu Ming's care of him from ignorance to him also proved that his actions were all right, so little by little, the current stubbornness has emerged.

When he first arrived at Shen's house, he learned from Gu Ming what he did to Shen Nian.

Ning Jia gave him his crazy predecessor, and Gu Ming gave him the means of calculation and deception, turning him into a demon.

This is how Gu Zhi is now.

He used to hate this kind of himself, pretending every day, he even felt that he didn't belong to this world, he looked eerie like a ghost, but after returning to Shen Nian's side, he would occasionally thank Ning Jia and Gu Ming, if it wasn't for the two of them If this is the case, will I not meet Shen Nian who is as abnormal as myself?

What will happen to Shen Nian who can't meet her?

Will he be as crazy as himself or is there no such person as Shen Nian in this world?

Whenever Gu Zhi thinks about this problem, he will thank those two people, because he made himself abnormal, he became the same kind of person as Shen Nian, and made Shen Nian choose himself when he collapsed.

Otherwise, his Nian Nian would be too pitiful.

When the bell for the end of evening self-study class rang throughout the campus, Gu Zhi sat there for a while before getting up, he had to get better, he had to see his Nian Nian well, and he couldn't let Nian Nian see the slightest Flaws, his Nian Nian should be at ease with him, at least at this time.

It can be imagined that smoothness is often difficult to extend to reality. When Gu Zhi stood outside Shen Nian's classroom, he saw that Shen Nian's deskmate was no longer the person he knew, but a girl. Together, shoulder to shoulder, head to head, those words of Shen Chongshan echoed automatically:

He will also meet good girls, fall in love, get married, and have children of his own.

Irritability to the point of suffocation surged up again, but Gu Zhi could still suppress it at this moment. He knew in his heart that Shen Nian was helping to give a lecture. He had encountered a lot in the past two years, and he faintly felt that he could not suppress it. When the devil in his heart was in his heart, he didn't let himself look at it. He turned his back and stood in the corridor leaning against the wall to calm down quietly.

But the students who had studied hard for a class rarely relaxed and gossiped. In the summer classroom with the windows open, Gu Zhi could hear their words clearly.

"Tang Yi and Shen Nian are a good match. Although Tang Yi is not particularly beautiful, she looks very sweet and cute. Shen Nian is cold and indifferent, which is more suitable for this."

"Tang Yi seems to like Shen Nian, right?"

"Huh? Is it?"

"I think so. Didn't you notice that Tang Yi always looked at Shen Nian when she was in a daze? And her tablemate's grades were similar to Shen Nian's, right? But whenever she had a question, she would ask Shen Nian."

"and also……"

What else, Gu Zhi didn't listen anymore, and couldn't listen anymore.

Gu Zhi had been suppressing his emotions since he heard Shen Chongshan's words, and couldn't suppress them anymore.He could even hear the sound of the cage that trapped the devil in his heart crumbling and shattering. Before he had time to determine what was going on, he had already stood in front of Shen Nian and grabbed him. wrist.

Both Shen Nian and Tang Yi were startled for a moment, and at the same time raised their heads to look at Gu Zhi, Shen Nian almost immediately understood why Gu Zhi had such a reaction.

He spoke too seriously, forgot the time, and got too close to Tang Yi.

But this is not the first time. Although Shen Nian has no close friends in the class, but because he is good at studying, as long as someone asks him, he will never hide the topic, so many students will encounter difficulties Gu Zhi also met him many times when he came to look for him.

But there has never been a time when obsession got out of hand like it does today.

But no matter what the reason, they shouldn't be making trouble in the classroom, Shen Nian put his other hand on the back of Gu Zhi's grasping hand: "I'll pack my schoolbag."

Gu Zhi didn't let go of Shen Nian immediately, he still held onto him, and even his strength became tighter and tighter. Tang Yi sensed something was wrong, but she only regarded it as a matter between their brothers, and had nothing to do with herself, and she didn't want to. After getting involved in their affairs, he tidied up his things:

"Thank you, Shen Nian, I'll think about the rest, I'm wasting your time."

After Tang Yi said these words, Gu Zhi's eyes fell on her face. That sullen expression seemed to be able to rush over and tear people apart in the next second. Tang Yi had never been seen by such a pair of eyes. , At that time, I was a little unable to react and froze in place.

Shen Nian realized this and immediately stood up:

"It's over, let's go home."

Gu Zhi felt the strength of Shen Nian's grip on him, looked away from Tang Yi, glanced at Shen Nian, grabbed his wrist and left the classroom without saying a word, leaving behind everyone who looked at each other.

No one understood what happened.

Shen Nian was grabbed by Gu Zhi's wrist all the way to the carport, and he didn't even let go when the cart was unlocked. Shen Nian always wanted to find a chance to comfort him, but Gu Zhi didn't give him this chance at all:

"Niannian brother, can you stop talking first? I don't want to hear it."

He changed his address from 'Nian Nian' to 'Brother Nian Nian' again, and Shen Nian knew that this time he was really angry.

Shen Nian didn't force him to listen to her now, got into the car and followed Gu Zhi back home.Along the way, he was still grabbing his wrist, he didn't know whether it was getting tighter or the time was long enough, Shen Nian's wrist was already so numb that he couldn't feel it.

When they arrived at the rental house, Gu Zhi got out of the car, grabbed Shen Nian and went upstairs without even locking the car, opened the door and dragged Shen Nian in, closed and locked the door in one go, and by the way pushed Shen Nian against the door panel, approaching for him:

"Do you know that she likes you? Why do you have to be so close to her? You clearly know that I don't like this."

The lights in the room hadn't been turned on yet, only the streetlights in the neighborhood came in through the window, Gu Zhi was behind the light, Shen Nian couldn't see his expression, but knew that the two of them were very close and their breaths were entwined.

Shen Nian wanted to reach out his hand to grab him, to comfort him like before, but today's Gu Zhi was not so easy to deal with, he avoided Shen Nian's hand as if he knew Shen Nian was going to do this: "Ask you !"

Shen Nian was a little surprised by Gu Zhi's tone, but he was not surprised. When Gu Zhi became crazy, he could do anything, but Shen Nian was still a little helpless. He just figured out the so-called love problem, and he didn't even have time to tell Gu Zhi. Then Gu Zhi forced him to ask if he was liked by others.

Why are these problems concentrated in these few days?He really didn't want to waste energy on this matter.

too tired.

Shen Nian looked at his silhouette, and didn't speak immediately, but Gu Zhi couldn't stand the silence for a few seconds: "Speak!"

"Little lunatic." Shen Nian sighed slightly: "I don't know if she likes me or not. We didn't have much communication, we just talked about topics. I don't know, and I'm not interested in knowing what she thinks. She likes me." It doesn't make sense to me not to like me, I won't be with her, I have no plans for a relationship."

Gu Zhi didn't speak, even though Shen Nian couldn't see him at this time, he could still feel his eyes on him, and he was still not very friendly.

"I said I would not leave you." Shen Nian said softly.

"Don't you want to fall in love?"

Shen Nian was stunned for a moment, not understanding why Gu Zhi suddenly mentioned 'falling in love', but he still shook his head and said, "No."

Gu Zhi looked at Shen Nian, trying to see every expression on his face through the dim light outside the window, Shen Nian relaxed his body and leaned against the door panel to let him watch, he didn't grab his hand like before, but He raised his hand to touch his face:

"What's wrong with the little fox? Did something happen?"

A movement of touching his face and a sound of "little fox" made the rational Gu Zhi in his heart relax slowly. He hugged Shen Nian tightly, and he blamed himself again:

"Nian Nian, I seem to be getting worse and worse for you."

Not understanding why he had such an idea, Shen Nian smiled, raised his hand to caress the back of his head: "No, the little fox is very good to Nian Nian, and Nian Nian is very satisfied."

"I couldn't control myself today." Gu Zhi murmured on his neck: "I know in my heart that you didn't mean to get so close to her, but I was just angry and couldn't help it. I heard them say that the girl If I like you, I can't help but want to take you away and keep her away from you, I don't want you to fall in love, you are mine, you can only be mine."

Shen Nian continued to caress his hair, again and again:

"I know, it's okay, it's okay."

"Nian Nian..." Gu Zhi hugged him even tighter: "Can we fall in love?"

Hearing the sound, Shen Nian's movements stopped, and even his body froze.