Psychological suggestion

"If you can read this letter, it means that I have already started to act. You must find it annoying, right? You can't stand me, but you can't get clean anyway. Anyway, I'm sorry for my wayward behavior. The trouble you bring, buddy, brother, Xiaolu, Lu Xiaojia, these names represent you to me. The one and only you.

I don't know who I am yet, well, bro, it seems a bit strange to say that, I mean, everyone knows my name is Ye Kai, right, I have a pretty good brain, I can remember things from my childhood to adulthood, although The memory of childhood is very vague, but it was childhood, wasn't it?Many people can't remember things from their childhood.

But recently I found out that I was wrong, I found out...sorry...

I don’t intend to let you know the ins and outs of what I’m about to do. Anyway, there must be someone who likes to meddle in other people’s affairs and is willing to explain it clearly to you instead of me. So I hope you don't hate me when you know the truth, don't hate me, I pray faithfully.

I think I'm doing the right thing, I believe in it, and I've never regretted it.But I have indeed brought trouble to you and myself, if you are lucky enough to see me, if I am still alive at that time, I hope you can help me, use your talents, Using your knowledge, using all the experience you have done, I could have studied it myself and learned how to give myself hints, but in the end I decided to believe in you, and I also firmly believe that believing in you is right and I will never regret it at this point.

You are the most worthy of my trust, you are my brother.

I can't predict whether my life will still be meaningful after everything is over, and whether it will become a burden, but life is like this, no matter how much you hate it, no matter how unknown it is, you have to live.I'm open to it.

Give me a new brain or let me die, choose one, I respect the fate you chose for me, I accept it with a smile, and I believe you will not screw up like I did.

I love you, brotherly way.I would never have said this sentence, but I found it easier to write than to say it.This may be the most disgusting sentence I've ever given you in my life, don't mind it, and don't laugh at me.I am very nervous right now, I am about to go on a dangerous date, I don't know how it will turn out, but I hope this sincere message brings you some relief.

Both oblivion and death are frightening and unacceptable things, but if the choice were yours to make for me, it probably wouldn't cause me such anxiety.

always trust you bro

——Ye Kai"

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[The following is Ye Kai's first diary after waking up]

December 12 cold

Today I opened my eyes.

I don't think I am a person who likes to keep a diary, but the doctor named Lu Xiaojia said that it is easier to grasp my psychological changes,

I better write about it.

My mind went blank and I couldn't think of anything, so I didn't know what to write.Just keep a running account.

When I woke up, I saw a white ceiling first, and then there were some people around me. Most of them looked at me with hostile expressions, and some of them were even murderous, which made me feel like a sinner. I passed out while waiting for the verdict and just woke up.

I was really scared at the time, I couldn't remember everything, and the people around me were all staring at me like this.

The atmosphere was eerie.

"Welcome back." Lu Xiaojia, or I didn't know him at the time, looked down at me, his voice was hoarse, and there was a touch of black under his eye sockets, staying up late, tired, listless, and there was no smile in his gray eyes In other words, he looks like a person who doesn't like to laugh: "Everyone is very worried about you."

I quickly looked at the people around me and scanned their faces one by one. Lu Xiaojia introduced to me, "This is A Fei." He pointed to a man with a stern face who looked like a machine, "This is Ding Linglin", good girl, good figure, eyes are swollen, still crying, seems to care about me? "This is Li Xunhuan." The frail middle-aged man looks very gentle, but it always makes people feel that he is weak, as if he will fall down at any time. His eyes are very beautiful.

"This is Fu Hongxue."

I can't describe how I felt about this guy or my first impression of him—"This is the best." My mind, my feelings, all came together to say it, hard.He's the nicest guy I've ever met, the funny thing is I don't even have a memory of him, I have no idea what he's like, and he seems like the most hostile guy I've ever seen, but I still think so.

When I was in a daze, he had already sneered, his voice was cold, and his attitude was very creepy: "Is there really a way? Does this bastard always have various ways to evade responsibility and face his mistakes? This -"

"Shut up." Lu Xiaojia turned her head and glared at him.

But I feel that I don't care how rude this person named "Fu Hongxue" is. His attitude and I still know him are very attractive to me. This is absolutely hopeless. It seems that Lu Xiaojia is obviously helping me. Talking, but I don't like him yelling at Fu Hongxue at all, well, it's clear that Lu Xiaojia cares more about me, doesn't he?

good doctor.

Fu Hongxue's eyes were very dark, full of black anger and flames, and I began to feel very guilty, as if I couldn't remember everything and was a very sorry thing for him.So I didn't hear Lu Xiaojia's next introduction at all. It seemed that as long as I knew Fu Hongxue, everything else was not important at all.It sucks that I would think that.

"He wanted me dead, he looked like he wanted to strip me naked and roast me over the fire."

But within ten minutes, everyone dispersed, and only Lu Xiaojia and I were left. I was a little blocked in my heart, but I finally said it out.

"Who are you talking about?" Lu Xiaojia looked at me with wide eyes: "No one here wants you to die."

"Yes." I was quite sure of my judgment: "That man named Fu Hongxue, he looked like he wanted to kill me bit by bit, what did I do to him? Killed his favorite dog? Killed his whole family? Or ...QJ him?"

Lu Xiaojia coughed loudly, as if she felt that she shouldn't laugh in this occasion and forced to cover up his smile: "You have never done it, but the last one, I'm not sure if you have thought about it, you are a bastard, and you are too Lovely bastard, although no one can figure out what the hell you're thinking, just keep that in mind."

"Then Fu Hongxue—"

"He treats everyone like this. He is naturally antisocial, autistic, and claustrophobic. He hates crowded places." Lu Xiaojia said: "There was a conflict between you, so he... "

"What contradiction?" I opened my eyes wide: "Is it a contradiction like the unequal division of property after divorce?"

"No! You have never been married, and it is impossible to get married. Just say these things in front of me, don't ask him, otherwise I don't guarantee that you will still be able to protect your nose." Lu Xiaojia rolled her eyes at me, He is very skilled in this action.

It seems he used to use this emoji on me a lot.

"Okay." I coughed dryly, although I was a little disappointed but not surprised, "What happened, why can't I remember anything?"

"A terrible car accident." Lu Xiaojia shrugged.

"So, I just experienced a weird plot like an eight o'clock TV series? Hey, man, are you sure no one broke up with me? Adding this element, the conditions required for a bloody TV series are all Done."

"You can still joke?" Lu Xiaojia smirked: "Of course, Ding Linglin, do you remember? That girl, you were planning to get married."

marry?I clearly felt an emotion called surprise go through my heart, so I thought about getting married?real?No joke?I?marry?With that girl?What about Fu Hongxue?Does he have nothing to do with me?

"Yes, you were friends for a while, but because of a woman, you fell out with him." Lu Xiaojia said flatly.

Is it possible?Is my feeling wrong?Or... what kind of woman should I be to make me take the initiative to turn against Fu Hongxue?Does she look like Madonna or Britney?Is she Miss World No.1?

"I don't know either, but I suggest that if you want to get along well with him, you'd better not take the initiative to ask anything." Lu Xiaojia shrugged, and recalling Fu Hongxue's expression just now, I think he was right.

Then there was nothing more to say, I lay down again, fell asleep, and it was [-]:[-] in the morning, writing this diary entry by the light of my bedside lamp.

Looking back now, there are still many puzzles and suspicious questions. I should have asked Lu Xiaojia more questions, or more questions about the people around me, but I only cared about Fu Hongxue.

Somewhat annoyed.