Beauty across the cloud

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When Yan Xueyu came back, Luo Weiqiu had already left, and the bustling crowd had dispersed, only Jin Lan was still there.The cold wind blew across a large open space in front of the teaching building, and he was like a lonely tree.

He lowered his head and glanced at his watch. He lost 10 minutes of talking this time, so Jin Lan stood here for 10 minutes.

After the meeting, the two went downstairs. They thought it would be better to end 5 minutes earlier, so that they would not have to squeeze in with the people who were going to finish class later, but he left the scarf on the chair, so he had to go back upstairs and let Jin Lan sit together. Wait a while in the lobby.

When I went downstairs again, I saw this farce.Yan Xueyu recognized Meng Cheng, and after hearing the ending sound, she immediately understood what was going on.

As for what and how much Jin Lan heard, he didn't know, and he didn't want to guess.

Yan Xueyu stepped forward: "Come on, let's go to dinner, I invite you."

Jin Lan turned his head, his face was much calmer than expected, at least at first glance, there was no obvious sadness or joy, as if today was just an ordinary day, and he just happened to be here for 10 minutes.

"Tonight I..."

"I can't do anything tonight," Yan Xueyu interrupted him, and made up a story calmly: "The boss didn't pay the labor fee last month, so he gave me a few vouchers for hot pot restaurants, which will expire tomorrow."

"How is it possible, are you kidding me?" Jin Lan did indeed smile.

"So what, I have to eat today." Yan Xueyu thought, if Jin Lan disagreed, she would drag her away by the arm.He felt that he probably changed from towing a truck today, dragging this and that.

He had originally planned to do so.Unexpected, but still unable to reach out.

"Okay. Go." Jin Lan's expression was calm, but it didn't make him too embarrassed.

Soon they arrived at the store, put the hot pot on the rack, put red, green and green plates on the fire, and lit the fire, white steam rose between the two of them, and kept going upwards.A lamp was hanging directly above it, and it was on without hesitation in electricity bills. It was like a magic mirror, and people looked panicked under the lamp.

Yan Xueyu wanted the wine, he knew that Jin Lan could smoke and drink, but usually he didn't show his face, just like his emotions buried in his heart.

Yan Xueyu gently pushed over a full cup.

Jin Lan didn't say anything.From the time he entered the door and sat down until now, his expression has not changed.

The two cups were refilled when they were empty, and then they were refilled and emptied again.The two may say a few words about academic matters, but counting down, there are more voices clinking glasses than words.Yan Xueyu found that alcohol didn't make him much more relaxed. What he swallowed, rolled down the esophagus like a weight, and could only weigh his heart down in his body.

Neither of them ate much food. The soup in the pot was gradually being boiled dry, and the overcooked vegetables piled up in vain, like garbage left on the coast after the tide receded.The waiter passed by and saw this, so he took a kettle and said, "Add some soup for you two."

The hot soup poured down from between the two of them, the steam was even stronger, and there was a vast expanse of whiteness in front of her, and for a moment Yan Xueyu had the illusion of fog.

He was startled, looked at Jin Lanrong's blurred face across the table, and suddenly remembered a past event.He was only a sophomore at that time, and he chose a modern poetry appreciation course in the Faculty of Arts in order to collect credits.However, he thinks that he has no literary feelings and lacks literary skills, so he doesn’t pay much attention to this kind of elective courses, so he bows his head to make up the experiment report as soon as the class is in, and he doesn’t even open the textbook a few times during the 32-semester class. But after the last class, I received a note from a girl.

He had a little impression of that girl. She had long hair, wore glasses, was tall and thin, and had always sat next to him for most of the semester.She wasn't too far away, but she wasn't close either.

There is only a sentence in beautiful handwriting on the note: "We look at each other across the table, and we will lose this only dawn between us in the end."

He didn't understand at the time, and vaguely felt that this was some kind of obscure confession, but he didn't take it to heart: too many girls confessed to him.

He threw the note away as soon as he went out.

They haven't seen each other since that class.

Now after a long time, he suddenly understood that sentence and the mood when he wrote it.Looking up, Jin Lan was right across from them, they were only a table away, not far away, enough to talk and clink glasses; but not close enough, enough for him to reach out and not even touch them.

"Come, I respect you." Yan Xueyu raised her glass.

Jin Lan smiled: "What do you respect me for?"

Yan Xueyu: "Respect friendship... Forever and ever."

Jin Lan's eyes are curved, very beautiful: "Well, forever and ever!"

The spicy wine once again flowed through the throat and lungs.Jin Lan really drank a lot this time, the blush on his face was even more striking under the pale light.He lowered his head several times, then raised it again and again, his thin white neck seemed to be unable to support it, so he had to use one hand to support his chin, and the other hand was still holding the cup tightly, even his low laughter became hoarse , the eyes are slack, unable to focus:

"What did you ask me this afternoon...Ask me why I can't make up my mind?"

"Actually, don't underestimate me, don't you think I really can't say... let others rub me like I look?"

"Quietly tell you, I confessed my love to Wen Yue before."

"I endured it for a while, for a while, and then I couldn't help it anymore... I was probably much braver than I am now... But guess what happened next... Then, suddenly one day, I found that many people around me knew gone."

"He didn't answer me, neither refused nor accepted, and he was hot and cold to me."

"So I really regretted it, I might as well not have said it...! I was impulsive at the time, and I forgot that there was a price to pay for making a decision..."

Jin Lan slowly lowered her head, lying on the table with her face resting on her arms, her eyes shining brightly: "I have learned from the past, I can't be careless now... This is the experience of those who have experienced it, and I will pass it on to you."

"However, you probably don't need it... You are a man who is not short of love. From childhood to adulthood, the love letters you received could fill a basement."

Yan Xueyu suddenly said: "Jin Lan, tell me, after drinking three glasses of white wine, one glass of red wine, and half a bottle of beer, what is the chance of getting drunk?"

"...Huh?" Jin Lan's head was getting heavier and heavier, and Yan Xueyu could see a double image, and he struggled to understand his words: "Is this your new subject?"

Yan Xueyu was silent, watching Jin Lan trying to open her eyes without saying a word, but she couldn't.Finally, after blinking his long and dense eyelashes twice, he closed his wings like a butterfly and stopped moving.

Jin Lan fell asleep.Yan Xueyu just sat motionless. During this period, he also wanted to get up and reach out to push Jin Lan, but his hand stopped above his shoulder and retracted, not daring to touch it.

The two of them sat in a corner of the store, and the place was still and isolated as if wrapped in crystal amber, and the laughter and laughter from other tables had to turn around here, and all the sounds seemed to come from the distant shore , I can't really hear it.

In front of Yan Xueyu, there was only boiling soup in the pot, which was still gurgling.He was motionless like a prisoner under trial, with lights pouring down on his shoulders, and like a believer confessing in a confessional.

He said: "A long time ago, there was a meeting of several departments. You didn't go. I met Wen Yue and saw him getting close to some girls... I was a little angry at that time, and I drank some wine. I couldn't hold it back. , I told him, if you don’t like Jin Lan, you should definitely reject him.”

"He looked at me very strangely at that time, and he said, 'The whole courtyard said you were some kind of high-altitude flower, and you couldn't pick it off. I didn't expect you to be such a nosy person. I thought you had high eyes. Yu Ding, no one cares about her."

"He also smiled and asked me if I had any ideas. He also said that he planned to refuse, but now he doesn't want to."

"He said that I aroused his desire to win. If he is fighting with me, he finds it very interesting."

"So, he turned hot and cold towards you later on, and it's probably related to me...Jin Lan, speaking of it this way, I'm sorry for you."

"I made excuses for myself, I thought about that day over and over again, and I thought I must have been drunk that day. Yes, that day, I drank three glasses of white wine, one glass of red wine, half a bottle of beer...but a really drunk person How can it be possible to clearly remember how many white and red glasses I drank-this is really a great irony!"

"Later, I advised you, I hope you stop paying attention to him. Otherwise, I am really sad."

"Do you believe it? Later, when I saw that you met my junior, I was really happy for a while. I felt relaxed. I thought I must not be impulsive anymore. I must not be irrational. I should calm down. I must control myself. I can't I didn't find out my emotions by anyone. But after you really liked him, I realized how lost I was."

"So I made the same mistakes again. I was the one who watched Meng Cheng steal Luo Weiqiu's phone! At that time, I didn't say anything, didn't remind, and didn't stop!"

"So Jin Lan, I have the reason for your pain in the past, what you saw and heard today... If it makes you sad, half of it is still because of me!"

Yan Xueyu raised her head, looking at Jin Lan who was sleeping peacefully, her eyes were deep and dark, full of intense and irresolvable worries.He didn't go on talking, just sat and watched for a long time.

It was very late, and there were only a few people left in the store.I don't know how long it took, Yan Xueyu seemed to finally wake up, one hand clenched into a fist and then slowly released, he picked up Jin Lan's mobile phone that was on the table.

He tries to unlock the screen.Just a swipe.

"You guys really look like you don't have a lock screen password." This sentence seemed to be referring to someone else, but Yan Xueyu laughed at herself.

Finally, he said:

"I'm not brave enough, I'm selfish and cowardly. I like you, I don't deserve to mention it."

After hanging up the phone, Yan Xueyu walked out of the store, waiting for someone to come.He looked up at the sky, the moon was so beautiful tonight.Calmly, only coldly bright.Everyone who is with me tonight, no one wants this month to be printed in their pupils, so no one can't look up.

There is no corner in the world where the moon cannot shine, and this is something that the sun cannot do.The moonlight is like a gauze, netting all the things that should be and should not be, obscure and unspeakable.The moon does not speak, and people are silent.But when a person sighs at the night sky, he will have nothing to hide under the moon.Fortunately, it forgives people, and all the emotions that grow in the dark before the sun rises can be stored in the night, making the quiet continue quietly and the hazy more hazy.

"Auld Lang Syne," he said to the moon.

Jin Lan dreamed that she was sitting in a car driving in the mountains, and then she was jolted awake.

He opened his eyes, the alcohol was still there, he was still dizzy and had a splitting headache, but when he looked around, there were pitch-black waves all around him.Jin Lan opened his eyelids and looked forward, only to see a river in front of him, with a cloud of white mist on the surface of the river, like ghosts, it was frightening to see.However, in the blink of an eye, it seemed that there was nothing, only a piece of silvery white moonlight remained on the river surface, sparkling like snow.

He wanted to reach out and rub his temples, but found that his arm was being grabbed.

As if sensing the movement of the person on his back, Luo Weiqiu slightly turned his head and said, "Senior, are you awake?"

Hearing this sound, an electric current rushed through the nerves of his whole body in an instant. He opened his eyes wide, only to realize that he was actually being carried by Luo Weiqiu.

"how do I……"

"Oh, your friend called me and said that you were drunk and hoped that I could come to pick you up, so I came. After a long time, I didn't get a taxi, so I just carried you back." Luo Weiqiu He explained with a calm tone, as if being called out to pick up someone in the middle of the night was such a common thing.However, if the person to pick up was Qiao Yongsi, he would probably have hung up the phone directly, but Jin Lan was different, Jin Lan had helped him.

Jin Lan was speechless for a moment, never thinking that he would be carried on someone's back after eating a meal.He hadn't drunk enough, and his ability to organize language had lost more than half, so he could only stumble and say: "Then, I'm sorry to trouble you..."

"No trouble."

Luo Weiqiu seemed to be afraid that he would slip down, so he jumped up again. Jin Lan was nervous for a moment, and her hands couldn't help pinching Luo Weiqiu's clothes tightly, but she didn't dare to get too close to him.

Clothes are thick and can't be grasped, so they always slide down.Luo Weiqiu then said: "Senior, hold me tighter."

Jin Lan was stunned for a moment, she had no choice but to cover herself carefully, put her chin on Luo Weiqiu's shoulder, and hugged him tightly.Jin Lan wanted to see if this was the real Luo Weiqiu, but the two of them were too close, so they couldn't see anything clearly.The light was dim, and he was in a half-drunk state, he blinked vigorously a few times, but he could only see half of Luo Weiqiu's ear and a few strands of hair on his sideburns.

Luo Weiqiu's back usually looks broad and straight, straight and straight, like a natural clothes hanger.At this moment, Jin Lan also discovered another advantage: warmth.It was too warm, this hug made me feel drowsy again.Jin Lan's head was getting heavier and heavier, but the strength in his hand was still there, and he was always tightly and firmly grasping the only thing he could cling to.

"There's still a way to go, it's better not to sleep, you'll catch a cold."

Jin Lan replied drowsily.Even though he was extremely sleepy, he wanted to say a few more words to Luo Weiqiu. He didn't know if he was using alcohol to boost his courage, so he said, "Xiao Luo... what have you been up to lately?"

Luo Weiqiu replied: "School has started, it's just about studying."

"Now... do you have someone you like?"

Luo Weiqiu froze for a moment, hesitated: "Yes. But..."

"……Um?"

"She hasn't promised me yet."

In a daze, Jin Lan remembered something, so she fell silent.But after less than 2 minutes, I couldn't help but start talking again: "Xiao Luo, what season do you like?"

"It's winter."

"why?"

When Luo Weiqiu spoke, heat brushed over Jin Lan's cheeks: "... In winter, you will not be sweating when you have a big class."

This is a very simple reason.

"How about you, senior?"

At this moment, Jin Lan's mind turned very slowly, and he thought hard for a while.

Seeing that he didn't answer, Luo Weiqiu took the initiative to guess: "Spring?"

"...Spring, isn't it?" Jin Lan smoothed his tongue vigorously, and he said with difficulty: "In spring, everyone thinks that spring is very lively, right. But I found that spring will bloom a lot of flowers, and it will also fall a lot." Flowers... have you seen them? Spring is over, and there is a thick layer of... um, humus under the window sills. Some people bloom, and others rot. On a warm spring night, the window sills are actually full of...the smell of decay .”

The tongue became smoother and smoother. The alcohol didn't make him fall asleep, but excited him instead.Jin Lan continued: "Then, the summer is too hot, and the autumn is too rainy. Winter... the winter in the north is too long, too long. I don't like spring, summer, autumn and winter."

“…so I’m thinking, why do we all have a favorite season, why does everyone have a favorite color, favorite dish, favorite city… and why do we all have There must be a favorite person."

He couldn't make sense of his words, his logic was confused, Luo Weiqiu only thought that he was still drunk, so after listening carefully, he only let out a "huh".

With the wind blowing, Jin Lan felt cold, he wanted to get closer to Luo Weiqiu, but now his heart was pounding, he didn't dare to get too close to Luo Weiqiu, for fear that he would notice, but he was reluctant to let go , so I can only freeze.But suddenly Luo Weiqiu tripped over something under his feet, Jin Lan shook his body, and the two of them stuck tightly together.Jin Lan's lips brushed against Luo Weiqiu's neck, he didn't dare to move, and he didn't want to move anymore, he just lay on his stomach weakly, feeling the pulse of the carotid artery with his lips.

It's so warm and comfortable.For some reason, Jin Lan felt the urge to cry.He thought how could Xiaoyan call Luo Weiqiu to pick him up?He was really hurt by Xiaoyan.

However, resisting the impulse, he said, "Then do you want her...to promise you?"

Luo Weiqiu couldn't hide the eagerness in his tone: "I want to, I really want to."

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We look at each other across the table, and in the end we will lose the only dawn between us. —— North Island