this is love

[It's as if someone said "goodbye" to himself.The stars left in the palm melted. 】

It was as if a fire was burning in the throat, with clusters of barbs cutting violently on the flesh and blood, and even the nasal cavity felt dry and swollen.To be precise, Park Heung-su was awakened by thirst.Although his sleep time did not meet the normal sleep standard at all, waking up at four o'clock in the morning on a winter night is actually no different from insomnia.

The next second when consciousness gradually came into operation in his mind, apart from the burning pain of thirst in his throat, he realized something more important.

The moment he suddenly opened his eyes, Park Xingxiu was blinded by the still bright and dazzling lights on the ceiling. The swelling feeling from his eyes and the repeated headaches made him look like a patient recovering from a long illness. The state has reached an unprecedented bad situation.But he couldn't allow him to worry more, the empty and lifeless situation around him made him completely frozen in place and unable to move.

He clearly remembered what happened last night, no, what happened a few hours ago.The remaining pain in my heart still couldn't go away, and the thicker fear came screaming and roaring.Such dilapidated facts caught him off guard and almost lost the courage to face it.

What did he do?

The moment the memory began to surge, he grabbed his scalp with his fingers and wished he could stab a dagger into his heart, so that he would no longer feel, breathe, or beat alive.

【Crab】

Now that I think about it, who is the more jerk.

It is also the dignity of a man, he knows it better than anyone else.But now Gao Nanshun's dignity was severely trampled under his feet.

Cruelly, without mercy, trampled to pieces.

He knew Gao Nanshun, he was a person who would rather be beaten to death than choose to live in humiliation.

How could he bear such an insult.

With a backhand, he slammed a resounding palm on his cheek. Pu Xingxiu frowned and smashed his fisted left hand on the floor, but it couldn't relieve the dull pain in his heart. .

When he opened his eyes again, a small puddle of blood on the floor blurred into his line of sight. Park Xingxiu stared at the dark red, blackened and hardened blood. After a long while, he staggered to his feet as if struck by a thunderbolt. body, but involuntarily took a few steps back as if to escape, before he really stabilized his body.

The next second he realized that it was the blood flowing out of Gao Nanshun's body, he ran out of the room in embarrassment without even putting on his clothes, and almost even opened the door of the storage room to search for it, finally Park Heung-soo stood stiffly in the In the center of the brightly lit living room, surrounded by the most clear dead silence, there is no one here at all, this kind of cognition completely pulled his little willpower to collapse, and he sat down on the floor slumped, Park Xingxiu felt Seeing the hopelessness of being hollowed out, the unbearable burden caused him to retch violently, but he only squeezed out hot tears.

It fell to the floor along the corner of his eyes, and those tears rushed to escape, making his originally unclear vision even more blurred. In the haze, he seemed to see someone's eyes, and it seemed that there was nothing, except nothingness. , or nothingness.

"Nan Shun..."

How to explain this heart-wrenching sense of abandonment is obviously just a nightmare.In this dream, he read out the dialogue of love that had been hidden in his heart for a long time. In this dream, he was killed by Gao Nanshun's heartless words. In this dream, he inflicted sweet and painful punishment on the two of them. Now, he no longer feels Gao Nanshun's existence.

That feeling, like everything is slowly disappearing.

All he could see was a blur of light and shadow.

How he wished this was all just a nightmare.

When he woke up again, he realized that he had passed out just now. He didn't know whether it was because the tossing of the night made his body resist to a limit or because the heavy blow completely broke his spirit. Park Xingxiu only felt a splitting headache as if the next second About to detonate itself.

The trembling gradually lingering in the bottom of his heart made his fingers twitch uncontrollably. Looking at his messy clothes, he wished to tear them all up. He fastened his belt firmly and then buttoned the buttons on his chest one by one. It is to treat yourself mercilessly like an enemy, as if at this moment, only by abusing yourself can you not cause the world to collapse in your heart.

By the time Park Xingxiu closed the door of Gao Nanshun's house heavily and ran to the icy and snowy street, the distant sky had already begun to dawn in winter, depressing, low, and dim.

He ran forward with all his strength, as if a beast was chasing after him, ready to devour him in the next second.The heavy snow accumulated to the height of the ankle unconsciously overnight. Every time I stepped on my foot, I felt like I was falling into a swamp. I was going back and forth between the fall and the anger. The only thing left is a handful of warmth.

The breath that hovered in the air and dissipated behind him in an instant was mixed with the sound of his rapid breathing. The coldness soaked through the shoes and socks to the soles of the feet had the power to penetrate the skin, and went up the soles of the feet to the chest cavity, but finally extinguished the scorching heat in the heart among.

It was hot and painful there, as if being pierced deeply by sharp five fingers and then grasping the heart and pulling it out, implicating the internal organs to be torn apart, but the lingering aftertaste made him feel the excruciating pain.

With a cruelty that would not give up until he was tortured to death.

[Nan Shun... Nan Shun...]

He wanted to call out that person's name loudly, but when he opened his mouth, there was only an ear-piercing and ugly cry. All the eagerness was swallowed and echoed in his chest, and the sound of panting was accompanied by a choked sound, accompanied by tears that never stopped rolling down. After his footsteps passed through every inch of air, and after the pain in his right leg became more and more obvious, he finally began to resent himself and resent life because of this embarrassing posture.

It's like failing so much that you can't do anything.

He can't find the meaning of his existence.

At the moment when he fell heavily into the snow, Park Xingxiu couldn't hold back the despair in his heart and cried bitterly.Ignoring the surprised stares of any people on the street who might get up early for morning exercises, the wet cold seeping into the heart and spleen along the tip of his hair and the burning pain in his right leg, he just lay on his stomach like that. In the snow, he was paralyzed there as if he had fallen from a high altitude.

Except for bursts of crying, there is no sign of life.

When the sky gradually brightened, someone got up from the snow.

The vibrating mobile phone in the pocket stuck to the inside of the coat and hurt the side of the chest, as if all the thoughts flowed down the tears after crying, Park Xingxiu's mind was blank, and the wet fingers with snowflakes seemed mechanical Taking out his mobile phone, he stared blankly at the word "Sister" that continued to light up on the screen, and he was stunned for a long time.

He didn't subconsciously slide the answer button until the call was cut off automatically and the next call rang again.The moment Pu Zhixiu's voice came, his eye sockets couldn't help but become moist again.

"Xingxiu! Where are you? Why haven't you answered the phone?"

"...Sister." Park Xingxiu's lips trembled for a long time before he managed to pronounce these two syllables. The person on the other end of the phone paused for a few seconds in surprise when he heard his voice, and then he hesitated before speaking again.

"You... are at Nanshun's house?"

"No... I can't find Nan Shun, I can't find him..." At this moment, Pu Xingxiu misses her sister's embrace very much, the only warm embrace that can give him comfort, even if it can't fill the black hole in his heart, At least it can shield him from part of the wind and rain.

"...Come back first, come home first, and talk when you come back."

"..." Park Ji-soo's voice was terrifyingly calm. This overly cold calmness and no doubt made Park Heung-soo slowly settle down from the disintegration of being confused when he woke up. The silence in his ears lasted too long. The time was enough for his remaining rationality to find his way back bit by bit. "Sister, you... have you and Nan Shun kept something from me?"

"..."

Park Heung-soo's heart gradually invaded a more viscous and biting coldness, and as Park Ji-soo continued to remain silent, it became more and more serious, like a monster with a bloody mouth, roaring and laughing at the ruthless conspiracy against him. "Speak." He had never spoken to his sister in this tone before, but at this moment, even he himself was almost unable to control the rotten breath of resentment leaking from a certain gap in his body.

But he still had the last ray of hope.

Things are not as bad as imagined.

"I said, you go home now."

"Sister, I'm going to find Nan Shun." Just that one sentence is enough to expose everything, and he is still looking forward to a better life like a fool, obviously coming to give himself a second slap in the face.Park Xingxiu gritted his teeth and spit out a few words, stood up with difficulty while holding the phone, and was about to press the button to end the call.

"Park Heung-soo! This is the last time I'm notifying you, go home, now! Immediately! If you want to see me die, stay outside and don't come back!"

After the hang-up tone sounded crisply, Park Xingxiu maintained the posture of answering the phone and stood there without moving. Someone around him was staring at him, a miserable man covered in ice and snow, curiously exploring, but he completely ignored it.When he made another move, he turned around and rushed back home, walking faster and faster, and finally ran desperately.

After seeing Park Heung-soo's appearance, it would be a lie for Park Ji-soo to say that he was not surprised.

The child was almost drenched in ice and snow, and he stood there panting with a cold air, his hair was disheveled, his eyes were red and swollen, his face was paler than ever, and the eyes that stared at him closely were full of grief. And nowhere to vent the decision.It became like this within a day, so she couldn't help but guess how Gao Nanshun chose to cut off.

More heartbroken than distressed.

I am distressed why her brother can afford it like this and can't let go of it. I am distressed that her painstaking efforts may not be easily accepted. I am distressed that she still has to be ready to accept his resentment.

Pu Xingxiu was wronged, why didn't she feel wronged?Trapped in such a hopeless emotional tangle, it is doomed that it cannot be just a two-person world of the parties.

"Do you want the answer? Well, let me tell you, I was the one who talked to Gao Nanshun." With a slump in her heart, she simply confessed, just because she trusted Gao Nanshun's promise. She remembered the child's eyes and promised her He would look away from him, and that wasn't something that could be brewed just because of her persuasion.The problem between them is not just her objection.

When these words clearly fell into his ears, Park Xingxiu was in a trance for a moment as he looked at the seemingly calm but painful and forbearing expression of his sister standing in front of him.

How could he take his nonsense lies seriously.

If Gao Nanshun doesn't love him, then he should be deceiving himself and others.He is not blind, nor is he low in emotional intelligence. Since he loves Gao Nanshun wholeheartedly, it is impossible to deviate to such a degree in his groping for his heart.

The lingering feelings he felt were all true.

The hot love he felt was also true.

How could he believe that Gao Nanshun who pretended to be heartless?

Thinking about it, I can't wait to turn back the time, turn the world upside down, punch the self who was blinded by the illusion, and then hug the stupid boy who said cruel words but cut himself.

How can you be so stupid?

How can you not believe me?

How can you do this to me?

The more I think about it, the more I feel heartache. Just Gao Nanshun's unsteadiness is enough to make him bear the constant fear all day long.

But this bitterness has not been let that person know until now.

Without any words, he bent his knees and knelt down in the next second, but his eyes were fixed on Park Zhixiu's eyes and did not let go.Pu Xingxiu could see the faint emotional ups and downs in her sister's eyes, and felt sore, numb and tingling in her heart for a moment.

I'm sorry, sister.

However, I love him.

"I love him," the words were hidden in his mouth for an unknown amount of time. Park Xingxiu had imagined countless scenes of expressing his love to his sister openly and aboveboard, but he never expected to be so caught off guard.But so what?His love is there, it cannot be destroyed or profaned, it is the light in his heart.Looking at his sister's eyes should be the firm and decisive limit he can do enough. He hopes she can perceive his determination, a firm and unshakable determination, "I love Gao Nanshun."

"..." That look was too bright, and Pu Zhixiu didn't understand why Park Xingxiu, who had gone through a lot of pain and torture, could speak his love so confidently at this moment, even though she had always refused to accept what so-called love was. , but Park Xingxiu held up his palm as if he really regarded that deformed love as a belief, and showed it in front of her with a pride that made her tremble.

The prouder he is, the angrier she is.

The fury and manic roar surged into her heart in an instant, reaching her throat, forcing her to raise her hand and slap her with a clear and crisp slap.

"Live clearly for me, whimsy is not suitable for you. You are Park Xingxiu, a man, and my younger brother. Live like a man for me. Gao Nanshun can let it go, why can't you let it go? Don't tell me anything Love is not love, there can never be love between you, so you die. As long as I am still alive, it is impossible to watch you go wrong." Park Zhixiu feels that every sentence is exhausted. She tried her best until she was completely exhausted. She was too tired, they were tired, and she was tired too, but she still had to force herself to be stronger than them.

Because only in this way, they will not be completely wiped out.

She has always felt that there must be someone who lives clearly so that everyone will not be hit with blood.

"Get up, go in and change your clothes, and prepare to eat later." There was a burning pain in the heart of her right hand, and the palm hit Pu Xingxiu's face, causing pain in her heart.How cruel she is now, how much she loves her brother.It's just this, I don't know if it can be understood.

"Sister, I'm sorry."

She turned around and stopped at the same place because of this light words, and turned to look at Pu Xingxiu who was kneeling on the spot with her head bowed but stubbornly refusing to get up. The heavy sadness and disappointment rolled in, enveloping everything and permeating it. All the gaps in the air around her made her unable to speak.

"Then kneel down and don't expect me to be soft-hearted. What I said will never be taken back."

Time crept up slowly, and Pu Xingxiu didn't know how long it had passed.It's just that the light shining into the room from the window is gradually dissipating, and finally when the whole living room is shrouded in darkness, he can hardly feel the existence of his legs.

What the injured leg experienced was an unprecedented torture after healed. He knew what it would bring him, but he was not afraid.If a person has something that cannot be lost that surpasses everything, how can he be afraid of this little pain.But when Park Xingxiu felt that his sweaty shoulders were sore and weak to a certain extent, and his stomach began to twitch, he realized that it was not just a simple pain caused by kneeling for a long time.

He hadn't eaten for nearly a day, and he had been lying on the cold snow for so long, and he knelt on the hard floor with his body soaked for hours. To his sweaty body, his legs so stiff that he could barely feel them, and his increasingly slackened consciousness.

Whenever Park Xingxiu couldn't help but want to fall down, he twisted the side of his thigh with his right hand, and used the pain again and again to arouse the remaining spirit.However, this method failed to maintain its effect for a long time. When he felt that his eyes were blurred and he was about to lose consciousness in the next second, Gao Nanshun's face flashed across his mind.

The moment tears slid down his cheeks, he saw the man's smile as serene as sunlight.

Still beautiful as before, full of his love.

I love you so much, my boy.

Park Xingxiu had a dream, in which someone was smiling at him all the time.

He asked the man "Are you Nam Shun?" The strange thing was that he couldn't see his facial features and outline clearly, but he knew that the man was smiling.An urgent desire grows from the bottom of my heart, and the speed of growth is faster than gluttony.He kept asking, but all he got was a silent smile from the man.

He stretched out his hand to touch his cheek, but always deviated the angle to his shoulder, and Pu Xingxiu was anxious and annoyed by the repeated misses, so he simply opened his arms to embrace that person.Even the temperature was unreal, he thought he could smile with satisfaction, but a girl's laughter came unexpectedly.After the trembling like an electric shock, he quickly backed away and let go of the person in his arms, and then saw in horror that the person's face had lost all facial features.

The nausea that surged up in his stomach made him bend over to vomit, and tears flowed down his face again. He felt the unforgettable pain again, even worse than before, and the repeated torment almost drove him crazy .He opened his bloodshot eyes and roared, screaming and shouting in an unknown language, even he himself could not understand the heart-piercing meaning.

The next moment he heard the voice of that person, the voice that haunted his heart and soul.

But that voice was cold and ruthless, stabbing him decisively for the last time.

[Don't act like a waste, make me look down on you. 】

It was as if he heard gunshots close to his ears.

He didn't know how to describe the pain at that moment, and it would not be an exaggeration to say that his heart was crushed.When he felt that he was almost bloody in pain, there was a louder and louder buzzing in his ears, which was overwhelming him and was about to drown him.

[No...impossible...]

He finally understood his own voice, but the broken voice was terrifying, hoarse and piercing, like a chainsaw cutting through metal, causing him to cover his ears and reject everything.

There was some scalding heat flowing out of his eye sockets, and he found that his eyes were blood red and he couldn't see anything else.He waved his hands but couldn't grab anything, Gao Nanshun's appearance stood out amidst the blood red, he tried his best to smear it with his fingers, until finally his face became blurred, strange and distorted.

【why……】

When he opened his eyes, Pu Xingxiu could still hear his own voice echoing in his ears, with a sadness and desolation that even he himself felt unreal, and his chaotic thoughts instantly became clear because of the severe pain from his legs. Looking at the familiar ceiling, he realized slowly that he was lying in his room.

This real nightmare seemed to have cost him all his strength to act.

Supporting the edge of the bed with his arms and struggling to sit up, Park Xingxiu found that the wet clothes on his body had been changed. He lifted the quilt and wanted to get out of bed, but saw that his right leg was tightly protected by a warm water bag. The labor pains were completely gone, he looked at the right leg that had always been a burden, and silently clenched his left fist.

"you're awake."

Pu Zhixiu walked in with warm water, and when she saw him awake, she looked calm, as if nothing could shake her spirit now.It's just that what Park Xingxiu said to her as soon as he raised his head still couldn't help but make her words stop in his mouth.

"Sister, I'm going to see Nan Shun." Now that the showdown has been made, there is no need to hide it anymore. At this moment, he just hopes to let her see his determination and sincerity, so that she will no longer ignore him with a contemptuous attitude. their affection.

"..." Pu Zhixiu stood by the bed with a water glass in his hand, looking into Pu Xingxiu's eyes for a long time without making a sound.The feelings in her heart could no longer be chaotic. Disappointment, sadness and sorrow were mixed together, pushing and squeezing to open all her cells, and then making her whole body stiff.

Park Xingxiu was in a coma for two days.

After a day of stalemate with him, when she walked out of the room, she saw Park Xingxiu collapsed on the floor of the living room, her whole body was drenched in sweat, her hair sticking to her pale face.She didn't know how long this confrontation would last, but seeing Park Xingxiu desperately maintaining his so-called love made her feel extremely ironic.

Half of his life has been ruined, and he just had a glimmer of life, so why insist on throwing himself into the abyss again.

How should she hold him.

"You have been in a coma for two days." Park Zhixiu saw that Park Xingxiu's completely stiff expression after hearing her own words turned into panic and panic in an instant, as if she could predict the uneasiness in his heart, she deliberately emphasized every word He said with a heavy accent, "Gao Nanshun never contacted you once, you should understand his determination."

"I'm going to see him, I... Please, sister. Just let me see him, let me see him well, sister..." Park Xingxiu panicked and begged her, as if preparing for the second time. Kneeling heavily in front of her, eyes full of pain, as if she was the executioner who killed them.Pu Zhixiu frowned, letting him grab her arm and keep pulling it.

[Sister, I'm leaving here, Xingxiu... I hope he can be happy. ]

The text message from that child was still lying in the inbox of her mobile phone. She didn't reply, but just let the text message stand there desertedly, just like Gao Nanshun standing alone and helpless in the desolation of the world. With an unspoken ruthless complicity.

"Go ahead, count it as the last chance I'll give you, and don't let me down again."

In fact, she knows it all, doesn't she?Know what kind of wishful thinking that would be.

Even if it was done on purpose, she wasn't afraid to let him go through a blow, as long as he could be put to death and revived, it would be worth it.

The pace of running to that familiar direction was staggering, and the tingling pain in his right leg would not let him go even after two days of recuperation. Park Xingxiu dragged his body covered in thorny pain and exhausted all his strength to move forward. He hated himself He hated himself for wasting two days, how could he allow Gao Nanshun to live in the desolation and torment of a person for two whole days after being so tough and domineering to plunder him.

He should apologize to him.

He was to blame for his infirmity.

He should blame him for ruining his confession.

He should have hugged him tightly.

He wanted to do all of these, but what made his heart burn like a magma eruption was the overflowing longing.After experiencing such a grief and torment, with impermanent changes, no matter how much he suffered, the more he wanted to see Gao Nanshun.

Only he is his medicine, only he can make him well.

The wind that slid past the ears was bitter, and at the moment when another winter night was slowly approaching, Park Xingxiu couldn't wait to run to the person he had longed for, full of anticipation and bitterness, and wept in his heart without knowing whether to cry or laugh.The chaotic and contradictory mood was like a swirling vortex that swallowed everything, going round and round, making his heart palpitate endlessly. That kind of emotion was rare, and he didn't expect that people would have such feelings.

It seems that the world will change color for it.

Under the light of the dim street lights, snowflakes fell lightly again. Park Xingxiu slowed down downstairs in Gao Nanshun's house, and felt a cold touch gently falling on his cheeks. He raised his head and looked at the familiar door, but his heart was slightly hesitate.

How should I speak?

The nervousness came back, he felt the unbearable soreness in his heart like ants gnawed, unconsciously clasped his hands and dragged his steps.Behind him, a street lamp was on and off, dimmed and brightened again, and the repeated flashes clearly reflected his slanted shadow, and for a moment it seemed that his heart was constantly clouded.

Too much hesitation would be a waste of time. Pu Xingxiu encouraged himself in his heart, and he simply walked upstairs quickly. When he stood in front of that door, he realized that even his raised fingers were trembling, and he clenched his fist hard. Soft, he didn't need any strength at all, so he relied on the trembling and curled joints to knock on the door of that person's house, the voice was short but powerful, like his heartbeat at this moment, violent and lingering.

The silence around him was too rigid, and as soon as the knock on the door stopped, there was only silence to swallow him up. In such a dark and cold night, he was the only one left standing outside the door.Repeated beating and calling could not get a response and acceptance, his doubts and anxiety became more and more serious, and his rise exceeded the warning line.

【impossible. 】

He was against it in his heart, but he was completely cowardly on his face.He began to increase the strength of his hands, and at this moment, it seemed that all his strength had returned obediently, and his joints were red and painful from the bump. Park Xingxiu changed his fingers into fists unwillingly, and hit the door with constant sound.

The night when the snow falls is the most silent, and it is impossible for such a sound not to be carried by the air.When the door was knocked too hard, there was finally a sound that broke the lonely and desperate call.The sound of the same door opening came from the house on the left.

"Ah! Are you finished? It's so noisy! You're a nuisance to the people at night, brat!"

Angrily yelling at his uncle's impatient eyes, Park Xingxiu was in a daze but did not forget to defend anxiously: "I'm sorry, I have something very important to come to this family..." He was rudely interrupted before he finished speaking. Interrupted, but that response really made him question, he didn't want to believe and couldn't believe the possible truth of that sentence.

"What are you looking for! Their house moved out, and they just moved out in the past two days, so you don't need to knock!"

"..."

"It's time to knock on the door. What is the mobile phone for? If no one opens the door, it means there is no one. Crazy."

Waking up as if finally being shocked by an electric shock, Park Xingxiu fumbled for the phone from his pocket. The panic along the way made him completely forget the value of the phone he brought out on purpose. He couldn't unlock the screen lock accurately with trembling fingers several times. I can't wait to smash the machine in my hand.The uncle next to him was still complaining dissatisfiedly, but he couldn't hear the chaotic words in that mouth more and more clearly, he just focused on the only hope left in his hands and had no time to care about him.

Finally unlocking the screen lock, he couldn't wait to dig out Gao Nanshun's number and dial it, but he opened the mailbox inadvertently, and the moment he wanted to press the exit button, he glanced at the unread text message at the top. The word "Nan Shun" was clearly magnified in front of his eyes, and he couldn't restrain the excitement and panic in his heart.

Then completely froze in place.

[sorry]

Even the punctuation is stingy, and the three characters stand alone and helpless.

The uncle who originally wanted to express his dissatisfaction with being disturbed suddenly saw the slightly embarrassed boy in front of him burst into tears, and couldn't utter a word for a moment as if his throat was choked. Maybe he was surprised or maybe a little bit Disdainful, but seeing such a nervous boy standing outside the door and crying into his mobile phone on a winter night is not very interesting, so he hurried back into the house and closed the door hard.

As if completely left behind in the deserted wilderness, Park Xingxiu still stood there in a dead-hearted posture without moving.Some snow fell on his shoulders with the cold wind, and then melted silently with the slight tremor.

died.

In an instant, the clearest two words flashed into my mind.Before he lost his center of gravity and fell down, Park Heung-soo emptied his mind, even Ko Nam-soon no longer remembered, he could only see these two words.The cold wind was blowing like a hole in the chest, whistling like entanglements from hell.

How is he going to live.

Who can teach him.

The moment the only support was broken, all emotions were out of control and tore him apart.His spirit has been devoured to the point where he has nothing but breath left to fight against nothing, how did he win.It turns out that Crash doesn't have too many messy and cumbersome movements at all, he only needs to lose a piece of clarity in his eyes.When you are really hollowed out by despair, you will no longer have the strength to vent your roar except for losing your soul.

He longed to be broken, to be hurt, to be stabbed badly, to bleed some blood, or to slit some flesh.At least those obvious physical pains can be felt by his skin, touched and touched, and healed.Now he is so half-deadly enduring the internal trauma that he can't even bear it to the limit, but what can he do if he speaks, in vain braving the hollow space to cry out the unknown pain.

Who can understand him.

Who can understand.

Gao Nanshun, after all, you still make me completely at a loss as to how to treat you.

Love it or hate it.

How can you kill me again.

When the snow became stronger and stronger, the streets became empty and silent, and the flying snowflakes were icy cold, sweeping away all the breath of life.Someone sat slumped in a corner and festered secretly, holding his breath as if his soul was completely strangled.

The moment he was finally able to make a sound, it was an out-of-the-ordinary cry.

Twitching and convulsing, trying to spit out the heart and lungs, tears corroded the pupils and reflected a dim redness, as if he had used his life to confide.The crying gradually became more and more melodious, but it stuck in the throat intermittently from time to time. The heavy coughing and deep panting were like struggling before drowning.

In the end, it was still miserable and hopeless.

He knelt like that on a snowy winter night, letting tears and cries flood his head.

That shadow bent and collapsed in the dimness.

The cold bit my bones.