Black Powder Monologue Diary

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Lin Yu put on a coat and went downstairs. As soon as he reached the stairs, Ji Shanye waved to him while sitting in the car, and Lin Yu got into the car.

"How do you know I've moved?" Lin Yu asked him.

Ji Shanye didn't answer him, his eyes were a little unnatural.

Lin Yu knew that he no longer needed an answer, and Ji Shanye's silence was the best answer.He frowned and asked, "Are you following me?"

"It's not stalking—" Ji Shanye said quickly, "I just want to know where you live."

"What do you call tracking?" Lin Yu said.

"Why are you following me?"

"I want to see you more, I'm sorry." Ji Shanye was a little guilty, and said, "I'm sorry if it troubled you. I won't do it in the future."

"When did you come to my place?" Lin Yu asked.

"It's just after ten o'clock." Ji Shanye said.

"You've been waiting here all this time?"

"Yeah." Ji Shanye said.

Lin Yu said, "What are you looking for me to do?"

Ji Shanye said, "Did you break up with... your boyfriend?"

Lin Yu looked at him silently.

"I saw you moved away from his house..."

"If...the two of you break up, can you give me a chance?" Ji Shanye stumbled, he had never been so nervous before: "Shall we start again?"

"Don't rush to reject me, I can wait. Even if you give me a chance to chase you, okay?"

"Let's start over, shall we?"

Lin Yu looked at him, was silent for two seconds, and asked him, "Are you serious?"

"Very serious." Ji Shanye said, "I wanted to tell you from the first day you came back."

"I know that in some places, I may not have your man—" Ji Shanye changed his words again: "The ex-boyfriend did a good job, but in the future, I will do better than him."

Lin Yu said: "You misunderstood, my senior is not my ex-boyfriend."

"Huh?" Ji Shanye's expression was not good.

"I mean, we've never been together, he's just my senior." Lin Yu didn't want this misunderstanding to deepen.

"But you... don't you live together?"

"The school dormitory is being renovated recently, and I have no place to live, so the senior took me in." Lin Yu said, "Living together is not about living in the same room."

Ji Shanye said again: "But before, when you were in Fuya Mountain, did you still go to the movies together?"

Lin Yu thought for a while and asked him, "How do you know that we watched a movie in Fuya Mountain?"

Ji Shanye glanced at him and said, "I went to Fuya Mountain to look for you before."

"I wanted to have a good talk with you, but I saw you watching a movie with that man."

Lin Yu was silent.

"So, you are not together at all?" Ji Shanye looked at Lin Yu.

"You misunderstood yourself." Lin Yu said: "Besides, you didn't seem to care at all at that time, and I don't want to explain to you."

"I'm sorry." Ji Shanye said softly.

"Why do you like to say sorry to me so much now?" Lin Yu muttered.

Ji Shanye fell silent.

Lin Yu sat up straight and looked at Ji Shanye: "I just want to know one question, you have to answer me seriously."

"what?"

"You said you wanted to be with me again, did you say that because you read my diary, felt sorry for me, and sympathized with me?"

"Or is it just that you can't accept that I have a new boyfriend, and you want to be with me because of possessiveness?"

After an embarrassing and flustered silence, Lin Yu lowered his head. He knew that Ji Shanye was looking at him, but he didn't dare to look up.

"There is no reason." Ji Shanye said.

"I want to be with you again just because I love you. I broke up with you. I have gone the wrong way once, and I don't want to go the second time." Ji Shanye murmured.

Lin Yu lowered his head and clasped his hands: "My mother is my hallucination. She died when I was in junior high school. So, to a certain extent, I am a mental patient." He said : "Knowing this, do you still want to be with me?"

Ji Shanye laughed: "Do you think I will give up for such a reason?"

He gently held Lin Yu's hand: "Give me a chance, please? Love me again."

"Is it okay?" Seeing that Lin Yu didn't answer, he asked again.

Lin Yu said: "My mind is very confused now, can you let me think for a while?"

"Okay, how long do you want?"

"I……"

"It's okay, I'll wait for you as long as you want." Ji Shanye said.

"Go back to sleep first, it's too late today." Ji Shanye opened the car door for him: "I'll come to you tomorrow morning."

Lin Yu took one last look at Ji Shanye and went upstairs anyway.

10

Since the conversation in the car that day, Lin Yu obviously felt that Ji Shanye seemed to have changed his state.

If we say that before, he was in a state of hesitation and hesitation.So now he has become a state of striding forward and attacking swiftly.

The next morning, Lin Yu had just woken up and washed when he heard a knock on the door.He went out and opened the door, and saw Ji Shanye standing outside the door carrying a big bag of breakfast.

Ji Shanye raised his hand: "I'm here to bring you food."

Before he could say anything, Ji Shanye had already walked in by himself.While observing the house, he walked to the dining table, put the breakfast on it, and untied the bag: "I bought the Xiaolongbao from the downstairs of my house, didn't you like to eat that one the most before?"

"Hurry up and eat, I'll take you to school after eating." Ji Shanye said.

Lin Yu said, "No need, I'll just take the subway, it's very close."

"Then I'll take you to the subway entrance." Ji Shanye said.

He walked over, pushed Lin Yu to the dining table, and sat down: "Eat quickly, or you will be cold in a while."

Lin Yu was eating Xiaolongbao, while Ji Shanye was just looking at him.Lin Yu glanced at him and pushed the thing over: "You eat too."

Ji Shanye just smiled and shook his head: "I'll just watch you eat."

When he said this, his eyes were as bright as stars in the night sky, Lin Yu turned his head away, not daring to meet his gaze.

Lin Yu thought it was Ji Shanye's whim to deliver breakfast this day, but he didn't expect that in the next few days, he would come to his home to deliver breakfast to him at the same time.

When he came, he didn't say much, as if he just came to give himself a breakfast, send himself to school, check himself and then go back.

After a while, Lin Yu finally couldn't help asking him: "You come to me every day, won't you delay your work?"

"Don't you need to go to filming?" Ever since he met Ji Shanye, Lin Yu had never seen Ji Shanye busy with work.Before, when they were together, they often did not see each other for a long time.Unlike now, we can basically meet every day.

"No, I'm resting recently." Ji Shanye said.

"Why don't you film?" Lin Yu asked him.

"There is no good script, and there is no good team." To be precise, since he broke up with Lin Yu, Ji Shanye has chosen to be silent, and he found that he has become indifferent to the glitz of the entertainment industry.Part of the reason why he broke up with Lin Yuhui in the first place was also because of the reality that we get together less and leave more.

[The author has something to say: Tomorrow will be the finale!Remember to come and see! 】