please let go

"You go back..."

"He Chuan, it's too dark, I can't go home." Jiang Chen stretched out his hand to pull He Chuan's clothes, trying to get a look back.

The person being pulled froze, but still did not turn around, and pulled the hand away, "I will stay at my house for the night, and I will take you to the bus at six in the morning."

Jiang Chen entered the room in frustration. Although he had already seen the dilapidated house during the video call, he was still shocked when he actually stood here.

There was also a swallow's nest on the eaves, but unfortunately the light was too dim, no matter how carefully Jiang Chen looked, he couldn't see if there were any swallows inside.

He saw many white bumps on the wall again, and stretched out his hand to rub one of them. Unexpectedly, a spider with black and white patterns came out of it, and he shook his hand in fright.

He Chuan turned around and saw Jiang Chen who was looking around with his eyes, "It's broken, right? It's not right that we are not in the same household."

"Stop talking such trash."

"Jiang Chen, this is not trash talk."

"I do not want to hear."

He Chuan didn't speak, and led him into the room.Jiang Chen came here for the first time, but he had already seen it countless times in the video. He was familiar with every layout of He Chuan's room.

The two were lying on the same wooden bed, and Jiang Chen sent a message to his mother saying that he would stay at He Chuan's house for one night, then put down his phone and stared at the heartless back.

Psychological factors aside, he still couldn't sleep at all.Not only was it hot, but there were also many mosquitoes buzzing in his ears, which made his bites painful and itchy. Every time he went to beat the mosquitoes, the meat was so painful that he didn't even flap his wings.

He didn't want to stay in such an environment for a second, but He Chuan had lived here for more than ten years.

He Chuan rested his head with one hand, put the other casually in front of his body, bowed his body slightly, and his spine was like a flower branch wrapped in flesh and blood, showing the outline on the white T.

Jiang Chen wanted to raise his hand to touch him, but he was afraid of being pushed away, so he retracted his arm and continued to touch the person in front of him with his eyes, "He Chuan, I can't sleep."

"I know you haven't slept, He Chuan, let's talk for a while." Jiang Chen said again.

He Chuan asked sullenly, "What did you say?"

What can the two of them say now?

Jiang Chen endured the pain, "Is Auntie feeling better?"

"I prescribed some western medicine, and I have to go to the hospital for regular checkups. It won't get better in a while, and I will use traditional Chinese medicine to recuperate after the situation stabilizes."

"Well, that's good." Jiang Chen didn't know what to say.

"Jiang Chen, I really don't know what you like about a person like me. I smoke, drink, fight and occupy everything. I'm poor and have no pursuits."

"I'm still small-minded, I always report when things happen, and I don't have sympathy, so I'm hated by so many people..."

"Jiang Chen, you are blind."

"I'm not blind, I think I have very good eyesight." Jiang Chen felt a little regretful, regretting that he said He Chuan didn't love him very much.

He only blames himself now, and he has no ability to save people.

"Jiang Chen, you're fine, you won't be short of people to like you." He Chuan moved his body slightly, as if to turn around, but he just adjusted his sleeping position.

Jiang Chen heard He Chuan say: "There will always be someone who loves you."

There will always be someone who loves him, but now he only needs He Chuan to be that person.

"He Chuan, do you know what I was thinking the night you told me about the past?"

"I thought at the time, you are always silent, opening your mouth is a tragic experience, saying that you have given up on the ways of the world, but I looked at your eyes..." Jiang Chen leaned towards He Chuan, never daring to touch him. Swallowing the pain into his stomach, he said softly: "But it seems like I'm waiting for me to love you..."

After a long time, He Chuan's voice sounded, "Jiang Chen, let's be together again in the next life."

In the next life, who wants the next life——

The long night is not worth the pain of a word.

Jiang Chen restrained his crying, "He Chuan, people don't have a next life."

The so-called next life is a lie made up to continue the good or calm down regrets, but the person in front of him may become his half-century-long heart.

He Chuan: "Go to sleep..."

Jiang Chen: "Good night."

He Chuan didn't reply to him.

Jiang Chen used to never understand why people who love each other can't be together, he thought it was because they didn't love each other enough to overcome all difficulties. It wasn't until today that he realized that just one difficulty is enough to break the love between two people.

There is no fairness in this world. Faced with the incident of cheating, the direction of the two families is completely different, which leads to the difference in the environment in which the two grew up, and the difference in personality is also great.

This is indeed unfair to He Chuan, but what Jiang Chen thinks is the most unfair is that the grievances of the previous generation are on their heads.

They are not wrong.

It's never wrong for them to be in love.

He likes to be nosy, but when he finds out that he likes He Chuan, He Chuan's affairs are no longer nosy.He felt that he didn't do much, at most he could get He Chuan out of some bad habits and let him get into a better university.

He had already rehearsed the unspeakable confession countless times before going to bed, and prayed for He Chuan to love him again in the rest of the time.

He has no experience in love, and he is a little afraid that this boyfriend will be incompetent.

Maybe I won't have this worry anymore.

He also knew what kind of hard life He Chuan and Li Yuxiu lived, and he had no right to let He Chuan drop everything to be with him.

After getting along for a long time, Jiang Chenguang can feel the sadness from the back, "I hope you don't grab the sins that don't belong to you, and then don't let yourself go."

People still didn't answer him.

The sky outside the window had just turned blue, followed by a high-pitched rooster crowing. Jiang Chen stayed up all night, even though his eyes were so sore that he couldn't open them, he didn't want to take his eyes off He Chuan.

He is afraid of everything he sees,

will be the last look.

He Chuan got up and saw Jiang Chen with his eyes open, his body froze, and he turned his back and said, "Wake up and go."

Send people to the empty concrete field, and leave before the bus arrives, leaving Jiang Chen standing there alone.

Jiang Chen didn't sleep all night but was extremely energetic. Looking at the person who had only walked a few steps, he shouted, "Do you want to be so cruel?"

He Chuan raised his hand and only said "bye".Jiang Chen watched the white shadow plunge into the endless green, getting further and further away from him.

getting farther and farther away...

A passenger car was parked in an open space, he got on the car, paid the fare, and found a seat by the window to sit down.

The old man's coughing, the child's crying, and the two old women's conversation sounded all around, but Jiang Chen didn't hear any of them, and looked at the somewhat dirty glass window with dull eyes.

The noisy bus stops and starts, and stops; passengers, keep getting off and getting on.

He sat motionless in the last row, with tears in his eyes and refused to close them.

"Hello."

"Eh!"

Jiang Chen was patted on the shoulder, and he turned his head to look at the smiling girl with no expression on his face.

The girl shook her phone, "You look pretty, can you add me as a friend?"

Jiang Chen remained silent, and continued staring at the scenery outside the window in a daze.

The endless peaks took him out of the mountain village, with more and more buildings, passing by their high school, and stopped at the terminal.

"Are you really not adding a friend?" The girl asked him again after getting off the car.

Jiang Chen no longer had the energy to find euphemistic words to reject the girl, and he didn't even want to say one more word.He stepped into the station again to transfer to the next train, but unexpectedly ran into that girl again.

"Hi! What a coincidence!" The girl sat directly next to him, "Are you going downtown?"

Jiang Chen felt a headache just hearing that cheerful voice, pressed his temples, and continued to ignore her.

"Why are you so sad when you go to play? Which town are you from? I am from Heqing, maybe we are still fellow villagers!"

Jiang Chen was attracted by the word "He Qing", and he turned to talk to the girl, "He Qing?"

"That's right! This time I wanted to go and play with my friends in the city, so I just took the car for so long. Are you from Heqing too? Where are you going to play?"

"I'm not, I'm going home."

"Your home is in the urban area! In a big city! Then why are you coming to Batou, Xiangxiang? It's so remote here, your butt hurts from sitting in a car."

"Look for my boyfriend."

"Wow~ I wish you a long time!"

Jiang Chen had heard this simple blessing too many times, but found it difficult to actually complete it.He let the girl next to him chatter, looking at the scenery outside the window, there was nowhere to vent the suffocation accumulated in his chest, for fear that the words he spit out would hurt others.

"Hey! Did you quarrel with your boyfriend?" The girl had a careless personality, and directly pressed Jiang Chen's arm with her hand.

"No."

"Why are you as cold as our He Chuan?"

"What did you say?"

"He Chuan! He's a handsome guy just like you."

"I know."

"You know? How do you know? You know you're a handsome guy, haha!" The girl's boast didn't bring Jiang Chen any good mood.

"My boyfriend is him." Jiang Chen simply closed his eyes and fell asleep regardless of the reaction of the girl next to him.

When they finally got out of the car and parted ways, the girl said to Jiang Chen, "I can see that you are really in a bad mood, but it will pass."

Jiang Chen mechanically replied "Thank you" and returned to his new home in the city.

He hasn't tidied up his room since he moved, and the cardboard boxes piled up on the floor are hard to get out of.Jiang Chen managed to find an empty seat and sat down, and sent a message to He Chuan saying he was home, but the other side didn't reply to him.

Whenever the screen of the mobile phone is about to turn off, he clicks on it, thinking about what he can wait for.He kept switching back and forth in various communication software, but he didn't receive a single message.

Inadvertently, seeing the soft armor that He Chuan recommended him to play before, Jiang Chen clicked and found 99+ messages.

He didn't know why there were so many messages, because he turned off the message reminder, so he didn't receive any of them.

Jiang Chen found that countless people sent him messages and liked him, and clicked into several message columns, all of which were messages urging him to confess his love.

The origin is because of that comment:

"After the college entrance examination next year, I will confess my love to him."

Since June 6th, in the comment section below, people have been asking him if he has confessed his love, and the one with the highest praise is the only account that Jiang Chen follows.

"I'm still waiting."

Jiang Chen casually clicked on a message bar.

[Soft Heart Strawberry Jam]: Ahhh!Your wife is waiting for you to confess to him! !

[Fate without speaking]: How did he know?

[Soft Hearted Strawberry Jam]: Hahahaha, your comment is not hidden, it's exposed! !

Only then did he know that the comments were visible, as long as he clicked on the homepage, he could find the user's previous comments, and hurriedly clicked into the account, and found that He Chuan had been using this software for almost 1000 days, but there was only this comment...

So He Chuan knew Jiang Chen's secret love from the very beginning.

Jiang Chen now understood He Chuan's hesitant expression when the two walked out of the examination room, his eyes became hot in an instant, he quickly closed his eyes to prevent tears from flowing out, and the pain ran out of his mouth again and turned into sobs.

He Chuan wanted to hear his confession.

The two sides hid their love well, only showing a corner, while Jiang Chen's liking was hidden in the songs they listened to together, in the light of the desk lamp, in the trembling holding hands, in the night when they closed their eyes.

How could the affectionate He Chuan not understand?

He Chuan just wanted to lie to himself that Jiang Chen didn't like him, and then broke up with peace of mind.

Jiang Chen clicked on those messages and replied one by one, saying that they had been dating for a year.

Tang Miao passed by the room and saw Jiang Chen sitting on the floor with his head bowed and typing on the keyboard on his mobile phone. He probably knew what happened last night, and felt a little distressed. "Chenchen, clean up the floor..."

"Ah."

Tang Miao: "What do you want to eat? I'll make it for you."

Jiang Chen shook his head: "Mom, I have no appetite."

"You haven't eaten properly for over a week..."

"It's okay, wait for me to take it easy..."

Tang Miao didn't say much, and left the door.

After replying to those hundreds of messages, he put down his phone, tore off the tape on the cardboard box beside him, and began to organize the things inside one by one.

He had to find something to do, otherwise he would miss He Chuan all the time, but the first thing he opened made him burst into tears again.

It was his favorite book, and no one knew better than him what was in it.Jiang Chen still couldn't control his hand, he opened the book, and the note inside fell out first.

It says:

Shall I take the desk lamp today?

tomorrow.

The other thing is the test paper that was folded in half twice, He Chuan's test paper that scored 99 points...

Jiang Chen can still recall the scene of the exam that day.

The sun is warm, the breeze is not dry, everything is just right, everything seems to be born in Hechuan, a random blink of an eye made Jiang Chen's heart move until now.

This ordinary test paper became the official beginning of their love. The words on it seemed like exaggerations, but now they seem ironic.

"Then wish our love will last forever, boyfriend."

The words pieced together stroke by stroke are now like sharp knives constantly cutting out the heart, no blood is seen, but blood is all over the body.

Jiang Chen looked back and forth at the test paper, and when he found an important detail, there was a roar in his head, and his heart began to throb again.

The unknowns in the answer box of a big problem in mathematics are not X and Y, but J and C.

He always thought that it was after the two got together that He Chuan slowly transferred his obsession with Jiangshan to him, but he didn't expect that He Chuan had sincerity from the beginning.

Jiang Chen carefully read each question in the test paper again. Although the words on the test paper were irregular, the steps of the major questions were written very completely, and neither "proof" nor "in summary" in the final conclusion No less.

There is another line of small characters outside the sealing line of the last question.

It clearly says:

To sum up, I like Jiang Chen.

"He Chuan, I don't care about you!" Jiang Chen suddenly hated his own cowardice, he only wanted to be good to He Chuan, but he didn't even dare to express the most important and formal words.

He cried and grabbed his cell phone to send a voice message to He Chuan.

"I have seen the comments and the last words on the test paper."

"He Chuan, I like you."

"He Chuan...I love you."

This confession was a year late.

[He Chuan]: Thank you.

[Jiang Chen]: Is it still possible?

[He Chuan]: I don't know.

[Jiang Chen]: Is this what you call a love without regrets?

[He Chuan]: Sorry, I may have left you with regrets.

When Jiang Chen sent another message to say "can you think of a way", there was already a red exclamation mark in front of the message box, and the system prompted He Chuan to block him at the bottom.

He Chuan didn't delete him, but blocked him. To some extent, he wanted to save a chance.

They are all waiting.

Waiting for an opportunity for Jiang Chen to come out of the blacklist.