Unspeakable

After school, Zhang Yang turned on his phone, and a text message popped out immediately.

He opened it and looked, frowning, what's the matter with Mu Chen?

Zhang Yang rode all the way home quickly, knocked on the door of Mu Chen's house, and there was no sound inside.He called Mu Chen, and the female robot living in the mobile phone cheerfully told him that Mu Chen was not turned on.

Mu Chen is like this. Even if he has a mobile phone, he almost never turns it on. On average, he can turn it on for half a minute a day.

Mu Chen said, I hate the feeling of being found by others at any time.

Very unsafe.

Zhang Yang also knows a place, Mu Chen likes to go there the most.Happy, or unhappy; wronged, or calm.

That is on the reef behind the building.

Zhang Yang trotted all the way there, and he saw a thin figure wrapped in the setting sun. The red setting sun and the dark blue sea formed a sad picture.

There was a complex emotion surging in Zhang Yang's heart, and he couldn't tell what it was.

He suddenly felt sad, so he ran over, walked around in front of Mu Chen, and called softly: "Mu Chen."

Mu Chen didn't move, Zhang Yang was surprised to find that he had already fallen asleep, resting his chin quietly on his curled up knee, behaved like a kitten.

Zhang Yang stood there for a few seconds, but Mu Chen remained motionless, his eyelids tightly closed.

"You're not dead." Zhang Yang stretched out his hand to touch Mu Chen's eyelashes. His eyelashes were thick and long, like small black brushes.

Mu Chen's eyelashes trembled a few times, and his brows frowned.

"Yes, you continue to sleep," Zhang Yang said, "How sleepy this is."

Zhang Yang stood in conflict for a long time in the breeze, and finally decided to give himself a night off to catch up on sleep, so he didn't have to do his homework at night, and let Mu Chen write a note in imitating an adult's handwriting later.

He threw his schoolbag on the stone and lay down on the grass.The grass behind the building is very thick, soft and elastic to step on, and it is green at the beginning of spring, like a blanket.

The breeze in the evening was really hypnotizing. Zhang Yang felt tired as soon as he lay down, but after all, he was about to catch up with the exam. He had been studying for a whole day, and he had been using his brain efficiently during the day, and now he couldn't calm down quickly.

It is known that A sleeps for 30 minutes, and B sleeps for 50 minutes, and A sleeps 10 minutes earlier than B. When will A and B wake up together?How much sleep did B sleep at this time?Suppose the two wake up together after x minutes, from the meaning of the title... chee, chee...

No, the title seems to be wrong.

Teacher... I have a question...

Zhang Yang wanted to laugh a little, what a mess.

Mu Chen woke up soon, he dozed very lightly, and would wake up with the slightest movement.As soon as he turned his head, he saw Zhang Yang who was sleeping soundly. He rubbed his eyes to confirm that he was right.

This kid is quite good at enjoying, even more so than himself, he actually knows how to lie down and sleep.

At this time, there was only half of the setting sun left, and the cool air in the air made Mu Chen shiver comfortably.

He likes this kind of cold, the undisguised biting cold, which can make people wake up immediately from the chaos.

He's been thinking about something lately.

He could feel that his physical condition was getting worse and worse. It was like the old people getting weaker and weaker. It was not an organic disease, but the energy in the body was gradually disappearing.

He knows he won't live long.

Even though he knew it since he was a child, he didn't expect it to be so fast. It seemed that a moment ago, he was still that little Mu Chen who was sometimes very deep, sometimes very naive.

why so fast.

He remembered a sentence he saw before.

Human life is too short, we have the responsibility to live our life wonderfully without leaving any regrets.

The review before the recent exam was really boring, which made Mu Chen more and more bored.

The current education in China makes children very sad. There is no other way to go except to take the exam.

He felt that it was a waste of time and a trample on life to stay in such a daze.

Recently, he had an idea that he would stop going to school, draw some pictures and write some novels at home, and take a couple of photos by the way, so that he could enjoy himself leisurely and peacefully.In fact, he has been writing novels for several years. He has many readers and has received several manuscript fees. Although the money is not much, he will never forget the excitement and satisfaction when he got the money.

That's when it's really happy.

If you are responsible for your own life, you should make this kind of moment more, instead of holding a book and shaking your swollen head while reading.

Not to mention how bad China's education system is, while desperately slamming the achievements of oneself and others and not letting go.

He decided that he would not take the high school entrance examination after finishing junior high school, and he had given enough face to the nine-year compulsory education.

Just thinking of this, a cozy and lazy voice came from behind: "Ah——It's so comfortable to catch up on sleep——"

"Sleeping beauty?" Mu Chen turned his head away.

"It's almost as beautiful as Sleeping Beauty." Zhang Yang jumped up, patted the grass clippings on his body, and stretched himself.

Mu Chen hugged his knees, and said in a drawn out voice, "Oh... Zhang—beauty——"

The setting sun was about to set, and the orange-red sunlight turned into a small ball of wool, fluffy and hanging on the black sea.Mu Chen sat quietly on the rock with his back to the light, his figure suddenly became dim and blurry, but the faint afterglow of the setting sun still outlined his thin shoulders.

Zhang Yang looked at Mu Chen in a daze.There was that complex emotion in him again, kind of protective, but not quite.

"What's wrong?" Mu Chen said calmly.The tone is so gentle that it gives people an illusion.It seems that the whole world is peaceful at this moment.

Zhang Yang walked over, stretched out his hand and slid it gently and quickly on Mu Chen's cheek.

The corners of Mu Chen's mouth hooked up, his eyes were full of smiles, but when he looked closely, his eyes were full of sadness.

"Do you still remember," Zhang Yang said, "I said, I will protect you."

Mu Chen didn't speak, neither did Zhang Yang.He stood there blankly, watching the sunset sinking a little bit.

"Okay, let's protect it," Mu Chen said suddenly, "I don't have to be very strong, sometimes I'm also weak. It's just... I always remember, but I didn't think you hadn't forgotten."

"I will never forget it, and I will never forget it in the future." Zhang Yang said softly.

"Ah, then... let's go back."

Zhang Yang helped Mu Chen walk slowly, and the scene just now kept reappearing.

It seemed that there was nothing abnormal, and Mu Chen didn't despise himself, but no matter how he thought about it, he felt weird, a little awkward, and... a little hypocritical.

What made him even more afraid was that words such as "I will protect you" seemed to only appear in TV dramas. For no reason, he thought of a superman in tights saying to the panicked girl, I will protect you Bar.

He looked down at Mu Chen, and saw his small brush-like eyelashes and pale skin.

Sometimes he thinks that Mu Chen is a very miraculous person, maybe he can't find another person like him in the world... He can give others magical powers, make people feel pity and calm down, but he doesn't care at all. Pretentious.

Most of the time, he loves Mu Chen very much, and always feels that Mu Chen can arouse the weakest string in his heart.

He never thought about who Mu Chen was to him.

Simple friend?It seems that it is not that simple.

lover?This is impossible, impossible at all.

"Zhang Yang, let me tell you something."

"Ok?"

"I don't want to go to high school in the future."

"Oh——" Zhang Yang didn't know what to say, and it seemed that he couldn't say anything. Mu Chen didn't need to help him make a decision.

"Oh, what do you mean?"

"What are you going to do if you don't go to school?"

"Draw pictures at home, write articles, and do anything."

"Mu Shaonong, will he agree?"

"Whether he agrees or not," Mu Chen was a little disdainful, "Who can make me change my decision."

Zhang Yang still felt a little out of place: "Then what will you do in the future and what will you rely on to make money?"

"I..." Mu Chen raised his head, with a sad and slightly cruel smile at the corner of his mouth, "Do I have a future?"

"Why not?" Zhang Yang said softly, still in a very gentle voice.

"I mean, I don't live long."

"What!" Zhang Yang stopped suddenly, his eyes widened, and he was too surprised to speak.

"My health is not good, it has always been bad," Mu Chen looked at his slender fingers quietly, "I feel even worse recently."

"Why is it bad?" Zhang Yang frowned. "What's wrong? Go to the hospital if you feel unwell. If you can be cured, I can pay for your medical expenses."

Mu Chen laughed softly: "An old man who is more than 100 years old can't find out what's wrong, but he will slowly age and die. I am also like this, but my age is earlier."

"Why is your age advanced?" Zhang Yang almost shouted.

"As I said, I have been weak since I was a child, otherwise I would also like to play with you."

"No, you can't do this..." Just as Zhang Yang opened his mouth, Mu Chen pressed his mouth.

"It's okay, I'm fine, don't worry about it. People... the length of a lifetime is nothing more than a lifetime," Mu Chen thought for a while and then added, "Maybe the weather has suddenly become warmer recently, and I can't adjust it. Quite energetic, isn't it?"

To coax a child, anyone can tell that this is comforting words.Zhang Yang smiled bitterly, suddenly feeling empty in his heart.

It was like falling into the universe, surrounded by darkness, and the body kept falling in despair, falling forever.

Author's Notes:

I was waiting for the bus at the station when I heard a child crying behind me.

To be honest, I was really surprised because I turned my head and saw a milf woman beating a little boy.His ruthless strength and accurate strikes amazed all martial arts leaders, and his beating skills are more than enough to be written into the world history or the Guinness Book of Records.The little boy was about three years old, thin and fair, but tears were all over his face.

At that time, there were many people at the station, and almost all of them were my classmates. Everyone stared at this strange duo to death.

Some people looked at it gloatingly, some looked at it sympathetically, and more people looked indifferently.

I couldn't stand it anymore, so I walked over to my aunt and said, I'm calling the police.

The aunt was stunned for a moment, and then said, can you control me if I beat my grandson?Report it if you have the ability!You report!

It turned out to be the face of a street rogue.

No wonder you hit him so hard, I thought, after all you weren't born.

So I took out the phone that was turned off, pretended to press it a few times, and then leaned into my ear and said, police, there is an aunt beating a child under the Lisi stop sign on Wanger Mazi Road... Okay, wait a minute 3 Minutes, better get there soon...

The little boy stared at me with teary eyes, and I felt a prickly pain, and the severe pain from my chest even obliterated me.

Actually, if I wasn't me, I wouldn't care.I may be gloating, maybe sympathetic, maybe very indifferent.

But after all, I am me, which reminds me of myself when I was a child, being taught by my parents downstairs.

The fragile, helpless, painful, young, ignorant...

Children at that age still worship the police very much. I clearly remember that at that time, I kept thinking, why didn’t the almighty police uncle come and save me...

The neighbors all passed by one after another, stabbed me with sympathetic and even pity eyes, and then hurried away.

I was stabbed by the little boy's eyes, that's when I asked the neighbors for help, but... no one came to protect me.

I always wanted a child before, because I thought I had the ability to give him a happy life.

At least it will be better than the life my parents gave me.

At least I won't beat and scold it in public.It was skinning him alive in public.

But now I have changed my mind.

The aunt walked away cursing, and I was still standing there.

I am not a good guy.I am selfish.

I was just saving my old self.

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