Piano Song Killing Eve [Short Story]

, he doesn't care about me.

I don't know how long this torment lasted. I finally saw my mother coming, and Situ Lei followed behind her.

I walked to my mother, but was slapped by my mother.

"Auntie, don't do this!" Situ Lei stopped her by grabbing her mother's wrist.

The mother turned around and scolded him angrily: "Where did you come from? Why is my discipline my daughter hindering you?"

After hearing this, Situ Lei withdrew his hand in embarrassment.

In fact, my mother knew Situ Lei. Wasn't this young hero who caused her daughter to suffer from anorexia?

"I said long ago, stay away from those bastards, other people's children don't have tutors, your father and I are both teachers, and have you educated you, a bastard?"

"mom……"

I feel very sorry for my mother, but I hope my mother will save me some face. I don't want to lose face in front of Situ Lei.

"You will graduate from college in a few months. If something like this happens, will you still be able to graduate?"

My mother's words made me realize the seriousness of the problem. I regretted why I was so stupid and acquiesced to Situ Lei to take the blame for Ning Ning. This is not as simple as being interrogated or squatting in the police station for a few days. My future is ruined like this .

I couldn't hold it back any longer, and my little sobs turned into howls.

"What should I do? What should I do? Situ Lei, I want to expose you, you and Ningning! I...not me!"

I pounced on Situ Lei and beat him with all my strength. I saw that he felt guilty at first, but became irritable under my repeated attacks. ", pushed me away and walked out the door.

In times of crisis, relatives are the most reliable. I told my mother the truth about what I have suffered for others, and my mother calmed down and did not blame too much.

She said that she must tell the truth to the police later, and then she will find a way to find someone to accommodate her. No matter what, she must not let the school know.

Finally, when the police called me, I walked to an office accompanied by my mother and sat opposite a policewoman.

The policewoman asked me to fill out a form, and then said, "Report in a week later, pay attention next time," and let us go.

My mother and I were very surprised. We didn't expect it to be so simple, but we didn't dare to ask.

"Huh? You can go." Seeing the two people standing in front of her, the policewoman repeated what she had just said.

"Uh... oh." I hesitated twice, and looked at my mother, as if I had picked up a big deal and was afraid that the other party would regret it, I kept silent and pretended to be calm, got up and left.

It was cold in the early morning of early spring, and it was raining lightly that day. My mother went to the parking lot to pick up the car, and I waited for her in the corridor of the police station.

It was just after three o'clock, and the surroundings were very quiet. I stared at the incandescent lamp above my head that kept flickering due to disrepair, and let go of all my thoughts.

But there is only one thought that has been lingering in my mind, I must completely break with Situ Lei!

Thinking about it this way, time passed surprisingly slowly. I don't know when, I heard a faint noise coming from the end of the corridor.

Disturbed in a daze by the sound, I regained my sense of reality, and instantly felt that the sound seemed unusually abrupt and even terrifying in the silent early morning.

I heard the sound of heavy objects falling to the ground, the low growl of the man as he exerted force, and the sound of the flesh hitting the wall.

I also heard a boy moaning in pain and depression. That boy's voice was very similar to Situ Lei.

I tiptoed towards the direction of the sound. On the way, I passed the policewoman who was going through the formalities for me just now. She asked me in surprise why I hadn’t left yet. I asked her what the people in the room at the end of the corridor were doing, how normal she was. But he replied in a calm tone: "A prisoner on trial."

I nodded dumbly, and continued to pace forward.

As he got closer, the sound became more and more terrifying. That painful moan and groan, shouldn't it be Situ Lei?

As if laughing at my self-consolation, a curse came from that room: "Fuck. Your mother!"

Who else could it be if it wasn't Situ Lei? !

It was he who had suppressed the pain and humiliation for too long, and finally broke out in resistance.

Immediately afterwards, another man shouted wantonly and angrily: "Hey you little bastard, you are so fucking stubborn, I can't beat you to death!"

Immediately after the sound, the induced vibration was transmitted directly to the soles of my feet and directly to my heart. I ran, rushed to the room and pushed the door open.

I saw Situ Lei lying on his side on the ground, his hands were handcuffed behind his back, the front of his white shirt was stained with blood, half of his face was also red with blood, and those eyes that refused to admit defeat were still staring fiercely. The man holding the electric baton in front of him is the policeman who searched him in the disco.

The man was disturbed by my breaking in, and Situ Lei looked at me in amazement. At that moment, the stubborn expression on his face turned into a heart-wrenching sadness and helplessness, as if saying: "Let's go, let's go!" Don't look!

But the policeman didn't give us any more time. He walked up to me with his lips curled up, closed the door cruelly, and continued to "interrogate" his prisoner.

"What are you doing here, hurry up!" At this moment, my mother came, and she dragged me out in a daze.

"No! Situ Lei..." I struggled to get rid of my mother, wanting to stay and figure out the matter. Why did the police treat him like this? Why didn't he dare to resist?

But my mother slapped me again, and she cried in front of me. I no longer had the courage to disobey my mother, and let my mother drag me out of the police station.

But the voice coming from that room was like a terrible nightmare, and an invisible monster was still wreaking havoc behind me, pulling every nerve of mine and tormenting all my senses.

04

Suddenly the frivolous and frivolous Situ Lei was missing, and the people around him were very awkward. The whole "Don't Fuck and Wait to Die" has become bleak and boring as if they had lost their spiritual support. It has been the third day, and Situ Lei is still on vacation.

Although I warned myself that he would show up sooner or later, I still didn't hold my breath. I found Ning Ning at the bar. She was having a great time drinking and chatting with a group of people. My presence obviously spoiled her interest.

"Why are you looking for him?" Ningning asked indifferently, but it didn't have the gunpowder smell I expected.

"I...want to see him." I responded timidly.

"Does he want you to see it? What's your relationship?" Ning Ning frowned slightly and smiled mockingly.

"Hmm..." She asked, and I almost woke up.

But she suddenly said Situ Lei's address: "53, Unit 603, No. [-], Danyang Road."

"Eh? Oh!" After I realized it, I took out my phone in a panic, "Please say it again, I will remember..."

Ning Ning looked at my nervous and clumsy performance, showing an expression of intolerance: "Do you think you are a little dragon girl?"

"Huh?" I looked up at her in surprise.

"This world is not the Ancient Tomb Sect, and he is not Yang Guo." Ning Ning looked at me with hatred in his eyes.

I smiled awkwardly: "You...what are you talking about, I don't understand."

Ning Ning looked me up and down again, as if she came to a conclusion after examining a commodity, and said: "Take childishness as cute, there are no Yang Guos in this world, but Zhen Zhibing does."

After finishing speaking, she drank the wine in the glass, and then stuffed something hard and prickly into my palm.

"Give it to him for me, you can keep it for yourself if you have the ability."

It turned out to be a bunch of keys. I nodded submissively, and suddenly felt that my IQ was not in the right state. What Ning Ning said was so profound, but I didn’t have the heart to speculate or be ashamed to ask, so I said thank you and prepared to leave.

After I walked away a few steps, I heard Ningning say again: "Fortunately, I'm not like you. I know what I want and how much he can give."

I knocked on the door several times, but no one answered.

I was thinking about how to make up a lie along the way, such as passing by by chance, or asking him to return the necklace he gave me a few days ago, in short, it is good not to let him know that I came to see him specially.

It seems that the thoughts are in vain, Situ Lei is not at home.

As soon as he turned around and was about to leave, the key Ning Ning gave made a crisp sound in his pocket, and then the little devil in his mind appeared again: while Situ Lei was not at home, go into his room and see what he would find.

As expected of Situ Lei, this room made him look like a pigsty.

Leftover biscuits, potato chips, and bowls of instant noodles were scattered on the table. The air smelled heavily of cigarettes and alcohol. I saw Situ Lei’s ID card thrown on the sofa. Line up to discover the bar.

I picked it up and looked at it. The clear and austere photo of the teenager will give people the illusion that he is a good boy. As expected, Situ Lei is written in the name column, and the date of birth is April 4. Isn’t it today!

The brat is 22 years old, isn't he celebrating his birthday with beauties?

Suddenly there was the sound of dragging footsteps from behind, and I turned to look.

Situ Lei was only wearing briefs, and just came out of the bedroom, bleary-eyed and yawning. The moment he saw me, he widened his eyes and his cheeks flushed instantly. I think I must have had the same expression as him.

I went into cry mode after one scream.

Situ Lei fled back to the bedroom in a panic, and while putting on his clothes, he stammered, "Who... who let you in, you... why are you crying? The one who suffers... the one who suffers is me!"

I didn't cry because I saw something I shouldn't have seen, but because of the large bruises on his body and the gauze wrapped around his head.

He put on the T-shirt and jeans and went back to the living room. Seeing that I was still sobbing, he said helplessly, "Miss, you are 22 years old, don't tell me this is the first time, okay? Even if it is, once Returning to life for the second time, can you take a closer look?"

"Fuck you, I... I am... Why did that policeman shoot so hard?"

Hearing my question, Situ Lei heaved a sigh of relief, and then showed a fierce expression.

"That bastard, it's been a long time since we reunited. These things on me are gifts from him. Just wait, I'll pay him back double sooner or later!"

After finishing speaking, his eyes narrowed for a moment, then he fiercely picked up the half-drunk Erguotou on the table and poured it into the mouth of the bottle.

I walked over to snatch the wine bottle in three steps and two steps, and shouted at him: "Stop drinking! Have you eaten? Your body is like this..."

"You care about me?" Situ Lei was about to play tricks again.

"I don't care about you, I'm not afraid of you being fierce!"

As I said that, I rolled up my sleeves and started to tidy up the clothes he threw everywhere.

"Situ Lei, I officially inform you that before you fully recover, I will be your old mother. I am no worse than you when I commit crimes. Do you have anything decent in the kitchen? I will cook for you right away." , what can you do to me? Oh, by the way, today is your birthday, right? Order you a cake..."

I was chattering and ignoring Situ Lei who had been standing calmly, but I felt that his eyes were different when he looked at me. What am I touched by?

But Situ Lei will always kill my affection for him at the very beginning.

He pulled me out of the kitchen and said like a plague god: "You go, this is not a place for a good woman like you to come."

"You haven't been a good woman since I've known you!"

It was a self-deprecating sentence, but he didn't know which nerve aroused Situ Lei, and he became nervously sensitive: "Hey, what do you mean, I didn't do anything to you!"

"I...I didn't mean that, I didn't mean anything, you...can't you let me care?"

"I don't need your concern, you should stay away from me..." Situ Lei seemed to have thought of something terrible and became timid.

"You want to 'never meet again' with me again?"

"No... er, almost, I... I can't afford it..." Situ Lei folded his arms subconsciously, his eyes frantically wandering.

What else would make him responsible for me and make him so afraid?I have long wanted to confirm my guess with him. How could such a matter of carrying prohibited drugs be settled so easily?

"Boy, you pleaded with the police that day, right?" I grabbed his wrist, but recklessly pinched his bruise.

"Ah, it hurts, it hurts..."

I hurriedly let go, Situ Lei turned sideways to prevent me from making another shot.

"You went to the policeman to intercede, you must have said, oh brother, it's the first time for that silly bitch, for the sake of our old friendship, you should spare her!" My tone of voice was sly, Like a shrew, "But you don't tell the truth, even if you were killed, you wouldn't say that Ning Ning did it, right?"

Speaking of this, I suddenly became jealous, and I couldn't hold back my temper: "The police won't be fooled by you like us stupid girls! You have been raped by him before, right? He must suspect that Is it your medicine? Who told you to have a criminal record, who told you to be so bad, cheating women and ruining yourself! He beat you like that, why didn't you sue him? You must have something in his hands!"

I must have spoken so fast and hard that I didn't notice when the tears started to flow.

And Situ Lei looked at me in surprise at first, as if he didn't believe that I would say such a thing, but he seemed to be particularly disgusted with my tears, and after seeing me crying, he became irritable.

"You can think whatever you want, in short, you go!"

"I won't leave! In order to protect your girlfriend, you didn't care about my life or death, and later your conscience found out, right? Let me tell you, I will expose Ningning now and let the police arrest her!"

Jealousy will make women lose their reason and conscience, but men don't know that it's just a temporary thing, and women will return to normal after a long time.

Situ stood up in tears and yelled at me: "You are not allowed to hurt Ningning!"

I was terrified, as if I had fallen into an ice hole and was completely cold. At this time, the bunch of keys in my pocket made another crisp sound.

"Do you like her so much?" Two lines of tears rolled down again, "She doesn't deserve..."

"You are not allowed to speak ill of her! You go!"

Situ Lei has never been so fierce to me, and his abnormality is because of another woman. I have completely lost my mind, and I want to take revenge on his obsession with other women!

"It was given to me by Ningning, she transferred you to me!" I took out the key from my pocket and threw it at Situ Lei heavily. The key hit his shoulder and fell to the ground.

Situ Lei looked down at the bunch of keys. After a long time without speaking, his arrogance slowly faded away. He raised his head and looked at me in a trance. His lips trembled for a long time before he spoke: "She, really Say it then?"

"I..." I had never seen Situ Lei so sad, he lost his mind and didn't know how to answer.

But Situ Lei's face suddenly twisted, he couldn't be crying, right? !

I watched his eyes turn red, and just about to say something comforting, he suddenly lost his temper. I knew he was regretting his weakness.

He turned his back on me and said loudly, "Go! You all go! I'm fine on my own, I don't need anyone! I... I'm a scumbag, an embroidered pillow, and I've got nothing but this skin no!"

"What are you talking about, no one thinks that way!"

Situ Lei turned around, rushed to my side, and yelled like crazy: "That's what Ning Ning thinks! She aborted our child a week ago!" A tear finally flowed from his eyes.

I finally understood why Situ Lei wanted to protect Ning Ning, and I finally understood why Ning Ning broke up with Situ Lei. I knew he hated my tears, but I couldn't help it.

"You...don't be like this..."

And Situ Lei stubbornly wiped away the tear, and then forced a smirk, pretending to be obscene.

"Little girl, today I will let you know who I am, Situ Lei. You are right, I have been in prison, not only have I been in prison, but so has my father, he..."

Having said that, his face contorted again.

"He's...he's still in prison now. My mother didn't want me when I was three years old." He approached as he spoke, and I backed away subconsciously.

"From small to large, I can only rely on myself for everything. Do you think I look good? Huh? This pair of skins grew out of fighting dogs for food in the garbage dump! No one likes me, no one cares about me, if I One day I will be disfigured, and you will all leave me!"

"no no!"

"No? Are you pretending to be holy here? What do you want? Ah?" Situ Lei suddenly took off his T-shirt, and then grabbed my wrist tightly with his right hand, "Aren't you going? Are you still going? Then I will When you acquiesce!"

After finishing speaking, he pinched my chin, and his lips reached for mine. I struggled to break free, then slapped him hard, and pushed him again. The two kept a safe distance, each gasping for breath .

"Situ Lei, believe it or not, I sincerely regard you as a friend. If I am what you think, then I should be the one who undressed just now! You belittle me and yourself so much, you will regret it, I curse You will never find someone who treats you as well as I do! Goodbye! Never again!"

I ran out crying, thinking that this is enough, I will never cry for him again, I must leave him completely, or something worse will happen, because I realized that until this moment, I None really hated him.

When I stood in the elevator in a daze, the moment the elevator door was about to close, Situ Lei suddenly ran over and opened the elevator door.

He stood in front of me shirtless, staring at his red eyes, and his chest was heaving. I was scared by him and backed away until I hit the back wall. He suddenly kissed my lips, like a wild beast biting its prey. , my fear was like being attacked by a wild animal, and I felt like my life was hanging by a thread.

I don't quite remember how I was carried into the room by Situ Lei and pushed to the bed, and I don't quite remember whether I resisted more or succumbed more. The pain inflicted, and, his tears.

——"I am Situ Lei, I am short of tears in five elements, because I never cry."

This is my most memorable teenage voice.

Bowl……

05

201X年4月30日下午2：36，我心情很乱，不知道该怎么办。

The most urgent thing is to leave as soon as possible while Situ Lei is asleep, because I am afraid of hearing the first words he said to me after waking up, because I know that no matter what he says, he will never say "I will be with you forever".

But I was being affectionate again, Situ Lei didn't want to talk to me at all.

He deliberately avoided me and refused to answer my phone calls. I went to "Don't Fuck Me to Die" to find him, but was told that he had taken a long vacation.

[This is my first time! ]

[I want to sue you for rape! ]

[You ruined my life! ],

[Ningning is right, you are trash!Scum!Not as good as pigs and dogs! ]

[go to hell!So many people die, why don't you die?It's useless for you to live! ]

…………

No matter how vicious or desperate the messages I sent him, he never replied.

But there is something I must discuss with him.

[Situ Lei, if you don't see me again, I will jump off the building, I will do what I say! ]

He finally replied and we made an appointment to meet at a coffee shop.

I tried my best to keep calm, and walked towards the seat where Situ Lei was sitting. He looked a little tired, but he looked at me with obvious disgust, even hostility.

I sat opposite him and subconsciously covered my stomach with my hands.

He was silent, smiling slyly like a cheetah playing with its prey, and I couldn't speak, tears just took advantage of the void.

"Please!" He patted his forehead exaggeratedly, with a look of helplessness on his face.

"I'm very busy, so be straightforward. I have no money, and I'm not interested in getting married. If you insist on making me responsible, then sue me. I'm not afraid of going to jail." my eyes.

"Am I so low in your eyes?!" I couldn't care less about face, so I yelled in the quiet coffee shop, causing the people around me to stare and discuss.

Situ Lei looked left and right in embarrassment, then leaned forward, lowered his voice, and said unbearably, "What exactly do you want?"

"I...I don't know..." I choked up repeatedly, lowered my head, and looked at my stomach.

"You... Hey, what a trouble, you... If only you were like Ningning!"

I suddenly raised my head, his words completely shattered all my extravagant expectations for him, and the ties with him over the past few years are vivid in my memory, who else can I blame besides regretting my stupidity and madness?

"Okay, I understand, I will learn from Ningning."

I finished this sentence in a very calm tone, then took out the hospital test form from my bag and put it in front of him.

At that moment, I saw him turn pale with fright, his eyes wandering helplessly.

He moved his gaze over, but immediately slipped away when he came into contact with my sight. He was trembling, and he stretched his right hand forward several times, but he never dared to touch the thin paper.

I spilled coffee on him and got up to leave.

Lying alone on the operating table, waiting to kill the life that clings to her, what could be more hopeless than this?

[Situ Lei, I killed my child, and you killed me. ]

This is the last text message I sent him.

He didn't reply.

***

Fortunately, I will be graduating in more than two months. I wear loose clothes that don't show my waist, and I carefully hide it from everyone.

I didn't look for a job because it was impossible to find a job because of the way I looked.

During that period, I had a very hard time, and my parents were also involved.

Although they scolded me hoarsely on the phone, they showed up in the small bungalow I rented three days later.They cut off contact with relatives and friends because of my background away from home.

Mom said, it’s okay, just give birth if you want, if you can find a reliable and magnanimous man in the future, of course it would be the best, if you can’t get married again, there will be me and your dad.

I gave birth to a daughter, but I regret it because she looks so much like Situ Lei.

My life was a mess in those years, and I don't know how many times I would have died without my parents.

My little daughter has also suffered a lot of grievances with me. If this is my punishment, why is it not imposed on me alone?

And the greatest punishment God gave me was to make me never forget Situ Lei.

Although my feelings for him have turned into pure hatred, I am destined not to get rid of him. My daughter looks so much like him, how can I get rid of him?

But what about Situ Lei?Was there any punishment for him?

Fortunately, when my daughter was three years old, I met Cheng Ming. He was the reliable and magnanimous man my mother said.

He is ten years older than me. His wife died in a car accident a year ago, leaving behind a 12-year-old son who is honest and a taxi driver.

I am very content. I moved from a leaky bungalow to a residential building. I have support, and my daughter has a father and an elder brother.

I thought it would be good to live like this, but this has become a luxury.

My daughter has always been in poor health and is thinner than children of the same age. This is all my fault. No matter how busy or tired I am, I should not neglect my child’s health. I have never discovered the congenital dysfunction of my child’s liver until she was seven years old. Suddenly fainted on the school playground.

Only then did I know that Situ Lei's blood type is a rare Rh-negative blood, because the child inherited his blood type.There is only one way to heal my daughter, which is liver transplantation, but the matching has become a big problem.

During that time, I suffered from insomnia for several days and nights, and my newly recovered enthusiasm for life was ruthlessly deprived in this way, and in a cruel way that might lose my daughter, I was thrown into the bottomless abyss of despair.

The hatred for Situ Lei, which had been diluted by time, was reactivated and expanded until it filled my whole body and mind.

But fate really knows how to joke, and the source of all my doom and despair, the bastard I hate to the bone, has become my only hope.

Although I knew that Situ Lei would not take the initiative to find me, I still changed my mobile phone number eight years ago. In fact, I did this only to completely abandon his mobile phone number.

But now I can only laugh at my futility, because even after so many years, as long as I calm down and recall, Situ Lei's numbers flashed in my mind like ghosts.

Situ Lei, the poison that penetrates into the bone marrow?

I dialed the phone, and during the ten seconds I was waiting, I had only one thought, if he still didn't answer, or if he had changed the number, I would hire a killer to kill him.

"Hi, I'm..."

"Yuan Zhen?"

"..."

"Yuan Zhen!"

Is the signal unstable?He called my name through the receiver, the first time he called my name seriously, he trembled badly.

"Yes, it's me." But my voice is very steady, my voice must be steady and indifferent, because this is the only way for me to defend my dignity.

"You... how are you doing? You're in Beijing, right?"

"Well, I'm doing...well, I'm married, have a son, and...a daughter."

"……Oh."

"My daughter is sick."

"……Oh."

Oh your size, I'm talking about my daughter being sick!

"I need your help."

"……Oh."

It was still a half-dead voice, and I wondered if he had just finished taking the medicine.

"My daughter needs a liver transplant."

"So serious?!" His voice finally became a little angry.

"Well, I want you to do a match, because, genetically, you are her father."

I admire myself very much, the tone of saying this sentence is calmer than my previous practice hundreds of times.But the receiver was also very calm. After nearly a minute of torment, he hung up the phone.

"Grass", I cursed, then laughed at myself.

I, Yuan Zhen, am not a strong person, but I will not be depressed and give up easily, not to mention that what I have to give up is my daughter who is more important than life.

I posted a post on the Internet, hoping to find a caring person with a suitable match. Whenever I was free, I would carry a big sign, hold a photo of my daughter in my hand, and stand in the most crowded place on the street, asking passers-by for help.

In the middle of the night when I was exhausted and still had nothing to gain, I couldn’t help but think, is it possible that God wants to sever all the ties between me and Situ Lei by taking away my daughter?

As soon as such thoughts appeared, I slapped myself hard.

06

In a blink of an eye, it will be April, and if you don't pay attention, April will bottom out.

My daughter was born on February NO.15. In fact, April NO.30 is my daughter's real birthday.

Back then, my heart for Situ Lei was so clean and simple, that's why I was so clear about the moment of my daughter's birth.

But now, this cleanliness and simplicity, I just want to curse.

This year's April NO.30, the weather is surprisingly good, and my daughter's mood should be better, right?

After taking medicine and infusions for more than a month, my daughter was tortured until she was haggard and depressed. I don't know if Situ Lei, seeing her, would feel the same pain as me.

I walked into the ward where six children lived, and walked to the innermost bed by the window. My daughter was sleeping, and her face looked fine.

I kissed my daughter's forehead, looked around inadvertently, and saw him standing by the door.

The eyes I met with him turned into a time tunnel in the air, which brought me into that warm afternoon 14 years ago, when the 16-year-old he was timidly leaning against the door, looking at the skinny 16-year-old me.

Only then did I really understand what it means to cry without tears.

I have imagined countless versions of seeing Situ Lei again, weeping, crying, fisting and kicking, and the final ending is a bloody knife.

But when that moment really came, I was as calm as an outsider.

I subconsciously straightened my hair, squeezed out a wry smile, and said to him, "Come on?"

Situ Lei also smiled bitterly, and he nodded slightly.Then I saw that he was carrying a cake box and a bouquet of roses in his hand.

"How did you find it here?"

"I... read your post on the Internet. There is a photo on it, which was taken at the entrance of the hospital. I was waiting at the entrance, and I happened to see you, so I followed in."

Situ Lei dodged my astonished gaze, then took a tentative step forward, staring at me with a begging look in his eyes.

"Come in, take it easy, my daughter is sleeping."

Situ Lei smiled gratifiedly, walked to her daughter's bed in a few strides, put the cake and flowers on the bedside table, and stared at her daughter intently as if staring at a priceless treasure.

Is this the 30-year-old Situ Lei?His appearance has hardly changed, but there is more maturity and vicissitudes between the brows. He holds his daughter's right hand with trembling hands, and gently rubs it in the palm of his hand.

I saw his Adam's apple slide several times, and I even heard him choking repeatedly, but he suddenly smiled, looked at me, and asked, "What's her name?"

"Cheng Ailei, does it sound good?"

"It sounds good!" The answer was almost a conditioned reflex, but after a few seconds, Situ Lei froze and looked at me in surprise.

I saw his eye sockets slowly turning red, his lips trembling slightly, then he turned around abruptly and coughed a few times.

He must have thought of it. Before I met Cheng Ming, my daughter followed my surname. His real name was Situ Lei, Yuan Ailei, Yuan Ailei.

Should I forgive him for his immaturity, or should I reflect on my own mind?

"Why do you buy cakes?" I pretended to be nonchalant.

"Oh, yes," Situ Lei understood my intentions, he turned his head and tried to release the baseness of the year, "Today is... the little girl's birthday!"

April 4th is Situ Lei's birthday, and it's also the day when he and I have a daughter.

"You...shameless!" I was a little shy, and lightly tapped his shoulder.

I looked at Situ Lei's relieved smile and thought to myself that he must have thought that I had forgiven him again.

I'm not forgiving, but trying to change the atmosphere of the conversation, because I'm really not used to such depressed Situ tears.

I also don't want him to appear to prove our changes, the cruelty of the years and the flight of youth.

Maybe it's because my vengeful psychology is still ready to move, I suddenly said something disappointing: "Let's pretend we don't know each other."

Situ Lei's smile froze on his face.

"……it is good."

I smiled wryly, didn't you even listen to my reason?Do you think I am stingy?

"I've been telling Xiaolei that her biological father is dead, and that's what I told Cheng Ming, so..."

"I understand, I understand..." Situ Lei seemed to be afraid that I would continue talking, he was a little flustered, he glanced at his daughter, and then regained his composure.

"I'd better go for an examination first!" After finishing speaking, he walked out of the ward as if fleeing.

The nurse had just drawn Situ Lei's blood, but he sluggishly followed behind me as if all his strength had been taken away.We just kept silent, walking slowly in the corridor of the hospital.

But my vengeful heart still refused to give up.

"Xiao Lei needs a large area of ​​transplantation. If it matches, it will be really hard for you." My politeness is obviously deliberate and contrived.

As expected, Situ Lei was so ashamed that he blushed, he smiled awkwardly, and did not speak.

After being silent for a while, he suddenly asked me, "You must be very tired these past few years, right?"

More than tired, life is worse than death!

Thinking like this, but pretending to be indifferent.

"Hey, it's worth being tired, for..." I immediately fell silent, almost saying "for our daughter".

But Situ Lei seemed to have heard my heart, he ignored my slight panic, but whispered to himself: "I don't deserve..."

At this moment, a nurse ran over, and when she saw me, she had a thankful expression: "Oh, sister Zhen, go and have a look, Xiaolei woke up and couldn't see you, she cried so sadly!"

I ran into the ward, ran to my daughter, and held her thin body in my arms. She kept crying, "Bad mother, I hurt, I hurt...", my heart seemed to be tightly clenched by invisible hands ,