paradox

Even though the night is very cold, I feel hot and dry. Every time she cries, it will affect my mood. The light in the room is very dark, but under the moonlight, she is so dazzling that I can't take my eyes off her face.

When I was in college, I was clear about my feelings, and I also knew that she liked me. I was waiting for her answer until I graduated four years later, and we went our separate ways.

After leaving her, loneliness almost engulfed me. In order to escape this disgusting feeling, I started working day and night, determined to become a successful person in the eyes of others, and let her know that I gave up because of her cowardice. A big fish ran away.

But my clumsy idea is self-defeating, and the relationship between us is getting further and further apart.I never thought that she would be afraid, afraid of my current status, obviously before, she always rushed forward without fear of anything, regardless of the consequences.

After graduation, I joined the work and she continued to study in graduate school. Although I was very busy every day in the early stage of work, every time I went home and was in an empty room, I would think about whether to give up and think about her.When I achieved a little success, I finally had the courage to invite her to a dinner party, but the sense of alienation in her eyes was so strange.

"Every time I witness death, it hurts unstoppably. Did the system ignore this bug?" She leaned on my shoulder like a child, and we have been avoiding this topic since the tragedy happened this morning. During the period, Lin Yuxin called several times to confirm the news of the death of the uncle and aunt, but the miracle did not happen.

Reporter Lin's tone was very aggressive mixed with the sound of gasping, and there was a small sob next to her. It should be Tong Ying. Now she only has her sister as a relative, but Tong Tong still has her own tasks to complete.

She asked me to hand over my mobile phone to Tong Tong, but I refused, and now I can't let her be shaken, but Tong Tong still received a call from Tong Ying.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..." She knelt down in the room and kept apologizing, her voice was covered by sobbing and she couldn't hear the content clearly.

At that time, I just hid behind the door and didn't go in, because I knew that the last person she wanted to see was me.She always hides her embarrassment in the deepest part, and always shows me the most glamorous side, if it's just being cute.

"I'm afraid this is its only kindness? If there is no heartache, what is the difference between us and death?" I comforted, and that's all I can say. Without feelings and memories, what are we left with?

"I'm starting to get scared," she said.

I rubbed her head and asked, "What are you afraid of?"

"I'm afraid I'll forget you, forget all this..." Her voice began to tremble, and the tears hit the back of my hand, which was scorching and painful.

Isn't this what I'm afraid of?Waking up from dreams again and again, returning to unfamiliar but extremely familiar environments again and again, but it seems that I have lost something extremely precious in my heart, and I have been searching for it to no avail.

In the dream we hugged each other tightly, but when we woke up from the dream, we became two people again. I am the high-ranking manager in your eyes, and you are just a little accountant who has struggled for several years and achieved nothing.

You will still be jealous because of Han Lin's care for me, but you dare not intervene between us, and even match us up with a sour taste.I'm also afraid, afraid of losing you, afraid of your invisibility, afraid that you won't even give me a moment's touch.

"Am I a coward?"

I shook my head desperately, and helped her wipe off the scorching liquid on her face, but that was just a drop in the bucket, "No, no!"

Chu Mo would not exist without you.I leaned close to her and whispered in her ear: "Meeting you is the luckiest thing in my life."

She raised her head, tears still remained on her cheeks, which was particularly moving against the backdrop of the moonlight.She was also like that that day. Behind Ah Chang and Shi Zhan, she also asked me for help with this expression, with teary eyes, like a bullied animal.

I held her face like a treasure, and kissed away the tears, sweet or bitter, maybe both?

The touch of her skin made me want to stop, and slowly moved down to the corner of her lips, hesitating whether to make the next move.The answer has already been determined, I rubbed her lips to taste it, but what I didn't expect was that Tongtong gently hooked my neck and responded slowly, the intertwined breath made me feel very satisfied.

I've been looking forward to this moment since I met Tong Ying at school, I've been waiting, the moment she kissed me proactively, I was thinking, is it time already?Has my waiting finally paid off?

I kissed her little by little, and watched her expression while proceeding to the next move. The hot panting and whistling lingered in my mouth frantically tore my nerves, and with a push with my right hand, the two of us moved at the same time. He fell on the bed.

The bed board was very hard, and it would definitely hurt to lie on it directly, but she said it was fine, but the expression on her face did not mean that.

She said a few more words, but I didn't care about the content, my eyes fell on the naked/exposed skin and refused to leave.

Even so, I still asked, "Can the body take it?"

I have been observing her reaction since just now, she is a very forbearing person and always hides her feelings well, but I don't want her to have any discomfort.But this time, even if the answer is no, I can't help it.

She didn't answer, just gave me a sweet kiss, and that was enough.

I propped myself up on my elbows and got close to her. The pajamas were so thin that they could be opened with a light pull. Through the moonlight, I could see her whole body more clearly. Although she was so tall, she had so little flesh. Breathing, I can occasionally see the ribs hidden under the fair skin, and there is no fat around the waist. It is the figure that every woman can't reach, but the chest is not big.

She also followed the movement and untied my shoulder straps, and then just stood there in a daze, with a dazed expression that was endearing.

Just in case, I still covered her eyes. According to the last memory, if I can't see me, this rejection will be much smaller.I don't want to leave her with bad memories, not at all.

Close to the neck, I suck gently, with the unique heat of summer and the fragrance of grass, her skin is also ignited by the temperature, down again, staying on top of that warmth, every reaction of her gave me Great encouragement. "Does your back still hurt?"

I suddenly had a bad idea, and before she could answer, I raised my shoulders and asked her to turn her back to me.It's too inconvenient to have one hand, so I can serve her well... This word seems too ambiguous.

I said it didn't hurt, my back was swollen, but my fingertips slid along the edge, but it caused her to ripple. The hot feeling in my heart led me to shorten the distance between the two again.I could feel the heat and humidity beneath her, and I was already muddy, readying myself to touch the softest part of her.

I have to go to the tomb tomorrow, and the waterway requires a lot of energy. I didn't dare to really own her, just seeing her satisfied sleeping face is enough.

At the same time, I also secretly made up my mind to tell the truth about everything I know. Concealing each other will only reduce efficiency.

I don’t know how long I’ve been asleep, and I no longer have the desire to rest. I lightly removed my head from her shoulders and sat by the window. The scene from yesterday was still circling in his mind, and Tongtong raised his hand slightly, showing signs of waking up.

Sure enough, she closed her eyes and felt around the bed, and sat up suddenly when she found no one, just in time to bump into me.

I asked her what she wanted to do for the next period of time.

"Just awake like this, always with you." She said.

"After weaving it so beautifully, it still needs to be unraveled." I held the hand that was still messing with my hair, but she didn't care.

"I'm going to dress you up beautifully and tie you next to me." She chuckled, but fell silent after a while. "Sorry~"

An inexplicable word eye.

"I should give you something better." Her tone was low, as if she was lost. "Instead of using you to fill my vacancy and become a comfort for all my failures."

This fool is complaining again. If she is using me to cover up her trauma, how about I not using her?

"I don't mind if you use me or not, I love you." I raised her hand and promised, "I've been using you too, you know? Since the day we met, I've been using you, longing for your warmth , I don’t want you to slip away from me.”

"Actually, we are all keeping each other warm. How many people are taking advantage of each other? Don't despise yourself for this reason, okay?"

Although she didn't answer directly, she nodded.

"Then I'm going to tell you something." I took a light breath and let it out slowly.

She just stood there waiting for my next words.

"I approached Su Mohan privately while you were working. At that time, I didn't know her identity and the relationship between the two of you in private." I never told her about this, "Although Su Mohan warned me that you are She hid it all to protect me, but at my insistence she confessed."

"You already knew everything?" She was really dull, which was one of my guesses.

"Well~ I also want to understand you and protect you." I took her hand and told her to sit down, "Since I know there are people like administrators, I have a guess, can I do the opposite? , I also mentioned it to Su Mohan, but she was just perfunctory."

"You want to use the administrator to solve the mystery of the tomb?" She immediately became energetic when talking about the business, and the light in her eyes could not be hidden.

I raised my fingers and made a gesture of silence. She shut up immediately after understanding, and listened to me quietly, "This is also our guess. Since the administrator can change the memory, it is not impossible to read the memory. But she Only my memory can be read, not my thoughts."

She nodded to accept this conjecture, and I continued, "Since the administrators deserve this title, they must have their own abilities. We are powerless and don't even understand the rules. In this case, why not let them help us?"

"It's too risky! If you take one wrong step, you will fall short, and even your last memory will disappear." She looked nervous.

"It is inevitable to take risks if you want to get paid." I comforted, "Although I don't know who they are, I can be sure that they are already among us. From now on, don't trust anyone. Everything depends on your own judgment. ?"

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Hehehe, the last chapter was not locked.