Healing Vest Essence

Before the assistant of Oda Sakuyuki cleared up his true inner thoughts, Honmaru's Token Fusangshen was afraid of touching the sad things of his own god-judgment and damaging the self-esteem of the red-haired young man, so he talked about another topic very naturally Go up, so as to divert [Oda Sakunosuke]'s attention, so that he won't be entangled in the word "killer" all the time.

"Is the master's marksmanship very powerful? Compared with Mr. Mutsu Mori? I really want to see it!"

Long orange-blond hair was loosely gathered into a ponytail and hung behind him. Ranto Shiro, who was wearing a casual inner suit, blinked his blue eyes, and looked at the red-haired god-inspector with admiration and anticipation.

As soon as the short-sword boy with a delicate and considerate personality opened his mouth, he received a positive response from all the blades. Among them was Mutsu Mori Yoshiyuki who had been thinking about discussing fire/guns with the judge.

You must know that Mutsu Mori Yoshiyuki is a swordsman, but he especially admires fire/guns, not himself who are cold weapons and swords. Among a group of swordsmen, how rebellious are they.

"I also really want to know who will win and who will lose compared to my master," Mutsu Mori Yoshiyuki smiled, showing his canine teeth, looking full of energy, "Let's have a match, master!"

[Oda Sakunosuke] pondered for a while, then nodded in agreement.

So, at the suggestion of Awataguchi's short knife and the wish of the red-haired judge, a group of people came to Tegaza.

The hand field is usually used as a place for Token Fusangshen to practice swordsmanship, but there has never been a competition for the accuracy of marksmanship. Several adult Token Fusangshen removed the wooden sword rack on one side and replaced it with wooden targets. Let the red-haired youth compete with Mutsu Moriyoshi in marksmanship.

"Bang bang bang!" After several gunshots, Mutsu Mori Yoshiyuki completed his marksmanship demonstration.

[Oda Sakunosuke] He didn't bring a gun when he came to Honmaru, so he waited until the black hair Fusangshen fired ten shots excitedly, then took over Mutsu Mori Yoshiyuki's revolver/gun, ready to compete.

However, the accident happened when [Oda Sakunosuke] took the pistol/gun and raised his hands to aim at the target.

For some reason, at the moment when the red-haired judge was about to shoot the bullet, the young man's hands suddenly trembled, and he couldn't even hold the gun steadily. It can be said that compared to this era, the worn-out pistols/guns that have fallen far behind have fallen to the ground.

Hasebe, who noticed something was wrong with the chef's knife, just shouted "Are you all right, master", when he was startled by the scene in front of him.

[Oda Sakunosuke]'s face turned pale in an instant, cold sweat kept falling from his forehead, and wet his collar, and his bright red hair suddenly withered, as if the grayscale value had been adjusted.

The red-haired judge's blue eyes were as blue as the vast sea, and his bright and energetic eyes turned gray. He was short of breath, and clutched the front of his chest tightly, the bone-piercing pain struck again.The body seems to have returned to the moment when he was shot through the chest by ruthless bullets after the battle with MIMIC and Gide, lost too much blood and was on the verge of death, losing temperature.

No, it's not just that...

[Oda Sakunosuke] also had other hallucinations.

A pungent smell of gunpowder/fireworks/drug suddenly poured into the nasal cavity, as well as the burnt smell brought by the burning of the burning things after the explosion/explosion. It was also buzzing, as if [Oda Sakunosuke] himself was at the scene of an explosion/explosion.

During the period, there was a man's hoarse cry.

Because in the hallucination, this voice was carried by the hot wind, it was a little far away, and the voice was so weak that for a while [Oda Sakunosuke] couldn't hear what the person was shouting clearly.

It wasn't until the sound gradually amplified and became clear from far to near that Yazawa Haruto realized that the voice was very familiar to him: it belonged to Oda Sakunosuke's voice, but at this moment, it sounded extremely hoarse, as if he had exhausted his whole body. Strength is calling.

——"Run away!!"

——"Xingsuke, Katsumi, Yu, Shinji, Sakura..."

——"No ah ah ah ah!!"

I think this is a rare gaffe of Oda Sakunosuke in his life, a rare breakdown like this. This man who used to be calm and straightforward, when he saw the bus surrounded by flames, the car body tilted and the windows all shattered and fell to the ground, the corners of his eyes froze. Cracking, eyes red.

Shocked, unbelievable, flustered, helpless to save the pain and despair of the children.

Yazawa Haruto saw this scene personally in his mind, only to realize later that the throat of this body was terribly dry and painful, as if he would lose his voice in the next second.

It was only at this time that Yazawa Haruto truly felt that this was the body of Sakunosuke Oda, not the vest that he used in the past, fabricated by the world consciousness and the system.

Because the above, including the pain in the heart and throat, are all hallucinations, coming from the grief scars carved into the bones of this body.

Yazawa Haruto quickly judged that Oda Sakunosuke had a psychological disease that affected his physical response.

Oda Sakunosuke is most likely suffering from post-traumatic stress disorder, PTSD.

The Token Fusangshen who were waiting for the god judge to show off their demeanor, never expected this to happen. Seeing [Oda Sakunosuke]'s skillful and crisp movements and the chilling aura around him, they knew clearly that their new lord He wasn't lying, he was a killer, most likely with a reputation.

But how could a powerful killer suddenly become like this while shooting a target?

Honmaru's Token Fusangshin didn't have time to think deeply about the reason - just after a rough thought, they felt that this unknown reason was mixed with too much darkness and bitterness, and after careful study, the result they got might be unacceptable and unbelievable, even more so. What's more, the most urgent task is to appease the judge as soon as possible.

Yaken Toshiro, who is well versed in medicine and has dabbled in some common sense of psychology, guessed this more or less like Yazawa Haruto.

However, before they took any practical measures, the red-haired god judge adjusted himself.

"I'm fine, I'm sorry I can't compete with the marksmanship." [Oda Sakunosuke] frowned, his expression was as usual, if his pale face was ignored, these words were somewhat convincing.

Token Fusangshin naturally didn't believe [Oda Sakunosuke]'s wording, but they were too embarrassed to expose the master.

Yaken Fujishiro hesitated for a while, and said carefully to the red-haired young man: "Master, it is better not to touch the gun in a short time, if there is anything, I hope you can tell us, we will solve your worries of."

[Oda Sakunosuke] nodded to the black-haired boy and said, "I understand."

The red-haired young man refused to follow other Token Fusangshen, and walked to a quiet corner alone, staring at the few blooming flowers in the flower bed in a daze.

Oda Sakunosuke has been silent since just now. He knew that the 14-year-old himself must be full of doubts and would come to him to ask questions. Unreasonable and expected, the young Oda Sakuno spoke to him directly. The first sentence is:

"You can't hold a gun anymore."

With a calm and firm tone, Oda Sakunosuke was stunned for a moment, and affirmed his words: "Yes."

Oda Sakunosuke's PTSD was severe.

Obviously [Oda Sakunosuke] is the person who manages the body now, and he has not suffered a major blow like Oda Sakunosuke, but this body still has a stressful physiological reaction caused by the spirit.

This proves that the intense negative emotions of Oda Sakunosuke have been able to infiltrate [Oda Sakunosuke], making this young man who is still in the killer period unable to get rid of his psychological shadow belonging to the 23-year-old in this mood. Pick up the gun again.

Oda Sakunosuke came to a visitor unexpectedly when he was physically ill, and when the visitor obtained temporary management rights, he did not explain his current situation to his 14-year-old counterpart in detail, but he roughly explained the fact that he died at the age of 23 , did not mention the incidents related to the five adopted children.

Oda Sakunosuke thought that the young Oda Saku would ask. He obviously forgot how gentle and considerate he is, and he has been like this since he was young.

"This way...then we can't accept tasks to make money, we have to find other ways." The boy's peaceful and natural voice appeared in his mind, and he said to Oda Sakunosuke.

The voice that made him hesitate resurfaced again.

Want to be a novelist.

Oda Sakunosuke knew it, although he tried his best not to think about it, and pretended to be resurrected from the dead, everything in the past disappeared, and the sting in his heart was no longer there.

But the hideous wound on his heart is still bleeding, and the intense pain that spreads quickly once touched is still reminding him, you can't forget it.

Oda Sakunosuke's post-traumatic stress disorder is proof of that.

After witnessing the deaths of five children and actually dying once himself, his thoughts and memories could not help replaying those clips repeatedly. The severe reaction to the situation and the resistance mechanism made him unable to even pick up the gun, his former partner.

The death of the five children and the death of the uncle in the curry shop were not just the departure of relatives and friends, but also trampled on Oda Sakunosuke's long-standing belief in "don't kill" and crushed his pride.

That bearded man—Oda Sakunosuke was sure that he was Natsume Soishi.He told Oda Sakunosuke that he has the qualifications to write and describe human beings.

That kind, caring, knowledgeable gentleman is actually guiding him to another bright path, and the deeply touched Oda Sakunosuke believes that only by being pure enough and not killing people can he walk on that path .That is his creed, although it is unavoidably biased and extreme, but if there are no accidents, he can indeed become a novelist.

But in PortMafia, in Yokohama, he even got to know two good friends, Ango Sakaguchi and Osamu Dazai, so he was destined to be seen by the superiors and become a pawn sacrificed in the overall situation.

It was his "not killing" that made Gide kill the children and the boss in order to provoke him and obtain eternal sleep.

At that moment, the soul was crushed, bitten, and distorted irreversibly.

Assuming that he is still a killer, and uses a gun to kill the enemy without saying a word and protect himself, then will the children not leave him?

How ridiculous that the belief in wanting to have a good life had the exact opposite to destroy his life.

The extremely low desire to survive before Oda Sakunosuke was the result of the collapse of faith.

However, this can no longer be the case.

Oda Sakunosuke has new responsibilities, his Honmaru and his 14-year-old counterpart.

Honmaru's Token Fusangshen believes that he is the protagonist, so he must be responsible to the end and try his best to solve the financial difficulties; and the young Oda Saku has not yet left his identity as a killer, let alone met the children and his two friends, if he can Returning to my own time and space, will it be possible to change these tragedies and seek a happy ending?

Oda Sakunosuke has always been a transparent person.

The earth does not revolve around a person, time does not stop because of a person's tragic fate, history continues.

The time of the dead is always fixed at the moment that the living is unwilling to recall, and even if the living wants to stop, they will be swept away by time forcibly.

If it doesn't work tomorrow, then the day after tomorrow; if it doesn't work the day after tomorrow, the living will always understand in their blurred memory that separation is fate, and those who survive should go with the beautiful wishes of the dead. farther.

Oda Sakunosuke can't give up on himself, and can't give up his ideals.His ideal is not the bubble of a mermaid, let alone be destroyed again. The love and pursuit of words have already penetrated into his soul.

What's more, Xingsuke and the others have been looking forward to the novel written by Oda Saku...

Oda Sakunosuke seemed to hear the noise and discussion of the children in that crowded hut again.

——"Saku Oda will succeed in writing novels!"

——"Odasaku became a mafia/party to collect material."

——"Hahahaha, when the time comes, I will ask for a few more autographs of Oda Saku, and then sell them. This is the autograph of a well-known novelist!"

……

Oda Sakunosuke was full of great strength in his heart, and he said to the young Oda Sakuno with anticipation:

"Let's write a novel together."

I want to write novels in a hut by the sea and watch the children grow up and understand.

"I want to write novels in Honmaru. Whether it's making money or ideals, I want to realize them. Protect them and fulfill my lord's responsibility."