After being scumbag by my roommate brother

"First love..." Yun Xizhou read these words softly, pondered for a while and said, "You didn't like me at the time, and I was at most the first person to have sex with you. You are already at this age, the person you have liked before It should be quite a lot. Before Zhang Yuelin, before you started with me, you pretended to be a lot of people in your heart, so I don’t understand, apart from your non-human speech like “to fulfill my liking”, what would there be? The reason why you got together with your brother's roommate when you don't like me?"

"I--"

Xiao Wenyan was about to speak when Yun Xizhou interrupted him suddenly with a smile: "I'll answer for you. You see, I'm honest and easy to deceive. I think I should be clean if I have no experience. Don't worry about getting sick, and don't be afraid that I will cling to you from now on. No, you have calculated all this before deciding to accept my care and overtures, right?"

Xiao Wenyan frowned, and hurriedly said: "That's not the case. You are as old as Xiao Ye. In my eyes, you should take good care of my younger brother from the very beginning. When I set my sights on you and sense your intentions, I will also take care of you." I have hesitated, feared, and weighed in my heart whether I can touch you—”

"Finally you decide to try me, even though you don't like me that much, but at least I am young, you don't like my temperament, and you can't see my expertise and strengths, when you see the beautiful and dazzling Zhang Yuelin, you recognize me again Pursue your own taste," Yun Xizhou looked at him calmly, "From that moment on, my feelings, care, dependence and accommodation for you have all become your burden. You feel bored when you see me, I like A piece of brown candy that can't be shaken off, when I found out your love for Zhang Yuelin, you were so relieved, I can finally get out of your eyes, and you ended a period that you didn't want to continue at all without any effort You don’t have to bear any consequences. Xiao Wenyan, from the beginning to the end, except that you were a little new to me at the beginning, after our first relationship, your attitude changed. You thought I was stupid, didn’t I found out that I had already noticed it a long time ago, but I just couldn't bear to leave you, so I compromised. I didn't feel so cruel until the fact that you liked Zhang Yuelin was thrown in my face. I know exactly what kind of person you are , Change does not happen overnight. I don’t believe that you will stop being selfish and stick to it. Maybe tomorrow you will look at someone else and abandon me again. I will not place any hopes and expectations on you, and I will not expect How long can your current enthusiasm last, what I think now is, if you must start again with me, yes, but even if we are together, it is impossible for me to fall in love with you again. Shoot the relationship between the two."

Seeing the irrefutable expression on Xiao Wenyan's face, Yun Xizhou smiled inwardly, and continued, "I can say that I am your first love. I can see that you really want to deceive me again. You If you really want to start that much, let's start like this, without interfering with each other, so we can get together and get together. It happens that I need inspiration to draw, and you should lack a bed partner. I have followed you since I was young, and I am not old now. You are not bad. .”

"Azhou, I don't want this kind of relationship." Xiao Wenyan likes that Yun Xizhou has a lot of words to him, but it's not like this. He didn't refute just now because he respected Yun Xizhou's expression. He still stared at Yun Xizhou. With ironic eyes, he said, "In the past, you and Lu Xuchu were close, liked each other, and connected with each other. What I want is that kind of relationship, not a short-term company. If I just want to pass the time and pass the loneliness, I have many ways, why is it necessary? Running in front of you is like a cow and a horse, not to mention that you don't appreciate it."

"Impossible, no matter how much you and I develop, we won't be like Ah Chu and me back then. How did Ah Chu and I get to know each other, how did we get started, and how did you and I get together? There is no comparison at all. "Yun Xizhou said, "When I am lonely, I will think back to how happy I was with him, but when I think of you, I must remind myself to remember the lesson and not fall twice on the same person. Let me tell you the truth Well, if it wasn't because you were still working in Lu's at that time, I would have met Ah Chu when I saw you, and I wouldn't have compromised with you. I just felt annoyed when you resigned and came to me, but you did it for me Everything my mother has done makes me have to bear this affection. I can say so many words to you here, not because of how much I like you in the past, but because of my mother's face. She can't say thank you in person. I can say it. If you want to hear thank you, then thank you, but if you want anything else, it's impossible. You are already the chess piece that my heart skipped, and I don't want to go back, I say this, Can you understand?"

"I don't understand, don't you have any feelings for me in your heart?"

"No, it's boring to talk about now, but I still want to say that on the night when I went to the villa to find you and you said it, all my feelings for you were exhausted, and the rest were not reconciled. Huo was also washed away by the love affair with Ah Chu. In my eyes, you are a stranger who is a little more hideous than a stranger. The scars cannot be restored. I will never fall in love with you like a fool again , I don’t care if you are sincere or false to me, if you are sincere, this is the price you paid for spoiling other people’s feelings, if you want to chase me on a whim, I advise you to give up as soon as possible and go back to China.”

From the moment Xiao Wenyan realized that the steelyard in his heart was gradually tilting towards Yun Xizhou, he had been regretting it. When he was still with Yun Xizhou, Yun Xizhou had such a passionate affection for him, and his selfishness, ruthlessness and injustice made him That relationship has come to an end, if he had known that one day he would really like this stubborn and serious boy in front of him, Xiao Wenyan would never have come to the point where it is irreversible.

There is no regret medicine in the world.

Doing it wrong is doing it wrong.

But Xiao Wenyan still regretted it, and reached the peak at this moment.If he hadn't done those wrong things back then, he and Yun Xizhou would most likely be married at this time, they would wake up from the same bed, maybe take turns cooking three meals, support and comfort each other, and their hearts would be filled with joy during the intimate moments, Instead of being like now, he listened to Yun Xizhou's words from the bottom of his heart, and Yun Xizhou was sincerely cutting off all possibilities between them.

"If you don't leave, I won't leave either. I know you don't like to hear me mention my own affairs. My current company staff are here, but I will follow you back to China in the future. I have already made a lot of money." The money is enough to support me and even the whole family behind me to live a good life, but I still feel that it is not enough. You may think that I am greedy, but I think of you, and I want you to live better. Look at anyone's face, what you want, I will do my best to bring it to you. I know the hardships of stepping into society after graduation. I don't want you to experience this. Life is hard and difficult, but some things It is not necessary and can be completely avoided. What I can do is to help you take a safe and safe shortcut. You don’t have to repeat my old detours. You just need to easily complete your life planning and expectations. I still In that sentence, you don’t need to like me, and you don’t have to like me in the future, but there is no need to refuse my overtures because of anger. These are my sincerity. I didn’t ask you to give me any feedback. Thank you and like me I don’t even dare to look forward to it, so just treat me as atonement for the past, okay?”

Yun Xizhou didn't expect that Xiao Wenyan would not give up even though he had already made his words so clear, he almost couldn't understand Xiao Wenyan.

Xiao Wenyan read the confusion and struggle in his eyes, and he struck while the iron was hot: "I have truly experienced the price of doing wrong things from you. If the price is not repaid to you, then you have suffered from me in the past. Aren’t the grievances and tears shed all meaningless? Let me stay by your side, whether you torture me or humiliate me, don’t drive me away, okay?”

Yun Xizhou's eyes were a little shaken, and he asked, "Why?"

Yun Xizhou didn't explain much, but Xiao Wenyan knew what he was asking.

"Just like you were willing to swallow so many grievances for me back then, isn't there no reason? If you can clearly know the reason, there will be no so many attachments in the world," Xiao Wenyan's frowning eyebrows gradually loosened, and he looked at Yun Xizhou's face. Seeing a little hope, he continued, "You can ignore it for one person, and I can go through fire and water for you and be smashed to pieces. I know you don't believe it, and I will make you believe my words."

Yun Xizhou said: "You are different from me, we are not the same kind of people."

"People change."

"It won't be so fast."

Xiao Wenyan smiled lightly: "Then what do you say? How do you want to verify this question? Do you want to throw a test? I am willing to accept your test. Just give the question, Teacher Yun Xizhou."

"You—" I don't know if Yun Xizhou was thinking too much, he always felt that the tone of Xiao Wenyan's last address was wrong.

Without giving him time to think wildly, the car had already stopped slowly at the gate of the school. Seeing that Xiao Wenyan was about to follow him out of the car, Yun Xizhou immediately stopped him: "No need, I have an appointment, you can go back."

Xiao Wenyan's eyes darkened, then he nodded.

Yun Xizhou went to the studio.

He found that he had been hesitating for a long time when he was writing recently, and he barely found the state when drawing, and the paintings he drew were not enough to satisfy him.He tried to recall the state when he was still with Lu Xuchu. At that time, he was drawing, and Lu Xuchu was playing games not far behind him. From time to time, there would be sound effects from the game. At that time, he thought it was the best and most reassuring background. sound.

However, thinking that people in the cold winter can't recall the scorching sun in summer, Yun Xizhou can no longer find the warm and heart-warming feeling when thinking of these things.He is like a shell with something missing, and the pictures he paints are as hollow as his heart.

He put down his paintbrush and decided to go for a walk.

He didn't get in touch with Xia Han, so he went to the bar he frequented by himself, and a few people who were acquaintances with him saw him and raised their glasses to say hello from a distance, Yun Xizhou smiled over there Laughed, found a seat and sat down.

Everyone in the arena was indulging in their sensuality, Yun Xizhou watched from a distance while drinking low-alcohol wine, suddenly what Xiao Wenyan said today rang in his mind.Yun Xizhou thought about it carefully, Xiao Wenyan really didn't have any bad habits. He drank for entertainment and rarely asked him to take care of him. He would hide on the balcony when he smoked. His only bad thing was that he failed Yun Xizhou's sincerity.But this is the only stinking problem that is not a trivial matter. Once it happens, it cannot be saved.

Men have some unspeakable special moments. Yun Xizhou is not a saint. He also has emotions and desires that need to be resolved. Occasionally, the idea of ​​finding someone to solve it pops up in his mind, but he never implements it. Education and firm three views do not allow such things to happen.

If you lower your requirements, Xiao Wenyan fits him in this regard.

Yun Xizhou shook his head, why would he think so?He put down the drink, looked at the time, the distracting thoughts in his heart were almost gone, he got up and left without hesitation.

On the way back, Yun Xizhou was admiring the night view of the city. In the past, he rarely looked at it, because he came here to avoid some problems, and he was not in the mood to take a good look at it.All the way back, he was half awake and half dazed, shaking his head, always feeling that the low-alcohol alcohol he wanted would not make him dizzy.

Entering the dormitory area, when passing through a quiet grove, Yun Xizhou suddenly heard the sound of footsteps.The other party seemed to be deliberately concealing his whereabouts, and only relaxed when he was in a place where no one was around, and Yun Xizhou quickened his pace.

Suddenly, a hand grabbed his arm firmly.

Yun Xizhou broke away violently, and was about to kick him hard, when a familiar voice suddenly came from beside him: "It's me."

Yun Xizhou raised his head immediately.

Xiao Wenyan stared at him solemnly, then grabbed his arm without saying a word, and pulled him aside. Yun Xizhou turned his head and saw a figure of a man in a black sweater not far away.

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