Reborn to Strive

After Guan Baiyu woke up, he never fell asleep again.

The next day he went to class in class, and it was all dark.

Seeing him like this, his deskmate was worried: "Guan Baiyu, although you love to study, you should also pay attention to your health, don't be too tired!"

Guan Baiyu smiled at him: "I'm fine."

Although he said that, he couldn't help being in a trance during class.

He didn't know if he should be thankful that he had previewed these contents before, so even if he didn't listen carefully, he wouldn't miss his homework.

At noon, Guan Baiyu went to the cafeteria as usual, and as soon as he got there, he saw Liang Qinxuan waving at him: "Bai Yu! This way!"

Liang Qinxuan and the few people on the basketball team who got along well with him were all there, and the table was still full of dishes. When Guan Baiyu approached, Liang Qinxuan said: "After my father left yesterday, I asked my cousin to give me a gift. I paid 1000 yuan, and today I will treat you, and everyone can eat."

It is said that although they eat, there is not much food in the school cafeteria. There are only a few meat dishes that come and go.

Liang Qinxuan thought it was not tasty, so he took apart a ham sausage and ate it.

When Guan Baiyu approached, Liang Qinxuan noticed Guan Baiyu's face, and was a little worried: "Baiyu, why do you have so dark circles under your eyes?"

"I had a nightmare last night, and I haven't fallen asleep since then." Guan Baiyu said.

"I also had a nightmare yesterday. I dreamed that I was arrested in the video hall." Liang Qinxuan scratched his hair and sighed: "But after I woke up, I turned over and fell asleep again."

Guan Baiyu rolled his eyelids, glanced at Liang Qinxuan, then lowered his head and continued to eat.

If it's just getting caught, it's nothing to him.

He... dreamed about his brother.

He didn't even know why he dreamed about his brother.

In the dream, he and his brother were still... making out.

Thinking of that scene, Guan Baiyu's movements froze again, and he lost his appetite to eat.

How happy he was in the dream, how terrified he is now.

When he was in junior high school, he didn't live on campus, didn't have many friends, and didn't read any extracurricular books. He didn't understand many things, even the relationship between men and women, he was ignorant,

He occasionally watched TV and saw men and women kissing together, and then they had children... He once thought that kissing mouth to mouth and exchanging saliva would give birth to a child.

It wasn't until he was in high school that there were eight people in a dormitory, and he started to change his voice, grow taller, and have some physiological phenomena that are unique to men... Then he gradually learned something that he didn't know before.

But he has never paid much attention to the girls in his class.He didn't think there was anything wrong with it, he thought he just wanted to concentrate on his studies.

After all, he didn't pay much attention to the boys in the class. He always felt that those people were too naive, and they were all bluffing, not as stable as his brother.

None of these people can compare to his brother in appearance, how tall is his brother!Eyes, nose, eyebrows, lips, there is nothing unsightly.

But now...he felt that something was wrong with him.

Guan Baiyu wanted to see Shi Zhen very much, and wanted to ask Shi Zhen what happened to him.

But soon, he realized that he couldn't ask.

He really wanted to kiss his brother, if his brother knew this...would he feel disgusted?

Guan Baiyu couldn't imagine what his brother would think of him after he knew that he had such perverted thoughts.

He also started to care about more things.

For example, his voice recently is really not pleasant.

Before his brother said it was okay, he was relieved, but now...he didn't want his brother to hear his voice.

Although Guan Baiyu has no appetite, he doesn't like to waste. He picked up some strong-flavored dishes and mechanically finished the rice in his bowl.

With his appearance, Liang Qinxuan, who wanted to say something, hesitated several times.

"What's the matter?" Guan Baiyu asked him.

"Well...it's nothing..." Liang Qinxuan said, "This Saturday is my lunar birthday, do you want to celebrate my birthday?"

"Saturday? I want to go home." Guan Baiyu said.

Liang Qinxuan's best friend now is Guan Baiyu, and he feels that only Guan Baiyu is doing his best.

He wanted Guan Baiyu to spend his birthday with him.

"When the time comes, I'll send someone to pick you up, and send you back when it's over, how about it?"

"Don't be so troublesome." Guan Baiyu said.

Liang Qinxuan was still a little bit unwilling: "I don't make up my lessons on Saturday afternoon. It's four o'clock. Let's go roller skating first and then eat hot pot...Are you really not going?"

"I'm not going," Guan Baiyu said after thinking for a while, "I'll bring you a present when I come back on Sunday."

"Okay." Liang Qinxuan sighed, but he could also understand Guan Baiyu.

Guan Baiyu has such a good relationship with his brother, so he definitely wants to go back to see his brother.

As for him... Thinking that there are outsiders at home, he doesn't want to celebrate his birthday at home, so he has already made up his mind to invite his classmates to have fun outside.

Originally, he wanted to take his classmates to sing, and also planned to drink some wine... He has always been curious about these things.

But recently he was scared a lot, so he didn't dare to go to such a place, he only dared to go roller skating and eat hot pot.

It's a pity that Guan Baiyu doesn't go roller skating and hot pot.

Fortunately, those few people who went to the video hall with him and established a revolutionary friendship basketball team are willing to go!

As for his former cronies... Hehe, none of them barked!

Originally, he didn't break up with them, and occasionally talked to him, but the video studio they recommended to him turned out to be such a place... He wants to break up with these people!

This week, Guan Baiyu has been in a bad state.

In the end, even the teacher came to care about him, telling him not to study too hard, but to pay attention to rest.

Guan Baiyu was rarely cared about like this before, but now he can't help being touched when he meets him, but he can't help being ashamed.

Unbeknownst to everyone, he is actually a pervert.

At noon on Friday, Guan Baiyu, who used to be the first one to get on the bus, rarely did not run.

Then I missed the first bus.

Guan Baiyu: "..."

There are very few buses in their urban area, and there are not many people on board. He can only wait for the next one. After finally arriving at the station, there is a long queue here, and many of them are students who want to go home.

After such a toss, when Guan Baiyu arrived in Anshan Town, it was already midnight.

As soon as he got out of the car, he saw Shi Zhen waiting outside.

"Brother!" Guan Baiyu happily waved at Shi Zhen.

Shi Zhen also showed a smile on his face: "Xiao Yu."

Shi Zheng just yelled, then suppressed his smile, frowned and said, "Xiao Yu, why are your dark circles so heavy? Didn't you have a good rest?"

"It's a little bit." Guan Baiyu was a little embarrassed.

Shi Zhendao: "Although study is important, you should also pay attention to your body..."

Shi Zhen just muttered like this, every sentence was full of concern, which made Guan Baiyu a little ashamed.

His brother is so good, how could he have such terrible thoughts about his brother!

"Brother, have you been waiting for a long time?"

"Not too long." Shi Zhen said, he did wait for a while, but it was nothing.

Now the buses in Changxi City are yellow, very small, about the same as a van, Guan Baiyu didn't squeeze on it, it's normal to come back late.

"En." Guan Baiyu lowered his head.

Shi Zhen asked again: "Did something happen to you?"

Guan Baiyu said: "It's nothing, the main thing is that what Liang Qinxuan encountered was terrible, especially scary!"

"What happened to him again?" Shi Zhen asked.

Guan Baiyu talked about the video hall, of course, emphasizing that he found something wrong after entering, and immediately took people away.

"Xiaoyu is still the smartest and most vigilant." Shi Zhendao, feeling a little sympathetic to Liang Qinxuan.

To be honest, thanks to the relevant Bai Yu, otherwise with his current status, it would be impossible for him to be friends with Liang Qinxuan, nor would he be able to help Liang Qinxuan.

If Liang Qinxuan encounters all these incidents one by one...it would be scary to think about it.

Guan Baiyu smiled.

Seeing that Guan Baiyu was a bit depressed, Shi Zhen thought that Guan Baiyu was frightened by the affairs of Liang Qinxuan's family.

Although Guan Baiyu's living conditions were not good before, he had never encountered such calculations, and felt that it was normal to be afraid.

Shi Zhen thought so, and comforted Guan Baiyu a few words.

Guan Baiyu gave Shi Zhen a complicated look.

Shi Zhen was going to Wang's house in the afternoon, Guan Baiyu didn't follow this time, he lay on the bed, thinking about all the things that happened before.

In fact... he has always been abnormal.

It's just that before, he didn't know that he had such thoughts.

And what will he do in the future?

If he respects his heart... He doesn't want other people around his brother, it's better that his brother never gets married and stays with him forever.

And he...he swears, he will be very kind to his brother!

But this is clearly not possible.

How could his brother not get married!

Then he... wants to watch his brother get married and have children?

In the past, Guan Baiyu was not willing to think about this, and now he is even more unwilling to think about it.

He took a deep breath, went to Guan Jianguo's side, and talked to Shi Xingchao.

Shi Xingchao likes Guan Baiyu very much, after all Guan Baiyu is good-looking, and the most important thing is... Guan Baiyu doesn't spend his money, why doesn't he like him?

This time, Guan Baiyu focused on asking about Shi Zhen's past.

Shi Xingchao didn't think much about it, he said a lot, he is a man, he always plays with Shi Zhen, and he knows more about Shi Zhen than Shi Ting.

"Are there many people who like my brother?" Guan Baiyu asked.

"There are many people who like Shi Zhen. After all, he is so handsome. But in the past, his family was poor, and he didn't even have a house of his own. If people like it, it's another matter to marry or not. Now it's different. Now, if he goes back, he will take care of the girls who are not interested in him from all over the world, and they will rush to get him." Shi Xing said, "Not to mention anything else...he has a tractor!" In their place, there is a tractor to attract attention.

"Does my brother have someone he likes?"

"That's not true. He is still young and has high vision. When he was a child, he said he wanted to marry his mother... You don't know, his mother is very beautiful and can read. At that time, when the villagers wanted to write couplets and so on, they would look for him. Her mother, his mother can write completely differently." Shi Xingchao mentioned his aunt, a little bit embarrassed, "When he was a child, his mother still grabbed him and made him recite the "San Zi Jing"... Let me tell you, he is sure now. He can recite it! Even the clothes made by his mother are better than those made by others, even if she is not in good health, our doctors there can't see anything, and she died of illness when she was sick."

Guan Baiyu talked a lot with Shi Xingchao.

His brother's previous life was not much better than his.

An eight-year-old child suddenly lost his mother, and he knew how uncomfortable it would be. It would be better if he had never seen his mother like him.

But now, his brother's life is getting better and better.

It's just bad luck to raise such a pervert like him.

Guan Baiyu didn't know what was wrong with him, but it was always wrong. He was struggling in his heart, but he didn't show anything on his face.

While chatting, the sound of the tractor sounded, Guan Baiyu ran out, and saw Shi Zhen came back.

He rushed over subconsciously: "Brother!"

But Shi Zhen stretched out his hand to stop him: "Don't get too close, I'm dirty."

The work on the construction site cannot be very clean. He has been busy for a while in the afternoon, and now his body is covered with dust.

Guan Baiyu didn't dare to approach him anymore, he was afraid that if he couldn't hold back, he would do something terrible.

Shi Zhen said again: "You go and cook, and I'll take a bath."

"En." Guan Baiyu responded.

Shi Zhen has a lot of money recently, and bought some things at home, such as a rice cooker.

Cooking with an electric rice cooker is still very fast. When Guan Baiyu was washing rice, he saw a silver carp in a large basin next to the stove.

Guan Baiyu knew that when he was not around, Shi Zhen and the others usually bought some pork and scrambled eggs for dinner.

But as long as he comes back, Shi Zhen will always get some chickens, ducks, fish and so on.

"You cook the vegetables first, and I'll kill the fish." Shi Zhen walked in again, and when he was about to take a bath, he remembered that the fish hadn't been killed yet.

People eat fish these days, and they are not as particular about it as they were later. They often don’t require the fish to be fresh. Many people sell dead fish in the town.

Even if they bought live fish back, everyone would kill them early and hang them on the beams of the house.

However, he felt that dead fish were not tasty, so he specially bought live ones.

Now he can kill the fish before he can take a bath.

Shi Zhen worked very fast and killed the fish in a short time before taking a bath.

In the small shed outside the house, a plastic sheet was hung on the door, which was still warm, but now it was getting colder and colder, and he couldn't bear to wash it in cold water, so he mixed the water from the kettle with warm water to take a bath.

When Guan Baiyu came out of the house, Shi Zhen was taking a bath, and there were killed fish in the basin outside.

Basically, without him saying anything, his brother would do the hard work without him ever having to do it.

The meat dish at night is braised fish, Guan Baiyu made it himself.

Shi Zhen used fish soup to stop his meal, and ate a new big bowl in one go, and Shi Xinghuo did the same, that is, Shi Xingchao didn't do any physical work now, and his appetite became smaller, so he only ate a big bowl.

During the meal, Guan Baiyu kept looking at Shi Zhen.

Shi Zhen looked pretty when he was eating. Although he ate a lot and quickly, he didn't make any noise and his movements were graceful.

"What are you looking at?" Shi Zhen asked Guan Baiyu, Guan Baiyu had been looking at him just now.

Guan Baiyu reacted quickly: "Brother, your hand is injured, you have to be careful in the future."

Shi Zhen had a small wound on his hand.

"What kind of injury is this?" Shi Zhen laughed.

When Guan Baiyu was sleeping, Shi Zhen's smile appeared in front of his eyes.

This night, he dreamed again.

This dream was even more extreme than the previous ones.

In the dream, he had been entangled with his brother for a long time.

Guan Baiyu woke up suddenly again, changed his clothes and pants, lay down again with palpitations, and fell asleep again in a daze.

And this time...he didn't do any of those messy things, this dream was even quite realistic.

He dreamed that his brother hated him and didn't want him anymore.

After waking up, he couldn't remember the specific situation in the dream, but the feeling of being abandoned was still with him like a shadow.

He even had a terrible thought of locking up his brother so that no one else could see him.

Let his brother belong to him alone.

Guan Baiyu went out and saw Shi Zhen making breakfast, and always felt that he was a little sorry for his brother.

His brother should live a happy and smooth life instead of being coveted by such a terrible person like him.

As for him, as long as his brother lives well, that's fine.

Guan Baiyu thought so, but when he saw Shi Zhen, he couldn't suppress all kinds of thoughts, and felt more and more guilty.

He thought for a while, then smiled at Shi Zhen: "Brother, today is Liang Qinxuan's birthday, he has always asked me to celebrate his birthday with him, and I promised him."

As soon as Shi Zhen recalled, he remembered that Liang Qinxuan's birthday was just recently.

But he couldn't remember the exact date.

He doesn't celebrate his own birthday very much, and he doesn't have the habit of celebrating birthdays for others.

It's good that Guan Baiyu and Liang Qinxuan have become friends and celebrate their birthday together.

Shi Zhen said: "When are you going? I'll take you to the station."

Guan Baiyu said: "Brother, you can just send me to the station now." If he asked his brother to drop off later, wouldn't he have to trouble his brother to do half of the work and come back specially?