Aurora

After eating and watching a movie, Jiang Yan returned home, nestled on the sofa and didn't want to do anything.The rented one room and one living room unexpectedly gave birth to a sense of emptiness and loneliness.Probably because it was too quiet, some memories slowly grew from the dark, occupying his thoughts along the neural network.

He let himself fall into the memory, bit by bit, like a dream.

Qin Luyang was his predecessor.They started out like any pair of puppy love students, expressing their feelings greenly and secretly falling in love.He even clearly remembered what kind of picture it was: the temperature in April made the campus full of cherry blossoms, and the wind at night was soft. After evening self-study, they walked slowly to a corner of the campus. Stopped under a cherry blossom tree in full bloom.Jiang Yan saw himself in the memory biting his lips nervously, his hands clenched into fists in the pockets of his school uniform, and he heard himself finally muster up the courage to say: "I like you..."

And how did Qin Luyang respond?Jiang Yan saw him at the age of 17, with a smile that couldn't be hidden from the corners of his mouth and eyebrows, but he was full of anger. He slightly lowered his head and looked at himself who was waiting for the verdict, and said, "What a coincidence, I have liked you for a long time too. .”

At that time, the spring was just right, and the wind was naughty, lingering on the treetops, blowing off petals.And when Qin Luyang slowly put his lips on Jiang Yan's lips, Jiang Yan clearly heard the sound of nebula colliding and exploding in the depths of the universe, which was the most beautiful fireworks belonging to them.

They used to be so in love.

There is no deceit, no use, just two young hearts, entangled together, groping forward, trying to fight a bloody path in such a world.But it was too difficult, really too difficult.After college, they all chose the school they thought was the most suitable for them. Jiang Yan was born in Canada and held a Canadian passport, and finally chose Montreal, while Qin Luyang went to the United States.

The long time away from each other wears down the love between two people, and every holiday reunion seems like a doomsday carnival.They always make love recklessly, on the bed, on the sofa, by the window in the bathtub, as if every time they enter is the most meaningful memory of love.

But it was still too difficult.

Day and night longing eventually makes people tired, turned into quarrels, turned into resentment.It is said that the person who loves first loses, but two people love each other so much, why do they both feel that they have lost?

It was Qin Luyang who chose to end this mutually damaging relationship.I don't know when he found a way out, leaving only Jiang Yan hesitating in place.It's not that Jiang Yan didn't complain. He thought it was because Qin Luyang didn't really love her deeply enough to escape so quickly and find someone new, but now he also met Mr. Chen.

Teacher Chen is so nice, he really likes it.

Frankly speaking, as an emotional perfectionist, Jiang Yan is undergoing the reconstruction of his three views.He always thought that he and Qin Luyang were special, and their love was stronger than anyone else's.But now he vaguely understands that every couple of lovers thinks they are as special as the couple at the beginning of the world, but the fact is that there are as many lovers in this world as locusts.

Teacher Chen's words are still ringing in his ears today. If you can't be the luckiest person, you can be a happy person.

Maybe he is the angel who came to redeem me.It was from this moment that Jiang Yan felt that he really let go.

On the other hand, Chen Shuo, who went to the laboratory to work overtime, didn't know what kind of twists and turns Jiang Yan's mental journey was, but Jiang Yan's sad expression could not go away in his mind, which made him feel sour , bulging and uncomfortable.Is it because of Shi Lei?That boy really feels very sunny and has a good personality.Will Jiang Yan like my type?Do you want to chase after it?How to chase?I won't...

Although Chen Shuo looks cold and serious, he is sometimes a little sullen in his heart.The first brother in love feels strange and novel to all kinds of colorful and charming emotions.Groups of data were running on the computer, and Chen Shuo seemed to have hallucinations. He was in a casino, a series of numbers were running on the slot machine, and finally the machine jingled——jackpot!The winning screen turned out to be a Q version of Jiang Yan.

It was Sun Mianchao, a brother from the same laboratory, who interrupted Chen Shuo's wild imagination: "Chen Shuo, do you have time to have a meal together?"

Chen Shuo nodded, and resumed his serious look: "Of course."

"I should be going back to China." Sun Mianchao smiled with the corners of his mouth pulled, but he couldn't guess how much of the smile was there. "I'm about to graduate. There are colleges and universities in China that offer good conditions."

"Brother, please give me an hour, we will have a good chat later."

"it is good."

They went to a Japanese-style tavern nearby, mixing izakaya and post-modern styles, with prisms everywhere, cutting up the dim light, and the broken light formed a circle of light, hazy like stars behind the clouds .

The senior has an excellent resume. He has published several articles in top journals as the first or corresponding author, and the impact factor is also very high. The boss has always valued him very much.Chen Shuo always thought that he would continue his studies. After going to a top research institute in the United States to do a doctorate, he did not hide his doubts: "Have you decided to enter a domestic university?"

Sun Mianchao didn't look at him, but stared at the ice cubes in his glass, watching them rise and fall and melt slowly: "Youqing is introduced, the treatment is really good, and the laboratory has a lot of new money, directly as a doctoral supervisor. You also know that there are very few opportunities in Canada, and in the United States, if you can't apply for H1B or get a green card, you will have no life for a day."

Chen Shuo was noncommittal.They all say that they want to contribute to the motherland, but looking back on the people I know, almost no one chooses to return to China if they can gain a foothold abroad and find a teaching position.The environment, air, food, and even academic atmosphere and interpersonal relationships are all considerations. Which country has advantages and disadvantages?No one knows what kind of decision to make is correct, and everyone crosses the river by feeling the stones.

Sun Mianchao still lowered his head, raised his eyes and took a deep look at Chen Shuo through the gap between the frame and the eye sockets, and said: "Chen Shuo, you are about to graduate, and some plans need to be made in advance. In recent years, the country's resettlement policy has strengthened Great, but any good scientific research results can be directly given the title of associate professor. Otherwise, continue to be a postdoctoral fellow outside? Be an assistant professor? When will it be big..."

"But senior brother, judging from your ability, even if you stay in school, or even go to the industry, you should have a good development."

"But I don't want to drift anymore. My mother is not in good health recently, take her here?" Sun Mianchao sneered, "Don't dream, I'm not used to this ice and snow for five years, don't bother her. It’s not that we can’t produce good results in China, if there is enough funding, everything is possible, and it’s always right for people to go where the money is.”

Chen Shuo nodded, and still wanted to say something, but he didn't say it in the end, but raised the glass in his hand: "Have a drink, brother, I wish you a bright future."

Sun Mianchao also picked up the glass, and the wandering light gathered in the void, barely squeezed into the glass. There is no star or moon tonight, but the wine in the glass gathers light in the room.The wine glasses clinked together, making a crisp sound.

And Chen Shuo suddenly remembered the sentence that was messed up on Weibo—even he, a man of science and engineering, remembered it—"When cups collide, it is the sound of broken dreams."

Shatter an old dream and weave a new one.

After all, it's a good dream.