[Call for Papers] Fan Notes

Chapter 22 Father's Death

Opening the notes, it was Uncle Li's handwriting. The paper was wet with tears so many times, it made people feel distressed.

There was one page missing in the notes, obviously Uncle Li tore it out, because after opening it was the second page.

Here are Uncle Li's notes:

One of the things I regret most in my life is that I was not by my side when the person I love the most was when he needed me the most.

It was already late when I arrived. I thought that my departure would be the beginning of another period of happiness for the person I love the most, but I didn't expect it to be the beginning of pain.Yunshan just lay quietly beside me, with a phone in his hand.I took it over, and he still has an unsent text message, I love you, and I will never regret it until I die.At that moment I really wanted to die with him, why so stupid?Why drink the whole bottle of sedatives?Why don't you keep half of it for me?

And the sister-in-law came back after a while, why did you beat her for me, you shouldn't.

In the days without you, I thought about jumping off a building, jumping into the sea, or jumping off Baiyun Mountain, and just quietly came to your side, and you might not feel lonely in another world.

I looked at the crying sister-in-law, at the child who lost his father at such a young age, I wondered if Yunshan was doing the right thing?Did the two of us do something wrong? God must punish us like this.At that moment I hated this woman and even wanted to take a knife and cut her off.But I know you won't agree, we are guilty of her in our hearts, not to mention you have a child, he has no father, how can he not have a mother?

I know that my sister-in-law loves you. If there is no child, she will definitely go with you. After calming down, I not only feel guilty for my rash thoughts, but I can't bear the days without you.If you are alive and you are not by my side, I can pretend that you are living a good life, but you are gone, really gone, how do you let me imagine.

After losing you for 100 days, I decided to leave this world and be with you in heaven.I walked the way we came here again, Baiyun Mountain is really a place suitable for sleeping.I turned on your phone again and found an unsent text message, you asked me to promise to take care of our son, this is the last thing you begged me, otherwise you will never forgive me whether you go to heaven or hell.

I cried, you just handed over a heavy burden to me, you are afraid that the child will not have a father's love, why don't you raise it yourself?Why?Are you afraid that I will not agree, and you are afraid that I will be embarrassed, so you don't send it to me, why?

But when the child grows up, how should I tell him, how should I face him, I am the indirect murderer who killed his father.

Am I worthy to be his father?I do not deserve.

I went back to Haizhou again and came to this city where you used to be, but I know that there is no picture of you beside me, it is a lonely landscape.But my sister-in-law lived a very hard life alone, she turned against her parents because of you, she is an amazing woman, but she refused to see me, and even married another man surnamed Bai.

I found an opportunity to beat up the man surnamed Bai. This is the first time in so many years that I beat someone for no reason. Do you blame me?If you blame me, you will come and beat me, will you come?

The man surnamed Bai does not seem to be a man. The so-called new home of the sister-in-law is not happy, even the superficial happiness cannot be achieved. I often see her standing alone on the window sill in a daze, looking into the distance, as if she has The person you will never see, that person is you.

I finally couldn't help but want to teach that man a lesson again, because he beat the child today and beat your beloved Jingnan.I made a very low-brow excuse that he raped someone and wanted to beat him up.He said something that I couldn't imagine, he said he was severely impotent, I must have found the wrong person, I dragged him into the car and went to a hair salon, but the young lady said with contempt that if it doesn't work, then don't Playing, delaying my mother's business.

I am a little shameless, because I peeked outside the door, and he is indeed a severe impotence patient. I got verification at the place where he went to the hospital for examination and treatment. Naturally, it was by some immoral methods, and at this moment I just I found out that my sister-in-law really loves you and also wants to give her children a perfect home.

When domestic violence happened again, I still couldn't help rushing up, there was your most beloved Jing Nan, he shouldn't have grown up in this environment.I beat up that man in front of my sister-in-law, but my sister-in-law told me to get lost, she still hated me.

Fortunately, Jingnan saw me so happy, so happy, he still called me godfather, which made me feel guilty.His teary little face looked at me full of distress, what a poor child, because of our fault, he suffered most of the consequences.

Under my threat, the man finally divorced his sister-in-law, but I don't know if doing so would cause her disgust. Her shoulders are very thin, but she is unwilling to accept my help. A woman Need to take care of the children and support the family, how can she have time to earn daily living expenses?

The bank cards I bought as presents for Jingnan were all thrown out. I know this woman hates me, but when I knelt on the ground and let her beat and scold her, she cried. She didn't do anything. She was a An unusual woman, she suffered too much in her heart.

Perhaps Jingnan is a gift from heaven to us. With my pleading and Jingnan's help, I knelt outside the door for a day and a night. My sister-in-law finally agreed to let me help take care of Jingnan. happy.Yunshan, do you know?I did it, I can help you take care of Jingnan.

It's just that my sister-in-law asked me to tell him the story of you and me, but I couldn't tell him, so I gave him the notes you wrote. Would you blame me?It's just that this is the only condition that I can take care of Jingnan, and when she returned it to me, she tore up the notes and only gave me the records. I don't know what she thinks, but I hope I didn't do anything wrong?Shan Yun, do you think I did something wrong?

Jingnan is like when you were a child, he made up for me day by day the years I missed before I met you, right?I instantly discovered that my life is no longer the sadness of missing you, but also the joy of watching you grow.

I took Jingnan through the places where you and I walked, and the journey was faster, because Jingnan came to see the scenery, and I came to see you.In a child's world, the beauty of Baiyun Mountain and the shape of peony flowers can make him scream; in the eyes of adults, Baiyun Mountain, where everything is different, and Luoyang City, where peonies still smile, can make me cry. I burst into tears.

"Godfather, why are you crying?"

"The sand blinds the eye."

"Let me blow it up for you, okay?"

"Okay, Jing Nan is here to help godfather blow his eyes."

"It's finished, are godfather's eyes healed?"

"Okay, look, Godfather won't cry now."

"Godfather, you are lying. You are clearly crying. Is it because these peonies have withered and made you sad? Our teacher said that Luohong is not a heartless thing. It turns into spring mud to protect the flowers. You see, I didn't cry .”

At that moment I suddenly saw you, Shan Yun.Are you talking to me through Jingnan, you are not ruthless, you are the most sympathetic person in the world.