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Chapter No.16 The Strange Uncle

The prosperity of Luoyang seems to only stay in history, and the legal brothels in history have not continued to the present, so when night falls, all unknown transactions are happening, and what is the result of the momentary greed? ?No one seems to care. In this era when the poor and whores are laughed at, it is much more beautiful to bloom beside someone than to bloom in the soil. I have no right to comment on sex and love, because everyone The concept is different, just like the good in this world is not necessarily good, and the evil is not necessarily evil.

To love is not to love.Not to love is to love.This sentence that Uncle Li often mentioned appeared in my mind. I asked him what he meant. He smiled and said he didn’t know, but he just liked this sentence. When I couldn’t find him, I gradually became familiar with it. After saying this, I can't say that I like it.

Maybe all I can do is to listen to a lonely song and imagine loneliness as a piece of steamed bread, which can be chewed to taste sweet when I miss hunger.

look at your favorite moonlight

Waiting for dawn in your arms tonight

I can't forget the way I slept in your arms

involuntary love

Talk about your favorite past

collection of time

Dreaming about the future house in your story

Can't help but cry two lines

The scent of a man is infatuated with your shoulder

From then on, we will carry happiness and confusion together

The man's fragrance is willing to be drunk in your chest tonight

No matter how the world hurts me

You will always be my unchanging sunshine

The smell of a man has long forgotten how you look

How I want to turn into a butterfly and fly with you

The man's fragrance is willing to be drunk in your heart tonight

No matter where we wake up

Embrace together without asking when the sky is long

Listening to my cover of "Scent of a Man", I feel that Uncle Li is lying next to me. No matter how much I can't help crying in the world of two people in the earphones, half of the double bed under me is still empty in reality.

There was a knock on the door, who would knock at the door so late?

When I opened the door, it was a policeman, but it was not Uncle Li. After checking it, they saw my room alone, and they apologized for the interruption and left.

It's just that I felt a familiar gaze, a familiar gaze that yearns for this room, shining in from outside the door. I walked to the door and looked at that somewhat familiar figure from behind. Is it Uncle Li?

When the knock on the door sounded again, I finally hugged Uncle Li who had been away for a long time. When this man with the important secret of my life appeared again, I was not only surprised, but still surprised.Because he touched my cheek with his generous hands, I saw the two men following him, the two who asked me the way at night.

"Jingnan, he is your uncle." Uncle Li whispered to me, but he looked at the two people in front of him without any kindness.

"Comrade policeman, we made a mistake. Don't let us notify our family members. I'm willing to pay any fine." The mature man said.

"Yes, I am willing to pay any amount of fines, but please don't notify my family." Zhang Jingtao also pleaded.

I carefully looked at the two men in front of me. The mature man was wearing his clothes backwards, and he was holding the pants that might fall off at any time with both hands. Obviously, the belt had been taken off.Zhang Jingtao only wore one sock, and his clothes were obviously torn, and he was my uncle.

"As long as you kneel down, I'll let you go." Uncle Li stared at Zhang Jingtao viciously, as if if it wasn't for his clothes, he would go up and beat him up.

Both of them knelt down, letting go of each other's entreaties, telling that they were just ordinary 419s, and they still had family members and children.

The mature man left, and the condition for him to leave was to kick Zhang Jingtao twice. Even he himself felt baffled, but he still crawled and rolled away. It seemed that he himself was flustered, and he even forgot that his pants would He fell down at any time, and he tripped when he was going out.

Uncle Li hugged me after closing the door, picked up a tissue and wiped the tears on my face. I don't know if my tears are for my father, mother, myself or the so-called uncle?

"Do you know who he is?" Uncle Li asked, smoking a cigarette, Luo Yan.

"Yes, is it Bai Shanyun and Jing Qing's son, Bai Jingnan?" Uncle seemed not sure, but he still found the shadows of father and mother from my face, "You have grown up so much, you should go to college now ?”

"How is your mother, is she all right now?"

Tears have been left for a long time, and I don't know how to answer. The person kneeling in front of me is my uncle, a so-called relative I haven't seen since I was a child.

"I don't have an uncle. Whether she lives well has nothing to do with you." It seemed that years of depression broke out hysterically at this moment.

Uncle Li kicked Zhang Jingtao, saying that he owed the Bai family.

"Let him go, okay, Uncle?" I lay on the sofa, feeling exhausted. I thought my heart was strong enough, but I didn't expect that I would still be vulnerable when I saw my so-called relatives.

"He fell into trouble like that back then, so let him be spared like this."

Uncle Li's face was full of anger, he was unwilling to be reconciled to my father, and saddened for my growth, but he finally compromised.Uncle Li's face was also covered with tears at some point, and Uncle Li scolded him as the tears of a crocodile.

"When you died because of your brother-in-law, didn't I feel sad?"

"Dead, my father is dead, how did he die?" Although I have known the news of my father's possible death for a long time, and although I have long regarded my father as a person who may have died, this sentence still seems like a The thunderbolt broke all my defenses.

"Get out." Uncle Li kicked his uncle out, "Don't let me see you."

"Uncle, my father is dead, right?"

"Uncle, why didn't you tell me my father died."

"Your mother won't tell you, but she will tell you when you grow up."

"Uncle, how and when did my dad die, tell me"

"I thought he became a monk in Baiyun Mountain, and I went to Baiyun Mountain to find him."

The figure of my father has always been blurred in my heart, even when I was crying for him, his figure was also blurred, and it was naturally Uncle Li who accompanied me to cry.

"It would be great if he went to Baiyun Mountain to become a monk."

It turns out that I am not the only one who thinks this way, my mother thinks this way, and even Uncle Li thinks this way.And how did my father leave this home?

When I asked Uncle Li, he burst into tears but refused to say a word.