Catch a fat bear as a slave

Maybe this is my fate, I just live numbly.

I have been away for several years, but I never thought that my hometown would grow old unknowingly like my father and mother.The marks left by the years are still on the wall. Looking at my graffiti, thinking about my ignorance and misbehavior when I was a child, I don’t feel the vicissitudes of life.

More familiar faces in my hometown walked and died.Old Li's head is dead, but the persimmon tree still bears bright red fruits every year.The single old Wangtou was also picked up by his daughter, and the adobe house has lost its roof and has become a public toilet for children.Even the best childhood playmate left unintentionally without saying goodbye, and went to another paradise.Life is difficult to grasp, who can guarantee that the shoes that were taken off tonight can be worn tomorrow morning?

The laughter of childhood seemed to float from afar.The long Xiaoqing River, the young man lying on the green grass under the blue sky, held the leaves in his mouth and blew a melodious tune.The water in the Xiaoqing River is so clear that the shadows of the fish can be seen. The dandelions and wild roses on both sides of the river exude a faint fragrance, holding up the boy's dream and pan, up and down, far and near, and then drifting away in the distance, Never get it back.

I also remembered that when I was a child, my mother once made a divination for me, and it was the only divination in my life.The fortune teller said that I was born with water, even my name contained water, and I was doomed to be a peach blossom in this life, and I would suffer endless peach blossom disasters. I even asked my mother what is a peach blossom disaster.My mother said: It's just a woman's debt that can't be paid off.But who knew that a few years later, the protagonists and supporting roles of the so-called peach blossom robbery would all be men?My mother asked the fortune-teller if he had any solution, and the fortune-teller said: You need to find a person with earth life to tie him, and the water will slowly seep into the soil, and it will flow slowly after a long time.

I don't believe in the fortune-teller's theory of fate, but I believe in the iron reality.

The incidents that I have experienced around me are the best iron proof.

I slept at home for another month, and when I got up, I felt that everything seemed to be floating flowers and water shadows, so alluring. When I reached out to grab it, it was just fishing for the moon in the water, and everything was empty.

I know the sins I have committed, and the best way to atone for them is to stop hurting people.

I chose the earth-born person in my life, and everything was done to stop hurting the innocent people around me.

When I walked into the marriage hall holding her hand, my mother laughed, my father also laughed, and everyone around me laughed.Their smiles are the recognition of the mainstream of this society, and my relationship is just a deformed relationship, just a short episode that deviates from the mainstream track.Maybe they think this is the best ending, but it is the most tragic ending for me.Letting a person who has been homosexual since childhood choose heterosexual marriage is tantamount to letting a barefoot person walk through a sharp ice skate.I just walk on skates and cannons.

The earth-born people in my life brought me the trivialities of life, and made me exhausted in the tedious little things. I also gradually forgot the passions and joys and sorrows of the past. Finally, like them, I stepped into the juncture of life. The siege is like a fly trapped in a glass window.

Maybe the title of this book "Peach Blossom Tribulation" can better explain the purpose. I just don't like things that are too direct. Maybe "Catch a Fat Bear as a Slave" is exactly what I want to express. killed innocent people.What else can there be but self-repentance?If God can forgive that ignorant young man back then, who can forgive all the tragedies and divorces caused by not being able to accept the same?

Perhaps life has experienced ups and downs, and the only thing that comes to mind is hiding.

The big hermit hides in the court, the middle hermit hides in the city, and the small hermit hides in the wild.I can't talk about hiding in the court, I have never held an official position, and I can't talk about hiding in the city. I have never been a merchant in the city. Maybe I have some relationship with Xiaoyin, after all, I walked out of the wilderness.I also want to hide, but I am too small to deserve the word "hidden".

Everyone has their own experiences and struggles, but each person's taste is different.

In fact, I had two options to choose from when I came back from Guangdong: one is to become a monk, with green lights and yellow scrolls, cassock and wooden fish, and end this life.The second is to get married, have children, support the elderly, and waste time.I chose the second path, just because I have many unfulfilled wishes in the mortal world. Maybe one day I will really convert to Buddhism. Looking back, it turns out that Ah Xiong has also had this and that.

A hut with half-walled green lights.Pick up the light to brighten the room, and dip in the pen to write quickly.Scenes of the past events are also engraved with the handwriting of walking. Looking back at the wife and children, they have fallen asleep peacefully.

Life is like an illusion, the grass and trees fall in autumn, and a hundred years of life is nothing but wind and dust, rising and falling from time to time.The wind cleared, and everything unfolded as before.When the scrolls of history are blown by the wind, when the familiar faces are all obsolete one by one, under the alternating pictures, who still remembers or hates that bear?

(End of book)