Catch a fat bear as a slave

After walking all over the villages in Wuwei, I just searched aimlessly, hoping to meet Pingyuan in a certain corner.

Reality is always so cruel.I spent two months obsessively in Wuwei.His hair was full of lice, his clothes stank, and the gray duck down showed black cotton wool.The beard was black and unkempt, covering half of his face.I don't have a single copper plate on my body.I picked up a coin at the end of the street, and I remembered that I hadn't contacted my family for two months.

When the phone was dialed, I just called my mother, and there was a lot of crying from the other end.My mother called the phone again, crying and berating her son's unfilial piety.I just listened numbly.

It was still my old-fashioned father who was calm-headed and blamed my mother, saying that he was too busy talking and delayed the business.

When my father told me about it, I almost fainted when I heard it.

After receiving the remittance, he rushed home non-stop.

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Jingchao is dead!

Is Jingchao really dead?

Jing Chao is really dead!

That night, there were thunder and lightning and heavy rain, as if telling a sad and sad story.

My hands were shaking, and I could no longer write the words "Jingchao, my brother". The tears were like torrential rain outside, and I couldn't help crying heart-piercingly.I beat myself desperately, I was the one who killed Jingchao, I was the real executioner.

My mind is full of his shadow, and I am living in his shadow now, my trembling hands are moving.

Jingchao my brother:

I don't know if you still know that I call you that.I really don't know what to say, as I just wrote this, the tears started to fall again.

I didn't expect that rudeness to have such a big impact on your life. You actually rejected the opposite sex and waited for a love that was given to you.You are really stupid, and it is your stupidity that makes me want to die.

Looking at familiar and unfamiliar faces, everything is so real and so ethereal.At your funeral, the one who cried the most was your mother, who passed out several times.It is the most painful thing in life to send a white-haired person to a black-haired person.But you cruelly abandoned your mother who gave birth to you and raised you for more than 20 years, and you also cruelly abandoned me, hiding in a place where no one can find you, and wandering alone.

Jingchao, you are a coward!I want to beat you up and teach you a good lesson, why did you leave so selfishly?But you never give your brother a chance, never again!

A pinch of powder ash explains everything about you. At your age, you can't even enter the grave of your ancestors, but you made your choice without any scruples!

Today is Ching Ming Festival, so it will be almost six years since we last met, right?Wondering if someone will clean the house for you?Are you okay in heaven?Is it cold there?Put on more clothes, don't freeze!Is there enough money to spend?Don't wrong yourself!

Looking at your last words, what else can I say?Why are you so stupid, why did you hang yourself on a tree?Besides me, you can choose other people. You know that I have never given you a chance, just because I want you to die!You stubborn, what do you want me to do?

What about Sauvignon Blanc?What do you mean life after life?And now, where are you?Who am I longing for?Who am I living with?You speak like a gust of wind blows, and when it blows away, there is nothing left, but you leave it to the person you love the most, but it is eternal pain. Don't you feel guilty at the end of the world?

You actually lied to me, saying that you are in a relationship, but in fact you are not at all.But I don't know if you are real or fake.You just made me make up my mind to repeat my studies and get into a good university. How would I know your intentions?Do you know how much I hated you then?I suspect that you are a white-eyed wolf, with begging eyes, taking advantage of my weakness to deceive my feelings, but now everything is clear, it is too late, who should I tell?

Ten years of life and death are boundless, without thinking, unforgettable!

I originally thought that after entering the university, we would be separated from each other, and no one would care about the other.But why do you want to ask me around and contact me?Why revisit old dreams?Do you know, at that time I just still regarded you as a plaything, even if you were sincere, I would not accompany you.Ah Yong, who was a soldier, came back to find me, and I was crazy with him all night, but I said in the letter that I was talking about a girlfriend, and I just warned you not to come to me in the future, even if there is friendship, it is just brotherhood at best. I won't give you another chance.I would rather live in a world without feelings.

I secretly cursed you in my heart as an emotional liar, but in fact I am a vicious liar.

I try my best to please Xiaowen, just to prove whether I like men or women?She is very good, just like you, very simple, I won her heart with sweet words, when she was most helpless, I gave her hope, and at the same time destroyed this bud that was about to bloom, you don’t even know Ah, Jingchao?When I had sex with her, she tried her best to push me away, saying that she hadn't reached this point yet, but seeing her, I thought of you, and she couldn't let her say it. I did it to her, and then she cried bitterly, and I said will be responsible for her.After a long time, I kicked her away again. If you knew this, you would definitely call me a beast. Maybe you don't think I'm worthy of your love again, so you won't cause the worst ending!

I have seen naive people, I have never seen a naive person like you, why do I say that my money was stolen on campus, and living expenses are all problems.You learned the news more urgently than I did. You tried to call me 200 yuan, and you called me repeatedly to ask if it was enough.Don't you think about it, even if it was stolen, wouldn't there still be teachers, classmates, and my parents?Besides, I wasn't stolen, it's just that I used it elsewhere. You know what I usually do, and you really treat me like your own brother!

I lied to you time and time again, why do you pretend it didn't happen?

To be honest, since I went back during the holiday, my mother went to your county to have an operation, and you took care of her in every possible way.The patients in the ward thought you were her son, but I just took time to visit and do my own private affairs in my spare time.When my mother came back, she was moved and cried bitterly. She said she wanted to recognize you as a godson, but I refused.I know, I'm not as good as you, silly brother, my heart is full of flesh, how can I have no feelings for you?

Maybe it was the time you came to our school to find me that made you make a complete decision not to love anyone else in this life.Do you know, brother Jingchao, for someone like me who can't stand loneliness, I won't let go of any chance when someone is by my side at night?I know I drank some wine and talked some nonsense. Although I like you too, I will not choose you to be my life partner.This is my oath, the irrefutable truth that I insisted on at that time!

Your every move moved my brother, I love you too!I know how much you want to say these words from your brother. I have always been so stingy. Until the moment you left, I didn’t hear my brother say it. If you hate my brother, just punch me a few times. Let you fight, but you will never be able to raise your fist.

I know the fact that I'm getting married is a shock to you, brother is an emotional coward who just wants to make a fool of himself.Even though I like you and love you, I still dare not give you a lifetime of happiness. I am not as courageous as you, and it is precisely this that directly caused you to fall out with your mother, because your mother has been urging you to get married.

Silly brother, why do you insist on climbing?You usually turn pale with fright when you see a hunting dog. Is it to prove your courage, or to get rid of all the confusion?But the moment you fell off the cliff, it completely shattered my brother's heart!I don't know who to entrust my love to?

Now, I am sitting by the computer, engraving everything I have for you with the beating of the keyboard.

Only now do I understand that I have always said that my most unforgettable love is for this person and that person. In fact, Jingchao, you are the most important love in my life.

Maybe one day, I will look for you at the mouth of heaven. I don't know if you will wait for this elder brother who has hurt you, ridiculed you, ridiculed you, liked you, but never dared to accept you?

I think if I want to drink Mengpo soup before reincarnation, at least I want to see you.

How far the road to heaven is, I don't know.I just want you to remember that my brother loves you too!Today, I am tired of looking for bear love, if there is an afterlife, I will choose to be with you!My brother was already tearing up and didn't know what to say!

love you brother

Axiong

Ching Ming Festival