Ten years to feed the dog

That was the second year that Yao Liang and Zhang Yiwen separated.

Yao Liang broke his promise. He didn't keep his promise with Zhang Yiwen to take good care of himself and live a long life.

Thinking about it, his life is really useless. He met Zhang Yiwen in high school and fell in love with this person. As a result, his life has come to an end, and he still likes this person.

In the year after breaking up with Zhang Yiwen, Yao Liang's life was neither good nor bad, that is, he cooked and fried at home a few times, was late for work a few times, and had a few fevers due to drunkenness.

Getting used to it is just a small episode in life.

As for Zhang Yiwen, Yao Liang could hear news about him from Liu Ning from time to time. He heard that he had become a workaholic, and that his subordinates were miserable every day.

Then I heard that Wang Xusheng went to Australia, Zheng Qi seems to have followed, and I heard that Liu Ning and Chen Lin are also together.

Yao Liang didn't have any idea after hearing this, he just thought how to get there is a pair.

Life is still very ordinary, with small waves from time to time, as always, it seems that breaking up with Zhang Yiwen is not a big deal, it is just a side effect of insomnia, and it will pass.

The real bad luck happened in the second year after Zhang Yiwen and Yao Liang broke up.

In the first half of that year, Yao Liang lived very smoothly. He was promoted in the company, and the projects he handled went smoothly. Life seemed to be slowly getting on the right track, and everything went too smoothly.

Thinking about it now, it's just a flashback.

The July days in the south are very hard, let alone outside, even if you stay inside without turning on the air conditioner for a while, the sweat will flow like a gate, sticky and greasy, coupled with the heat When I came up, the whole person was dizzy.

Yao Liang is in such a situation now.

The air conditioner at grandma's house has been broken for the past few days, and the repairman will not come until tomorrow, so Yao Liang can only sit at the dining table, eating with one hand and wiping his sweat with the other.

"Yao Yao, do you know the granddaughter of Grandma Zheng who is studying abroad next door? I heard that she is coming back this year. Hey, I saw her today. She is so cute, you say... .”

"Grandma, you have come back from studying abroad, and your grandson is already in his thirties."

Ever since the old man fell and injured his leg, he was keen to find a wife for his grandson. Whenever Yao Liang came home, he would immediately arrange a few blind dates for him, but Yao Liang had never been there.

Yao Liang was a little speechless about this, but he couldn't say anything harsh to the old man, so he had to push it every time the old man mentioned it.

"Hey, look at what you said. You also know that you are over thirty. If it were our age, we would have several children."

The old man's tone was full of hatred for iron and steel, and he almost put down his chopsticks in a hurry, stood up and lectured to Yao Liang.

"Mom, you also said it was our age, Yao Yao is so old, he will figure it out."

The woman saw Yao Liang's expression more or less impatient, so she acted as a peacemaker and told the old man not to be so anxious.

"Well, if he can figure it out, can I worry so much? Both of you, mother and son, seem to be in no hurry, but I'm the only old woman who is in a hurry. If I want to hug a great-grandson, I'm afraid..."

"grandmother."

Yao Liang obviously didn't like to hear the old man's words, so he also stopped his chopsticks and interrupted the old man seriously.

Knowing that he was wrong, the old man stopped talking and continued to eat. For a while, the atmosphere at the dinner table became awkward in silence.

"Speaking of studying abroad, did Grandpa Chen's grandson just come back from abroad?"

The woman glanced at the expressions of the two, perhaps feeling embarrassed, so she changed the subject and broke the silence.

"That's right. When I went for a walk in the park these days, I still looked at Grandpa Chen, but when he mentioned his grandson, he became annoyed and left without saying anything."

The old man was also happy that someone would break the silence, so he followed up on what the woman said.

"So strange? When I went grocery shopping a few days ago, I heard Mrs. Chen say that her son is back. Her grandfather was very happy."

The dinner table became lively again, the two of them chatted about their parents' affairs while Yao Liang listened silently while eating.

"I heard that it was because the child said that he would marry a man and live in a foreign country when he came back. Grandpa Chen was so angry that he almost broke the child's leg."

It really is which pot is not opened and which pot is lifted.

Yao Liang's whole body visibly froze. The old man didn't pay attention to what he was saying, but the woman did. She pursed her lips and looked at Yao Liang, as if she was thinking about something.

"Hey, I worked so hard to grow up a child, but in the end... ended up getting together with a man... Isn't that a crime?"

Hearing the dislike and dissatisfaction in grandma's words, Yao Liang was numb from head to toe, panicked and sweated more and more. He couldn't take it anymore. He just wanted to change the subject quickly, but he said nothing. Can't say it.

"It's against morality for a man to like a man. It's not normal."

"Why is it abnormal?"

Yao Liang's voice trembled, and he almost used all his strength to suppress his trembling and stiffness. The old man was still denouncing how abnormal this matter was, so naturally he didn't notice Yao Liang's strangeness.

"Does it need to be said, how do men carry on the family line together? The older generation also said that there are three kinds of unfilial piety, and the greatest thing is to have no offspring. This is unfilial, immoral, and abnormal."

"That's right, and it's disgraceful to spread these things, and you'll be pointed at for the rest of your life, why bother?"

The woman also joined the conversation, looked directly at Yao Liang, and spoke slowly.

On a hot day, Yao Liang shuddered for no reason when he heard the conversation between the two. He looked at the grandmother and the woman in fear, and felt chills after vicious words from their mouths.

The high temperature in the room is intertwined with the chill in the body, and the emotions are on the verge of losing control:

"Enough! Don't say anything about normal or abnormal."

Yao Liang's big reaction undoubtedly shocked the two people at the dinner table, and they all looked at Yao Liang.

"Yao Yao, why is your face so pale, are you feeling unwell?"

The old man asked about Yao Liang's physical condition with a worried face, but Yao Liang turned around and left as if he had seen a ghost.

After closing the door and entering the elevator, Yao Liang leaned against the corner of the elevator as if he had lost all strength, gasping for breath again and again, like a person who has been deprived of oxygen for a long time.

He knew that it was impossible for grandma to accept homosexuality, and he never had any hopes for it.

It's just that when I really heard the bad words from the person closest to me, even if the target wasn't him, I still felt pain in my heart. After I reacted, I realized that my face was already covered with tears.

Why does he like boys, why there are so many so-called "normal" people in this world, but he was chosen to be an "abnormal" person.

Yao Liang has been asking himself these questions ever since he knew he liked boys.

When he grows up, he knows that there will be no answers to these questions, and what he has to do is to keep this matter as a secret and let it rot into his stomach. Bachelor's ready.

Even when Zhang Yiwen told him that he would live his whole life, he never thought about coming out with his family, but just now, maybe because of the heat, he just wanted to tell the secret and tell his grandma about himself A good grandson is someone who she says is abnormal, immoral, and unfilial.

Yao Liang thought to himself that he had never done any good deeds or evil deeds in his life, but just because he liked men, even the right to introduce the man he liked to his family and receive blessings from his relatives was denied in this life Go, isn't it too much.

Yao Liang was sitting in the gazebo in the park, beside the beer bottles that were tilted here and there, he drank one bottle after another as if he was dying, probably because he was tired from sitting, he stood up again and continued to drink while walking.

Yao Liang's 1.8-meter tall figure dangled on the street, naturally conspicuous, and attracted many passers-by to turn their heads to look at the drunken state of this drunk man.

Bad luck often happens when people are least prepared.

Who would have thought that Yao Liang would still be so unlucky until his death, even though he passed a green light, he could still run into a drunk driver.

The flashing white headlights, screeching brakes, and exclamations from passers-by all happened within a few seconds. Yao Liang was knocked into the air by a huge impact, and then fell heavily on the ground. on the ground.

The asphalt beneath him was stained with blood, and only through Yao Liang's open eyes and the occasional movement of his fingers could he be sure that this person was still conscious.

Frame after frame of memories flashed through my mind, and finally it was only fixed on the figure of a person. That person's golden hair was fluttering in the wind, and he was too flamboyant.

Zhang Yiwen.

It was these three words again, Yao Liang raised one corner of his mouth slightly, and smiled with difficulty.

It turned out that in this life, at the end, he was still so nothing, he didn't think about his family, the money in the bank, or himself.

The only thing I think about is him, I want to look at him again, I want to go back to the summer of 2008 with him, I want to hear him sing that English song again.

It seems a pity that it is really a pity to die like this.

It was obviously a stuffy summer day, but Yao Liang felt a gust of hot wind blowing over his face for no reason, just like the hot wind that blew when Zhang Yiwen confessed his love to him that summer.

It seems that he really has come to the end of his life, Yao Liang thought, his consciousness gradually faded away with the siren of the ambulance and the hot wind.

The hot wind is blowing, the cicadas are singing, the old fan in the classroom is creaking and turning, the scorching sunlight in the afternoon is half covered by the shade of the trees outside the window, and it falls scattered on the desks and chairs in the classroom, falling on the boy's side. On the shoulder of the school uniform.

"I like you."

This time he wants to confess his love before the boy, and this time he doesn't waste any more time entangled.

Yao Liang looked up at the young man in front of him in astonishment, he smiled, and the young man was taken aback for a moment, then smiled too.

Wang Xusheng's booing came from outside the door, and the ears of the two were red from the booing, but they still held hands tightly and walked toward the door.

As the voices of the teenagers faded away, only the sound of hot wind and cicadas remained in the classroom.

In the end, everything fell silent.