That's it

After the lonely copy disappeared for a while, Xiang Ping returned to the chat room due to loneliness, and dared to appear in the chat room in the province.I met a lot of people very quickly.Chatting every day enriches the nightlife.Occasionally, Xiangping would review their chat records from beginning to end.He can still clearly feel that Gu Ben once liked him.But after all, he disappeared again, living a happy life with his BF.

Su Ran arrived in Harbin after Chinese New Year.After the new year, Xiang Ping also finished his work, and he couldn't wait to go to Harbin.On the one hand, Su Ran is here, and on the other hand, Xiangping knows many gay friends from this province, and it is only possible to meet in Harbin.Out of curiosity, he met four of them in a short period of time. He had sexual fantasies, but they would not have sex. He wanted to meet real people like him.The other party disappointed him, one had seen it on the video, and the other didn't even know what it looked like.Let him feel disappointed, and seeing the other party's lust, he doesn't even want to drink more wine.Until An Rui's appearance moved Xiang Ping's heart.

The library is Xiangping's favorite place, not only there are many books there, but also the tranquility there makes Xiangping feel comfortable.After reading the book all afternoon, I walked out of the city library with a headache that would explode.A blood donation car was parked at the door, and Xiang Pingxin wondered if the blood pressure might be too high, releasing some could save lives and relieve headaches.It really didn't hurt that much.

Meet An Rui tonight.At first glance, he was a middle-aged man who was nearly forty years old, with a tough temperament. He looked very sunny, calm, and qualified. The most important thing was that he immediately reminded Xiang Ping of Gu Ben.Sitting in the restaurant, An Rui took off his coat. The sweater vest and light blue shirt inside matched Wu Tong almost exactly.The content of the chat also made Xiang Ping comfortable, unlike the previous chats where the topic of sex was brought up.His meticulous care further promotes Xiangping's goodwill towards him.They each drank six bottles of beer.When walking on the road and about to break up.An Rui looked at Xiang Ping with longing eyes.

"Can I give you a hug?" An Rui said.

"How is this possible? This is the main street." Xiang Ping looked around and said in a low voice.Never thought about opening a room.

"Small sample." An Rui touched Xiang Ping's head and said with a warm smile.Then he flagged a taxi for Xiang Ping.

"Call me if you want to drink. Be careful on the road." An Rui said with a smile.

After getting in the car, Xiang Ping's dying heart had a little movement because of him.smiled.He tried hard to emphasize that he was different from Gu Ben, more masculine than Gu Ben, and he was not Gu Ben.After thinking about it, it becomes a lonely copy.

Anrui would send messages to Xiangping when he was free, and sometimes make phone calls.In the communication, Xiangping will never allow himself to be unreserved again.

I met Su Ran once when I came here, but I haven't seen each other half a month later.Xiang Ping couldn't think of any reason to ask her out.Then there is no reason to make an appointment directly.Anyway, his boyfriend doesn't live with him, she shares a house with her college classmates.Unexpectedly, Su Ran agreed happily and willingly.

"What are you wearing? Are you pregnant? And this color, it's so ugly." Xiang Ping said with a happy smile when he saw her at the bus station for the first time.

"Is it ugly? I think it's pretty good. It's so sad, how precious is it?" Su Ran said while pulling her clothes and pouted.

"Stupid. It's okay, it's pretty good-looking, am I kidding you?"

"Oh! You always tease me, and I always believe what you say."

I didn't know what to eat, so I went to the supermarket and bought two boxes of ice cream, and ate them while walking on the street in the cold winter.If the heart is hot, it will not feel cold.It was another happy night, Xiang Ping always looked at her without paying too much attention, whether it was eating or talking, he was so comfortable.After sending Su Ran back, she lost and surrounded Xiang Ping cruelly.It was empty, and it was not too late, he wanted to walk back to Xiang Hong's house quietly by himself.After Su Ran arrived in Harbin, he felt better, which was not enough to relieve Xiang Ping's pain, and Xiang Ping was even more confused about his feelings.Knowing that they should let go of Su Ran and Gu Ben, the two of them engraved it deeply in their hearts, and engraved it repeatedly every day.An Rui appeared again, he was very similar to Gu Ben, and after the first meeting, the information was always cared just right.

When meeting An Rui for the second time, Xiang Ping originally wanted to repay the favor he had invited him to dinner last time, and wanted to see him even more.It's very comfortable to be with him, but he is a married person. The last time I heard him tell some stories about himself, it seems that the married life is not happy. What's more, they don't even have a child at this age, and they have almost no sex life.There is very little communication, and the marriage is just painfully maintained.This time Xiang Ping told him about his emotional world.I don't want to hide too much from a sincere person, especially emotionally.An Rui listened very carefully, but comforted Xiang Ping with a faint smile.After drinking a lot of wine, both of them were a little shaky when they walked.An Rui quietly settled the bill again.It was late at night, and there were very few people on the street.An Rui suddenly hugged Xiang Ping, wanting to kiss.

"Hey! What are you doing? Don't make trouble." Xiang Ping kept the distance between them with his arms.

"Let me kiss you." An Rui smiled lightly, his eyes focused.

"Release!" Xiang Ping's face suddenly turned cold, and his tone became even colder.

An Rui let go of Xiang Ping slowly.The atmosphere became awkward.A taxi just came.Xiang Ping stopped the car.

"You go first!" Xiang Ping said a little bit ashamedly looking at his remorse.

"Get in the car. My house is in that building. It's very close." An Rui smiled and pointed in the direction of his house.

Xiang Ping nodded and waved goodbye to him.After getting in the car, Xiang Ping received a text message from him.

An Rui: I'm sorry.I drank a little too much and lost my composure, so don't take it to heart.

Xiang Ping: Don't overthink it.nothing.

An Rui: That's fine.Hope you are happy.Send me a message when you get home.

Xiang Ping recalled An Rui's impulsiveness, and Xiang Ping also wanted to kiss him, regretting whether his subconscious would hurt him.Ashamed of his usual care.

An Rui cared about Xiang Ping as usual.See you soon for the third time.This time, Xiang Ping was ready to meet him for the last time, because he regarded the other party as an orphan and didn't want to hide the other party.Also because he has a family.This time, Xiang Ping was also ready to sleep with him.

After drinking, the street is dark again.An Rui could see that Xiang Ping was about to restrain himself.Hugging Xiang Ping lightly in a corner, Xiang Ping was very nervous.They kiss affectionately.I've said enough before, so I shouldn't contact you again.After the kiss, An Rui held Xiang Ping's face and smiled forcedly.Xiang Ping didn't smile at all, and was still intoxicated by his lips and eyes.

"How about we go..." Xiang Ping said hesitantly.

"You go back. I have to go home." An Rui said with a steady smile.

Xiang Ping lowered his head and nodded slightly, then raised his head and gave him the same smile.Watched and kissed together.An Rui hugged Xiang Ping, and rubbed his ears together a few times.He hugged her tightly, and let go after a while.They looked at each other and smiled.After Xiang Ping reluctantly got into the taxi, he was still reminiscing about his numb lips. This was an unprecedented feeling. He didn't feel disgusted by kissing a man, but it felt wonderful.The beautiful first kiss with a man made him haunted by dreams.When I opened my eyes the next day, my lips were still numb. This feeling is so good and really sad, after all, I have already agreed not to contact you anymore.

After the fragile Xiang Ping separated from An Rui, he wanted to go home again, also in order to leave Su Ran.On the other hand, he was not in the mood to find a stable job.

Every day, he repeatedly recalled the last communication with the lonely copy. Because the four words of reality made him sober, he thought about many factors that led to the inability to be together.I also thought about a lot of pessimistic reality, Guben is both rich and attractive, and I have nothing but youth.

The weather is getting warmer and warmer, Xiang Ping's heart is getting quieter, and more and more smiles should be seen on his face.The worries in my heart have not disappeared, and more have been transformed into good memories.The pain of the past is not taken seriously when he thinks about it, and every time it appears, he will think of the good things that he had at that time.Faintly, there was a burst of relief from the bottom of my heart until the corners of my mouth changed slightly.

After returning from the new year, he was no longer used to expecting the lonely copy at night, maybe he would never appear again, and the head portrait never appeared again.The chat records made Xiangping gradually realize that Gu Ben's kindness to him was not just a momentary vent of loneliness.

Guben: Long time no see.

Xiang Pingxin was shocked, but it wasn't too strong.Looking at the flashing head portrait, he smiled slightly.

Ping Ping: Long time no see.

Gu Ben: Are you okay?

Ping Ping: okay, how about you?

Gu Ben: I'm fine.

Ping Ping: It's good to see you.You disappeared for a long time.

Gu Ben: Do you miss me?I miss you.

Ping Ping: I thought about it.Now it's not like back then when I couldn't see you and would feel uncomfortable and go crazy, I'm used to it, ha ha.

Guben: Do you have a BF?

Ping Ping: No.I've seen a few.

Guben: Did it happen with a man?

Ping Ping: No, I drank and chatted.

Gu Ben: I don’t even like it, why don’t you give it a try?

Ping Ping: I like one, only he has met more than once, he is similar to you in some ways.

Gu Ben: Can you see if you can?

Ping Ping: Aren't you afraid to see my restlessness?I am more handsome than before.

Gu Ben: I haven't been restless for a long time, my heart is old and I can't move anymore.It used to be several times a day, but now only once a few days.

Xiang Ping sent the video.It's hard to explain the wonderful feeling when two people appear on each other's screens, and they both feel brighter than usual when they smile.

Ping Ping: You have aged a lot, not as energetic as before, but your charm remains the same.

Gu Ben: A person ages quickly, if I can be with you, I will stay young forever.

Tranquility: If I can be with you, I can always laugh.

They all had a good laugh.

Gu Ben: I really want to go to the northeast to see you.

Gu Ben's smile froze, his eyes fixed on the screen, at this moment he looked like a photo.

Ping Ping: OK.hehe.

The changing smiles of the two made them no longer want to take it seriously.Worried about going back to the old ruts in earnest.

Gu Ben: You won't give it to me, just like the few you've seen didn't get you, if it were me, I'd be pissed off.I will definitely be the overlord.

Ping Ping: You are different, I am afraid that you are the one being raped.

Gu Ben: Why don't you give it a try, to be honest, I dare not touch you, I can't afford to hurt you.

Ping Ping: If the purpose is to meet, I may be interested, if the purpose is for sex, I will be confused.

Gu Ben: Haha.

Ping Ping: I can always think of the past when I chatted with you.It felt childish and ridiculous at that time.

Gu Ben: I forgot all about it.

Ping Ping: I have a good memory.

Gu Ben: Do you dare to do it again now?

Ping Ping: The result is not the same.Due to reality, these four words have a great influence on me.

I haven't waited for a long time for Guben to reply.His smile seemed to freeze.

Jingpingping: It's getting late, I should go to bed, and you should go to bed early too.

Guben: It's only after eleven o'clock.

Ping Ping: I go to bed very early every day now.Chat another day.

Gu Ben: Okay, good night.

Jingpingping: Talking like this is no different from seeing you in a dream.

Orphan: See you in a dream.

Ping Ping: See you in your dream.

Xiang Ping was evading on purpose.I turned off the computer and my heart was still excited.He knew very well that if he continued, the mentality he had recovered after so long would collapse again.

The next day, Xiang Ping thought that his appearance would last for a few more days as before.Unexpectedly, the avatar never lit up again.

Another half year passed.The avatar that Xiang Ping was used to seeing, after struggling for a long time, finally deleted him. There are very few friends in QQ, so it is hard not to look at his avatar, or get used to looking at it deliberately.Copy to Ping saved the chat history.Keep him in memory ever since.No more longing, and no more chances to fantasize about possibilities.

Su Ran took the initiative to contact Xiang Ping many times, and Xiang Ping replied selectively.The content of the reply is getting simpler and simpler.Gradually, the contact between them became less and less.

After two years.It was only when Xiang Ping looked back at the chat records between him and Gu Ben that he realized Gu Ben's good intentions and intentions step by step.In many cases, only words cannot fully restore the complete story. The rhythm and attitude in the contact, every detail, and every sentence reminded Xiangping of the scene at that time, which made Xiangping feel very satisfied when he read the chat records. The feeling of love is worth the joy of the heart.Naturally, there is no more pain in the memory, only the smile that was born because of him.

Xiang Ping and Su Ran's boyfriend have had several contacts, and they feel happy together.Su Ran will be happy, her kindness has no reason to make her unhappy.Human nature is kind, when you treat people with kindness, the return will be kindness.The other party in interpersonal communication is not just a mirror, the other party's feedback towards you is exactly what you are in his heart.Don't attribute bad results to each other, to each other.