Just wait till you die

Sasuke gradually accepted his leadership of Jonin, and occasionally learned to take care of his teammates, especially Naruto. Because of Mito's escape, Naruto seemed eager to put his enthusiasm that had nowhere to vent, so Sasuke became an innocent substitute.After a period of time, Sasuke also started to talk about Naruto and shut up Naruto, and sometimes he mentioned his female teammate, and his life was happy.

Sasuke is taken care of by others, so I feel more at ease running around with Nanami. Asai is fighting for the chance to become a jounin, while Mito intends to work in Hokage Studio, and recently studied with his grandfather.We all had our own responsibilities and before we knew it, months passed by.

Lord Danzo found me again and invited me to join his roots, but I flatly refused.Same as the previous time, he didn't get too entangled, but finally said: "Your jonin is Nanami Mitsu, as I remember, he is a good subordinate."

I don't understand what he means, just wait till he's gone.Teacher Qihai and I mentioned this matter when we met back together, and he panicked immediately, ended our conversation in a hurry, and left the meatball shop.

After that, he didn’t see me again, and he stopped urging me to do tasks. When I saw him again, it was a month later. He was a little haggard, his eyes were dark, his hairstyle was a little bit loose, and his skin was much paler.

"Teacher?" I called him uncertainly.

He was in a daze for a second or two before saying, "It's Xiyin."

We went to Hokage's office together to get a new mission.This is an A-level latent mission, and Mr. III confirmed again and again: "Mitsu, there are only the two of you, and you are not fully sure, so don't take it lightly."

Nanami insisted on taking this task. He was so stubborn that he almost knocked over Sandaime's table during the dispute—the honest man had a sudden attack, and Sandaime was also taken aback. Finally, he compromised.

I explained the family affairs to Sasuke clearly, because Sasuke seemed extremely impatient when encountering this situation more than once, "Understood, go home early."

On the way, Qihai walked very slowly, repeating the request to me over and over again, "I will complete the tasks in Yuyin Village by myself, and Xiyin will be responsible for meeting me outside the village, understand?"

I'm not good at lurking, so I naturally know that I shouldn't drag people down, so I promised over and over again: "Yes", "I understand", "I remember".

After we came to the Land of Rain, we found a hotel to stay in. After Nanami-sensei left alone, I lay down in front of the window and watched the outside environment.The new leaves were pattered and swayed by the rain. In this place full of water, it should be full of life, but there is a thick dead air hanging over the sky.

I closed my eyes and smelled the damp air, and my body seemed to be tainted with ominousness.

Familiar footsteps sounded outside the door, and when I heard the door being opened, Qi Hai looked at me solemnly, "Retreat immediately."

We left that rain country that day, and when we stopped to rest, I asked him what happened, but he didn't say anything and just handed me the water.

The cold liquid slid down my throat, Qihai stood in front of me with a desolate look, he seemed to say something, but I didn't hear it clearly, because my consciousness began to blur, like a manifestation of poisoning.

The world is plunged into darkness...

Someone was touching my eyes, and the cold fingertips gave me goosebumps.I wanted to wave away that troublesome hand, but I felt a numbness like an electric shock from my wrist. I was in pain, and woke up instantly, and saw Qihai who was so close.

He put his hand on my eyelids, and when he saw me open my eyes, he took his hand away and stood up, so that I had a chance to see my situation clearly.

We are in a forest, with no villages or shops in front of us.My hands and feet were tied together with a rope, my muscles were sore and numb, and the circulation of Chakra was also hindered. It was obvious that I had been anesthetized, and the person who administered the drug was standing in front of me, my teacher, Nanami Sanjin.

My consciousness was still in chaos, and I asked in confusion, "Teacher?"

"Don't call me teacher," Qihai said, her words were as cold as snow in winter, "You see, the current situation. Do you still think I am talking to you as a teacher?"

"puff"

Qihai finally discovered the omission in his operation, and kicked my stomach with such force that I almost vomited out, my eyes turned white, and before I could recover, my chest hurt, and there was a thorn in my stomach. It pierced my chest, and the sharp blade stirred in my flesh and blood. I grunted twice in pain and looked at him in surprise.

As if giving up on something, under my gaze, the last bit of hesitation in his eyes disappeared, and he said coldly: "You should die."

"You know? You are my biggest failure." He said, "All this time, I must keep an eye on your movements. better future."

He pulled out the kunai, blood was gushing from the wound, and the body heat was disappearing.He didn't think it was enough, so he came again at the same position on the other side. This time I was prepared, so I didn't even make a cry, but he still stirred the weapon and said:

"I've always envied Kakashi-senpai's eyes. They were gifts from his companions. Since the eyes of his companions are acceptable, the students' eyes are also acceptable, right?"

"Xiyin, you like my teacher very much, don't you? Would you like to give your eyes to the teacher?"

I laughed and snorted, not caring about the pain at all.

Maybe my performance was too calm, Qihai gave up tormenting me, looked at my bleeding wound, and said in a deep voice: "I forgot, have you gotten used to it? The life of being stabbed by relatives and friends According to the report, you were imprisoned by your mother for nearly a month, I remember that when you were seven years old... a child actually killed her mother."

In fact, no, the real Uchiha Xiyin has been tortured to death by her mother. The person who killed the mother of this body is me, a foreign consciousness.

I close my eyes.

"Since then, your personality has changed a lot, and you often stay with Uchiha Itachi."

I was wrong, it was Itachi and Zhishui who came to me with a stern face, and I pretended not to refuse their kindness in order to survive.Later, later on, I really survived, living like a moth that is struggling to survive until now.

The blood was bleeding so badly that I started to feel cold, I shivered, and my teeth chattered from the cold.

"Tell me, what does it feel like to kill your own mother?" He lifted my chin with Kunai, his black eyes were full of what I am now: covered in blood, tied to a tree trunk, helpless because of anemia panting.I'm like a dying dog, dirty and weak.

I don’t remember what it was like to kill my mother. I did open the Kaleidoscope Sharingan because of the murder, but it was not because the murderer was my mother. It was purely the fear of killing that stimulated my nerves.At that time, I didn't even know who she was, I only knew that she was torturing my body, I was dying, and I was going to kill her... Afterwards, I had the Kaleidoscope Sharingan.

Mother killing is a shameful thing, even if the victim is me, so in the next few years, both my initiative and the deliberate actions of the tribe, I gradually alienated the crowd.Except for the patriarch's family and Zhishui, everyone wants me to die far away.

"Xiyin, you are the same kind of person as Uchiha Itachi, so the village has always been afraid of your existence."

the same kind of people?Because have we all killed our own loved ones?I'll forget it, you guys are also involved in Itachi's matter, right?Where do you stand to judge him as good or bad?

"I often think that if you can kill your own mother, you must be merciless to your teachers and teammates."

Qihai sat in front of me, let go of my chin, seemed to be thinking about something, after a moment of silence, he said again: "Why? I tried my best to help you become a member of Konoha, but I always feel Less than your love for the village."

why?Don't you all know the answer?

I don't think I'm too lazy to answer this question, but I also feel that if I continue like this, I will die without knowing it. I mean, until I die, no one will know how I feel alive, even Sasuke will only know a little bit about my feelings.

"Isn't it all obvious? I never believed in the village, just like the village never believed in me."

He was stunned.

"I know it all, those Anbu who watched me, and you...and what you did to Sasuke, you wanted to threaten me with Sasuke...and you, Jie, Futa, Konoha wanted to use things like bonds Trapping all ninjas, I know."

I knew it all, but I fell into it without knowing it.All along, I have been trying my best to please them, meet their expectations, and complete their targets. I can be a good student, a good comrade in arms, and a good subordinate and employee.why?I performed so well, but did I end up like this in the end?

"You succeeded." I murmured feebly.

I don't love Konoha, but that doesn't mean I won't cater to it for my teachers, teammates, and family.Just like now, even if Qihai treats me like this, I still can't bring up my hatred for him.

"Even if you kill me, I won't hate you, teacher."

In fact, I have been avoiding another cruel reality: my existence is not important to everyone, without me, they can still get out of the family carnival finale.

I looked into his eyes, trying to find a little shock, but he didn't show any flaws, it seemed that I was indeed a great burden to him.

The rain fell and poured on my body, the diluted red liquid dripped all over the ground, and Qihai and I were stained with a large amount of red.My eyes began to blur, and I seemed to see a trace of determination flashing across Qihai's face, and he said, "Then try it."

I was stabbed again in the stomach and I lost consciousness.