Explosive entrepreneurship

Taining District.

It is afternoon, the sun is soft, comfortable and pleasant.

Liang Junche stood outside Gou Dai's house, raised his hand several times and dropped it several times.

His head was in a mess, like a pot of thick porridge that had been boiled all night.

He just went to [Budai Company], but was told that the boss asked for leave in the morning and left without explaining where he was going.

Liang Junche struggled for a while, and finally came to Gou Dai's residence.

a long time.

Liang Junche, who had done enough psychological training, rang the doorbell, but there was no response.

Just as he turned around to leave, he heard a few meows coming from inside the poorly soundproofed door panel.

With Gou Dai's personality, he would not leave the cat alone at home.

Liang Junche took a deep breath and took out the key from his pocket.

This key was given to him by Gou Dai.He said that if he couldn't go back to school in time and didn't want to go home, he could stay with him overnight.

Probably in Gou Dai's impression, his home is a cold and heartless place.So he wanted to give Liang Junche a small but humane world.

If you die, you will die, and you must clear up the misunderstanding!It was because he hesitated for too long before that he created the irreparable situation now.

Liang Junche pushed open the door.

Sure enough, the man was there, sitting on a rocking chair on the balcony, looking up at the sky.

He seemed to have heard the sound, but he didn't turn his head, still slowly rocking on the rocking chair.

Liang Junche wriggled a little bit like a tortoise, as if a thousand catties of iron ingots were tied to his feet, and it took him a long time to reach Gou Dai.

Gou Dai stopped the rocking chair and stared at Liang Junche quietly.

Liang Junche has never seen Gou Dai's eyes like this, without the usual gentleness, anger, and bewilderment of lingering times, only calmness.

It was as calm as a faint moon, a pool of stagnant water.

Liang Junche felt very scared, unprecedentedly scared.

He swallowed a few times, rearranged the messy thoughts that had passed along the way, and tried his best to explain clearly and orderly, so as to gain the understanding of the person in front of him.

"I really didn't mean to lie to you. At first I just wanted to make a joke..."

"I thought about explaining it several times later, but I was afraid, afraid that if I was just an ordinary person, you wouldn't be special to me..."

"From the beginning to now, apart from this matter, I have absolutely nothing to hide..."

Liang Junche tried hard to speak, but his mouth was dry.

However, the person in front of him still had indifferent eyes, turning a deaf ear to it, as if everything he said had nothing to do with him.

Until Liang Junche couldn't move anymore.

After a long time, Gou Dai said softly: "Sit."

Liang Junche was very pleasantly surprised, he stepped forward in three steps and sat down beside Gou Dai.The body language habitually wanted to lean towards the other party, but backed away at the last second.

Between the rocking chairs that used to be intimate, there is a clear gap between them.

The rocking chair stopped, and the wind also stopped, Liang Junche felt that his heart would also stop.

He would rather be reprimanded by the other party than questioned by the other party.

Instead of saying nothing like this moment.

He cautiously and tremblingly glanced at the person beside him, and then followed the other person's gaze to look at the sky as clear as jade.

He heard the person beside him laugh, it wasn't a sneer, let alone cheerful, it was full of self-deprecating.

"What kind of person do you think I am?" Gou Dai asked suddenly.

Liang Junche searched his brains, wishing to take a Chinese dictionary and tell the other party all the compliments in the world.

Gou Dai interrupted him: "I used to receive the most comments, probably 'you are a very good person'."

If a man is classified as a "good person card", it is probably a sad reminder, which means that he may be useless except for being a good person.

But Gou Dai's good person card is real, even though he is handsome, elegant, talented, and outstanding, but the most intuitive feeling is that he is a good person.

He is good to everyone, even a cat, a dog.

It seems that he can always do well in any interpersonal relationship, do it in a subtle and thoughtful way, and understand people's hearts.

Make anyone feel comfortable with him and want to rely on him.

Gou Dai: "Let me tell you about my past."

Liang Junche bit his lower lip, thinking that he had deceived the other party's true feelings with a lie, he wished he could go back to that summer, pluck out the hair of the boy with colorful motley hair, pour out the water in his brain, and put it in his ear Cycle [-] times "Honesty is a beautiful quality of the Chinese nation."

Gou Dai didn't see his facial expression changes, and continued: "Actually, I really, really know how to please people, since I was very young."

Liang Junche didn't know what he meant, but suddenly felt a little sad.

Gou Dai: "When I was very young, I would think about my parents' thoughts, and hope that they would be more harmonious, and that they would not abandon this family. As a result, you know, I still became a child without a father or a mother."

"Then I was extremely rebellious for a while, until my grandparents showed up. That was probably the best time of my life. I started to learn how to be in harmony with the world, even though I was still seeking approval from others, and then lost Own."

"Later I learned that in psychology, this is called a pleasing personality. I have studied a lot of psychology books, trying to make myself a more ordinary person, but it seems that there is no way. Later, I got used to it myself, in fact It’s not a bad thing either. At least in terms of marginal benefits and social benefits, it’s all positive.”

After Gou Dai finished speaking, he was silent for a long time.

Liang Junche only felt that his heart was blocked and uncomfortable, and he was speechless.

But Gou Dai stood up, walked back to the living room, took a dozen cold beers, and handed a can to Liang Junche.

Liang Junche was overwhelmed by the flattery, and took it carefully.

Gou Dai put the cold beer on his forehead, not sure if it was to cool down, or he just wanted to calm himself down.

"I said before that I'm not the beautiful Yueji you imagined. I treat people well because I hope they can treat me well, at least not to hurt me. It's a habit, an instinct, a desire to survive, and It really doesn't matter."

"But for you, Liang Junche, there was a moment when I felt my true feelings. I didn't think about equivalent exchange, and I didn't think about energy conservation. You are indeed different from me. Maybe your experience and life will make me feel that you are right. Hello, you are making up for yourself back then."

"Maybe what I really love is myself."

It was the first time Liang Junche saw that the other party's fragile expression was like a dodder flower in a mirror, illusory and fragile.

Gou Dai opened the beer bottle and drank a can of beer in one gulp.

"The results of it?"

"A family of three traveling, but forgetting about you alone?"

"Not a single inheritance will be left to you?"

"Your brother took all your love?"

Every time Gou Dai said a word, the self-deprecation in his tone became stronger.

"I'm sorry...I'm sorry..." Liang Junche said sorry over and over again, except for apologizing, he couldn't say anything else.

Gou Dai laughed, and looked at him sideways, his eyes were as strange as a stranger who met by chance.

No.

Perhaps when facing strangers, Gou Dai's eyes would not be so indifferent.

"Have you ever heard the story of a boy slaying a dragon?" Gou Dai opened another bottle of cold beer and took a sip by himself.

The balcony is still the same balcony, the warm wind is slightly intoxicating, and the flowers and trees are fragrant.

However, Liang Junche felt as if he was in a closed and cramped room, the air was sucked out little by little, and it became more and more difficult to breathe.

Seeing that Liang Junche didn't answer, Gou Dai thought to himself, "If you fight the dragon for too long, you will become a dragon yourself; if you stare at the abyss for too long, the abyss will stare back."

Liang Junche didn't know what he meant, so he had to proceed cautiously: "Well, Nietzsche's philosophy has always been very negative."

It does not conform to the theory of positive energy conservation advocated by Gou Dai.

"I told you that I grew up in a deformed family. When I was fighting all the beasts, how could I not be swallowed by the abyss?"

Gou Dai looked at the gradually dimming sky in the distance.

"Until I met you, I seemed to have met my childhood self. I thought we could redeem each other. You can lead me out of my demons..."

The thick mantle of the night covered the rays of the sun, and the brilliance in Gou Dai's eyes gradually dimmed.

"It's just that I didn't expect that you are just a person watching a show by the abyss. Is it interesting to play me?"

Gou Dai's tone didn't fluctuate.

Liang Junche became more and more flustered, trying to grab something with his palm, but it was in vain.

"No...I didn't...I didn't mean it at first...I just wanted to make a joke at first..."

But because I was greedy for your tenderness and missed your kindness, I gave up the opportunity to clarify countless times.

Liang Junche also knew that his defense was feeble.

Gou Dai's can of beer bottomed out again, Liang Junche felt uncomfortable seeing it, he ran back to the kitchen, boiled a cup of hot water, and took a blanket, and then slowly walked back to the balcony like a condemned prisoner who misses the red dust.

Gou Dai still looked at the sky again, it changed from cloudy day to lonely night sky.

Another extremely long silence.

Gou Dai turned his head sideways again and stared at Liang Junche, which made Liang Junche flustered.

Different from the usual gentleness, there was also no inadvertent style. They were a pair of cold eyes, filled with suppressed anger and bottomless despair.

"Let's go..." Gou Dai's voice was weak.

Liang Junche didn't move. Although the other party's voice was light and light, it revealed the determination of bridge to bridge and road to road from now on.He stubbornly wanted to fight for a chance to be forgiven.

"I don't like to say the same thing a second time." In Gou Dai's expression, there was no usual gentleness at all.

Liang Junche didn't move, because he was horrified to find that if he couldn't ask for forgiveness, the two of them might, really, have nothing to do with each other.

Gou Dai dropped out of school, they are no longer seniors and juniors.

[Worry-free product] is sold, and they are not the relationship between investors and entrepreneurs.

"I'm tired." Gou Dai said lightly.

These three words were spoken very lightly, but they crushed Liang Junche's nerves after a day of dancing.

"Then you, rest first." Liang Junche thought for a while, then ran back to the kitchen, warmed up a simple bento, and then ran back to the balcony. "It's not good to drink too much. I've warmed up a meal. You have to remember to eat it."

Gou Dai was not moved, but just stretched out his hand.

"key."

Liang Junche's throat was sore, he wanted to say something, but he couldn't say it after all, so he put the house key in the other party's palm.

I have only owned this bunch of keys for two months.

Before turning around to leave, the two fat three flowers asked the shit shovel officer to stay, meowing and rubbing against his instep.

Liang Junche found the cat food, filled the food box, and watched the two cats shoving each other into the cat box, feeling more and more sad.

Liang Junche didn't recover from the trance until he got downstairs.

He walked downstairs in the community and looked at Gou Dai's apartment.

It is easy to identify which floor, because at this time, every household is lit with orange or fluorescent white lights, only Gou Dai's window sill is still dim, and a few flowers and trees stick out of the fence and hang on the dilapidated walls.

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balcony.

Gou Dai stretched his hand aside, only to realize that he had swallowed a dozen beers.

He can drink, but never excessively.But at this moment, he only thought about getting drunk to relieve his worries.

On the balcony floor, there was only the wine that Liang Junche opened but did not touch. Gou Dai was about to take it, when two playful cats rushed to the balcony and kicked the bottle over.

The rest of the beer gurgled out, dripping in a large swath on the tiles.

Fat Sanhua knew they were in trouble, and hid in the room with their tails between their legs.

He stood up, went back to the living room, and turned on the light.

Turn on the fully charged mobile phone, and hundreds of messages flood in.Gou Dai picked out a few important messages to reply, then threw the phone back to the coffee table.

He lay on the couch, staring blankly at the ceiling.

The bright chandelier can't illuminate a single bit of his heart.He seemed to be locked in a sealed room with no door or window, and the walls were covered with wet moss.

Does he really know nothing about Liang Junche?

Gou Dai asked himself.

the answer is negative.

Liang Junche's lies have never been impeccable, they can even be said to be full of flaws.

As smart as him, how could he be unaware?

He just made the choice that made him most comfortable.

It's as if he chose to turn a deaf ear to those inexplicable admiration. It's not that the love is unrepentant, and it's not that the heart is as hard as iron. It's just that he thinks that if the other party doesn't say anything and pretends not to know, both of them will be comfortable.If the other party confesses and refuses politely, he will not be disturbed, and he can have a clear conscience.

He's nothing more than a well-packaged egoist.

It's just that what's more pathetic than other egoists is that he deceives himself.

He is unwilling to confirm all the facts that make him feel scared, uneasy, and even uncomfortable. He is cowardly and pathetic. He needs someone to stand in front of him, tear down all the lies nakedly, and tell him to stop lying to himself , he is willing to come out of the package.

See devastation.

I saw that the built nest was torn apart.

There is nothing but desolation and malice in seeing oneself sinking beneath the abyss.

Perhaps compared to Liang Junche's deceit, what he hates more is the self he hates.

All the bad pictures in the past 20 years emerged one after another, playing in Gou Dai's mind like a revolving lantern.

Man is a strange animal, the pleasure of joy is always fleeting, but the nostalgia for pain can repeatedly poke open the scarred wound at every moment you want to remember.

Dim room with no lights.

Father's mean lips.

Mother's dull face.

Eggplant with excess cumin on the grill.

The jeers of the children.

The teacher looked with pity and disgust.

……

In the human world, there is actually no principle of energy conservation at all, because no amount of happiness can cover up any pain.

When the phone rang, Gou Dai glanced at it, a little surprised, it was Chang Ji.

He didn't pick up.

He feels so tired now that he can't speak.

After a long time, the other party seemed to know that Gou Dai was inconvenient to answer the phone, so he stopped the ringing and sent several messages.

Gou Dai opened it.

[Chang Ji: There will be no competitions for the next few days, so I'm going back to school. 】

[Chang Ji: I was just flipping through a book in the library, and I happened to find this sentence, and suddenly I was filled with emotion, and I really want to share it with you]

【Changji: Picture.jpg】

Gou Dai looked at the sentence circled by Chang Ji in the picture - "if wintercomes, canspringbefarbehind"

As we all know, "Winter is coming, can spring be far behind?"

【Chang Ji: Thank you for taking me out of that winter (cute face)】

Gou Dai stared at the screen for a long while, then turned off the screen.

He used to think that he and Liang Junche were two people who met in the cold winter and walked into the sultry spring together, even though they met in the scorching sun of midsummer.

They can read each other's sadness and loneliness, pain and anxiety.

He thought that the worst result was that they failed to continue side by side in the warm spring breeze, and they walked to the intersection and broke up with a smile.

However, Liang Junche, he is not a person in the cold winter, he is a messenger who came from spring.

Maybe it was a mistake, maybe it was watching a play, maybe it was curiosity.

And he thought he had met a fellow traveler.

Maybe it's attracted by the breath of spring on the other person, maybe it's coveting the warmth of the other person, maybe it's because the feeling of someone walking side by side is too exciting.

He deliberately ignored the other party's incompatibility.

Until the cold wind blew away the other party's clothes and told him that Liang Junche did not belong to his world.

The laughter from the spring is full of sarcasm: "Look, people in that winter look like idiots, everyone come and watch."

Accustomed to the cold, walking in the winter night is also numb, so I put on my cotton-padded clothes, light a fire for myself, and ask for a beam of light.

The most fearful thing is that you will enter into the illusion of warmth, thinking that from now on it will be Chunhe Jingming, you take off your protective clothing and extinguish the fire, but the world tells you: "You belong to winter, you can't get out of here of."

The phone on the coffee table vibrated again.

Gou Dai got up slowly, looking at the name on the call reminder, he was a little surprised.

It's a long lost friend.

Seeing no response for a long time, the other party sent a message.

【Bad mood?Do you want to eat barbecue? 】

Gou Dai pursed his lips, and after a while, replied [OK].

Just stay in the cold winter, and it's fine.