don't try to escape

The later time, even after many years, Lin Lin still has lingering fears when he thinks back.

Because of the wound in the mouth, at the beginning, he could only rely on infusion to maintain his life. The strength of his limbs seemed to be continuously deprived of time. His thoughts were always clear and chaotic at times, but without exception, he always heard the nightmare His "brother" haunts him, making him fearful even when he is awake.

Later, I recovered better, and I only ate some liquid food, but every time I swallowed it, I felt a terrible pain, which brought up the painful memory, and I often cried in the middle of eating.

During these dark days, Lin Lin had a very difficult time, he was always running, searching, looking for answers in his hoarse voice.

But what was the answer, his mind went blank, and panic enveloped him.

Although there are always people around him, he always feels lonely and desolate. When he wakes up in the middle of the night, any sound pricks him like a thorn, trying to curl himself up and escape from this place.

He became sensitive and afraid, and couldn't stand any louder voices. Occasionally, he heard the doctor and his mother say that he was a stress reaction after being stimulated, and he might be fine tomorrow, or it might be three months, or a year, or even It will never get better.

When he heard his mother crying, he also felt sad. He wanted to say that he was fine, but he couldn't pull up the strength.

Something is falling in his heart, sapping his will. He doesn't wake up much, and even when he is awake, he always feels very tired. He can start eating, but he is still very tired. He just lays down and stares out of the window in a daze. .

He didn't know how long he stayed in the ward, during this period Xiao Nan came twice.

One time, they took the people from the drama club and said that they had temporarily found someone to take Lin Lin's place, and told him not to worry and get well soon.

Once again, I took the whole class together, and everyone was looking forward to his quick recovery, and wrote him many letters, saying that the school’s phoenix flowers were blooming, that the school sports meeting was coming soon, and saying The aunts in the cafeteria were all asking where he had been, and they were talking about many trivial things that Lin Lin usually thought were insignificant.

It was written in a letter, but it made Lin Lin feel very precious, so precious that he even wanted to get out of bed and take a look.

Another day, the humidifier in the ward is still on tirelessly, so that the heated ward will not be unbearably dry.

Most of his physical injuries have healed, but he still doesn't speak very fluently, so he doesn't bother to open his mouth.

She became even more taciturn, lying on the hospital bed like a lifeless porcelain doll, and the woman couldn't help but turn red when she saw it.

Staying in the ward, Lin Lin didn't know that it was already the end of autumn outside.

When I walked out of the ward, I realized that I didn't wear enough clothes when I felt cold, but I didn't want to go back, so I just tightened the cloak on my body.

Most of the people in the hospital had met him face to face, especially the little nurses, who would rush in every now and then to take his temperature, feed him medicine, and occasionally pull him to talk when he was not busy. A few words.

But he was always not in high spirits, except for nodding and smiling, spit out one or two words occasionally, which was just the most common answer, but it always made the little nurse blush with excitement.

This has become the only joy in the monotonous days of this month.

"Cough cough cough."

Sure enough, he was wearing a little less. He just pushed open the door and walked out. The chill rushed up as if he had found a crack, and his throat felt itchy.

Because winter was approaching, the scene in the yard was bleak, and the number of patients who came out to let the wind out was reduced by half, making it even more deserted.

"Crench."

The dried leaves broke into several pieces as soon as they stepped on them, and piled up on other dead leaves, as if they had found their way home, but also seemed to have nowhere to go.

"Oh, why are you wearing so little!"

The person who spoke was very anxious, so he ran over quickly, took Lin Lin's hand and wanted to take him away, but he didn't pull it for the first time, which was a bit strange.

Usually, Lin Lin is very cooperative, whether it is taking temperature or drawing blood, there is no need to say a second time, he is obedient like a little angel, so the nurses like him very much, including the always grumpy head nurse, when facing Lin Lin , It is also rare to be gentle.

"It's windy outside, hurry in!"

The head nurse also has a child of this age, and they are all in school at this time, so seeing Lin Lin always looking sick, she is also very anxious.

She asked the doctor several times in private, when Lin Lin would be discharged from the hospital, and the doctor always said that it would be better to wait for him.

The head nurse has seen so many patients, it can be seen that Lin Lin's disease is not the body, but the heart.

But who knows where the heart medicine for Lin Lin's heart disease is?

However, Lin Lin was stubborn once in a while, as if he didn't hear the head nurse's words, and kept his eyes fixed on the front.

The head nurse felt strange and followed his gaze, but saw nothing.

Feeling that Lin Lin's hand started to get cold, the head nurse no longer tried to temper Lin Lin, but pulled Lin Lin back into the room with all her strength.

Speaking of which, Lin Lin is too thin, and has grown into a tall figure of about 1.8 meters, but he is probably not as heavy as her, and there is no half flesh on his face, which makes the three-dimensional facial features more eye-catching.

After finally persuading him to bed, he went out with peace of mind when he saw him sleeping peacefully. As soon as he went out, he saw someone who had been standing at the door for an unknown amount of time.

Speaking of this person, the head nurse also felt strange.

It seems that he and Lin Lin in it are brothers, and the relationship between the two was pretty good before.

When Lin Lin was not sober, he stayed in the ward day and night. Sometimes Lin Lin's mother was not in the ward, and he was not seen coming out.

Later, for some reason, I never saw him go in again, sometimes he just stood at the door like now

Sometimes she was looking at the ward here from the upstairs opposite, which she saw when she took Lin Lin's temperature sometimes.

It seemed like he didn't dare to come in.

There is still an overnight feud between the two brothers?

"To see your brother?"

The head nurse is an adult after all, and she doesn't think it's a big problem for children to be awkward.

"Every time you come, you don't go in and take a look. What are you doing just standing at the door? If you make your brother angry, you should go in and apologize. Your brother is a patient, so you have the nerve to wait for him to come and apologize to you?"

The elders always put on a preaching look, and this person was Lin Lin's younger brother, so the head nurse said a few more words, but the child didn't say a word, frowning as if he was embarrassed.

"Your brother is unhappy every day. I have never seen him smile. You are a younger brother. If you don't spend more time with him, who will accompany you? You don't want your brother to get better soon?"

The boy's expression relaxed a little, as if hesitating, the head nurse couldn't stand it anymore and opened the door.

"Go in quickly and accompany your brother..."

But when he turned his head, he found that the child was gone, and he became angry.

"I don't know how many people are in the hospital. They don't even have the chance to say the last word to their family members, and they are still fighting here!"

With a sigh of relief, he closed the door carefully and continued to search for a room.

The author has something to say: the depressive part will end soon~