Heartburn

It's normal to feel depressed when things come to an end, but it's ridiculous to say that Fu Nan'an will be overwhelmed by these few words.

It wasn't the first day that Fu Nan'an couldn't see him, and it wasn't the first time someone said that they were inappropriate. Fu Nan'an was learning to reconcile with himself after so long stumbling, not to mention that Chi Zhao had waited for him for so long and said that he loved him over and over again. Just to tell him that love will not change because of these external things, how could Fu Nan'an choose not to believe in him but in others?

In the past, Fu Nan'an did shrink back because of his eyes, but Chi Zhao was an absolutely brave and determined person. Fu Nan'an's whole heart had already been ignited by him, and he also had confidence in their relationship.

"I really can't do what you said." Fu Nan'an was only silent for a second before speaking in a very calm tone.He held the blind stick tightly with his fingers, his clothes were covered with dust from falling down, his eyes were foggy, but his expression was calm but firm, "I can't help Chi take medicine or help him walk. It's also a pity, very weak, I can't give him a lot of physical care, this is indeed my shortcoming, but it doesn't mean that our love will be discounted because of this, what I don't have for him, what he does for me nor."

A lover will care about you and take care of you out of love, but love itself is not as simple as taking care of you, nor is it because you can't take care of you for various reasons or you don't love.If you want to get the most authoritative and professional care, you only need to hire a nurse, but we are still looking forward to love and thirsting for love, because what we want is not these external things, but the kind of heart and soul. Heart blending and companionship.

Love is a weakness, but also an armor. Fu Nanan loves Chi Zhao, so he has so many "can'ts" but he still rushes to be by his side to accompany him. What he can do is very limited, but he still wants to give Chi Zhao a pair of gentle and firm hands when he needs it.

He gave it, and Chi Zhao wanted it too.

After Fu Nan'an and Mike finished speaking, they opened the door and entered the ward. Love is a private matter between two people. He didn't want to waste a second of time explaining in front of outsiders. He gently called "Chi Zhao", Chi Zhao's eyes Suddenly it lit up: "Professor!"

"Well, it's me." Following the voice, Fu Nan'an walked to Chi Zhao's side, threw away his blind stick, and stroked his body with both hands.

Fu Nan'an's heart almost stopped when he heard the muffled sound when Chi Zhao fainted. Now he was stroking Chi Zhao inch by inch, feeling the warmth and freshness of his body under his palm, and feeling the tenderness under his skin. The blood vessels are still pumping blood vigorously, but I still feel lingering fear.

"...Fortunately, it's okay." Fu Nan'an murmured in a low voice, his fingers were trembling uncontrollably, Chi Zhao's nose was sore, and he stretched out his arms to hug him.

"I'm fine, Professor, I'm fine." Chi Zhao comforted him repeatedly, he couldn't even imagine how Fu Nan'an came here, his body was covered with travel and dust, and there were several bumps on his forehead, the skin was already torn.

"Wait, there's still dirt on my clothes..." Fu Nan'an suddenly remembered something, and struggled to let go of his embrace, but Chi Zhao didn't want to let go at all.Instead, she hugged him even tighter, and pressed her head against his chest: "It's okay, professor, let me hug him for a while."

His head was buried in Fu Nan'an's arms, and he said in a muffled voice, "I'm fine now, I just want to hold you now."

Chi Zhao has just suffered a serious illness, and he is still weak after recovering from the illness. The soft ending sound is like a small hook that people can't refuse. Fu Nan'an doesn't want to refuse. Who can refuse when the lover he misses is by his side?Fu Nan'an tore off his coat and threw it aside, then hugged Chi Zhao with his backhand, and gently stroked the top of his hair: "Okay, hug me, I'll be right here with you."

Chi Zhao said again: "I still want you to kiss me."

Fu Nan'an smiled, and immediately kissed him on the top of his hair without the slightest hesitation.

The movements of the two are intimate, as if there is no one else around, and even the air seems quiet and peaceful.So Mike, who was still shouting and provoking just now, became a joke.

——So what if Fu Nan'an has so many "can'ts", doesn't Chi Zhao like Fu Nan'an and dislike him?

Mike stood there in embarrassment, not knowing what to do. When he saw Fu Nan'an making out with Chi Zhao, he coughed twice unnaturally. The two of them came to their senses and remembered his existence.

"Why are you still here?" Chi Zhao frowned, and reluctantly raised his head from Fu Nan'an's arms, his whole body was in a state of resistance. "Didn't I let you go just now? Why do you still bother me and my boyfriend?"

When Chi Zhao fainted, Mike didn't help at all. It was Chi Zhao's mentor who sent him to the hospital after seeing the news of Fu Nan'an.

Chi Zhao had already woken up when Mike came, and he was a few minutes earlier than Fu Nan'an. When Fu Nan'an was about to enter the door, Chi Zhao had just kicked him out of the ward, and the conversation just happened at the door of the ward.

When the three meet now, Chi Zhao's tone is very cold: "My boyfriend and I have a very good relationship, and you don't need to worry about it."

The sound insulation in the ward is not good. Chi Zhao heard the conversation between the two just now. If it wasn't because he couldn't get out of bed, he would have rushed out and scolded Mike. Fu Nan'an has a gentle temper, but Chi Zhao doesn't have such a good temper. , Fu Nan'an doesn't care about those gossips, but he can't stand his lover being hurt again and again.

"What does it have to do with you whether I am worthy of him or not? Who are you to me?" Chi Zhao still wrapped his arms around Fu Nan'an's waist, but his words were merciless. He directly asked the nurse to drive Mike out, saying Mike interrupted his rest.

Mike's voice is indeed too loud. He has been in a state of agitation and his voice is uncontrollable. When he questioned Fu Nan'an just now, several people in the inpatient building have already asked for advice. The nurse thought Mike was Chi Zhao. Her friend was about to politely remind them to keep their voices down, and now she heard Chi Zhao’s request, she didn’t need to be polite to Mike anymore: “Sir, the ward is a place for patients to rest, you have disturbed us patient, please leave here as soon as possible."

"I'm not, I'm just..."

Mike opened his mouth to defend himself, but the nurse didn't have time to wait for him, so he asked the security guard to take him away.

"Stop talking nonsense." Two burly security guards said, "We warn you, if you come again, we will report you for harassment."

The strength of the security guards is much stronger than that of Mike. Mike is really afraid of them, and he is also afraid of being harassed by the police. He was dragged by two security guards and quickly disappeared into the corridor of the ward. The nurse also left after a while. So the lively ward returned to its original tranquility, only Chi Zhao and Fu Nan'an were left.

When the nurse came just now, Fu Nan'an let it go because he was afraid of the bad influence, and now there were only the two of them left, Chi Zhao couldn't restrain himself anymore, the joy at the first meeting diluted everything, and now he recalled that Mike had slandered Fu Chi Zhao felt very worried and sad about Nan'an's words.

"Professor, ignore him." He wrapped his arms around Fu Nan'an's neck and kissed his lips, Chi Zhao kissed carefully, his lips touched Fu Nan'an's again and again, his breath seemed a little messy in the kiss, " Don't pay attention to him, it's not up to him whether I'm worthy of you or not, it doesn't matter what anyone says, only I have the final say."

Chi Zhao said firmly: "I say we are the best match."

Fu Nan'an smiled and said, "I know."

Love is a matter between two people, and it cannot be tolerated by others. Even if they are repeatedly provoked by Mike, Fu Nan'an and Chi Zhao's hearts are still connected.

For the next two days, Fu Nan'an stayed with Chi Zhao in the hospital. Chi Zhao's body hadn't fully recovered, and it would take at least half a month to recover, but this was already the best result.The doctor said that he shouldn't have any sequelae after he recovered, and thanks to his youth and strength, and thanks to Fu Nan'an's timely call to his mentor, there were no serious consequences.

"Don't do this again next time, I'm almost scared out of my heart by you." In the ward, Fu Nan'an told Chi Zhao more than once, until now he still feels scared, he really doesn't want to do it again.

"Professor I know, I promise I won't." Of course Chi Zhao understands Fu Nan'an's feelings, just looking at the marks of Fu Nan'an's bump when he came, he felt his heart was blocked, not to mention that Fu Nan'an heard him faint The feeling of falling down.

Chi Zhao raised his hand and assured Fu Nan'an: "After I leave the hospital, I will start to maintain my health. Is it okay to soak goji berries in a thermos? I'll drink it for you on the spot when I call you!"

"Okay." Fu Nan'an smiled and said, "Then I'll wait."

Every minute and every second of the two people's time together is full of warmth, but no matter how warm they are, there are still times when they are different.Fu Nan'an stayed here for three days. When he came, he didn't even have time to ask for leave. There were still patients waiting at the hospital, so he couldn't ignore it completely.

On the day before he left, Chi Zhao was able to get out of bed. He sent Fu Nan'an to the gate of the hospital. He promised Fu Nan'an that he would give him a healthy body after the Spring Festival. He said that he wanted to return to China during the Spring Festival. Fu Nan'an was gentle. Rubbing his hair carefully, said: "Okay."

There is still a month before the Chinese New Year, and Chi Zhao is already planning to go back for the Chinese New Year. This is an appointment they made when they came here, and it can be regarded as giving Fu Nan'an some new hope when he returns home.

Half a month later, Chi Zhao recovered and was discharged from the hospital. It happened to be the beginning of spring in the lunar calendar. Fu Nan'an sent a message to Chi Zhao: "The spring breeze is on the south bank of the river again. When will the bright moon shine on me?"

Wang Anshi's famous sentence hides the names of two people, and it is entrusted with concerns and thoughts. Originally, he hoped that his lover would come back soon, but unexpectedly something happened suddenly. Chi Zhao might not be able to come back because of the project. thing.

Chi Zhao and the others are working on the artificial retina project. The successful development of the artificial cornea some time ago has provided them with new ideas. The project that has been stagnant suddenly has a new turning point. This is a good thing, but it also means that they have to work overtime. Keep working, after all foreigners don't have Spring Festival, it's not their legal holiday.

"I'm sorry, Professor, I'm sorry." Chi Zhao apologized over and over again when he called Fu Nan'an to tell Fu Nan'an the news, "I didn't expect that there would be a sudden problem with the project. My air ticket is already booked, and I count the days every day. ,I……"

"It's okay." Fu Nan'an said softly and calmly, "Isn't it just the Spring Festival, and it's nothing."

Chi Zhao opened his mouth: "But..."

"It's nothing serious." Fu Nan'an interrupted him.

Fu Nan'an is not the kind of person who doesn't know right from wrong. Chi Zhao has his own studies and goals that he wants to work hard to achieve. Fu Nan'an respects him and supports him. He hopes that he will go up.Fu Nan'an said to Chi Zhao seriously: "Buy your project first, there will always be a chance to meet in the future."

Chi Zhao opened and closed his lips, and finally said in a low voice, "Okay."

After that, Chi Zhao became busy.

Their entire project team is working overtime, and sometimes it takes more than ten hours to do an experiment. This kind of time conflict cannot be adjusted, so Fu Nan'an and Chi Zhao have less time to chat without knowing it.Chi Zhao had just been discharged from the hospital, and Fu Nan'an's heart was all on him, and he often sent messages to check on his condition, but several times after more than ten hours, Chi Zhao could barely reply a few words, and when Chi Zhao replied, he had already It's late at night in the country.

This state is quite torturous. Both of them wanted to adjust, but time didn't give them a chance. Two weeks later, Fu Nan'an was holding his mobile phone almost all the time, but he still couldn't talk to Chi Zhao.

"You are simply a left-behind boyfriend!" Zou Anhe said half lovingly and half jokingly.

Fu Nan'an raised his eyebrows and answered him: "I'm willing, what's the matter?" But he felt a little helpless in his heart.

In a flash of time, it came to the 29th day of the twelfth lunar month. This was originally the day when the two had an appointment to meet. At this time last year, Chi Zhao sent Fu Nan'an dumplings, but this year only Fu Nan'an was left alone.

When Fu Nan'an got off work at night, he fell down the stairs and hit his elbow with his blind stick. The severe pain spread wantonly. Fu Nan'an took a long time to get up from the ground.

It hurts too much, and I feel a big piece of green.

At that moment, he thought that Chi Zhao had carefully wiped his wounds. He missed those warm hands so much, but he didn't tell Chi Zhao in the end, and it was useless to tell him. Chi Zhao was not by his side.

The New Year's atmosphere in the street was already strong, Fu Nan'an went out to buy two bags of dumplings after taking a rest for a while.

There was no one on the road, and there was no one at home. Fu Nan'an walked back slowly, with silence in his ears.The quiet voice made people feel peaceful, but when he was approaching the door of the house, he suddenly heard a desperate roar.

"Why! Why don't you come back! Today is Chinese New Year!"

It sounds like a boy in his 20s is talking on the phone. I don’t know what the person on the other side has to do with him, but the boy is obviously heartbroken. His voice is hoarse, and his voice is tinged with crying. : "It's been three years, and you always say you're busy, and I know you're busy, but you don't even come back for the Chinese New Year, can you really not spare this little time?"

Something was said on the phone, and the boy yelled loudly: "Xuanxuan!"

"...Xuanxuan." He shouted again, his voice obviously lowered, "Why did you hang up on me, Xuanxuan, is it so uncomfortable to talk to me?"

Probably because of a quarrel with his girlfriend, the boy started crying after talking to himself, crying heartbreakingly.

It's really not a happy thing to quarrel with your girlfriend during the New Year's Eve, and it's not good to cry like this. Fu Nan'an sighed slightly, and stepped forward to hand him the wrapping paper.

"……thanks."

The boy looked up at Fu Nan'an, then took the tissue.

Fu Nan'an asked him: "Did you quarrel with your girlfriend?"

The boy sniffed a little embarrassedly: "Sorry, let me show you a joke."

Chinese New Year is a day for family reunion, but it is easy to cause various situations and emotions. Fu Nan'an chatted with the boy for a while, and the boy hugged Fu Nan'an and complained for a long time. He said that his girlfriend went to England three years ago, I originally planned to come back last year, but the date of returning to China has been delayed again and again.

"She wasn't like that at the beginning." The boy was still sniffling, and when he mentioned the past, his tone became lighter, and then quickly lowered, "She went abroad when we were together, but At that time, we were very clingy. All our friends said that we were a model couple. I also thought that we would be able to go to the end. What can stop the person I love? But it seems that we don’t know when it will start, and our relationship will become cold. come down."

"She seemed to be busy all of a sudden. She didn't reply to my messages or answer my calls. Every time I contacted her, she said she was busy. I didn't want to quarrel with her. I didn't even dare to tell her when I was sick, because she was worried. I just I want to go on with her, but is there really a future for us now? If I hadn’t called her, she would have ignored me for three days!” The boy started crying again when his emotions became strong, and he asked urgently Fu Nan'an, "Do you think she still loves me? Do you think we have a future?"

This is not something that can be decided by one person, and Fu Nan'an can only shake his head and say, "Sorry."

"I want you to make it to the end," he said.

Hope is always beautiful, but reality has many disappointments.Fu Nan'an comforted the boy for a long time, and the boy finally cheered up and planned to have a chat with his girlfriend again. He asked Fu Nan'an expectantly: "We will still have a chance, right?"

Before Fu Nan'an could answer, the boy paused, but his tone suddenly dropped.

"It's late." He said blankly, "She just broke up with me."

Feelings cannot be forced by individual efforts and hopes. Everyone will encounter more or less resistance and dissatisfaction when they fall in love. , then there is no going back.

The boy sat and cried for a long time again, he asked his girlfriend why and begged her not to break up, but the girl called Xuanxuan only said: "Sorry."

"I'm sorry, I don't have feelings for you anymore." Xuanxuan's tone was very light, her voice was full of exhaustion, she said, "I loved you before, and there is no one else between us, and I don't know why, I used to be so I love you, but my love seems to slowly dissipate over time."

The same is studying abroad, and also thinks that love is stronger than gold. Maybe everyone has made each other, but there are too many loves that are lost to time in the end. Fu Nan'an can't comment, but he still feels sorry for them.

He comforted the boy for a long time. When he got home, it was already ten o'clock in the evening, and his elbow was still aching. Fu Nan'an was no longer in the mood to eat dumplings. He sat on the sofa and called Chi Zhao. catch.

Another hit.

Still didn't answer.

Fu Nan'an didn't continue to fight.

The pain in the elbow became more and more obvious, and the pain was unbearable. The sound of the boy's sobbing was still echoing in his head, making him upset.Fu Nan'an sat with his arms folded for a while, and finally decided to call Chi Zhao again. Before he could touch the phone, there was a knock on the door suddenly.

"Professor, are you at home? I'm Chi Zhao!"

As if the voice in the dream made Fu Nanan hold his breath suddenly, Fu Nanan stood up abruptly, but the voice suddenly stopped.

It turned out that it was an auditory hallucination?

The expectant voice didn't sound anymore, Fu Nan'an's heart sank again, little by little, sank into the quagmire - that's right, Chi Zhao is busy right now, so why did he suddenly appear here?

Fu Nan'an shook his head helplessly and smiled, never expecting that he would have auditory hallucinations one day.

It's no wonder that Fu Nan'an thought too much, the two of them hadn't had much contact some time ago, and Tianchi Zhao hadn't responded to his messages for more than ten hours.Fu Nan'an knew that Chi Zhao was busy, but it was indeed too long, and he couldn't help but think about it.

Fu Nan'an leaned back on the back of the sofa, and unconsciously began to worry. He was worried that something might happen to Chi Zhao, and also worried that his relationship with Chi Zhao would fade like this, and eventually become flat. Lost to time, his thoughts were uncontrollable when he was emotional. The boy's heart-piercing cry really shocked him a little.He picked up his cell phone again and wanted to call Chi Zhao, he didn't want to sit still, this time, his cell phone rang again suddenly.

"Professor, are you at home?" When Chi Zhao's voice came through the receiver, Fu Nan'an felt incredible.Chi Zhao's voice was a little tired, but very clear. He asked Fu Nan'an, "I'm at your door, can you open the door?"

There was worry and anxiety. Fu Nan'an never dreamed that the reason why Chi Zhao hadn't contacted him for more than ten hours was because of this. He came back to find him.

Fu Nan'an still couldn't believe it, he clenched his fingers tightly and then loosened them, he got up to open the door, and in the next second, a person fell straight into his arms.

"Professor!" Chi Zhao's voice rang in his ears, he hugged him tightly, not a hallucination, he said, "I'm back."