young and inaction

"Click."

The door of the ward opened, and Lin Xingxiu tried his best to open his eyes. He never expected that the person who came in would be Lin Jingtang.

Lin Jingtang came to the hospital to see his son, his face was full of sorrow, and his face was much older.

Lin Xingxiu struggled to sit up, unable to move his hands and legs, all kinds of sentimentality poured out of his eyes.He was a little anxious: "Dad Can you help me?"

Lin Jingtang sat down on the edge of the bed with a frowning expression. He stretched out his hand to touch Lin Xingxiu's hair, as if he was relieved... "How can Dad help you? You helped Dad... It seems that it is not finished..."

"I'm sorry, Dad...I know...it's all my fault..." Lin Xingxiu grabbed Lin Jingtang's clothes in panic, he knew that Lin Jingtang would scold him.

"No, it's not your fault... Hahahaha, yes, it's your fault! I can't help you... So, Xiaoxiu, come on, come here and reunite with us? There is no pain here." Lin Jingtang got up and leaned over Looking at his son with pity, with a sneer at the corner of his mouth, he slammed the door and went out.

With his lips pressed together tightly, Lin Xingxiu tried to chase after him, but his whole body was instantly plunged into darkness. This kind of darkness is not the darkness without lights, but simply blind.

Losing his vision, he lost his sense of security. Lin Xingxiu stared at the last spot of light and was swallowed up. His face was pale, his head was held in his hands, and he squatted down slowly.

Maybe everything is over, Lin Xingxiu gave up all his defenses, and wept in the darkness.

Light sources began to flow around, and Lin Xingxiu felt his body become lighter and sink vertically, and he eagerly wanted to know where he was.

The wind whizzed by his ears, and with a "bang", he fell to the ground. It was puzzling that he didn't feel any pain.

There was a spot of light in the darkness, Lin Xingxiu groped and ran over, the spot gradually became larger, like an entrance through time and space.

Lin Xingxiu passed through the aperture, and suddenly saw the sun and felt some discomfort in his eyes. He closed his eyes to relieve the soreness. With tears in his eyes, he opened them.

The scene in front of him almost coincided with his memory.Familiar crossroads, familiar streets.All of this seems to be like looking at the ruins, as if it was yesterday.

Suddenly a female voice behind him exclaimed: "Ah! Over there, over there! There was a car accident!" Lin Xingxiu looked in the direction where the woman was running.

The ringing in his ears made his head swell, and at the intersection, it was like a Blu-ray player, replaying it every night when he fell asleep.

More and more people gathered around, and Lin Xingxiu was pushed and walked over. Men, women, old and children surrounded the city in a circle, crowded and impenetrable.

"Son, don't be afraid, let's go." A woman in the front row covered her son's eyes, squeezed through the wall and left.Lin Xingxiu was pushed to her place, and stood there numbly.

Lin Jingtang was lying in a pool of blood, obviously he didn't smell blood, but his brain helped him relive the blood again and again.

"Dad..." Lin Xingxiu walked towards Lin Jingtang trembling with tears in his eyes.I don't know if it was rain or tears, the back of Lin Jingtang's head was blood red, and his face was covered with raindrops.

Lin Jingtang was panting heavily, and the corners of his mouth were still bleeding: "Little... Hugh... You are here... Come to accompany, accompany Dad? Come with Dad...Go, go to heaven..."

Lin Xingxiu's face lost all color. In his memory, Lin Jingtang had never said such a thing. He held Lin Jingtangtang's arm tightly: "Dad..."

"Hahaha, you killed your mother and younger brother! What face is there to call me dad?!" Lin Jingtang sat up suddenly, his pupils constricted like his son's, and his eyes were filled with viciousness.

"You are not my father!" Lin Xingxiu was pushed to the ground by Lin Jingtang, he wailed and hoped to wake up Lin Jingtang, but it was not his memory.

Lin Jingtang wiped the blood from the corner of his mouth with the back of his hand, took out a switchblade from his trouser pocket, and looked down at Lin Xingxiu: "You look like this? Just die!"

"dad!"

Lu Xichou frowned and stared at Lin Xingxiu. Yesterday he and Liu Yun stayed overnight at the police station, and it was early morning when they returned to the hospital. When Liu Yun and Lu Yang returned home, only Lu Xichou was left lying on the hospital bed to watch. Follow Lin Xingxiu.

He knew that Lin Xingxiu had a nightmare, but he couldn't help him. The doctor said that Lin Xingxiu had a knot in his heart, and he had to untie it by himself.At first Lu Xichou felt that he was farting, but after searching some relevant information on the Internet in his spare time these few days, he reluctantly believed it.

The moment Lin Xingxiu opened his eyes, his eyes seemed to lose focus, and he couldn't see anything clearly.

"I'm here, I'm here!" Lu Xichou grabbed his groping hand, and the back of his hand was black from the infusion, and Lu Xichou clicked his tongue and put it on his chest.

When Lin Xingxiu heard Lu Xichou's voice, his crow-feather eyelashes trembled slightly: "My father... my father wants me to die."

Since Lin Xingxiu woke up that day, he hasn't said a word.The most time is sleeping, and the leisure time is in a daze.

The temperature is gradually warming up, and the weather is still warmer than a few days ago.Lin Xingxiu was sitting on the hospital bed. There was a sketchbook on the table in front of him. Except for the messy hook lines, nothing could be seen.

"Look, that bird is here again." Lin Xingxiu pointed at the bird on the window sill with his pen. Lu Xichou was about to write the test paper. Hearing Lin Xingxiu's words, he raised his eyes to meet Lin Xingxiu's gaze , what's going on with some excitement?

Lu Xichou gently sat beside him, looking at the bird from his perspective: "Maybe I miss you? I'll take you out for a walk later? There are other birds in the garden."

"You said... when will it die?" Lin Xingxiu said like a full-fledged innocent child: "It has no freedom...can't it fly? It has broken its wings and it has become a waste, right? ?”

After Lin Xingxiu finished speaking, he looked at Lu Xichou with the corners of his mouth pulled, he was clearly smiling, but his eyes couldn't catch a trace of a smile.Lu Xichou lightly sucked his lips, and said in a low voice: "If you think about this again, I will make you lose the energy to think about anything."

He got up deliberately loudly, startling the bird on the window sill, and the bird fluttered and flew to the treetops in the distance.

"Take me out to have a look." Lin Xingxiu closed the sketchbook, as if begging for mercy.Lu Xichou raised his eyebrows and looked at Lin Xingxiu: "Okay."

He pushed the wheelchair from the balcony and stopped beside the bed.Lin Xingxiu suddenly didn't want to go when he saw the wheelchair, he curled his lips and said, "My legs are not disabled."

Lu Xichou put on a down jacket for him to ensure that he would not be blown by the cold wind, and then he pushed Lin Xingxiu out of the ward. While waiting for the elevator, he did not forget to report to the doctor, and he wanted to take Lin Xingxiu out to play.

"There is a garden behind the hospital, let's take a look?" Lu Xichou pushed Lin Xingxiu and walked towards the garden.Lin Xingxiu: "..."

There are many sick people in the garden, and there are very few young people. Lin Xingxiu is the only one like him.Lu Xichou suddenly regretted bringing him here again, he never expected that Lin Xingxiu would say, "It's been a long time since it's so lively."

Lu Xichou stared at the garden where people were coming and going, and nodded for a long time before saying, "Yes."

Maybe that's all it takes?

Lu Xichou pushed Lin Xingxiu through the garden, and finally walked towards the center, where there were many people around and the melodious sound of the piano.

"Where are you going?" Lu Xichou lowered his head and asked.Lin Xingxiu felt a little similar, so he just nodded in agreement.

"Tell me if we want to look like we're old, I'll push you and take a walk in the garden, full of children and grandchildren." Lu Xichou said cheerfully.

Lin Xingxiu laughed out loud, and he asked, "Why are you full of children and grandchildren?" Lu Xichou snapped his fingers in front of his eyes, "Ha, now that technology is so advanced, you don't need to worry about these things...then what do I tell you?" Tell me, I've figured out what our son's name is."

Thinking about having children before the college entrance examination is a bit dangerous.Lin Xingxiu looked up and saw Lu Xichou's face, followed by the blue sky: "What's your name?"

"Lefeng" Lu Xichou said triumphantly: "Our children will grow up happily in the future!"

Lin Xingxiu understands this implication, of course it is different from Lu Xichou.

He reluctantly twitched the corner of his mouth: "Good name, I think Yixiu is also good."

"Didn't that hit your name?" Lu Xichou said.Lin went and smiled, didn't answer the conversation, and just jumped on a topic.

The piano is played by an old lady. She is wearing a hospital gown, but she has a very good mentality and is stronger than someone else.

When the three pieces ended, there was applause all around.Lu Xichou fixed the wheelchair: "What do you want to hear? I'll play."

Lin Xingxiu didn't understand these things, so he waved his hand at Lu Xichou: "Play whatever you want."

"Yes, sir!" Lu Xichou saluted Lin Xingxiu, stood beside the piano, and bowed gentlemanly: "Big guy, please allow me to play "Experience" for my lover here, thank you everyone!"

Everyone caught Lu Xichou's gaze, and all looked at Lin Xingxiu, with smiles on their lips.

In Lin Xingxiu's memory, most of them were Lu Xichou who played the violin, but very few played the piano. Lu Xichou usually had a relaxed and ruffian air, and when he played the piano, all his flamboyance was withdrawn into his body.

He watched the sun fall on Lu Xichou's shoulders. The real Lu Xichou should study hard in school, play basketball with Su Yize in Miber County after school, and cycle home shoulder to shoulder instead of spending time with him here. time.

"Hey, what a fool you are?!" Lu Xichou snapped his fingers in front of him: "Are you listening?!" Lu Xichou stared at Lin Xingxiu dissatisfied.

Lin Xingxiu gave thumbs up with both hands: "You are awesome!" Lu Xichou was amused by him: "Like a fool."

Lu Xichou originally planned to ask the doctor, why is Lin Xingxiu in such good condition suddenly today?Or was that guitar undone?But he felt that he didn't believe Lin Xingxiu, so he didn't go.

Lin Xingxiu's condition is also surprisingly good today, and he asked Lu Xichou to order takeout at noon, which were some home-cooked dishes: "Can I ask Auntie to cook some food tomorrow? I kind of want to eat the dishes cooked by Auntie."

"Okay, Auntie is planning to visit you these days, and my mother is coming too." Lu Xichou glanced at his phone and said, "The takeaway is here, I'll go downstairs to pick it up first, just wait."

After Lu Xichou left, Lin Xingxiu's expression returned to normal, and the desire in his eyes also dissipated a bit, pretending to be interested in everything, it was indeed too tiring.

Many times today he is on the verge of collapse, pinning his spiritual desires on everything in the world, really tired.

Lu Xichou put away the fast food box and stuffed it into the trash can: "Sleep meeting?" It stands to reason that he can't sleep after eating, but he looked at Lin Xingxiu, who was obviously in poor condition, and patted him backwards.

"I want to draw a picture, can you be a model?" Lin Xingxiu took out the sketchbook from the drawer, and found a charcoal pencil from the pencil case: "Sketch."

Lu Xichou didn't match his words: "What? Is it half naked or fully naked?"

Lin Xingxiu: "..."

"Just wear clothes." Lin Xingxiu pointed to the stool by the window: "Sit there."

"That's really boring, it's a pity that I don't draw my abs." Lu Xichou muttered and sat on the chair.He looked at Lin Xingxiu tensely: "Is it all right?"

Lin Xingxiu looked at his serious expression, and couldn't help laughing: "Do you want to take a photo of the death? Why are you so serious, relax a little, and do whatever you want."

This laugh almost exhausted all his strength.

He carefully outlined every line and drew Lu Xichou in many states. Every time he made a serious stroke, he carved a line in his heart. He wanted to engrave Lu Xichou in his heart.

"Come here to Kangkang." Lin Xingxiu put down his pen, and took the wet wipes that Lu Xichou gave him: "I think it looks like it."

"It's not just a resemblance, it's exactly the same!" Lu Xichou looked at each of them, with a feeling in his heart that he couldn't express.

Before Lin Xingxiu went to bed, he asked Lu Xichou to go home and have a look. He could come to the hospital with his aunt tomorrow. Lu Xichou originally wanted to go back after dinner, but Lin Xingxiu told him that Fang Chuan would come at night, so Lu Xichou went home in peace.

Lu Xichou is gone, Fang Chuan will not come either.

The weather was still sunny in the morning, but it turned cloudy in the afternoon. The sky seemed to be playing a big joke. Lin Xingxiu lay on the bed for nearly an hour. He felt that Lu Xichou was almost home before he put on his down jacket and went out. Hospital.

It was overcast, and the sky on the other side was already black, like before a summer downpour.Lin Xingxiu wrapped his down jacket tightly, but the wind still sneaked in from nowhere.

"Master, go to the Fei Railway in Nancheng." Lin Xingxiu took a taxi, and he sat there in a daze. The scenery outside the window couldn't attract him. He looked at the people left behind one by one, sobbing softly .

The driver put Lin Xingxiu down and drove away.Lin Xingxiu looked at the bus stop sign in a daze. This was the first time he took a bus with another person, and he took that person to the secret base.

He put on his hat and walked towards the steel frame building. His steps were even a little light. The building was getting closer and closer. Lin Xingxiu smiled, but tears kept flowing.

Every time he stepped on a flight of stairs, he recalled a line he had drawn. When he got to the top of the building, he engraved Lu Xichou completely in his heart, and calmly pushed open the iron door. He hadn't been here for a long time. The sound of rolling on the ground, the laughter of the six of them that night echoed in Lin Xingxiu's ears.

Lin Xingxiu jumped over the railing and stood on the edge of the platform. Of course he couldn't see the ants clearly here, just like he couldn't see himself clearly in space.

The cold wind cut his face like a knife, and the tears flowing from his eyes were like blood.Lin Xingxiu looked up at the gray sky, a flock of birds flew by, they had a pair of wings, they... were flying.

Lin Xingxiu looked in the direction of Lu Xichou's house, and the corner of his mouth raised, "I'm sorry... Lu Xichou."

He could clearly feel the temperature at the back of his head, and shivering from the cold, he exchanged this temperature for a little bit of residual warmth. Lin Xingxiu took a last look at the sky, it was still gray, but no more birds flew by.

Something cold fell on his eyelashes, he felt the coolness, and closed his eyes with a smile.

Lu Xichou, look at us, we saw snow.

The mountains and rivers are safe and beautiful, and the appearance is thousands of years old.It never thought of picking up the things left behind by the wind. One day the wind remembered it, and it said: I told you a story. all right.

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