Fanhua is gone

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Just like what Shu Yan said, Lin Fan hadn't seen him since he left angrily last time. Whether it was on campus or in the cafeteria, Shu Yan completely withdrew from his life as if he had disappeared out of thin air. Lin Fan realized that as long as one person doesn't want to see you, even such a small campus can never see you.

It seems that it has returned to the quiet days of being alone and alone in the past, without the embarrassment of being blushed by being teased, and there will no longer be such a person who follows behind him all day long and calls Xiaofan over and over again, everything disappears too soon Quickly, quickly made him feel that the time spent with Shu Yan these past few months was like a dream, a sweet dream that he didn't want to wake up from.

Originally, he foolishly thought that as long as the two could continue to be friends, he could maintain the most important friendship for him. He was wrong. Shu Yan's love for him was the kind of love between lovers with desire. , and the selfishness and possessiveness of love determine that if you can't love, you can only break up, you can't make up, you can't compromise, only those who have never loved or fallen in love will naively think that they can take a step back and be friends.

He shouldn't have expected it, he should have thought of this a long time ago, but at that time he couldn't imagine what his life would be like without Shu Yan, so he knew he couldn't accept that heavy feeling, but he still selfishly wanted to have Shu Yan. My friend, this kind of self made him disappointed and angry, that's why he left so completely and resolutely, without the slightest nostalgia or reluctance.

In a daze again, Lin Fan looked at the darkened sky outside. Recently, the number of fugues has increased and the time has become longer and longer. He can sit quietly for a whole day, and it is often night when he regains consciousness. Maybe the brain will really rust.I feel my stomach is protesting, I haven't eaten for a day, my stomach hurts badly, my stomach meridian, which is already bad, will soon go on strike after so much tossing.

I got up and found a bag of instant noodles from a long time ago, soaked them in boiling water indiscriminately and stuffed them into my mouth.Looking around the empty dormitory, the desolation made people feel a chill in their hearts.

When I woke up in the morning, I received a call shortly after I turned on my phone. It was an unfamiliar number.

"Hello?" Who called him so early.

"Is it Lin Fan?" The clear female voice tried hard to recall the voice, but still had no memory.

"Ah you are?"

The girl over there seemed a little shy, and after a pause, she said timidly, "You, do you have time today?"

time?What he has most now is time, and he spends a lot of time in irrelevant memories and dazes all day long.

"Well, I'm fine..." This was the first time he received a call from a girl since college, but he wasn't as happy as he had imagined.He asked lightly: "May I ask what's the matter?"

"That... I'm Chen Ying, today is my... my birthday... I want to invite you to celebrate with us..." Chen Ying's voice became smaller and smaller, "You, will you come?"

Lin Fan was going to refuse directly, but suddenly thought that perhaps he really should get in touch with different people more, maybe then he would not miss that period of happiness with Shu Yan so much, and would not be stuck in that place all day long. in memory.It's not that he wants to forget, it's just that he is so stuck in the memory day and night that he is afraid that one day he will go crazy.

"Well, you can..."

Unexpectedly, Lin Fan agreed so quickly. Chen Ying couldn't restrain her joy, and her voice was full of joy, "That's great... Thank you, thank you for coming..."

Lin Fan smiled and said, "It's okay, happy birthday!"

"Thank you!" She could tell that she was in a good mood now.

After chewing a piece of bread at noon, Lin Fan thought he should give some presents, and seemed a little embarrassed to go there empty-handed.But he really lacked experience in this area, so he finally called Cheng Xuan for consultation.

"What?! You want to give the girl a gift?" Cheng Xuan said in surprise on the other end of the phone.

"Hmm..." Lin Fan was a little embarrassed, "Today is her birthday, she just called and asked me to come over, but I, I don't know what kind of gift to buy, I thought you might know better..."

"..." Cheng Xuan was still shocked.

"Hello?" Lin Fan wondered why he didn't speak for a long time.

"Xiao Fan, I'm asking you something seriously, and you have to answer me seriously!" Cheng Xuan's voice was rare and solemn, and Lin Fan was a little nervous at once, not knowing what made him so serious.

"Do you like that girl? Do you really want to have a girlfriend? Is Shu Yan really hopeless?" Lin Fan's brain short-circuited for a while after asking a series of questions. Didn't he say there was only one thing?

He thought for a few minutes and said, "I don't like Chen Ying, and I don't plan to have a girlfriend right now. Besides, this kind of thing depends on fate, and I can't force it."

"What about Shu Yan?"

Lin Fan held the phone in a daze for a few seconds, but he still couldn't say why. He muttered a few times and uttered a series of unknown syllables.

"What?...I didn't hear clearly, please say it again." Cheng Xuan was at a loss for Lin Fan's muttering in an unknown language.

"No...it's nothing..." Lin Fan said softly, "I'll hang up first..."

There were several beeps from the phone, and Cheng Xuan looked at the phone that was hung up suddenly, with a rare deep thought on his face.

On the other end of the phone, Lin Fan smiled wryly, not because he didn't want to tell Cheng Xuan what would happen to him and Shu Yan, but because now he didn't know whether Shu Yan would appear again in his future life, he Don't dare to have the hope that Shu Yan will suddenly become friends with him again, if you don't expect extravagantly, you won't be so disappointed when you are lonely, and your heart won't be so uncomfortable with inexplicable pain.

In the end, Lin Fan gave Chen Ying a copy of Xi Murong's poems.The number of people who went there that day was much less than he had imagined. Except for Chen Ying herself, there were only two girls with boyfriends.This situation made Lin Fan very embarrassed, and Chen Ying was a little shy at the beginning, but gradually became natural.

Halfway through, one of them teased Chen Ying, winked at Lin Fan, and said with a smile, "Lin Fan, are you still single?"

"Ah?" The question was beyond his expectation, and his face blushed. Lin Fan replied with a smile, "Mmm..."

"Chen Ying is still alone..." The girl moved closer and said ambiguously.

Lin Fan was even more embarrassed. He didn't know what to say, so he just smiled.

"Xiao Xing!..." Chen Ying's fair face was flushed, and she said angrily to the girl.

For the next time, Lin Fan neither sat nor stood, and his whole body felt uncomfortable like covered with thorns. Finally, when the birthday party was over, he hurriedly said goodbye.

"Lin Fan..." Before he could leave, Chen Ying stopped him from behind.

"Huh?..." Lin Fan had no choice but to turn his head.

"Thank you so much for coming today, I, I'm very happy..." As she spoke, her face was blushing again.

"Oh, it's okay, don't be so polite... I, I went back beforehand..." Lin Fan said dryly, Chen Ying's attitude made him just want to leave quickly.

"Well... I will contact you more in the future..." Chen Ying lowered her head and said in an inaudible voice.

Lin Fan nodded and left in a hurry.

The campus at night is very quiet, and some whispers between lovers can be faintly heard.Lin Fan felt a little cold, and hurried to the dormitory with his arms folded.

When passing through the small forest not far from the dormitory building, Lin Fan saw two people kissing fiercely in front of him, his face blushed, he turned around and wanted to go back by another way.

"Shu... Yan... Shu, Shu... Yan..." A slight groan, with a hint of confusion, was very thin, but it reached Lin Fan's ears clearly.