Dear Chen Jiu

On the day Chen Jiu returned to Jiangzhou, I was in Qingjiang.

"Gu Zong, Xiao Sun said that there is a new barbecue restaurant downstairs, how about we try it later?" My dad asked me while drinking water after the meeting.

"okay."

I stretched out on the sofa.

During this period of time, I started to go to my dad's company frequently, and he is no stranger to it now.

We occasionally chat about work, or have lunch together in the company cafeteria.

I have owed my parents too much these years, so I want to start making up.

The secretary joked once, "Mr. Gu, please take care of me when you take over in the future."

I don’t know if this is just her wishful thinking or my dad really put forward this idea in front of her, but probably not only her, but also other people in the company think so. As my son, I was beaten by the society outside. When he came back, his son inherited his father's business.

The best proof is that they can see me in the company every now and then.

In fact, I have been doing whatever I want, muddling along, and have no clear long-term goals for the future.

Because of this, parents seldom ask me.

I never thought about going back to the company, but if my dad really asked me to come back to help, I might not be so decisive to refuse now.

"Son," my dad put a piece of barbecue into my bowl, "Have you heard anything from the company recently?"

I guessed what he was thinking, hesitated again and again, "Dad, I studied finance abroad, if you need, I can actually go back—"

He interrupted me, "Well, I will arrange a job for you next week, and ask Xiao Sun to lead you by hand, and slowly start to familiarize yourself with the company's business."

Feeling that I dug a hole for myself, I lowered my head in embarrassment and annoyance.

"Think I'm going to say this?" My dad asked with a smile.

Or else?I looked up at him suspiciously.

"Obviously you're not interested in that," my dad said, "you don't care what other people think.

Your mother and I would not interfere with you before, nor will we in the future.

You never need and should not change your choices for anyone. "

"This home is your escape, not your burden."

It turned out that my dad knew what I was thinking during this period of time. Family affection does not mean flattery or compromise.

What parents need is companionship, not self-righteous sacrifice.

When they walked out of the barbecue restaurant, there was suddenly a little snow in the sky.

I can’t remember the last time I saw snow, I stretched out my hand, and the snow melted in the palm of my hand...

I didn't know if it was snowing in Jiangzhou, so I stood beside my dad absent-mindedly.

"Okay, it's rare for you to have a day off. Don't waste your time with me. The snow will be piled up if it falls at night. I'll ask Lao Wang to drive you back first."

I didn't refuse my dad's kindness, after all, our relationship has just become closer.

I was sitting in the car, and the snow outside the window was getting bigger and bigger.

"Snowing."

I look out the window.

"Yes."

Lao Wang said.

"Has there been snow on Qingjiang in recent years?"

"A few times, but it always stops after a while.

The weather forecast said that the snow will fall until tomorrow morning, but it has been a long time since I have seen such heavy snow. "

It is rare to encounter heavy snow in the south, and the snow scene is overwhelming in the circle of friends.

But at my age, still competing with Xue, it will inevitably appear a bit naive.

Lao Wang smiled and asked me, "Do you want to go back and date your girlfriend?"

Say it right.

Except for the wrong gender, it really doesn't differ much from my inner thoughts.

On special days, I want to meet very special people.

I don't know what kind of awkward complex this is.

Normally, this call would have been made long ago, but during this period of time, I had very little contact with Chen Jiu.

What maintains our relationship is the two takeaway meals every day. I look like a takeaway boy who has no sense of presence.

It's not that there is nothing to say, on the contrary, there is a lot to say and a lot to ask.

But I don't know where to start.

I used to think that the matter between my uncle and Mr. Mo would not affect our relationship.

When I was a nephew, there was still room for some things, but when I became a son, it seemed that I couldn't explain it clearly anyway.

Instead, he doesn't have to worry about what his uncle who is lying on the hospital bed will do to Chen Jiu, but is the identity of his dear son enough for him to respond?

I dare not face it, so I simply shut up and maintain the status quo.

--Uncle said that you came to the company today, it's really not kind, and you won't have a meal together when you return to Qingjiang.

I received a message from Lao Xiao on my phone.

--Another day, anyway, I've been diligent lately.

Such a beautiful snow scene, who wants to watch it with you?

Lao Xiao and I have slowly returned to the previous state, and our conversations are no longer eccentric.

--All right, all right, go find your happiness.

It's not like I said that iron trees can bloom in ten years.

--...

I really want to make people bloom, but there are 'surprises' everywhere in life.

"Xiao Zong, which home shall I take you back to?" Lao Wang asked.

The car is off the highway.

I hesitated and sent a message to 'Iron Tree', asking if he was in the office or at home.

A few minutes later, the phone rang, and Chen Jiu's message came back.

--at home

--Where is your home?

Chen Jiu directly sent a location, which is really close to where I live.

"Let's go to Xinheyuan."

"it is good."

Xinheyuan has strict management, so I asked Lao Wang to park the car at the door.

After watching the car leave, I called Chen Jiu.

Chen Jiu came down wearing only a sweater. I stepped on the snow and ran all the way to him.

"Ahhh, you want grace over temperature?" The snow in Jiangzhou was heavier than that in Qingjiang, and the snowflakes fell on his shoulders one after another, but he didn't care.

The idea of ​​going for a walk in the snow together in the car was completely dismissed at this time.

Without any explanation, I put his hand into my pocket, and then led him forward quickly.

Halfway there, with a pale face in a hurry, I suddenly felt funny, I don't know which building or unit he lives in, so why am I running around.

I stopped and turned around and asked him, "Jiu Chen, is your home in this direction?"

He shook his head.

Then he ran with me?

Wait, I gently squeezed his hand in my pocket, and asked with a smile, "Did you sleep at home just now?"

He seemed to wake up suddenly, squeezed it back with a little force, and then led me to change the direction.

Why are you still angry?

All the way to the door, I only let go of his hand when it was time to unlock the lock with fingerprints.

The whole apartment is in a minimalist black, white and gray style, and the decoration has strong characteristics belonging to Chen Jiu.

I stood at the door and looked carefully.

"Chen Jiu, you designed this house yourself, right?"

"Ah."

He brought me a pair of slippers from the shoe cabinet.

It looks like no one has worn it yet, so I won't be the first person to come to this house.

It is rare to see him resting at home, and he has just finished a project, so it must be the time when he is most relaxed.

"Do you want to sleep longer?"

Anyway, seeing Xue's plan come to naught, it's better to let him have a good sleep.

"Ah."

He answered lazily.

Turning around and walking a few steps in the direction of the bedroom, he seemed to realize that this was at his house and I was considered a guest, so he turned around and asked me, "Do you want something to drink?"

I remember that this person has always had the urge to get up, and being able to patiently get up and go downstairs to pick me up is already quite touching, so don't care about such details between us.

I leaned closer to him, "No, but I'm sleepy too, let me sleep with you for a while."

As I said that, I made a gesture and yawned.

When I actually lay down on the bed, I was extremely awake.

The temperature in the room is suitable, the bed is wide and soft, and Chen Jiu smells in his breath, but he closes his eyes and feels no sleepiness at all.

It always seemed that just when I thought our relationship could go a step further, something unexpected happened.

I looked at the chandelier in the bedroom, trying to do a set of hypnosis for myself. I am familiar with this process.

I quickly mobilized the insomnia treatment plan in my body and forced myself to fall asleep.

10 minutes later, something went wrong with the scheme, and I was more awake.

It's the kind that can't be cured even lying next to Chen Jiu.

I turned around to focus on another object.

"Aren't you sleepy?" Chen Jiu's voice sounded from behind, with a trace of sleepiness.

I was a little guilty for a while, "Research shows that lying on the left side will compress the heart, so I will change my position to help me sleep."

I don't know whether Chen Jiu believed this nonsense, but after a while, there was no sound behind him.

I kept my posture motionless until my whole right hand was numb from the pressure of my body, and then turned around carefully again.

Chen Jiu was wearing soft home clothes, and his hair was still a little wet from the snow.

After returning to China, I got used to him wearing formal attire as Mr. Chen, and it's been a long time since I saw him so gentle and defenseless.

My heart softened, and I accidentally touched the corner of his clothes during my movements, so I took advantage of the situation and gently grasped it.

What a wonderful afternoon, the snow is falling outside, the house is warm and warm, and the beloved is lying beside him...

This is something that I dare not dream of in those years.

But the dream came true again, but anxiety and fear prevailed.

If there is no uncle, things will not develop in a worse direction.

Maybe we are only one step away from lovers.

I suddenly didn't want to think about anything, Yu Xiu, the hospital, Mo Qingshu...all of them were ignored by me during this period, and the people I didn't want to face all came to my mind at once...

When I opened my eyes again, there was a vast expanse of snow outside the window.

I was at a loss for a moment, this time I fell asleep for a long time, and when I woke up, I found that Chen Jiu was no longer by my side.

I sniffed and smelled the food faintly.

Getting out of bed and walking into the kitchen following the scent, Chen Jiuguo was really cooking.

"It's really virtuous."

I didn't expect that being a guest would have this benefit.

He moved quickly, and quickly prepared three dishes and one soup.

When I sat down at the table, I asked curiously, "How long has it been since you cooked?"

"I can cook at home when I rest."

That can be counted on the fingers, although it was not specially prepared for me, but it can also be considered as a kind of special treatment with a thick skin.

As soon as I raised my chopsticks and was about to start, the phone rang.

To be honest, no matter who is calling this call, I don't want to answer it.

I always have a hunch that this day is really too warm and beautiful.

Usually the sweet dreams will end at the most unfulfilled time, such as this moment.

It wasn't until the phone rang again that I resignedly put down my chopsticks and stood up.

The call was from my mother, and the moment I answered the phone, I felt even more uneasy.

"Mom, what's wrong?"

"Your uncle is being rescued in the operating room."

"I am coming now."

Since my uncle was hospitalized, his condition has been controlled and stable.

I know my mother, she will never call me if she is not serious enough.

Especially after I learned the true relationship between myself and my uncle.

After hanging up the phone, I was a little at a loss, and I was stunned for a while before I came back to my senses.

"Chen Jiu, something happened suddenly at home, I'll go back first."

Chen Jiu looked up at me, with some inexplicable emotions in his eyes, but at the moment I couldn't care less.

He hurriedly put on his coat and walked towards the shoe cabinet.

When I changed my shoes and put my hand on the doorknob, he suddenly said, "Wait a minute."

I dare not look back, just stand where I am.

"Call me if you need to."

Is he caring about me?I looked back at him, he was sitting under the warm yellow light of the restaurant, his whole body seemed to be enveloped by a layer of warmth.

At that moment, I suddenly had a desire from the bottom of my heart. All along, it was not that I wanted to give Chen Jiu a home, but that I hoped that he would fulfill me and give me a home, a home with him.

"it is good."

I went downstairs and got in the car to leave the community. I looked back at the three big characters of "Xinheyuan", which was the yearning destination that even the heavy snow could not cover.

How wonderful it would be if this home also belonged to me.