Dear Chen Jiu

During that time, I would go to the hospital every day, prepare nutritious meals three times a day, put them at the door of the ward, knock on the door lightly, and leave.

Sometimes Chen Jiu cooks nutritious meals. He does have more experience in caring for people than I do, and the porridge he cooks is nourishing and not greasy.

Lao Xiao arranged for Lu Yuan to live in a separate ward, and we had never met in the middle of the journey. Once when I was walking in the aisle, he happened to come out with a hot water bottle.

He looked tired, and we looked at each other for a while before he seemed to recognize me.

He didn't have such a big emotion towards me that day, but he still didn't want to talk to me.

On the day Lu Yuan was discharged from the hospital, Chen Jiu and I also went to the hospital, but we didn't show up.

Chen Jiu is very good at hiding his emotions, but I know he must also feel uncomfortable, after all, he and Lu Yuan have known each other for six years.

I took out my phone, edited, deleted, edited and edited the chat interface with Lu Yuan, and finally just said, -- I'm sorry.

***

I didn't take the CET-[-] exam in June, and my condition was really bad.

Joey was not reconciled to my one-month tutoring results being easily invalidated, so he helped me sign up for the IELTS test at the end of the month.

I still go home from school as usual every day, and when I get home, I will silently cling to Chen Jiu.

When he was painting, I moved the chair and sat beside him.

While he was brushing his teeth, I stood by the door and watched.

When he was reading before going to bed, I handed him the book and asked him to read a passage to me...

In fact, it's very good. I have someone I like by my side. Whether it's passive or active, as long as I see him, I will feel at ease.

Chen Jiu's existence itself is a kind of healing for me, he doesn't need to say anything.

His indulgence will make me extremely at ease.

Sometimes when he is reading, I will hook his hand on the quilt, watch him read the book seriously, and then rub his slender fingers and soon fall asleep.

***

After taking the IELTS test at the end of the month, I received a call from my uncle asking me to have dinner with him at his house on Saturday. When I arrived, he was working in his study.

The aunt at home said that my uncle told me to come and go directly to the study to find him.

"Good afternoon, uncle."

I knocked on the door, greeted me and went in and sat on the mahogany sofa beside me, flipping through the newspapers on the table.

"I heard from Mr. Ma that you took the IELTS test."

I thought about who Teacher Ma was, and my uncle said, "It's the teacher who tutors you in English."

"Oh, because I missed the CET-[-] exam.

Joey, uh, Teacher Ma wanted to check and accept the teaching results during this period, so he asked me to sign up. "

"Then do you want to go abroad?" Uncle asked casually.

"No, I won't repeat my studies when I want to go abroad."

As I said that, I turned the page of the newspaper indifferently.

"The quality of education in China is indeed no worse than that in foreign countries, but it will be difficult for you to get a job in this major."

Uncle said earnestly.

I nodded in agreement.

"Has Xiaozong got a girlfriend yet?" Uncle changed the subject and took a sip of the tea in hand.

"It's still early, I'm not in a hurry."

"It's too old. Your mother already knew Gu Chengwang when she was your age."

"Then my mother is also a puppy."

"Blind and poor."

I was just about to say something to divert from the topic of finding a partner, but my uncle took off his glasses and squeezed the space between his brows, "I'll think about going abroad again. If you leave now, you can re-study from freshman year. Some universities abroad only need three years." , you can change to a more suitable major, so don’t rush to refuse.”

What I thought in my heart was that there was nothing to consider, and I would definitely not go. Anyway, it is hard to find a job these days, but I still have to save some face for my uncle on the surface.

So I nodded copingly.

Uncle rubbed his temples again, "Well, let's go out for dinner first."

After returning home, I thought of the question my uncle asked me, so I asked in a plausible way, "Chen Jiu, I have a question."

"Ok?"

"Is it time to find someone at your age?"

"... "

"I have a suitable candidate here, do you want to consider it?"

He packed up the bowls and chopsticks in front of him and went into the kitchen, and said he didn't think about it when he passed by me.

"I haven't said who it is?"

"Oh?" He seemed to be interested suddenly, leaning against the marble table and looking at me.

I took the bowl I had finished and moved to his side, pointed at my nose, and smiled.

Then Chen Jiu turned around and said four words lightly, "Wash the dishes well."

...

Recently, Chen Jiu seldom spends the night rushing to draft. Since his grandma left, his workload has been reduced a lot.

This is probably the legendary saying that one person is full and the whole family is not hungry.

Thinking of this, I feel a little sad again. Chen Jiu's life seems to be less stressful, but in fact he has no family now.

I just pester him to make jokes every day. I don't know how long this kind of life can last.

If we both graduate in the future, can I pester him to continue living together?

With this in mind, I felt that we should cherish the time we live together now, so when Chen Jiu got up to go to the bathroom at night, I still followed him with my mobile phone.

It wasn't until I bumped into him that he turned around and looked at me with his hands on the door frame.

"Uh, do you want to go to the bathroom? Then I'll wait for you outside."

"... "

"Waiting for you on the bed?"

Seeing that my words became more and more outrageous, Chen Jiu raised the corners of his lips and smiled faintly.

What's the matter, isn't it a fact to sleep in one bed?

"Dreaming?" he chuckled.

"Not really."

I strongly disagree with this statement.

Hearing this, he took a step back and closed the toilet door. I was still protesting outside the door, "It was true, we just slept on the same bed!"

***

I simply don’t need to ask Joey to help me continue my English tutoring, so I went to Chen Jiu School to find him after lunch, and I asked him, “Hey, let me accompany you to class in the afternoon, I just don’t have class.”

I checked the class schedule, "What class do you have this afternoon?"

"Psych class."

"Just right, I feel that my mind needs to evolve."

"Agree."

...

Nonsense, I obviously haven't thought about things that are not suitable for children for a long time, the last time I helped him was... Forget it, why do I think about these strange things when eating!

When I followed Chen Jiu to the lecture hall for a psychology class, I found that after Chen Jiu sat down, the originally sparse crowd seemed to suddenly become denser.

Is it coming to class or to see people, should it be so obvious?

I turned my head to look at Chen Jiu. He didn't have any special reaction, and I was used to it after thinking about it.

Listening to the teacher on the stage start to give a boring class, I opened an app on my phone, and the poster on the opening page said 'Silver Valentine's Day'.

I switch to the calendar, Valentine's Day?I couldn't help but move a little bit.

I took the black fountain pen that Chen Jiu put on the table, and took a clean tissue paper in my pocket, wrote on it, [You are sincerely invited to dinner next Tuesday], then folded the tissue paper and put it in front of him, indicating that He opens.

He picked up the paper with the pen in his hand, and after reading it blankly, he picked up the pen and wrote a few words to cover it.

I took it back and took a look, and sure enough, it said [No time.

】

I wrote it over and over again like a repeater,【Sincerely invite! ! ! 】And, like a key point, several underlines were drawn under these two words to show the importance.

This time he didn't return to me after reading it, so I pushed him gently with my arm.

After a while, he nodded lightly.

I knew that as long as the effort is deep, the iron pestle can be ground into embroidery needles.

As long as Xiao Gu is willing to work hard, he won't be hindered in taking down Chen Jiu.

I didn't dare to dress too grandly that day, the two of us had a good meal and enjoyed the festive atmosphere.

So when I came to the restaurant early, I was still shocked by the very emotional decoration.

I didn't expect this Silver Valentine, which I had never heard of before, to be so popular.

But the atmosphere didn't look like a serious meal.

One after another, beautifully dressed girls entered the door holding bouquets of roses, and intimately holding the hands of their boyfriends...

I just remembered that I didn't seem to have prepared any special gifts for Chen Jiu. I looked at the napkins on the table and fell into deep thought...

An hour later, Chen Jiu arrived as scheduled.

He looked at the few extremely simple wine-red roses in front of him, picked up the middle one, and asked with a frown, "What is this?"

"…uh, napkins."

"?"

"Does it look like a rose to you?"

"... "

"For you, happy holidays!"

Taking advantage of the festive atmosphere, the meal was quite romantic. Halfway through, a table playing the violin pulled over. When they passed by us, they couldn't help but play the song "Blessings of Love".

Chen Jiu sat across from me calmly, cutting the steak steadily with the knife and fork.

When I toasted him with a wine glass, he replied happy holidays to me.

This is probably what comes and goes.

I know that our relationship won't change easily because of a western meal on Valentine's Day, but that night made me feel inexplicably that maybe Chen Jiu didn't really have any feelings for me, and our relationship is just like this. Dan, I took the initiative, and Chen Jiu pushed forward slowly in a state of connivance...