Wrong body

(starting page)

September 6, sunny

I got a birthday present: this diary.Dad said that differentiation means real growth, and the first thing after growing up is to learn to reflect.A diary is a great way to do that.Keeping a faithful record of what happened every day helps me review my mistakes and listen to the voice of the Lord.

What should I reflect on?It seems that I didn't make any mistakes today-oh, I did.I don't have an appetite to eat in the morning, and I wasted the breakfast made by Mrs. Ming, so I should go down immediately and apologize to her.

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January 8, cloudy

It should be noted that my hands are still shaking as I write this diary entry.angry.I encountered a nasty alpha today.In school, I rarely interacted with people from the alpha department. Most of them were arrogant, and the way they looked at omega was uncomfortable.After I dropped out of school, I almost never met such a person, but this one I met today was really infuriating.He came here in a big battle, following three cars, blocking the road outside the house.The alphas I've known in the past can't be considered really arrogant compared to this one.This person appeared out of thin air like a visitor from heaven, walking straight and fast, and he didn't hesitate at all when he entered the garden. I want to pick it.

Although I don't like him doing this, oleanders are poisonous, so I told him not to pick them empty-handed.He heard it, look at me, seriously, you don't want me to pick it, so lie to me.I said, if you don't believe me, go pick it up and read it. I will go into the house and call you right now, and call an ambulance to pick you up.He laughed and asked if I was the gardener here.I said no, I live here.He lazily said that you are the only daughter of the Fang family. I heard Mr. Fang mention you often, why don't you take off your hat so that I can see your appearance clearly.

frivolous!The gardener's shovel is in hand, and I will fight him if I have the strength.I said please leave, if you don't leave, I will call the police if I don't make an emergency call.He smiled even more happily, and said forget it or not, it's not that pretty anyway.

I don't think he meant phlox.want to curse.Heavenly Father, can I write foul language in my diary?

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January 8, cloudy

I know the man's name.Chen Zhiyuan.It turned out that it was from the Chen family, Huanyu had a business deal with his father, he came to visit, but I didn't match him, and left a bad impression on him.According to the weekly magazine, although this person is young, he has a lot of status in the business world. I don't know if it will affect Dad's business.

do not write.There is always a face dangling in my mind.uncomfortable.go to eat.

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September 8, sunny

Business is not affected.Dad said that it went well, but the alpha named Chen Zhiyuan may come frequently recently, he seems to attach great importance to this cooperation, and wants to talk to him in person.Dad seemed very happy, saying that it was very rare to be able to do business with the Chen family.I don't understand these, so I didn't ask much.I decided to stay in the garden from tomorrow, lest that Chen Zhiyuan come to trample on the lawn and pick flowers randomly again.

Also, I will ask Mrs. Ming to accompany me to buy a new sun visor tomorrow, preferably a style with silk and satin. The magazine said it is very popular now.

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October 9, overcast

Chen Zhiyuan still doesn't want to come.Every time he came over and didn't say a few words, he deliberately picked on my thorns.I don't know what I did wrong to provoke him.He is very polite to my father, but he has a bad mouth when he talks to me. He always says something good, and then adds something that is not very good.He said today that my skin is fair, but before I could respond, he said it was too white, and I looked sick.I said I was sick and would not live to be 30 years old, so please be happy.He finally shut up and ignored me.

Kindergarten kids are more mature than him!I went back to the room and told Sao Ming to throw away the sun hat.Chen Zhiyuan didn't understand anything.

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January 10, cloudy

For the past two weeks, people have been sending forget-me-nots every day.I don't know who sent it, and there is no card attached.My mother joked about me, asking if I had a suitor.How is it possible, I am at home all day, where have I seen other people.It must have been sent by mistake, two weeks and fourteen days, fourteen bouquets of forget-me-nots, the person who sent the flowers must be very sincere.If it was for apologizing, I'd like to accept the apology instead - just thinking about it.In the final analysis, I still lack the courage to apologize with flowers. I think a face-to-face apology is the most useful.

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October 11, overcast

Thank you for this year's oleander. Compared with last year, thank you very late.Chen Zhiyuan only came once in the past two months.Dad said that after the business deal with Huanyu is settled, he will not come here again on purpose.The last time he came, I had a bad fight with him again. I blamed him for being bad. He kept telling me which omega was good-looking and how popular he was in the social arena, and then deliberately asked me why I didn’t go out. Move around and go to prom more.Where did I want to hear this, I couldn't argue for a few words, so I went back to my room to sleep, but couldn't sleep, and when I went down to watch again, Chen Zhiyuan left early.

I'm not really pretty, and I'm not in good health, so I can't go out very often.People are not very smart, and their studies are mediocre.But I also have special skills, and I will be particularly sad.Chen Zhiyuan must not know that I still have this unique skill, haha.

Ugh.

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May 12, heavy rain

Chen Zhiyuan is here today.I'm home alone.He came in the rain and was drenched all over. When he came to the door, Mrs. Ming was startled and called me down.This is against the rules, an unmarried omega and an alpha will be gossiped if they are alone in a room, but it is raining too much outside, I can't let him go out, so I invite him in to sit.He didn't want to, and stood under the eaves. He said he would leave after a few words.I was afraid that he would be cold, so I gave him a cup of hot tea.He didn't drink and asked me what I thought of him.I didn't understand what he meant, and he asked Dad if he had arranged a marriage for me.I said no.He just drank tea, took a sip and said it was cold, and wanted to change to another cup.When I entered the house, he followed me.Mrs. Ming dismissed all the servants, leaving only me and him in the house.

He took off the restraint stickers.The first time I smelled such strong alpha pheromones, it almost overwhelmed me.He pushed me against the table, the rain outside was too loud, mixed with his heartbeat, and pulled me in again, blending with the rhythm of that sound.I doubted that he would tear me apart and eat me up, but in the end he was merciful, dressed me up for me, drank tea and left.

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January 12, cloudy

I waited for Chen Zhiyuan for ten days, and sent him two letters in between, but there was no reply.I just read the weekly magazines and found out that he has recently had a hot fight with those omega stores in Shegongshan, maybe it is the ones he mentioned that are particularly beautiful.I'm not very disappointed, it's past the time to be disappointed, in fact, I knew that he would not be very interested in me, the Fang family and the Chen family are too far apart, if it wasn't for my father asking him for business, he would have been on a whim After going to Tianmei Mountain once, maybe we won't know each other at all.

Today I seem to be able to write down reflections: People should not have too many thoughts.Lord, have mercy on me, forgive my sins, I look to You.

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On December 12, the light rain turned cloudy

Tomorrow is New Year's Day.Dad said that after the New Year, he would take me to attend more social occasions.When I turn seventeen next summer, it's time to pay more attention to marriage.He was worried when he brought up this matter, and I knew the reason: I was not in good health, and alphas didn't like finding omegas that weren't healthy enough to be their partners.

It's hard to imagine a future where I live with an alpha.If the other party is like Chen Zhiyuan, I will probably be angry with high blood pressure every day, but at least I should not feel bored... What am I writing?That person did not reply to my letter!He did that kind of thing to me that day, but in the end he didn't explain a word, turned around and went to have fun with others.He didn't even send flowers for an apology, so what am I waiting for?

Chen Zhiyuan's toy box must be very luxurious, and he will forget about an unattractive toy like mine after playing with it at most.I shouldn't wait any longer.

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September 1, sunny

Chen Zhiyuan came here today, many things happened, his mind was very confused, so he put down his pen and wrote again tomorrow.

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September 1, sunny

Chen Zhiyuan came to propose marriage.I thought about it all day last night, and I started to think that my brain was broken, and now I think his brain is broken.Dad was so frightened that he walked in the study all night, no one thought that he would come to announce such a thing.He came again today, and my father finally declined his request on the excuse that I was not yet an adult. Chen Zhiyuan was not surprised, saying that he could wait for me for a year and a half.I couldn't take it anymore, I went downstairs and chased him away.

What dream is he dreaming of!No sincere apologies!I don't want to marry him!

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September 1, sunny

unbelievable.Chen Zhiyuan spent the night filling the garden with forget-me-nots.

madman.It's tiring to pack these things... madman.

But I am very happy.Lord, am I wrong.sorry.

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September 4, sunny

I haven't written a diary for three months, and it feels strange to open the diary.This time is too busy.Chen Zhiyuan came to our house every day, either to accompany me to plant flowers in the garden, or to take me out.I have not gone out as much in the past few years as I have in the past three months. He took me to most of the fun places in Sanshan, many of which I have never been to, so every trip is fresh and interesting.He said that when we get married in the future, we will go to other cities besides Sanshan. There are many interesting scenery in this world, and he wants to take me to see them.I didn't answer right away.He showed concern and asked me if I would.I say think about it.He was so anxious that he asked if it would be okay to speed up his consideration.

Ha ha.He looked so funny.Actually, I would, but I didn't tell him.

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May 6st, sunny to cloudy

It is ten o'clock in the evening, and Chen Zhiyuan has just been sent away.This alpha is too cunning, he deliberately waited until so late to leave, and after the birthday party was over, Mom and Dad went upstairs to rest, so they took me to the garden for a walk, and I foolishly agreed to him... But he still behaved today , Said Xiaojie, do you know that I am tired of waiting for you.I asked what was so tiring.He refused to say.When I asked again, he nodded my nose and said why you haven't arrived yet.I said it was only one year, and one year is very fast.He shook his head, he couldn't speak fast, it was too slow, as time slowed down, many changes would occur.

I said do you regret it.He hugged me and said that I was afraid that you would regret it.I said I would not, even if there are 100 billion to 1000 billion alphas in this world, I would not choose again, because what I want most is right in front of me, Chen Zhiyuan, is you.

The phlox is in bloom, so no reflection today.I have nothing to regret today.